"Zhang Nuan, I'm telling you, I don't agree!!! If you feel tired today, just rest at home. I'm leaving." After I said this, I picked up my coat and walked out of Zhang Nuan's house. I closed the door with force, and the sound of the door closing lingered in my mind for a long time.
From that day on, Zhang Nuan and I entered a cold war period. Zhang Nuan never mentioned breaking up again, and I didn't know how to face such a Zhang Nuan. On Monday, I called Xie Qingqing to ask her what she said to Zhang Nuan that day, but Xie Qingqing said she didn't say anything.
I'm not stupid, she just didn't want to tell me. I also asked her how the matter was resolved, and she also glossed over it. At the end, Xie Qingqing asked me a question, she said: "Lengshan, do you know that you and Wang Hao are really similar? Hehe~" Is this a hint from Xie Qingqing to me? !
Ai Yi sent me a WeChat message asking me if I had made Zhang Nuan angry again. I felt really aggrieved. You said I was a man who stood tall and proud, but being tortured by a woman every day made me look like neither a human nor a ghost. How could I have become such a humiliator
I told Ai Yi directly, "Go ask her yourself, how have I wronged her!" Facing Ai Yi's questioning of me, I was already in a bad mood and felt even more frustrated. Damn, what the hell do you want me to do to satisfy you?! Ai Yi also saw that I was really angry, so she ran to find Zhang Nuan.
Zhang Nuan and I were at loggerheads for two more days. On Thursday morning, when I went to school, I saw a letter on my desk. It was from Zhang Nuan. She must have left it there after I left last night. I opened the letter and saw lines of neatly written words.
Cold Mountain:
I'm sorry, I don't know how to tell you how I feel now. I am selfish, I admit that I like you, and I have seen and remembered everything you have done for me. But suddenly, I don't know whether my feelings for you are a kind of dependence or a kind of nostalgia.
Please give me some time...
Hehe~ I don't know if it's dependence or nostalgia? ! He's dependent on me, but he's missing me? ! I suddenly felt that my feelings were ridiculous, and suddenly found that I was just a substitute, a substitute for a dead person. Is this love that has only lasted for a month going to wither? No, it hasn't even blossomed yet.
How can a relationship have a result if one side is always giving alone? I think this is a joke played by God on me, a punishment for me. After I hurt Lin Yi and Annie, he deliberately sent Zhang Nuan to punish me.
Just because I helped someone out of kindness, just because she suddenly lost sight of her own heart. Zhang Nuan, where the hell did you put me? It turns out that your love for me was shattered by just a few words from others. Do you really care about me
Although I feel pain in my heart, I still don't want to let go. I can think clearly about everything, but if I really let go, I feel like my heart will be torn apart. Let's leave it at that for now, Zhang Nuan, calm down by yourself.
The relationship between Zhang Nuan and I became very subtle. Zhang Nuan would continue to buy me meals or share with me the snacks she bought, and I would still send her a good night text message every night, but when we met, we had nothing to say to each other.
It's a new week again. Zhang Nuan and I have been ignoring each other for a week. During this week, both of us have had a bad time. I don't know how many times the teacher criticized me in front of the whole class. Dasheng came this morning as if his mother had taken gunpowder. As soon as he put down his things in the classroom, he said: "Last week, the class discipline in our class was very bad, especially there were several cases of playing with mobile phones and sleeping while talking in class."
The Great Sage was talking in front of me. I was sleeping on the table, and he kept talking in front of me. It was so annoying. "Today I want to severely criticize a few students in our class. The first one is Leng Shan. Leng Shan! Why are you still sleeping? You are like this even when the head teacher is standing in front of you. What will happen if I am not here?!"
I raised my head impatiently and looked at the Monkey King in front of me. I didn’t even want to pay attention to him. Damn, if I give you face, you are the class teacher. If I don’t give you face, you are a piece of shit!!!
"Last week, every subject teacher reported to me about the discipline problems in our class. Your name, Leng Shan, was on the record without exception! Tell me what you want to do? I saw that you made a lot of progress last semester. How come you don't know how to behave as a human being the older you get?! You..." The Monkey King continued to speak, but I was the first one to be shot at.
"Stop wasting time, I'm done with it!" I stood up with a bang, kicked the table away and walked out. I could imagine the expressions of everyone in the class except me. It was similar to the shock Annie had when she scolded Lao He in front of the whole class.
I needed a chance to vent my unhappiness, and today Dasheng had to do that piece of shit. Dasheng is a man, and his face has obviously turned purple. This willful behavior of mine today should have made him very embarrassed. That day I skipped class, went out for a day, bought two packs of cigarettes and smoked them all.
The next day, during class, Dasheng called me out. I also saw my mom in the office. Damn, they’ll call my parents soon!!! In front of my mom, I restrained my temper. After Dasheng complained, my mom and I left the office together.
"Xiaoshan, I don't know how you became like this. Mom is very angry about this incident, but as your mother, I hope you can adjust yourself as soon as possible. You are so old now, and as a mother I don't want to control you too much. You have your own ideas and thoughts. I hope you won't let me and your father down." My mother is actually a very good mother. She seldom speaks to me in a harsh tone, but I can see from her expression that she was a little disappointed in me this time.
After apologizing and making promises to my mother, I returned to the classroom. I stayed in my seat and did not move except for going to the toilet. Zhang Nuan did the same thing. She sat next to me except for going to the toilet twice. Let's just keep torturing each other.
In the evening, I didn't go to the evening self-study class. I took the basketball and went to the court. Every time I dribbled the ball, I used all my strength. Every time I shot, I hit it hard as if I was hitting someone. When I was tired, I lay in the middle of the court and thought about some recent events.
It is said that girls are the ones who are easily bound in relationships, no matter if it is puppy love or anything in the future. It's like two virgin boyfriends and girlfriends, as long as they break up or have problems, the girl is the one who gets hurt. But I want to say that not every relationship is like this.
As a man, if he is really in love, he will be more extreme and his love will be deeper. Between me and Zhang Nuan, I feel that I am like this. To say that my feelings for Zhang Nuan are hypocritical and non-mainstream is: "I don't know where the love comes from, but it is deep and lasting." The spring breeze in March is like a knife, cutting me with each cut.
I didn't know how long I lay there with my eyes closed. I opened my eyes and stood up when I heard voices on the playground. As soon as I stood up, I saw Zhang Nuan standing not far away. I paused and walked towards Zhang Nuan.
Standing opposite Zhang Nuan, the distance between us was less than an arm's length, but at that time I felt that we were a million miles apart, because our hearts were far apart. I think our current situation is not because I haven't done enough. I have taken 99 steps, and the remaining step depends on whether you, Zhang Nuan, are willing to take it.
I looked into Zhang Nuan's eyes, wanting to see something from them, but forgive me for being stupid, I didn't find what I wanted to see. I took a step to the right and was about to walk away.
As soon as I took the first step, I felt someone holding my hand. Who else could it be but Zhang Nuan? Zhang Nuan's hand pulled me hard. I could clearly feel how strong she was at that time. And from the temperature of her hand, I knew that she had also been outside for a long time.