Zhang Nuan, who was sitting next to me, couldn't help it this time. She shook my arm hard, then stared at me with her big eyes and asked me, "How did that boy provoke you? You got so angry just now. I was even scared when you smashed the table."
I sighed and felt that the more I kept this matter to myself, the more aggrieved I would feel. So I told Zhang Nuan everything in detail like a nagging woman. After listening to me, Zhang Nuan just frowned.
I raised my eyes and asked Zhang Nuan what she thought about this, but Zhang Nuan just shook her head gently at me, and then looked at me with her big eyes for a while. When I wanted to ask her again, she just said to me, "I don't know either," and quickly changed the subject to what happened between Lao He and the squad leader.
I suddenly felt that Zhang Nuan’s attitude was a little strange, but after thinking about it, I didn’t ask any more questions, because I suddenly thought of the kiss between her and me, maybe...
I didn't think about it any further, because I was already upset enough, there was no need to worry about these trivial things, I should just solve the problem at hand first.
The squad leader and Cao Bo never came back in the afternoon. Only Lao He came back once with marks of a fight on her face. She told us to behave ourselves in the afternoon and not make trouble while she was away, and then she left in a hurry. I knew that she must have been in big trouble this time, otherwise the squad leader wouldn't have rushed up to beat her like a madman. The grudge between these two women must be serious.
I attended classes absent-mindedly for the whole afternoon, and looked at him from time to time. I found that he was still listening to the class seriously. After class, he sat there and continued to read Lin Huiyin's "Ninety-Nine Degrees".
At that time, I couldn't help but think of the collection of Xu Zhimo's poems that Lin Yi had recommended to me before, but I had never read it. I couldn't help but feel a little regretful, and even felt that I didn't do well enough in the past, which led to this situation today. If I could do it again.
I will definitely read every book that Lin Yi told me about, instead of sitting here and watching him reading the book that Lin Yi recommended to him. Also, Lin Yi had told me to go to the library with her on Sundays to study, but I have never been there, not even once. It seems that I have not done what a boyfriend should do, but he who is sitting there has done it.
When it was almost time for dinner in the evening, the monitor and Cao Bo had not returned yet. I didn't know where Lao He had taken them, or whether they were still being trained in Lao He's office. But at this moment, I received a text message from Lin Yi. She told me not to rush to the cafeteria to grab a seat, as she had just sent her classmates back to the dormitory and was already in the cafeteria.
I just sent an "oh" and didn't say anything else, because at this moment I began to realize that I didn't seem to do what a qualified boyfriend should do.
The bell rang for the end of get out of class, and everyone rushed out again, but I walked slowly behind them, because I suddenly didn't want to go to the cafeteria to see Lin Yi, because I was really afraid that after I went there this time, we would have a showdown, and I was afraid that we would part ways amicably.
But although I was reluctant, I still walked step by step towards the cafeteria downstairs. After all, everything has to have a result. Avoiding it blindly is not a solution. Bai Lu's incident has made me understand this truth. I don't want to have one more person I can't face now. I think I have the courage to face anything now, except feelings, because it is really hard to let go.
I still arrived at the door of the cafeteria. I couldn't help feeling a little lost when I saw the people rushing inside. I went upstairs and looked for her and saw Lin Yi sitting by the window on the second floor. That was her favorite place, where there was sunshine. It was just that it was night and there was no sunshine that she liked the most. But she was still most used to that position. I sighed and walked towards her.
She didn't seem to see me coming, and was still sitting there quietly reading the book in her hand. She seemed a little out of place in the environment while reading in the cafeteria. After all, there were noisy sounds of people getting food all around her, and she was the only one sitting there quietly reading. Although there was steaming food on the table in front of her, there were still only a few people reading in the cafeteria, or it could be said that people who still read in this day and age are anomalies.
When I saw her like this, I couldn't help but think of the scene when he was reading in class in the afternoon. I couldn't help but shake my head and smile, thinking, could it be that they are really a couple, and it is me who has to come between this couple who are destined to be together
But I still didn't want to think so, after all, it was my Lin Yi sitting there. I walked to her side, but didn't say anything. I glanced at the name of the book she was reading, "On Taoism", a very strange name, and the cover seemed to be a very old book, the author was Jin Yuelin.
After reading it, I couldn't help but be stunned. It seemed that I thought that this Jin Yuelin seemed to have some relationship with Lin Huiyin that I saw from him in the afternoon. Our Chinese teacher seemed to have mentioned it, but I can't remember the details now. However, this subtle connection between the authors of these two books made me very uncomfortable, because it made me feel like it was the relationship between Lin Yi and that boy.
I coughed, Lin Yi closed the book in her hand, looked up at me, but then put her head down again and said to me lightly, I have prepared food for you, let's talk after dinner.
I nodded and sat down. The two of us ate in silence. This seemed to be the most depressing meal I had had since Lin Yi and I got together. Even when she was very cold to me in the beginning, I would constantly find topics to chat with her during the meal. But now, neither of us spoke. We just lowered our heads and ate the rice in our bowls in silence.
I finally finished the rice in the bowl, and even the vegetables on the plate were eaten up by me. I have never eaten so cleanly before, but today I ate it all because I felt that I was not ready for the conversation after the meal, but the moment had come.
Lin Yi, who was sitting opposite me, didn't urge me. She just sat there and looked at me quietly, as if she was waiting for me to speak first. But for some reason, I had a feeling of where to start and where to end when I was sitting there, because my relationship with her started with me, and now it will end because of me.
I lowered my head and thought silently. To be honest, I forgot everything I thought about in class in the afternoon as soon as I entered the cafeteria. All I want now is that we can be like before, but I know that this is a delusion for me now.
I couldn't help but look out the window, looking at the supermarket over there, and remembered the time when she went downstairs to the supermarket to buy me a Band-Aid. My nose felt a little sore, and I couldn't help but sniff hard a few times, but she who was sitting opposite me said lightly, "Don't you have something to say to me?"
I turned my head and looked at her, took a deep breath and asked her, "How long have you known each other?" She looked at me and gently closed her eyes and slowly opened them, then said, "About a month."
I nodded and said, you and he have always been schoolmates. Lin Yi smiled faintly and said, well, I didn't expect such a coincidence. We have been in the same school but never met each other. In the end, we met in the library outside the school.
When I heard this, I felt like something was pressing against my chest, and I couldn’t swallow it or spit it out. However, I still said calmly, “But he has noticed you a long time ago, starting in junior high school.”
After I said this, Lin Yi seemed stunned, and I couldn't help but feel a little strange. Could it be that she didn't know and the boy didn't tell her
Lin Yi looked at me with somewhat confused eyes, then shook her head gently and said, I don’t know about that.
I couldn't help but smile softly, feeling like I was really a stumbling block between them, but this time I did a good thing, letting Lin Yi know someone who had always liked her silently. I sighed softly and asked her, do you think he likes you