After Zhang Nuan recovered from her illness, she wanted to run outside all day long. I found out that she was learning to cook at that time. It would take her a long time to prepare rice and vegetables every time. Later I learned that she was learning to make lunch boxes. Then every noon or evening, she would run back to school just to give Leng Shan a lunch box that she had prepared all day.
Every time I would shamelessly steal food that Zhang Nuan made when she had just finished her work, sometimes it was a small rice ball, sometimes it was a pair of chicken wings, which made Zhang Nuan quarrel with me and ask me to give it back to her! How stingy! I just ate some of your food!
Later, I deliberately rarely saw Zhang Nuan, because whenever I saw her, no matter what her expression or mood was, I felt sad. Zhang Nuan was going to college, and I knew that maybe in this life, I could only be her brother. But I always didn't want to be too far away from her, so I said that I had a project in Harbin, so that I could go to see her often.
In fact, every time I went to see her, I had just gotten off the plane. And Leng Shan was also very unfriendly to me. Men understand men's hearts best. Leng Shan saw me as if he saw an enemy. Later, I was happy to quarrel with Leng Shan frequently. I was so completely defeated in the relationship with this brother who was much younger than me. Only in the relationship, the victory or defeat is not divided by age, ability, appearance, or anything else.
Another four years passed, my parents and friends urged me to get married, but I hadn't met that person yet, so how could I waste myself so hastily? ! I would rather be alone than be with the wrong person! In May of that year, Leng Shan declared to me nakedly that she belonged to Leng Shan.
Although I was sad at that time, I had truly let go of some things. From now on, as long as you are happy, that year, she smiled like a flower, and that year, she cried like rain, but each of her expressions would change without my presence.
In fact, you may meet many people in your life, but only you know who is the one who makes you unforgettable. It is not easy to let go of someone you have guarded for more than ten years.
On the day of Zhang Nuan's wedding, I just went to order a table symbolically, and soon I said I had things to do and hurriedly fled the happy hall. I went to the bar alone to drink to my heart's content. Maybe I am not afraid of anything else, but I am weak in love because I never have the courage to express it to that person.
That day, Zhang Yaoyang found me and talked to me a lot. It turned out that he knew exactly what I was thinking. The sentence I remember most clearly was: "Brother, isn't it good that she is your sister?" This is what Zhang Yaoyang asked me.
Yes, of course. I am very happy that she is my sister. What else can I expect? ! Some things cannot be obtained by just wishing. Zhang Nuan has grown from a little girl of four or five years old to a married woman. Seeing her happy every day, I also began to think about a question: where is my happiness? !
Although it was a wrong love, I also hope that this wrong love can end as soon as possible. Only in this way can I redeem my long-lost heart. Later, as long as there are similar girls introduced to me, I will try my best to try to see if there can be further development between us.
I am already 35 years old. During that time, I have had several girlfriends. Each of them is young and beautiful. Each of them told me that they loved me to the point of breaking their hearts. But what if I were a pauper? How many people would still love me?! But I never stopped pursuing my own happiness.
I have gone on blind dates from three times a week to three times a day. That afternoon, I went to a place where I had agreed to meet and drank tea. I didn’t understand why I had to drink tea. Isn’t it normal for young people to drink coffee and eat Western food
But when I saw the woman who had agreed to go on a blind date with me and was sitting opposite me, I was a little shocked, but I also seemed to understand something.
"Long time no see." I spoke first. I knew the woman sitting opposite me. Her name was Hu Chengcheng. She was my classmate in my freshman year. We had a little history back then. The moment I saw her, I was confused.
The person who introduced me to the blind date didn’t give me any information about the person I was dating, including the name, which was definitely intentional. But what I don’t understand is that Hu Chengcheng must know my information, and I didn’t give out false information at the beginning! ! ! ! ! ! Then why did she come here today? !
