postscript:
"Yu Xi, condolences and changes."
"Yeah, aunt doesn't want you to feel so sad for her after her death."
In the mourning hall, Yu Xi was wearing black mourning clothes, and her face was haggard. At this moment, she was completely unable to cheer up to greet these friends who came from afar, and her friends also understood that she was suffering from the death of her mother at the moment. A blow, just a few words of comfort.
After sending all the guests away, Yu Xi also persuaded her husband and children to leave. In this last time, she wanted to accompany her mother alone.
The white candle in the mourning hall made a crackling sound, which was the only sound in this empty hall. Yu Xi looked at the mother's kind and gentle smile on the posthumous photo, just like when she was alive, but she could no longer give her enough. Spiritual comfort.
It is said that a child with a mother is a baby no matter how old it is. Now that her mother is gone, she can no longer act like a child.
Yu Xi rubbed her dry eyes that had been crying for a long time, and returned to her mother's room, preparing to sort out the incomplete relics.
When she was sorting out the jewelry box left by her mother and saw a notepad in the dark compartment of the jewelry box, she couldn't hold back her curiosity and took out the book.
This is a notepad with a cowhide cover. The pages have turned yellow. The words Jiang Yueyue written on the cover prove that the owner of the diary is her mother.
Although she knew it was wrong to do so, Yu Xi really missed her mother so much. She wanted to know her mother's past through this diary. With such an impulse, she opened the diary.
2018.09.27
Dad took me to Disney and bought me this diary, I love it, love Dad
2018.09.28
Had a nightmare, my dad comforted me, love my dad
…
There is not much substantive content. Yu Xi calculated the age of her mother when she wrote this diary, and couldn't help smiling. At that time, her mother was still a child, and she liked to pester her parents and act like a spoiled child.
But it's no wonder that her mother likes her father so much. In Yuxi's heart, her grandfather is also the best grandfather in the world. When she was very young, her grandfather's arm was her cradle. She could ride on her grandfather's neck, smiling proudly. The little ones of the same age.
It's a pity that her grandfather died of illness when she was nineteen years old. At that time, she was still in school, and she couldn't even come back in time to see her grandfather for the last time. This has always been her regret.
Thinking of her grandfather who passed away early, Yu Xi felt even more grief in her heart.
She sniffed and continued to look down.
2019.7.3
Dad took me to learn taekwondo. It was harder than I thought. This was the first time my dad didn't condone me. Dad told me that I can't always hope that I meet good people. When encountering bad people, everyone I should have the ability to protect myself, he can't always watch over me, I should learn to grow up.
So sad, will my father leave me
Angry, hunger strike for three hours
"Pfft-"
Seeing this article, Yu Xi was both sad and funny. She seemed to be able to see her mother pouting when she was young, pretending to be angry, and occasionally sneaking glances at her grandfather's arrogant appearance, because she came here like this when she was a child of.
Practicing martial arts seems to be the only way for the Jiang family's children, first her mother, then her, and then her two children. Yu Xi feels that this tradition should be passed down from generation to generation, just as her grandfather taught her mother, We can't hope that the people we meet are all good people. When danger comes, they must have the ability to protect themselves.
After sighing, Yu Xi turned down page by page. The diary was not written every day. When the book was halfway through, Yu Xi's page turning speed seemed to be much slower.
2026.5.17
Another nightmare, now I understand what happened to me eight years ago, that man, the devil.
2026.5.18
Can't imagine what would have happened to me if my dad didn't show up
During this time, the words in the diary were very scribbled, and Yu Xi's heart was like these words. She had a vague guess in her heart, but she was not sure.
For a long time after that, the diary was suspended, and it was not until three years later that the notepad was used again.
2029.7.23
After looking for a lot of relationships, I finally found the man of the year. He was in a mental hospital and had a very bad life. I am very happy.
When I went to visit, he was curled up in the corner of the ward, banging his head against the wall constantly, muttering, "I'm sorry, I was wrong, I'm sorry, I was wrong."
The doctor said that it had been like this since he was sent to the mental hospital. This man was a pedophile. He seemed to have provoked a man who castrated him and tortured him. Since then, his psychological defense has been Overwhelmed, immersed in the panic of being abused, and never able to get out.
This existence that tortured me in my dream for a long time, like a nightmare, disappeared, and now he is a bed bug who is constantly enduring psychological and physical torture in regret.
I am free!
2029.7.26
When the man had an accident, my father was often not at home. Looking back, it seemed that a policeman had visited during that time. I don’t know what he and my father talked about, but now, I seem to realize it.
Not only Jiang Yueyue realized it, but Yu Xi who was watching this diary also realized it.
There was a dull pain in her chest, and there was a feeling of being out of breath.
I feel distressed that my mother had such an experience, and I am grateful that my grandfather was able to save my mother at that time, so that her life would not be messed up because of that incident.
But her mother was protected by her grandfather, so Yu Xi couldn't imagine how her grandfather was feeling during that time. How much grief he had to endure, and he planned such a comprehensive method by himself, and even the police couldn't catch him. braids.
Yu Xi wiped away her tears and looked down.
In the subsequent diary, my mother did not mention it again. Like an ordinary girl, she experienced love and breakup, love and marriage, and childbirth. Daily trivial matters and work occupied most of the chapters of the diary, until the time approached. 2048, the year my grandfather died.
The diary is nearing its end.
The last one was on March 21, when my grandfather passed away.
2048.3.21
Every girl expects to have a prince in her life, riding a white horse to her side. In my life, a great king accompanied me for half my life.
He pulled me out of the quagmire, taught me to be a princess and a queen of life, and he meant more to me than any prince.
Today my king is gone
At this point, the diary is over.
Yu Xi covered her mouth, tears falling like rain.
*****
On the day of the cremation, Yu Xi only added a red diary to the relics accompanying the cremation, in addition to the clothes on his mother Jiang Yueliang.
The husband and children couldn't understand, but Yu Xi didn't explain too much.
The mother's mausoleum has been fixed long ago. On the left is the grandfather's tomb, and on the right is Yu Xi's father's tomb. Holding her mother's favorite jasmine flower, Yu Xi, who is over fifty, stands in front of the tombstone.
She shouldn't be sad, maybe now her mother is happily reunited with her king and prince, that's her greatest happiness.