My plan of self-torture ended up with me losing more than I gained. Zhang Nuan completely ignored me, so the advantage of the pretty boy was significantly enhanced, because now Zhang Nuan often goes out to eat with the pretty boy, but every time when I look for her, she either gives me the cold shoulder or makes sarcastic remarks.
One day in May during physics class, I couldn’t stand Zhang Nuan’s behavior towards me anymore, so I secretly said to her, “Nuan Nuan, you don’t know how lonely I am when you ignore me, you don’t know how sad I am every time you go out with that pretty boy, you don’t know how heartbroken I am when you don’t forgive me… Oh, my heart is about to break into pieces…”
Zhang Nuan ignored me and kept drawing on the physics book. I couldn't help but say, "My heart hurts so much, I can't even breathe... I feel so pitiful, I feel like my heart is about to stop beating, you've broken my heart so much... I..."
Zhang Nuan heard me wasting away and talking non-stop. She finally couldn't help but turned around and glared at me, then said to me: "Leng Shan, you have a glass heart? ! ! Can you stop wasting time!!!"
As soon as Zhang Nuan was born, I immediately shut up, because Zhang Nuan's voice was enough for many people nearby to hear. Damn... Wife, can you take it easy? I felt my face turn red in an instant, and I looked around, giving an embarrassed smile to everyone who looked at me.
Then I lowered my head. I could still feel Zhang Nuan's glare at me, but I couldn't help but whisper, "It's over. Another broken piece of shit..."
It's May now, and we will have the college entrance examination in a month. Recently, everyone is discussing the application and graduation-related matters. But Zhang Nuan and I are very calm, because when we tried to apply for the exam, I saw that the paper Zhang Nuan put on her was the school we agreed on at the beginning.
When I saw the paper, I was secretly happy. Although Zhang Nuan still hasn't forgiven me verbally, no, not just verbally... but I can feel that she still cares about me. Sometimes in the morning, she would deliberately throw a bun to me and say, "It's a pity to throw away the leftovers!" In fact, she bought it for me on purpose.
Wang Mengying and the pretty boy still come to our class every day to look for me and Zhang Nuan. Every time I see these two people coming and going together, I feel that I don’t understand them at all. You two have to pester Zhang Nuan and me, a married couple. What the hell are married women doing? You two should just be together...
But one day, I heard Wang Mengying say to the pretty boy in a frustrated tone: "Why are you so stupid? You have been pursuing Zhang Nuan for such a long time, but you haven't made any progress at all!!!"
Wu Xuyang saw that Wang Mengying was also very angry, so he said to her in a rage: "Why don't you seduce Leng Shan?! You are so shameless, untalented and unfeminine, and you still have the nerve to talk about others!" After hearing Wu Xuyang's evaluation of her, Wang Mengying almost slapped the pretty boy twice.
“You, you!! Okay! I’ll endure it! You treat Zhang Nuan softly and she ignores you, why don’t you try something hard?! Just find her and forcefully kiss her, I don’t believe she can still be as calm towards you as before!!! Women actually like men to be strong towards them…” What a stupid idea did that damn bitch Wang Mengying come up with!!! You, if that pretty boy really dares to do that to Zhang Nuan, then I’ll kill you too… No, I can’t force myself on her too, or I’ll make you live a life worse than death!!
I quietly left the place where Wang Mengying and the pretty boy were talking, and in my mind I kept thinking about what Wang Mengying said: "The soft approach won't work, you don't know how to use force... Women all like men to be stronger..." Actually, it makes sense, I always indulge Zhang Nuan, so that it doesn't look like I'm a fucking ma at all!
It's time for me to be strong. Anyway, Zhang Nuan, I fucking love you! If you want to be with another boy, it's impossible. If you don't forgive me and don't reconcile with me, that won't work!! I think the more I indulge and beg Zhang Nuan, the less she will care about me.
Especially on Thursday noon, when I saw the scene of Xiao Bailian and Zhang Nuan standing on the playground, I clenched my fists. It can't go on like this. Lengshan needs to make a strong comeback!
At noon, after the four of us had lunch together, Zhang Nuan was called away by the pretty boy, and I was also entangled by Wang Mengying. I wanted to follow him, but before I could do anything, Zhang Nuan said to me, "Lengshan, you are not allowed to follow me!!!"
I was not in the mood to fool around with Wang Mengying, so I just left her and went back to study. I was thirsty, so I went to the back of the classroom to get some water, and accidentally saw Zhang Nuan and the pretty boy on the playground from the back window.
On the playground, the pretty boy Wu Xuyang stared at Zhang Nuan without blinking, and Zhang Nuan lowered her head, looking as if she was shy about something. A gust of wind blew past, and Zhang Nuan's loose hair was messed up by the wind. The pretty boy raised his hand to help Zhang Nuan wipe away the hair that was blocking her face.
Damn it!!! Damn Wu Xuyang, where the hell are you touching?!!! The most important thing is that Zhang Nuan didn't resist!!! I was holding the water cup that I had just filled with water, and I wanted to crush it as if it were Wu Xuyang. I wanted to rush downstairs and separate the two people immediately, and in fact, that's what I was going to do.
Because before I turned around, I saw the pretty boy getting closer to Zhang Nuan's body! I could tolerate other things, but if I could not tolerate seeing my woman being so intimate with her love rival, I would not be a man!
I took three steps at a time and ran downstairs, because I was afraid that Zhang Nuan would be taken advantage of by the pretty boy. After going downstairs, I quickly ran to my destination and punched the pretty boy.
Zhang Nuan and the pretty boy were both frightened by my sudden and crazy appearance. They almost hit Wu Xuyang in the face. Zhang Nuan pulled the pretty boy behind her with force, then looked at me angrily and said, "Leng Shan, what are you doing?!!!"
"What should I do?! It should be you guys who are doing it?! Is your heart, Zhang Nuan, made of fucking stone? No matter how I try to warm it, it won't warm it up?! Now you're kissing me here with someone else, am I doing what you want? I fucking have to follow you and beg you every day, and then I have to put up with you again and again, and finally watch you making love with someone else, right?!" I shouted to Zhang Nuan like a madman.
That's right, I can tolerate Zhang Nuan's cold eyes towards me, I can tolerate her occasional sarcasm towards me, I can lower my posture and give up my self-esteem for her, but I just can't tolerate her having close contact with any man other than me, from now on, even if it's her brother Zhang Yaoyang!
"What are you crazy about?!!! When did I kiss anyone else?!" Zhang Nuan pointed at me angrily.
"You're still saying no? Am I blind? What I saw wasn't real. Am I having a nightmare in broad daylight?!" I continued to yell at Zhang Nuan, and at this time Ai Yi and Zhang Tong came over without me noticing.
Later I learned that Ai Yi saw me suddenly running downstairs so impulsively in class and thought something had happened, so she called Zhang Tong and they both came together. Zhang Tong stood by me and pulled me to stop getting too excited, while Ai Yi ran to Zhang Nuan and pulled her to persuade her.
"You, you are slandering me! I didn't!" Zhang Nuan pointed at me angrily and said. I kept staring at the pretty boy. He really didn't want to live anymore. He actually dared to listen to Wang Mengying and be tough with Zhang Nuan! ! There are some things that I can dote on Zhang Nuan infinitely, but there are some things that I can't tolerate any sand in my eyes.
I also have my bottom line, and my bottom line is that Zhang Nuan, you can't be intimate with other boys. No! Sometimes I get jealous and crazy even when I talk to you. Now another man is helping you with your hair and even molesting you!