Just as I was looking at her hair and began to become a little dazed, Bai Lu lowered her head and whispered to me, "I'm sorry." I was stunned for a moment, but immediately shook my head blankly and said, "It's okay, I support you no matter what you want to do, because we are good friends!" I said this and forced a smile as evidence to support her decision to go to Beijing to study painting.
But she looked at her feet, shook her head and said, I should have told you earlier, so you wouldn't have to fight with Gao Yang, and you wouldn't have to play this basketball game, because I'm about to leave here, and he won't have a chance to bother me anymore.
After hearing what she said, I nodded, but I still pretended to be relaxed and smiled at her and said, it’s okay, I have disliked that guy for a long time anyway, if he dares to bully you, I don’t care who he is!
When I said this, I saw Bai Lu, who was lowering her head, suddenly choked up in her throat. I wanted to ask her what was wrong, but before I could say anything, Bai Lu sniffed lightly and lowered her head and said to me, it was all my fault this time. I made you all work so hard and got you into so much trouble. It's all my fault.
I was a little confused by Bai Lu's words, and I blinked at her in confusion, not understanding why she said that. But before I could say anything, she continued to tell me, in fact, when you texted me that day saying that you were going to play a game with Gao Yang, I had already decided to go to Beijing, but I wanted to take one last look at you before I left, to see the hard-working you again. I thought that you only existed in my memory, and I would never have the chance to see you like that again, but I didn't expect to see you like that before I left, do you know
When I saw you trying hard to shoot and pick up the ball again and again on the basketball court, I saw the little you running out of my memory and overlapping with the you of now. It turns out that my little Lengshan never disappeared, he just grew up.
When I heard Bai Lu say the words "my Xiao Lengshan" from her mouth, I couldn't control myself anymore. I immediately shook my head vigorously and said, "It's okay, you will see it again. You are not going to Beijing and never coming back. You will come back, right?"
But what I could not expect was that Bai Lu shook her head gently. Although her movements were very light, they were as heavy as a mountain that I could never cross. It pressed on my heart and made me breathless. Although she lowered her head and I could not see her eyes, I could clearly feel the resolute will emanating from her. She really wanted to leave here and never come back!
I couldn't accept her answer, I stretched out my hands and grabbed her thin shoulders, then shook her shoulders like crazy and asked her hysterically, why? ! ! ! ! !
But she just lowered her head and choked up and said quietly, "Because I want to forget everything here, forget this city, forget this city where you and I grew up together, forget this road, forget this road that you and I walked together, and forget all the memories with you.
When she said this, she suddenly stopped and gently stretched out her right hand to touch my face, but she just kept her head down and refused to look at my face, as if if she looked at me one more time, I would completely disappear from her world. At this time, she finally said the last ending of that sentence, and finally forgot you.
Then I saw her shoulders shaking helplessly, and tears kept flowing down her cheeks, drop by drop, falling to the ground with a plop.
But I just blinked desperately to stop the tears from flowing out, because her hand was touching every corner of my face little by little. But when she touched my eyes gently, I could only close my eyes, but I suddenly remembered the blind fortune teller we met on the roadside when we were young. The blind man said to the person who asked him to tell his fortune, "Even though I can't see, as long as you let me touch your face with my hand, I will never forget it for the rest of my life, because human hands are not as fickle as eyes. It will always remember the person it touched, even if they go to the underworld and drink Meng Po soup, they will not forget it!"
Although she told me to forget me forever, she now gently touched my face with her hand. I know, I know everything!
But I didn't say anything, only tears kept flowing from my eyes. But then I felt the hand on my face suddenly stop, and then gently wiped under the corner of my eyes. Then I heard her say to me in the same voice as when she just cried, I didn't cry!
I don't know when her hands left my face. When I opened my eyes, I saw her looking at me with red eyes. Although there were still traces of crying on her face, there were no tears on her face anymore. She was still looking at me with that smile that I was most familiar with, just like when she was a child and running behind me, I would rush to her after she fell down. But every time she looked up at me, she would tell me, I didn't cry!
Because every time she fell to the ground I would feel guilty, and kept blaming myself in my heart for letting her run with me, so every time she fell to the ground and I ran towards her, I would be so anxious that I would almost cry, but every time she looked up after falling down, she would say this to me, and then neither of us would cry anymore. But because of this, I never learned my lesson, and I always had to run with her, and she would always follow behind me.
Just like that, her words from childhood made me burst into laughter. I sniffed hard and said, I didn’t cry, and you didn’t cry either!
She nodded vigorously, and the two of them returned to normal, walking forward side by side. After walking for a while, I couldn't help but ask her again, "When are you leaving?"
I looked at her with bated breath, nervously waiting for her answer, but she just sighed softly and said, I may have to leave tonight and leave here... As she spoke, she raised her head and looked at me with her watery eyes, then choked up and said, Go to Beijing.
I was a little stunned, but I still tried my best to control my emotions, nodded vigorously, and then told her to study hard and get into a good university! Bai Lu looked at me and nodded vigorously, then said to me, you too. I smiled helplessly and said, try your best.
Just like that, we both stopped talking and just walked forward silently. Although neither of us spoke anymore, I knew that the time of our final separation was not far away. Bai Lu would say goodbye to me at the next intersection, because as soon as she saw the next intersection, she would frown slightly. But no matter how slowly we walked, we would eventually get there.
When we reached the intersection, Bai Lu really stopped, and then looked at me hesitantly, as if she had a lot to say to me, but at this last moment, she couldn't say anything, and the thousands of words in my chest seemed to be stuck in my throat, unable to be said or swallowed. Just when both of us didn't know what to say, and time was passing by second by second, I could see that she was as anxious as I was. She wanted to say something to me but didn't know how to say it. At this moment, I suddenly thought of how the dumb person who couldn't speak could express his feelings. Thinking of this, I suddenly understood, and said nothing, but hugged her tightly.
She was also stunned at first but immediately hugged me tightly. At that time, I really wished I were a mute, because then I wouldn't have to say anything, let alone say goodbye to her. I could just hug her like this, but I'm not.
Even though I was unwilling and reluctant, I still couldn’t say a word to keep her. That frail person in my arms, that frail person in my arms! Forget me, forget me. . . .
My heart felt as if being dug by fingernails, but the pain made me sober. I gently loosened my arms around her and whispered to her, "Go away. If you don't leave now, you may be too late."
She also gently loosened her arms around me, but I couldn't see that she clenched her hands on my back again and again, just to let go completely. Finally, she let go, nodded to me and said, "I'm leaving then. By the way, this is for you."
As she spoke, she took out a letter from her pocket and handed it to me. I was stunned for a moment, then scratched my head anxiously and said, "Oh, you're leaving and I haven't prepared any gifts for you!"
But Bai Lu smiled at me and said, "No need, you have already given me the best gift." She waved to me, got in a taxi and left, leaving me standing there alone with the letter.