I frowned, and unconsciously tightened my grip on the water bottle in my hand. But when Lin Yi really asked me this question, asking me if I really let go of Zhang Nuan, my heart tightened. Did I let go? In fact, no, I didn't let go at all.
"Of course!" I still said to Lin Yi stubbornly. Although I knew I hadn't let it go, at that time, I was forcing myself to say that I had let it go, both in my heart and in my mouth.
"Hey, you are so stubborn!!!" Lin Yi flicked my head with her hand, and then continued to say to me: "Okay, you said you let it go, but I still have something to say! ! When you let go of someone, you won't tell others that you two broke up, and then keep telling the other person that you are living a better life than your girlfriend. You just told me that after you broke up with Zhang Nuan, you said a lot of things, all about how you are living a better life than her. In fact, you haven't let it go, and you are still subconsciously angry with her in your heart."
"Letting go is not just talk. The real letting go should be that you don't even feel anything and can calmly face the person you said you let go. If Zhang Nuan is standing in front of you now, even if you can act as if nothing happened on your face, can your heart be calm as if nothing happened and no one saw it?" Lin Yi always speaks like she is preaching, but every word she says is to the point.
"Also, you just said you didn't want to go to the south, and you had already made an appointment with Zhang Nuan to stay in the north together. People who have broken up and let go, who would remember the agreement you two made to be together, and you almost said the first thing you did was to make an appointment with Zhang Nuan. So, Leng Shan, you haven't let her go at all." Lin Yi's words were like needles, and every needle pierced my heart.
I didn't say anything afterwards, because after listening to Lin Yi's words, I had nothing to say to refute her. We threw away the leftovers in our hands and went to play in the ice factory for a while before leaving together to go home. "Let me take you there!" I said to Lin Yi.
"No need, it's not like I can't walk!" Lin Yi waved her hand to refuse me, and I just sent her to the bus stop. When Lin Yi was about to get on the bus, she said to me again: "I am the one you really let go of..." After saying this, Lin Yi got on the bus and left.
I watched the bus go away, and my heart felt like a heavy stone was rolling over me. Lin Yi was a good girl, but I didn't cherish her. I felt that she was a guiding light in my youth. Every time I encountered something, she would appear in front of me and give me some advice.
She is like a great fairy, she can see my heart clearly every time. Last time she asked me, "Who is the one in your heart?" This time she told me, "You haven't let go of Zhang Nuan at all."
After I hurt Lin Yi, she repeatedly told me to see my own heart. I have to say that she really helped me a lot. If I have the chance, I will definitely thank this girl very much. However, we have drifted further and further apart. After graduating from the college entrance examination, we have never met again. I heard that she settled in the south.
I returned home alone, feeling depressed and was scolded by my mother. She said, "Who's family looks unhappy when the New Year is almost approaching? You're not likable at all..." Well, my father is well now, and my mother has time to chat with us again.
Days go by, and I grow up slowly. In the new year, I am one year older. Although I don't admit it, adults always say that you grow one year older every year, even though I haven't had my birthday yet. This year I had a good harvest during the Chinese New Year. Many relatives came to my house to see my dad, and everyone who came gave me some New Year's money, so I had a great harvest this year!!! The biggest gift came from my father Liang Shangjin, who was far away in Yunnan and whom I had never met.
Having money is good, and my mother generously gave me a lot of money this year so that I can plan my own plans. So on the sixth day of the Lunar New Year, I was always happy to take my little money and go out with Zhang Tong and the others to have fun! In fact, I thought that if Zhang Tong came out, Ai Yi might come with him, and if Ai Yi came, would she have some information about Zhang Nuan
"Hey, Lengshan has made a fortune! He's so generous today!!!" Dayao teased me when he saw me, and then came over to me and put his arm around my shoulder. The most important thing was that he actually brought a woman today whom I had never seen before, obviously her new girlfriend!
"Fuck, it's as if I always eat and drink with you guys! Brother Shan is always very generous, okay?!!!" I retorted to Dayao, took his hand off my shoulder, then lowered my head and asked him quietly: "What's going on? This woman?..." Although I was already sure that she was Dayao's new girlfriend.
Dayao also lowered his head and said to me: "Didn't the girl from the radio station go to study art? We broke up because we couldn't see each other anymore! This one is from our class!!!" Dayao explained to me in a low voice, and then said loudly to everyone: "This is my girlfriend, Qiao Ya, please take good care of her in the future!!!"
Zhang Tong, Ai Yi and I all greeted the girl awkwardly. But I am not happy anymore. Damn it. I thought Dayao would come by himself, so I could have some fun. What the hell is going on now? ! ! ! Oh, heaven, earth, who can save me from loneliness! ! !
Five people walked together, on a road, I was in the middle. Then there was a couple on the left, a couple on the right, no one paid any attention to me. Loneliness came naturally, and I cried in silence. During the meal, Zhang Tong and Dayao asked their women from time to time: "Do you want some water?" "What else do you want to eat?"...
Just after I despised those two people countless times, Dayao's new girlfriend remembered that I was left alone. Qiao Ya asked me, "When will your girlfriend arrive?! Why didn't you two come together?!" Damn... What the hell are you talking about? ! !
I was completely speechless, and felt a little embarrassed, even though several people knew about my breakup. When Qiao Ya asked this question, the other four people present all looked very unhappy. I said very embarrassedly, "We just broke up."
The whole place was silent. Yes, we just broke up. Qiao Ya asked this question, and I answered this question. How can I get the news about Zhang Nuan from Ai Yi later? ! ! Damn it, I drew a big red cross for Qiao Ya in my heart! ! ! This woman is so tactless! ! ! But what she said next made me spit out the water I had drunk.
"That's great. I'll introduce you to a girl tomorrow. She's a super nice girl and pretty, too! Forget tomorrow. I'll ask her out right now!!" After saying that, Qiao Ya picked up the phone to contact the friend she mentioned.
Dayao actually knows me quite well, so he said to Qiao Ya: “No need, we don’t know each other well, it would be awkward if she came!!!” Although Dayao only said this, it was already pretty good that he could say this.
"Yeah, yeah, no need, we don't know each other, it's awkward to meet..." I said this, wiped my mouth with a tissue, and then quickly said to Qiao Ya. At the same time, I could already feel Ai Yi's murderous look at me.
"No, we became familiar with each other naturally after meeting!!! She is very fun!!!" "Hello, it's Qiao Ya..." Qiao Ya looked at me and said, and then her phone was connected... Until Qiao Ya's friends came over, the five of us remained in a silent state.
No one was talking, and I was thinking, I shouldn’t have asked them out today! I shouldn’t have told them that I had just broken up.
Ai Yi thought, Leng Shan, you really don’t want to live anymore, there’s really no hope for you and Zhang Nuan! You don’t need to look for me anymore, we don’t have a chance anymore.
Zhang Tong thought, buddy, I can only wish you the best. My wife and I have the same idea and are on the same front.
Dayao thought, buddy, I'm sorry, but this is a good thing, maybe you will have a new girlfriend soon.
Qiao Ya thought, I am so happy today, look, I helped you! And I also helped my best friend, and we became a couple again, I am a good matchmaker!!!