The younger brother is an outsider, so he is not familiar with the neighborhood, but Li Shiqing remembered that there was a big park nearby, and the parks in the suburbs would have less surveillance, so the two decided to hide there first, and see each other later. .
Because the younger brother rarely lost his temper, Li Shiqing was a little sluggish along the way, and didn't take the initiative to bring up the matter about the bus, but her mind was still thinking about whether the bus could be saved.
As the little brother said, probably because she died too many times, she was already a little "numb" and gradually got used to this "cycle". Subconsciously, she already felt that it was a matter of course to be able to "resurrect from the dead" all the time. I haven't thought about what to do if the cycle stops, and what to do if it can't be recycled.
But Xiao Heyun is different, Xiao Heyun has not reincarnated a few times, and during the few times he reincarnated, his companion "Li Shiqing" relied on each other, and the despair of watching people die and not being able to end no matter what did not completely affect him.
And his character determines that he is more inclined to "break out of this cycle by myself" than "the person who saved the whole car".
This difference in concept became more obvious when the two finally started "chatting" in a secluded place.
"The best situation now is that our circulation has stopped, and tomorrow will be tomorrow when we wake up. Whether the bus accident or not, it has nothing to do with us."
The little brother sighed and said tiredly, "But if this is the case, sooner or later we will face the question of why we knew the bomb was in the car. After all, we can't shut down the phone forever, or hide forever."
Hearing this, Li Shiqing retorted subconsciously: "But if the police successfully cracked the bus bombing case because of my report to the police, they will find out the cause of the explosion, what the explosives were, and the identity of the criminal. If they are the same as last time If we also choose to report to the whole network, we can get these reasons and clues... "
"The possibility you mentioned is the best possibility. Let's not mention whether the police can solve the case as soon as possible and whether it will be reported to the whole network. You have to have a premise for this matter to turn into a good thing..."
The little brother smiled wryly, "Only if we really recycle, these clues are useful to us."
[But are you willing to enter the cycle again?]
He didn't say such cruel words.
But when Li Shiqing saw his expression, she understood.
So she became more silent.
"There is also a possibility that the police did not crack the case and the cycle continued..."
The little brother rubbed the bridge of his nose that was pressed by the mirror holder, and said weakly: "Then we get off from this station, there is no point in it except to be worried, and this time is wasted."
"I thought you got out of the car just because you didn't want to be bombed again, and I was also afraid of that near-death feeling, so I chose to get out of the car and call the police, but that doesn't mean I don't want to take care of it."
Li Shiqing didn't discover the real disagreement between her and her companion until this moment: "If I didn't call the police, if you weren't looking for clues, what were you going to do when you got out of the car?"
"do nothing."
The little brother shrugged.
"My original plan was to get out of the car first, and then use the normal reason of 'get off at the station' after being summoned by the police. If this matter passes and there is no cycle in the future, this matter will be with us. no problem."
He said, "I know you may think I'm too 'goofy', but you can also see that there is a bomb in the car and an unknown number of terrorists. This kind of thing is simply not something that ordinary people like us can solve. Yes. We died so many times, and we did our best!"
"If all of us in this car are destined to die, then it may be God's eyes for us to escape, or it may be that Lord Hades took a nap, no matter what it is, people should cherish the opportunity, we are not the real murderers , we don’t need to feel guilty for not being able to save everyone…”
"But I feel guilty about you."
Li Shiqing spoke suddenly, interrupting his smooth talk.
"I don't even dare to pull anyone out of the car anymore because of the guilt I feel towards you."
There was an expression of indifference on the little brother's face.
In the wetland park, it is so quiet that even the chirping of insects and birds can be heard clearly.
A flock of flying birds flew past their heads, sending a faint cry from the sky. The sky was high and the clouds were vast, making the girl even smaller, but her voice was so clear and powerful.
"Although you never blamed me, I have always felt guilty." She said, "I dragged you down in order to escape that suffocating place, although you said that I saved you in a sense. It's your life, and I thought so at the time, but it's been a dozen times, and I know... this kind of 'living' is worse than death."
"you… "
The little brother looked at the girl and couldn't speak for a long time.
"I brought you into this hell. Yes, the lives of this car may not have anything to do with me, but your life has something to do with me now."
She still supports herself with a "strong" attitude, just like she did countless times when she was on the verge of collapse and regained her spirit.
"I once wanted to give up too. At that time you told me, think about your parents..."
