It turned out that this was the coldest bottom of the sea in the depths of my memory, and here was hidden the darkest undercurrent in my memory. I gave up resistance completely, and just when I thought there was no hope at all, I suddenly saw a light in front of me, and I walked towards it. The light became brighter and brighter, and I couldn’t even see what was in front of me. It was not until I walked over that I realized that I had returned to elementary school. It turned out that it was not light, but a passage leading to my childhood memories.
The bell for the end of get out of class rang, and the boys ran out of the classroom and rushed to the playground together. Of course, I was with them. We were going to play hide-and-seek. Usually, we would use rock-paper-scissors to decide who would be the ghost who needed to lie on the wall, count, and then catch people. But that day, everyone didn't play rock-paper-scissors. Instead, they all stood opposite me. Then a few boys pointed at my nose and said, Leng Shan be the ghost, Leng Shan be the ghost!
I don't understand why we don't have to play rock-paper-scissors today, and I don't understand why I have to be the ghost. I shouted loudly, "It's not fair, it's not fair!" But they said in unison, "Because Lengshan likes deaf people, Bailu is deaf, Lengshan likes Bailu, Lengshan likes deaf people!" I looked at them with my eyes wide open, but they were just reciting a jingle. I don't know how they knew it, but Bailu's ears are really not very good. She told me that she didn't dare to be distracted during class because she sometimes couldn't hear. She would be very serious in class because only in this way could she judge whether she was called to answer the question based on the direction of the teacher's finger. If she was distracted when the teacher called her, she might not hear it. In that case, the teacher would have to call her several times, and everyone would find that her ears were not working well.
I also asked her why she didn't want to talk when she went home with me at night. She told me that it was because her hearing was not very good and sometimes she couldn't hear clearly what I said, so she didn't dare to ask me what I said just now, because she was afraid that I would be angry. No one wants to repeat what they have said. This is what her family told her, and her family members are also unwilling to talk to her because they always have to say it again when they talk to her.
So usually I was the one talking and she was listening, but when I was talking she would always smile softly, sometimes she would lower her head, sometimes she would look at me quietly, but no matter what, she would always smile, always smile, always smile at me! But when those boys said I liked deaf people and asked me to be a ghost, I forgot all about it, I shouted loudly, I don’t like deaf people, I don’t like Bailu! !
My voice was so loud that she, who had just come downstairs to the playground to watch me play games, was stunned. She stood there like a stone statue, looking at me motionlessly. The boys shouted loudly, "We don't believe it, you just like deaf people, you just like Bai Lu!" My eyes were filled with blood, and I shouted loudly, "I don't like deaf people!"
I was almost crying because of them. I turned around and wanted to run back to the building, but when I turned around, I saw her standing there, the one who sometimes couldn't hear me. She standing there didn't make my eyes wet, but only angry, because she made me feel embarrassed in front of the boys behind me, the most embarrassed I've ever been. I picked up a stone on the ground and threw it at her, shouting loudly, I hate you! !
The stone didn't hit her, but she didn't hide, just stood there and looked at me. Her action didn't stop me, but made me even more angry. I desperately picked up the stones on the ground and threw them at her. One stone after another hit her body, some hit her face, some hit her nose, and some hit her arms, but she didn't cry, because she didn't believe that the boy who went home with her every day would hit her, the boy who took off his shirt to catch dragonflies for her would hit her, the boy who told her jokes every day would hit her, that... that... She was just remembering her boy. I threw stones at her with all my strength, and I didn't understand why she didn't hide, why did she? ? ! !
Some of the places hit by the stones bled, and the blood flowed down instead of tears, flowing onto the boy's clothes, onto the ground, and finally into his heart. I threw the stones as hard as I could, and shouted at her standing there, "I hate you, I hate you!" It wasn't until I was hoarse that the other girls called the teacher down.
Then her parents came to the school and took her home, and my parents came to the school and they just taught me at the school together with my teacher, because I was not only beating but also falling in love, but all I acknowledged was beating and falling in love, but she told the teacher that we were in love, so she was taken home instead of being covered in blood. Eventually my father beat me up in front of the teacher, but I still didn't admit that I went home with her every day because I was afraid of embarrassment in front of my classmates.
I didn't get out of bed that night because my dad beat me so hard. I fell asleep in bed and forgot the note she put in my schoolbag before she was taken away by her parents. The note said, "I'll wait for you to go home together at night." Because my mom carried me home that day, I couldn't wait for her at the usual place. She couldn't go out because her parents watched her too closely. Finally, she could only sneak out of the house in the middle of the night. She knew that it was already past school time, but she thought that if he didn't see her, he would definitely find a way to meet her here. She just wanted to tell the boy, "It's okay, I forgive you."
But she waited there until dawn, until her family found her and took her home, but she didn't see her boy. Since then, they never went home together again. In fact, after that, the girl secretly found a chance to tell the boy that she had forgiven him a long time ago, but the boy never walked that way home again, because he no longer had the face to face her.
