Although I understood what Zhang Nuan meant, I still stood there to deliberately anger her and said, "Who knows what you are mumbling about? You are just talking nonsense!" In the end, Zhang Nuan squatted on the ground pretending to be injured, and then I wanted to go over to help her, but she caught me and beat me up before I was done.
The three of us started to go down the mountain and go home. At first, I helped Bai Lu carry things, and the two girls were chatting there. But after chatting for a while, Zhang Nuan couldn't stay still and ran to the front by herself to look around and play. Only Bai Lu and I were left talking in the back. Watching Zhang Nuan running around mischievously in the front, and occasionally inviting us to go see those fun things together, I had a feeling at the time, although it was a bit strange, that Bai Lu and I were like father and mother, and Zhang Nuan running around in the front was our child.
We said goodbye at the entrance of the park. Zhang Nuan and Bai Lu exchanged phone numbers, and Zhang Nuan also made an appointment with Bai Lu to have lunch together on Monday when we arrived at school. I asked Bai Lu curiously, "Are you going to school on Monday instead of learning painting?" Bai Lu smiled and said to me, "Well, I can't not study any academic subjects. I have missed a lot of classes recently. I have to make up for it when I return to school this time."
I nodded and said "oh", but I didn't expect Zhang Nuan to still say to Bai Lu in a teasing way, "Then I'll help you with your lessons!" I almost laughed out loud, thinking that Zhang Nuan, who had been eating and playing all day, was giving others lessons. When Zhang Nuan saw me laughing at her, she glared at me and said, "Why are you laughing? I'm better than you in study, even if I'm not good enough!" I laughed and said, "Just your second brother's brain, stop teasing me, okay!"
Zhang Nuan started to hit me hard and said, "You are the second senior brother's brain, you are the father's brain!" Bai Lu also made us laugh, and then said that the three of us should go to the library to study together. Zhang Nuan and I happily said in unison, "Okay!"
At this time, an empty car came, so I let Zhang Nuan get in the car and leave. Zhang Nuan was not very happy, thinking that we had finally had such a good time. She also suggested that the three of us go to KTV to sing together in the evening. But I rejected her on the spot, because my excuse last night was that my classmate went to sing on his birthday. If I went to sing again tonight, my mother would kill me. But Zhang Nuan was not giving up and told Bai Lu that she would not take me, and they would go alone. Unfortunately, Bai Lu had to go to her teacher's house to learn painting in the evening, so no one could accompany Zhang Nuan to sing tonight. Zhang Nuan could only hug Bai Lu tightly, then stepped on my foot hard and got in the car and left.
After seeing Zhang Nuan off, I asked Bai Lu how to get there. Bai Lu pointed to the bus stop in front and said we could take the bus there. I told her I would take her there, and Bai Lu nodded gently. Then we walked slowly forward together like we did when we were kids.
Bailu just kept walking forward with her head down without saying a word, and I didn't know what to say. After all, it's not easy for two people who haven't spoken to each other for so long to be as close as they were when they were kids. In the end, I just made small talk and asked her, "Where has your family moved to now?"
Bailu told me quietly, I said "oh", and we didn't talk again until we got to the station. Bailu told me to give her the things and she could carry them by herself. I said I would give them to her after the bus arrived, because I thought this drawing board looked scary and it was really heavy to carry. Didn't she feel heavy carrying it every day? Bailu smiled and told me that she was used to it. After all, she liked it, so she didn't think it was a big deal.
I nodded and said a little enviously, "Yes, it's better than those of us who just mess around in school every day." Bai Lu frowned slightly and asked me in some confusion, "Have you ever thought about what you like and what you plan to do in the future?"
I shook my head and kicked a small stone at my feet onto the road. Then I watched the speeding car crush it. I sighed and said, "I thought about it, but I found that I didn't want to do anything but play." Bai Lu heard me say this and looked at me with some concern and said, "Isn't that just lazy?"
I really didn't expect Bai Lu to say such things, so I couldn't help but smile and said, "Not really. I just don't know what the point is and what I can do even if I get into a good university. I always feel that what my parents told me, about getting into a good university to have a good job and a good future, seems far away from me. In fact, I don't even like to play very much. Sometimes I get distracted while playing, and I don't know what I want to do. I just feel that I have no goals and can't see the future. But I especially want to know what the future will be like. Do you understand?"