She looked at the little brother, at every detail of his face, as if she wanted to remember him in this way.
"I don't think about my parents, I think about your parents."
"My parents knew that something might happen to me, and they were so sad that they wanted to jump off the building. My father got on the expressway when he received the call. My mother said that nothing is as important as my life. So, if your parents know that I let them What kind of pain will they suffer when their sons suffer like this?"
"These are sins, and I committed them."
Being looked at in such a way, with such words ringing in his ears, the little brother lowered his head in half shyness and half embarrassment.
"I understand everything you said. I have expected all the expectations you have lived. Maybe I have tried everything you have tried. I have also tried your attempt to return to normal life at the next stop. I will hold you When I got off the car, I was like you, thinking maybe this would be the last time, but it turns out that God just won’t let me go.”
Tears slowly welled up in her eyes, and when the sockets were full, the tears flowed down her cheeks, quietly across her chin, and fell to the ground.
"I know what it's like to keep reincarnating, and I know how desperate it is to struggle alone and not see the result. I have 'died' five times more than you. If there are times in the cycle, I may disappear before you, so I have to Try more possibilities before I disappear."
"I know you're scared, you don't want to worry about anything..." She choked up, but tried to smile, "I, I understand."
Sitting on the bench, Xiao Heyun looked at the little girl in front of her who was crying and smiling, as if she had been electrocuted all of a sudden, her limbs and bones became sore.
Then what filled my heart was unspeakable shame.
Yes, his high-sounding words, his maturity pretending to be an adult, those explanations that seem to be taken for granted...
In fact, it was all just to cover up his "fear".
"So, I can't force you to keep trying, you can leave."
Li Shiqing pointed to the road not far away, and then said: "If the police really find me, I will not tell you. I have been interrogated twice, and I know how to answer. And you, just look at me Well-wishers who were not in the right mood when they got out of the car, you can put off the cops and go about your life."
"When I just came here, I already thought about it. If we can get off at the East Yanjiang Road Station every time, even if we can't escape the cycle and have to get on the train every time, you can still get off at the stop. .”
"In this way, at least... At least you won't feel the pain of death every time. I will stay in the car and continue to search for the real culprit. I will find a way to stop the car from exploding. I will find a way for the police to catch the murderer while you get out of the car." In the future, you can do whatever you want to stay away from these pains..."
When she said the words of separation, she didn't have a sad expression, as if she could use this method to let her companion escape the pain, she was really "relieved", and even her tone became lighter.
"I've seen a lot of sci-fi movies like this, and the protagonists in those movies all got a satisfactory result in the end. Some of the protagonists cycled on the same day, which was boring and painful, but he used the time to teach himself the piano, and taught himself Dancing, taught himself a lot of useful things, his every day is different; some use those time to make up for their regrets, to do things that they dare not do... When they finally break free from the cycle, they all become Great people."
She said, "I think the length of time may not be enough, but as long as the width is enough, it shouldn't be too bad a life."
Xiao Heyun pursed his lips tightly, his breathing was long and short, and his chest rose and fell accordingly. He originally avoided Li Shiqing's too clear gaze, but now he couldn't move his eyes away at all.
The innocence of this girl that he "criticized" before was so shocking now.
Those innocence were her weapon and also her armor, which made Xiao Heyun completely defeated.
"I will work hard. I will try my best to find the real culprit, try my best to assist the police, and try my best to break us out of this cycle. You don't have to worry about me, and you don't have to stay and help me because of moral constraints. Just pretend you don't know me. Get off where you should get off... ”
"Because this matter had nothing to do with you at the beginning, it was something I should have faced alone."
The tears on Li Shiqing's face had been gradually dried by the wind, and there was no trace of crying. It's shameful to say so many inner things in front of someone she doesn't know very well, so she has a shy expression on her face from time to time.
But she said it bravely.
"Stolen time is also time. You can live your life well, do what you want to do, and don't give up. Maybe it's the same as those movies. Suddenly one day, I succeeded, or God opened his eyes, you There will be no more cycles... ”
She gave a charming smile.
"I hope that by that time, you will have become as good a person as those protagonists."
The younger brother looked at her fixedly, without speaking.
"Then, it's time to see you again?"
Probably because she felt that she had confused the younger brother, she rubbed her nose embarrassedly, and stretched out her right hand towards the younger brother.
"Good luck to you, and good luck to me."