"Well, it's been a long time. How are you?" Hu Chengcheng said. I looked at her and saw that she had changed a lot. She became more attractive and feminine. These are precious gifts given to us by time. The beauty of a person after tempering is irreplaceable.
Although I was sure that she was my blind date, I still had to ask some questions. "I didn't expect it to be you... You, you know it was me?" I realized that my question seemed stupid...
"Of course I know, otherwise I wouldn't have come! Do you know why I asked you to meet in the teahouse?" Hu Chengcheng answered my question directly without any hesitation, which I didn't expect.
"I don't know." I really don't know. When we were together before, she always liked to eat or drink sweet things!
"I only started to like drinking tea after I broke up with you. At the beginning, I didn't like it either, especially when I took the first sip. I felt that the taste of tea was a bit bitter. But when I drank it, I found that the fragrance of tea lingered between my lips and teeth for a long time." Hu Chengcheng said to me while sipping the tea on the table.
After listening to what she said, I began to drink the tea in my hand slowly like her. I found that the taste did seem to be different! It was magical.
"When we drink tea with different moods, the tea will have different tastes. Su Zhe, you are my first sip of tea. When I first came into contact with you, I felt you were bitter because you broke up with me so decisively. I was very sad at that time, but I did not pester you because I felt that even if I could be with you again, I would not be able to escape the fate of being abandoned next time." Hu Chengcheng's words were like a knife cutting into my heart.
"But, you are a cup of tea that becomes more fragrant the more you drink it. Do you still remember what I said when we broke up?" Hu Chengcheng looked up at me. I saw a hint of hope in her eyes, but I'm sorry, I really don't remember what your last words to me were! ! It was so long ago...
When Hu Chengcheng saw that I didn't say anything, she smiled, took a sip of tea and said to me: "When you left, I said behind you that I would wait for you to come back." Hearing these words, it's not that I was afraid to move, but being moved and liking someone are two different things.
"Su Zhe, I have always known that there is someone in your heart, but you have not been happy for so many years, which means that the person in your heart does not like you, or you are not in her heart. So I came here today, I want to end your wrong love. People can fall in love with the wrong person, but if you keep falling in love with the wrong person, then you are destined to never be happy. And you must know that because of your unhappiness, another person has also lost happiness, because my happiness is your happiness." I was confused by Hu Chengcheng's words.
But no matter how dumb I am, I can still understand what she means. "Have you thought it through? We are not children anymore, and you know that I have someone in my heart. I don't know how I can forget her, or I have never thought about forgetting her. We, we have a past, and I, I don't want to hurt you again..."
I really didn't want to hurt her again. At least at that time, there was no place for her in my heart. If I hastily agreed to her, it would be irresponsible to both of us.
"I never thought of asking you to forget her, just remember her in your heart. But the reason you go on a blind date is because you also want happiness, right?! In this case, you won't accept anything from anyone, so what are you looking for? A heartbeat? Love at first sight? Or are you waiting for that person who will never look back?"
Every word Hu Chengcheng said hit the point. Yes, I have been searching, but what exactly am I looking for? ! Heartbeat? Love at first sight? Those are too ridiculous for me. "That's right. So, you came here today because you have made up your mind? Do you hope that we can continue our relationship?"
Some things don't need to be hidden at a certain point. We are all adults and there is no need to play that kind of charade, so I asked her directly what she meant.
"When I came here today, I had already made up my mind. I think we should give each other another chance. At least we should try hard, right?! If we haven't even tried, then how can we conclude that there won't be a deeper story between us? So, Mr. Su, do you think I'm a good blind date?" Damn, women nowadays are so sharp.
Do I really know this girl in front of me? It seems that I have never tried to understand her... I looked into her eyes with a firm gaze. "Okay."
Since then, I have had a woman by my side, her name is Hu Chengcheng, and we went to the Civil Affairs Bureau after being together for five months. It turns out that I never understood her. It turns out that when we get our wrong love back on track, the feeling of relief is so beautiful. A pair of shoes that fit your feet will not make you tired even if you walk a long way.