I don’t know what bad things I did in my previous life, or what kind of gods I met in this life. Anyway, why is there not a single day of smooth sailing in my life? It seems that my mother didn’t calculate my birth date and horoscope well since I was born, so I have never had a good day.
This is how I spent the first 18 years of my life. From the age of one to five, when other children were playing in their parents' arms, I was playing with sand at home. Aunt Li Guihong made it for me every day and fed me milk powder. At that time, there was Sanlu. I don't know why my parents were so busy every day. I rarely spoke at that time.
When I was six to twelve years old, I started to grow up and went to school, but I hated homework and classes. What I hated even more was that the teacher always asked us to put our hands behind our backs all day long so that I couldn't do any tricks. Even though I was always disobedient, the teacher could never find my parents because every time the teacher called my dad to complain, my parents never showed up at school. Later, the teacher simply ignored me, so I had to attend physical education classes the most. It was also from the age of ten that I got to know many children who didn't go to school.
When I was thirteen, I was already in junior high school. I had never studied hard in elementary school, so it was like I had never been to preschool before elementary school. I didn't know anything. So I hated school life even more. I skipped classes all day and went out to play with my friends. At that time, I had already started to get in touch with something called marijuana.
When I was in the second grade of junior high school, we were having fun outside. At that time, I just talked to a friend of mine about going to the town to buy some things, the kind that cannot be bought openly. I was still excited about that thing when someone covered my head. Later I found out that my role was to be a hostage to threaten my parents.
I was so scared at the time. I was afraid I would be killed because the gang had knives and guns. My mouth was covered, and my hands and feet were also blocked. The only thing left was my eyes. So that was the first time in my life that I saw what drug abuse was.
For four days, I was with that group of people. I ate their leftovers every day, and I felt sick. I heard the sounds of beating and scolding from the room next to me, the crazy sounds of drug addicts, and even the groans of people having sex.
In addition to those things, I was beaten several times a day. Whenever they were unhappy, they would bring knives to scare me. I was even mad. Finally, on the fifth day, I saw Liang Shangjin, whom I never saw normally. After that incident, I was only scared for a few days, and then I started to behave badly, because only then could I see Liang Shangjin.
Later, once again, I was dragged out by my friends. Although I played very wildly and went very crazy, I never dared to really touch some things, drugs being one of them, because I had seen with my own eyes people going crazy because of drug addiction in front of me, so I was always afraid.
But that time, when the police came in, I don't know how, I became the main culprit, and I didn't even have a chance to explain. Those of mine, who I thought were very close friends, all pointed their fingers at me. That day, I met a dead man named Zhang Yaoyang, and I hated him.
When I was seventeen, by chance, I saw a photo. There was my parents and me in the photo, but there was also another person who looked exactly like me when he was a child. I didn’t think it was an illusion. The first time I saw him, I knew that maybe something was being hidden from me.
So I began to secretly observe Liang Shangjin and I began to look for all kinds of evidence. Finally, I found out that Liang Shangjin paid a sum of money to a man named Leng in the north almost every year. Moreover, I also saw some photos in Liang Shangjin's notebook. I saw the man in the photo who looked like me, and he was smiling.
I thought he was annoying at the time. Why could he smile but I had to be like this? From what he was wearing, I knew he was living a good life. I didn't want that, so I suddenly had the idea of meeting him, so I went alone.
I learned about his school and home through information from Liang Shangjin. I secretly followed him and observed him, trying to find an opportunity to get into his life. And that day, I saw him breaking up with another girl because of a girl, and I suddenly felt that my chance had come.
It was very successful. When I showed up, I successfully found a girl named Annie. I comforted her. At that time, I was full of vigor and vitality. I was not a pure man and I had slept with women before, so I successfully won Annie over.
I got more information about Leng Shan from Annie. Annie was afraid of me but loved me. I knew that she liked me more because I had a face like Leng Shan. During that time, I often asked Annie to hang out with me because I was really lonely in such a strange city.