The painful memories made me sober up. Should I choose to escape like I did before? Another person I can never face? At least I didn't hurt her this time. I just felt embarrassed. No, I don't want to be tortured by the same pain again. I took a deep breath and walked back to the room I came out of.
I pushed open the door of the room, and sure enough, Hong Gou and Zhang Nuan were chatting with the old Chinese doctor. However, as soon as I came in, Zhang Nuan stopped talking and deliberately turned her head to the side to avoid my gaze.
As soon as Hong Gou saw me come in, he said to me, "Brother, your arm should be fine. I have asked the doctor. I will prescribe some Chinese medicine for you. You can take it at home for a few days."
I nodded and said nothing, and sat down next to the old Chinese doctor, opposite Hong Gou and Zhang Nuan. The old Chinese doctor told me some precautions after returning home, such as not to use too much force on my arms recently. I didn't want to listen to the old man talking to me, and my mind was full of what the two people opposite would say to me when I went out, and how I would face them.
I couldn't help but secretly glance at the two people opposite me. Zhang Nuan still kept his head down and didn't look at me. Instead, Hong Gou looked at me with interest and a strange look in his eyes, but the expression in his eyes was a little complicated, making me unable to guess what he was thinking.
The doctor told me what I should pay attention to when I go home, but I didn't realize it. It was Hong Gou who said thank you to the doctor and told me that we should go. After that, he took Zhang Nuan out. When Zhang Nuan passed by me, she still kept her head down and I couldn't see her eyes. It seemed that I was the only one who made the situation so awkward, but it embarrassed both of us.
I also stood up and walked out of the room, and found that they were paying the money there to get the medicine for me. I followed them silently, and when we walked out of the hospital gate, Hong Gou handed the medicine to me and said a few polite words to me, saying that it was all thanks to me today. I said it was no big deal, as we were all classmates and everyone had to help when we encountered this kind of thing. After that, I was ready to take the medicine home, but Hong Gou said, what else? What's the point of going home so early? Besides, you helped Zhang Nuan so much today, why should I ask you to treat you to dinner? I said no, because if I don't go home for dinner in the evening, my mother will definitely call me. Hong Gou looked at me, squinted his eyes and smiled and said, what's the matter, you don't give me face
I don't know why I suddenly heard a vague threat in his words, and the smile on his face made people look a little creepy. I didn't know what to do, so I could only raise my eyes and look at Zhang Nuan for help. Fortunately, Zhang Nuan didn't lower her head at this time but was looking at me. When she saw me looking at her, she blinked quickly. I immediately understood what she meant. She wanted me to accept Hong Gou's invitation.
I smiled and said to Hong Gou, "I'll call my mom later. I have to give this face to Brother Gou." Hong Gou came over and put his arm around my shoulders and said, "This is my good brother!"
When Zhang Nuan saw Hong Gou putting his arm around my shoulders, she frowned slightly, as if she was afraid that he would accidentally touch my injured shoulder. But she just hesitated for a moment and finally said nothing, just lowered her head and followed us.
When we got to the side of the road, Hong Gou stretched out his hand to hail a taxi. Originally, I wanted to sit in the front, but Hong Gou sat in the front seat all of a sudden and said to me, "Don't fight, don't fight. Whoever sits in the front pays."
I couldn't call him out, so I just opened the back door and sat inside, and Zhang Nuan had no choice but to sit next to me in the back.
However, I still noticed that the red dog sitting in front was staring at us through the rearview mirror, as if observing our every slightest movement. I didn't know what he wanted to see, but the uneasy feeling in my heart became heavier. I always felt that the red dog in front was like a time bomb that could explode next to Zhang Nuan and me at any time, but I didn't know what he was waiting for.
We all got in the car, and the driver asked Hong Gou where we were going. Hong Gou said Datun. When I heard him say Datun, I was stunned and felt very strange. Even Zhang Nuan suddenly raised her head and looked at Hong Gou in front of her, because Datun was a suburb and there were no restaurants at all. Why on earth did Hong Gou take us there? ! !
I noticed Zhang Nuan's movements out of the corner of my eye, and I knew that she was as strange as I was, so I felt even more strange. If even Zhang Nuan didn't know, then what on earth was this red dog thinking
Zhang Nuan lowered her head and bit her fingernails silently. I knew she was thinking the same thing as me. The car had already started, and Hong Gou was still sitting in the front leisurely. But I knew he must be looking at us from time to time through the rearview mirror, so I dared not act rashly, for fear that he would see that there was something going on between Zhang Nuan and me. But now I really wanted to ask Zhang Nuan if she knew what Hong Gou was going to do in Datun. Fortunately, Zhang Nuan spoke up at this time, raised her head and asked Hong Gou, who was sitting in the front, what were we going to do in Datun