Zhang Nuan, do you want to tell me something? Have you finally made up your mind? I stopped. Actually, I still hope that we can end this situation as soon as possible. It's so annoying to be in this state every day.
"You, do you really have to force me like this?" Zhang Nuan said in a low voice.
I'm forcing you? Who is forcing whom? "Zhang Nuan, who is forcing whom? Tell me what you want me to do? What the hell do you want me to do? Just tell me! As long as you can tell me one, two, three, I will do it."
"I just want to use these few days to see my heart clearly. When I can't hear you talking to me, my heart will panic for no reason; when I see you not looking into my eyes, I am afraid that there is no trace of me in them anymore; I don't want to see you sad, I don't want to see you upset, I don't want to see your face without a smile every day..."
Zhang Nuan spoke in a very low voice, but I could hear every word clearly. It turned out that I was not so insignificant in her heart, but she didn't seem to know that I was so important. Was she stupid or was I not smart enough
"Wang Hao is a person I can't erase. He will probably always be here." Zhang Nuan pointed to her left breast with her other hand and continued, "But I tried really hard to cherish you now, but I still didn't do well enough. I didn't do well enough."
I turned around and looked at Zhang Nuan, her tears running down her cheeks leaving a transparent trail. I raised my other hand and gently wiped the tear-stained cheek, a cheek that I hadn't touched for several days, but that I wanted to hold in my hands every day.
"Leng Shan, I don't have confidence in myself. Xie Qingqing is right. I started to stick to you and liked you because you were so much like my old Big Stupid Bear. She said you were the shadow of the Big Stupid Bear that I was looking for. My heart began to waver, and I felt that I had let you down." Zhang Nuan said while crying. The get out of class was over at this time, and many people who passed by us couldn't help but glance at us.
"Look, get out!" I yelled. This feeling was terrible. People who didn't know would think that I was bullying the crying person in front of me. My yelling did make the people passing by speed up their pace.
"Am I being selfish? I'm stupid. I covet the security and tenderness you give me. Leng Shan, I know you are not a substitute for Big Stupid Bear, really. Because after being with you, I have never taken out the notebook I wrote to Big Stupid Bear, and Big Stupid Bear's face has never appeared in my mind again. Leng Shan, I hope I can love you with all my heart, because that is fair to you."
Zhang Nuan said a lot in one breath. I pulled her into my arms. It turned out that she was afraid of seeing me as a substitute for the big stupid bear, but now she really hopes to like me with a complete self, right? ! That's enough. Let me complete the rest for her. I will help her wipe away the mist in her heart and help her see clearly. I will wait for you, a complete Zhang Nuan, for her wholehearted love.
"Silly, if you are still unsure, at least tell me every thought you have, otherwise I don't know how to work hard. If you still need time, then I will wait for you until you feel you understand enough, but I hope that in this process, you can allow my existence and don't send me away coldly."
Holding Zhang Nuan's trembling body, I feel that although I am pretty fucking sad now, I still feel at ease. Zhang Nuan, you are a hurdle and a demon in my life.
Zhang Nuan and I talked about our inner thoughts again, and we finally walked back to the classroom hand in hand. The people in the class chose to remain silent when they saw our actions, because no matter what happened to our relationship, it seemed to be in front of everyone. When we were doing well, they could see it, and when we were fighting and having a quarrel, they never missed a shot!!!
During the evening self-study, Zhang Nuan and I were lying on the table pretending to sleep, and I kept looking at her. "Why are you always looking at me?! Stop looking... I hate it..." Zhang Nuan looked at me and said, then covered my eyes with her hands.
"You don't look at me, how do you know I'm looking at you?! Then don't look at me either!!!" I pushed Zhang Nuan's hand away and continued to look at her. I like to see her expression like this, a little shy. There are no teachers in the evening self-study now. Only the teacher on duty comes over occasionally, and the others are class leaders who look after the class discipline.
We kept talking back and forth, enjoying this old-fashioned and clichéd conversation. Finally, after we had said it four or five times, our names were called by the monitor. When Annie called our names, Zhang Nuan and I blushed instantly. On the one hand, it was because of each other, and on the other hand, we felt very sorry for Annie...
Zhang Nuan and I reconciled, and the dark cloud that had been covering my heart finally dissipated. As we reconciled, our friends around us also seemed to feel a lot happier, especially Ai Yi and Zhang Tong.
It was only the third day after Zhang Nuan and I got back together that Zhang Tong came to me. "Shanzi, the finals are next Friday. What do you think I should do to impress Ai Yi? Ai Yi is like a stone in a toilet, it's stinky and hard! I've tried everything I can, but she doesn't react at all?"
