As soon as I saw these two people, I was so angry that I couldn't stop thinking. Although I still don't know what's going on, as soon as I saw the looks on their faces, I knew that this matter must have a lot to do with them. Although I have no right to say anything about the squad monitor, I always feel that if it was really these two people who forced the squad monitor to jump off the building, then they will definitely get their comeuppance.
Just when I was still silently chanting these curses at these two bitches in my heart, I turned around inadvertently and saw two people standing on the other side of the crowd. They were the two people I least wanted to see right now, Lin Yi and that 'Edison Chen'.
I was standing there and was completely stunned when I saw the two of them. I felt like I couldn't hold back my tears. It might be because I cried with excitement because the monitor was rescued. Anyway, when I saw Lin Yi's hand tightly held by that boy, I felt like my heart was broken, which was more painful than death. Even though I knew that he might just be holding Lin Yi's hand to comfort her because of the monitor who jumped off the building just now, I still couldn't stand it when I saw this scene.
It was as if countless arrows were shot into my heart, nailing me there unable to move, and I could only stand there and watch, looking at Lin Yi's hand that was held by him. When I recovered a little, I quickly ran out of the crowd, and ran back to the classroom like crazy. I didn't know if the two of them saw me just now, but I really couldn't face them now, and I didn't want them to see me like this.
I ran all the way into the building and my emotions finally calmed down a bit. Although I had expected to see them together, I still found it a little bit overwhelmed when it really happened in front of me. I also don't think I'm an introverted girl who can't handle such a thing, or like some people I could just rush up and give that guy a stun gun, but I think that would be meaningless.
Because I know, ever since Lin Yi said those words to me in the cafeteria that day, I knew that I had completely died in her heart, because I know what kind of person she is, so I know it very well, but it is precisely because I know it so well that I am so painful, because when you know a person very well, you will realize how much you care about her, but now all I have is the pain of knowing how to cherish after losing, or maybe our fate is really over.
What I want to do now is just to act more mature and calm, and let the past be the past. As I know very well, I have become a memory in Lin Yi's heart forever, but it is only a memory, a memory that I hope will make her smile when she thinks of it. What I want to do now is to keep those beautiful things in that memory, instead of destroying it, because I always feel that people do not live for a result in this life. In other words, it does not matter who you will be with in the end, but who you have had good memories with.
Because you come naked when you are born, and you go naked when you die, you cannot take anything with you. The only thing you can take with you is all your memories. I just want Lin Yi to take away some memories of me in the end. I think that is enough.
Because I don’t want another girl like Bai Lu who just wants to forget me forever. I know I’m a scumbag, but I really want to be a better person. I want others to remember my good side instead of forgetting me.
I walked up the stairs with heavy steps, holding the handrail. I suddenly felt very tired, because the feeling of trying hard and failing in the end is really frustrating. But I have decided to keep doing this in the future, because I am no longer Leng Shan, but Leng Xiaoqiang who swore an oath to Zhang Nuan. It’s just that Lin Yi and I once had so many beautiful days, but now they are all gone, and I don’t even know why this happened to us. I thought about it many times. It seems that it’s because I don’t believe her, but I know that the ice is not formed in a day, so now I really feel that my relationship is a failure.
I didn't think about more things, such as why he was holding Lin Yi's hand the day after Lin Yi and I separated. Although I know there may be many explanations for this question, I only believe my own one. He just held hands subconsciously because they saw someone about to jump off the building. Although thinking this way makes me feel that these two people are really a perfect match.
Because it looks more like an expression that she can't help herself, but thinking this way won't make me feel that Lin Yi had been with him behind my back for a long time, so she was holding his hand by him the day after we separated. In fact, I don't care anyway, because since I have already lost her, why not wish her a better life? After all, we truly loved each other, so why should we ask for more? This is enough, at least I think so.
I went upstairs and wiped my face vigorously. I didn’t want others to see that I had been crying, because I didn’t want Zhang Nuan to worry about me.
I walked into the room and breathed a sigh of relief, because there were not many people in the room. Zhang Nuan and Ai Yi were certainly not in the room. I quickly returned to my seat and sat down. After a while, probably because the fire trucks and police downstairs had left, the classmates who came to watch the fun came back one after another. However, I clearly felt that the students in our class were much more excited than those in other classes. After all, the protagonists today were all from our class. But I felt that there was nothing to be excited about.
Zhang Nuan and Ai Yi followed the crowd in. When Zhang Nuan saw me sitting in my seat, she frowned and looked at me in confusion. When she returned to her seat, she asked me why I came back so early. Didn't you know that our squad leader was going to jump off the building? I said of course I knew, and I witnessed the whole process.
Originally, I didn't want to show off with this kind of thing, because I think it's building my own happiness on the suffering of others, but seeing how curious Zhang Nuan was, I could only tell her the whole story from the beginning, and then the great detective Zhang Nuan started to make all kinds of inferences, but she had the same idea as me, that this matter must be related to Lao He and Cao Bo, but when everyone came back, I didn't see Cao Bo come back, I guess he was called by the school leaders to investigate.
Not only has Mr. He never shown up in class, the Dean of Academic Affairs also came to us and told us that our teacher He had taken a leave of absence and might not be able to teach us for some time, so our class will be taught by other teachers in the future, and as for our head teacher, she will be in charge of us for the time being.
Some idiots in our class cheered when they heard this. I snorted disdainfully and said, "Idiots, do you think the Dean of Academic Affairs is better than Mr. He? You will only be worse off!"
Because of what happened in the morning, it is already the third class. Although the teacher has started the lecture at the front, no one seems to have much interest in listening to the lecture. They can't help but whisper and discuss what happened in the morning. What surprised me was that Zhang Nuan was very calm this time. She didn't talk to me excitedly like the last time when the monitor beat Lao He. This made me like her even more, because I think she is a very kind girl who knows what is gossipy and what is cruel.
Of course, another celebrity in our class this time was Cao Bo, but this big brother never came back, so everyone was more speculating about what was going on between the three of them. I was not so interested because I was still a little depressed by the fact that Lin Yi and that boy were holding hands.
But what I didn't expect was that at the end of the third class, when I was lying on the table bored and wanted to sleep, someone walked towards me. At first I didn't think he was looking for me, until he patted me and I looked up and realized that it was him, the 'Edison Chen' who had just held Lin Yi's hand!