When Annie told me she was pregnant, my first reaction was to say no, but she refused to listen to me. Later, the whole world knew about it, and my plan to meet Leng Shan was ruined. After this incident, I became anxious and scared, because I was the only one on my side there.
I forced Annie to abort the baby, but I never thought she would end her life in that way! Her choice really scared me, I felt guilty, but I really didn't know she would be so determined. But I still had things to do. I originally hoped to torture Lengshan through Annie, after all, they also had history.
I made a mistake, so I targeted Leng Shan's girlfriend, Zhang Nuan. After I caught Zhang Nuan, she was very disobedient. I hated her look, and I saw a photo of Zhang Yaoyang on her phone. I was shocked at the time. From Zhang Nuan's words, I knew that the man was actually her brother. Haha, the world is really small.
I vented my hatred towards both of them on Zhang Nuan. I took out the very mild poison and injected it into her. Although I don't touch it, I know how to make someone suffer, and this can be regarded as paying back the debt. I was wronged by her brother because of this thing.
I played hide-and-seek with Zhang Yaoyang and Leng Shan. I was smart. They looked for me several times, but I ran away first. But this was not a solution after all. I knew that if I didn't run away, I would definitely be caught by Zhang Yaoyang. Although he was a policeman, I also knew that he was not a good person.
After returning home, I had a big fight with Liang Shangjin, and was indirectly put in solitary confinement by them. They forced me to study, but I didn't listen at all. Later, Leng Shan graduated. I knew what university he was admitted to, which made Liang Shangjin and his family very happy. During that time, I was at home every day to tease them.
After Leng Shan took the college entrance examination, he came to Yunnan. Suddenly, there were two more people in our family whom I hated. During that time, I was always thinking of ways to make trouble for Leng Shan. I couldn't bear to see him do well. So when Leng Shan was about to go home, I made a plan for myself. I stole all his things and pretended to be him and was sent on the plane by Liang Shangjin.
When we went to the city where Leng Shan lived, the first thing I did was to ask Zhang Nuan out, because she was the only person who could help me take revenge on Leng Shan and Zhang Yaoyang. I didn't want to be Liang Chao, because if I were Liang Chao, I would feel that my life was full of pain.
Zhang Nuan stayed with me for two days under my threat. During those two days, I really got to know the girl named Zhang Nuan. I really don’t want to say that I know her, and I don’t understand why she is so popular. In that small town, I felt that life was very quiet and I enjoyed it, but my heart was really bitter.
I drank too much that night and I don’t know what I said, but when I woke up, I saw that Zhang Nuan didn’t run away. I was full of questions. After that, I thought about it for several days. Even if I didn’t want to be Liang Chao, I couldn’t be Leng Shan.
I don't want to continue living in the past and the shadow of Lengshan. I should have my own life, not Liang Chao's life. So I suddenly decided to travel around. At least I can take this opportunity to relax myself and experience a life that belongs only to me.
I resolutely set out, and unexpectedly, after half a year, I liked this kind of life more and more. I bought a bicycle, and I even learned to work. At the beginning, I had money because I took money from my family, which was also my first capital. But later, I never used that bank card again because I learned to make money by myself.
I went to Tibet, where the sky was blue and the clouds were white, and everything there fascinated me. Although I suffered a lot that year, every day I felt that life really belonged to me, without any distractions, without the past, and even the little resentment in my heart was gradually smoothed out.
I seldom contact Liang Shangjin. Along the way, I did not buy a camera because the best camera in the world is our eyes. So I would rather stay in one place for several days just because I haven't seen enough scenery.
One day, I suddenly found someone secretly taking photos of me! When I turned around, I saw a look of shock on her face! I thought, I am not a good-looking guy, why should I do this? However, I did not dislike the girl in white.
But later, when she suddenly asked me if I knew Leng Shan, I hated her.