Watching the taxi that Bai Lu was sitting in go away like that, I felt as if something was missing from my body all of a sudden, as if it was something I had never realized but was extremely important to me, but no matter what, it was gone now. I could only walk to the side of the road alone, sitting there with an empty heart, looking at the sky. The sky was still as blue as ever, and I smiled gently, wondering if the sky in Beijing would be so blue, but I immediately shook my head again, it was definitely impossible.
But for some reason my heart ached more and more when I thought about these things. Only then did I realize how much I could not accept all this. Fortunately, I suddenly touched the letter in my pocket. The letter was like my last straw floating in the boundless ocean. Although it was just a letter, I took it out of my pocket like a treasure. Looking at the elegant handwriting on the envelope, I couldn't help but rub my nose hard, because my nose was so sore.
But I still held on. I just took a few deep breaths, looked at the three words "Lengshan Shou" on the envelope, sniffed hard a few times, then carefully opened the envelope and took out the letter inside.
When you see this letter, it should be the time when I am ready to leave this city. Although there are too many reluctances, I have already said goodbye to them all. Only you are the one I am most reluctant to leave. I left you at the end, because deciding to forget you is really the hardest thing I have ever done in my life. But there are some memories about you that I can't forget no matter what, so I can only write them here, and hope that the person who brought me these memories will take them back and keep them well for me. After all, they are the most precious things I have ever had.
Do you remember when we went home together every day? At that time, you never had much pocket money, and you never bought any drinks in school or those fried skewers outside the school after school. But I loved eating those things very much at that time, so I always spent all my pocket money on them every day, and then gave you half of the fried skewers. Every time you ate, you would say that these things were unhealthy and asked me not to eat them anymore. But every day when I ate fried skewers with you was the happiest time of my day.
At that time, I always felt that the fried skewers were too spicy, but I still liked to ask the uncle who fried the skewers to put more chili peppers, because I knew you would always leave water for me to drink. Even if you were crying because of the spiciness, you would still stick out your tongue and tell me that it was not spicy at all. But one morning you brought a big bottle of water from home, and then excitedly told me that you were not afraid of spicy food today.
Later, you carried the biggest water bottle in the school every day. Although many people thought you were stupid for carrying that big water bottle, I thought you were the smartest person in the school.
But later, an old lady selling shrimps would occasionally appear in the school. Every time I saw those lively little shrimps, I couldn't walk and would stand there holding the fried skewers, because I thought the shrimps' black eyes were so cute. But I could only see them after I bought the fried skewers. But every time at this time, you would stand by with me, and then after a while, you would take out the pocket money that you never spent to buy two shrimps, and then hand them to me who was holding the fried skewers, and then tell me, "You raise them for me, my family doesn't allow me to raise these things."
Then I would nod to you solemnly and promise to take good care of them for you, but they always died before the next night, and when you went to school with me the next morning, you would always walk with a limp. You never told me when I asked you what was wrong. I never told you that the shrimps died later, and you never asked me. It was just that every time I saw the shrimps at the door and I had used all the money in my pocket to buy fried skewers, you would take out your allowance that you never spent and buy two shrimps for me to raise. I didn't know why I liked those shrimps so much at the time, but I knew you would limp the next morning. So later, every time I saw the old lady selling shrimps, I would ask you to run over with me quickly, because I knew I couldn't help it, but I didn't want to see you limping the next morning.
But later, when I heard my mom say after a parent-teacher meeting that you were always beaten for losing your pocket money, I knew why you were limping. That night I cried all night while holding the shrimps you had just bought for me. From then on, I never liked those shrimps again, not for the rest of my life.
Although my family asked me many times later why I didn't like those shrimps, I never told anyone because I knew that was the best gift a little boy could give me, the best gift he could buy me with the pocket money his parents just put in his pocket for emergencies instead of the pocket money he could use at will. All these years have passed and I have never received a better gift than that. But later, later, we no longer went home together. Although we were still in the same class, we never spoke to each other again.
By the way, do you still remember Chen Kang in our class? I know you must hate him very much, but I want to tell you that he is not as bad as you think. Of course, you will not believe me, so I will tell you from the beginning.
I remember it was when I was in the fourth grade. One day, all the classmates had left, and I was the only one left on duty in the class. I had just finished sweeping the last table and was about to put the broom in the back and go home when Chen Kang suddenly came in from the front door of the classroom. I thought he had left something in the classroom and came back to get it, but I didn't expect him to come towards me. To be honest, I was a little scared of him at the time, because he was quite willing to bully people, but I thought he wouldn't do anything to me since I was a girl. But what I didn't expect was that he pushed me to the corner of the wall at the back and kept kicking me. I kept kicking my legs, and I dodged while asking him loudly why he kicked me, but he didn't say anything and just kicked me. But no matter how he kicked me, I didn't cry, so he got really angry and asked me to say that I didn't like Lengshan anymore, and said that if I said that, he wouldn't kick me anymore. But I didn't say anything at the time, and I didn't cry, so he got even angrier and said that if I didn't say anything, he would keep kicking my legs.
But when I saw you looking at me outside the window with red eyes, I burst into tears all of a sudden, crying harder than ever before, because I didn’t understand why you were crying, my boy. Actually, it didn’t hurt at all when he kicked me, really, I just couldn’t stand it when I saw you crying.
But when you saw me crying, your eyes suddenly turned red, and you rushed in with a stool, and started throwing it at him like a madman. That was the first time I saw you like that, and I was scared to death at the time, because you didn't hit him with the stool a few times before he snatched the stool away and started hitting you with it. I was so scared that I immediately ran out to find the teacher. Later, the teacher came and separated you two, but you were still beaten badly that day because you didn't know how to fight at all. It was just that from that day on, he targeted you and he would make trouble for you for no reason. But every time he provoked you, you would fight back, even if he beat you badly, you would still fight with him. He hit me, and I don't know why you were so stubborn. Although he never bullied me like that time again, he always made trouble for you. Many times I wanted to find him and ask him to stop making trouble for you, but he ignored me and continued to make trouble for you. Later, when I was in junior high school, I accidentally got his QQ and asked him why he treated me like that. He told me embarrassedly that it was because he liked me and didn't want me to like you, so he kicked me that time and asked me to say I didn't like you, and then he always made trouble for you later. He also wanted me to say sorry to him on your behalf, but he didn't know that I hadn't spoken to you for a long time.