"Humph, isn't it you who likes the stone in the toilet?! In my opinion, the best solution is for you to give up on her and go wherever is cooler! Then let her and Kim Hee Sun be lesbians~" Tell me, Zhang Tong, are you a fucking slut? It's obvious that my second aunt is not attracted to you, but you still dislike her bad temper. Why do you have to shamelessly stick your warm face to her cold butt? !
"Fuck, if I can give up, am I still Zhang Tong?! I just want to chase her and then dump her~ Humph!! She will never escape from my grasp in this life!!!" Zhang Tong said while making a clenched hand gesture. One day many years later, Zhang Tong's words became his eternal nightmare...
"Don't talk nonsense. If you're my friend, please help me think of a solution!!! Ask your Zhang Nuan to help me too. After all, she is my sister-in-law and we are very close!!! Besides, she knows Ai Yi well, so I have to find the right remedy for her. Hey, you said that flyers have been distributed and WeChat messages have been sent. I also told my brothers that they must vote for Ai Yi, otherwise I will..." After saying the word "yes", Zhang Tong made a killing gesture at his neck with his hand.
What do you think you are, Zhang Tong? You are using naked coercion and bribery!!! But I still helped Zhang Tong. When I was having dinner with Zhang Nuan, I told her about what Zhang Tong asked her to do. Zhang Nuan had always thought that Zhang Tong was just joking, but she didn't expect that he was really serious this time.
"I think this is a difficult matter... Ai Yi really doesn't seem to be interested in boys..." Zhang Nuan frowned, sticking out the chicken bone she had just chewed. "But it's not impossible!!! Kim Hee Sun is about to return to Korea, so from the perspective of time and Ai Yi's free time, Zhang Tong still has a chance."
"The reason why Ai Yi doesn't like boys is because she likes the gentleness of girls, because she is a tomboy herself!!! If Zhang Tong could be a boy girl, maybe there would be some possibility for them. If Zhang Tong wants to follow Ai Yi, then I can only hope that Zhang Tong can have an intact body." Zhang Nuan said a lot of nonsense, and finally wiped his hands and said.
"Ah, so it's about a tomboy and a boy girl!!! But can Zhang Tong really be a boy girl?! I think this is a fantasy!!!! Why are there always these weird people around you?! None of them has a normal attitude towards love. By the way, I'm telling you, Zhang Nuan, you are not allowed to ask for snacks from a gigolo anymore!!! Otherwise, I will change from a boy girl to a real tomboy!!!"
As I said this, I remembered the recent incident where the pretty boy sent snacks to Zhang Nuan. I am just a boy in front of you, Zhang Nuan, but there is a limit!!! Once people like us rise up, no matter if you are a real tomboy or a shemale, I, Leng Ye, swear to God that the result will definitely be very bad.
After I got back, I told Zhang Tong exactly what Zhang Nuan had said to me. As for how you, Zhang Tong, want to transform from a real man to a boy girl, you can do it yourself. But if you really need me, I will definitely not let you go.
I thought I was a good person because I sincerely helped you, Zhang Tong, to pick up girls, but I found out that you were so damn sorry for me. Since the day after I told Zhang Tong what Zhang Nuan said, Zhang Tong started to stick to Zhang Nuan like rice cakes. Even Ai Yi was reluctant to talk to Zhang Nuan after seeing this. Ai Yi had already felt betrayed!!!
"Zhang Nuan, who is your boyfriend?!!!" After Zhang Tong had been pestering Zhang Nuan for two days, I finally couldn't hold back my anger. Now, Zhang Nuan has been in contact with Zhang Tong for more than ten hours out of the 24 hours a day. This has never happened to me before!!!
"Hey, of course it's you~~ But haven't I been helping Zhang Tong recently~ Why didn't I realize that Zhang Tong was such a good and considerate man before?!!! If I had discovered it earlier, I would..." Zhang Nuan said to me with a grin.
"What about you? Do you still want to cheat on your husband and become Pan Jinlian? ! ! I tell you, even if you want to, I'm not Wu Dalang!!! You are not allowed to contact Zhang Tong directly in the future. If you have anything to say, tell me and I will convey it to you two!!!"
“Look at how petty you are!!! Just wait for the good show that Zhang Tong and I will arrange next Friday!!! I’m really a little envious of Ai Yi. When you were pursuing me, you weren’t as attentive as Zhang Tong. I lost out!! Leng Shan, why don’t you pursue me again~” After hearing this, I really wanted to use an axe to chisel open Zhang Nuan’s head to see if there were any yellow things inside besides the brain matter!!!