Bai Lu tilted her head and looked at me seriously, as if she was thinking carefully about what I said. After thinking for a while, she seemed to understand something and nodded, saying, "Well, I understand a little bit, but I think you just need to find something you really like, so that you can fight for it and work hard for it. So what do you really like?"
Bai Lu looked at me with her big eyes as she spoke. I lowered my head and thought about what she said, while playing with the stones at my feet. For some reason, I suddenly raised my head and looked at her, just like when I was a child, I would deliberately run out of the classroom early after school so that she couldn't find me. She would wait for me stupidly at the intersection, and then I would suddenly appear in front of her with two fried skewers. However, I didn't have the fried skewers in my hand now. Instead, I wanted to say to her, what I like is you.
But I didn't say it after all, because I realized that now is not my childhood, and the words "I like you" are not just two fried skewers. But she seemed to know what I was going to say, and looked at me as if no one was around, as if the world had stopped turning, and the whole world was looking at me with bated breath with her, and she didn't say anything, but her eyes seemed to have countless words to say to me. Those were the words she wanted to say to that boy many nights, and now they have turned into soft waves in her eyes, one glance will make people fall deeply in it, but now I want to break free immediately, because for someone like me who can't swim, is there anything more dangerous than falling into this sea of longing
I immediately avoided her gaze and looked behind her, pretending to see if the car was coming. She immediately realized her mistake and lowered her head, not daring to look at me again. The car hadn't come yet, so our brief embarrassment hadn't ended yet. In the end, I was the first to speak, "Um, don't tell anyone about what we three did together today."
Bai Lu looked at me a little puzzled, and I curled my lips again and said, I had a fight with my girlfriend Lin Yi recently, and I was afraid that she would misunderstand me if she knew that Zhang Nuan and I went out to play. In fact, I left my things outside yesterday, and Zhang Nuan brought them to me today. And she hasn’t been to the park since her mother died, so I accompanied her to the park today.
Bai Lu was stunned when she heard what I said. After all, my words contained a lot of information, and she needed some time to react. But after listening to me, she nodded and said, "Well, I won't tell anyone else."
Although I didn't notice any unnatural behavior from Bai Lu after I mentioned Lin Yi, I found that she was obviously unwilling to talk. Fortunately, the car finally arrived at this time. I gave her the things, she waved to me and got in the car. I stood below looking at her, and then told her that I would see her on Monday. She was stunned for a moment, but still smiled at me and nodded. Then the car drove away, taking the unhappy girl with it.
I stood there watching the car drive away, and suddenly I felt a little bad in my heart, because I realized that the last words I said to her seemed a little inappropriate, because mentioning Lin Yi in front of her seemed a very cruel thing. I felt a little regretful and couldn't figure out what I had done to be so stupid as to say such things to her. Even if I didn't tell her not to tell others about what happened today, would she tell others
Oh, I'm such an idiot. My relationship with her had improved a lot today. At least we could say hello and talk to each other when we meet in the future. But I messed it up in the end. I went home in a bad mood. When I got home, my dad happened to be back. My mom and dad started to question me repeatedly, asking me what the relationship between me and Zhang Nuan was, and why I took so long to send her there. I had no choice but to say that I met Bai Lu from elementary school. After chatting with her for a while, my mom and dad made two "ohs" sounds with strange expressions, and my dad stopped talking. But my mom kept asking me where Bai Lu was going to school, how tall she was, and whether she was pretty. I told her everything, but I didn't tell her that Bai Lu was in the same school as me, because I never told my family that she was in the same high school as me. When I was young, my mom and dad seemed to dislike that I had such a good relationship with her, but now I don't know why their attitude has changed 180 degrees. They seem to care about Bai Lu a lot, and they care even more about the relationship between Bai Lu and me. I always feel like they like Bai Lu very much and want her to be my wife!
I couldn't handle it anymore, so I quickly made an excuse to do my homework and went back to my room. I went into the room, closed the door, and lay down on the bed. After lying there for a while, I remembered what Bai Lu said to me at the station, so I sat up again and felt that I couldn't live in such a daze any more. Although I still didn't know what I wanted to do in the future, I still felt that I couldn't waste my time like this. I took my schoolbag and found a few papers from it, ready to do them, but I cursed the guy next to me. It's not that I don't want to work hard, I just couldn't do the second multiple-choice question. I studied there for almost half an hour and still had no idea. Finally, I threw the paper on the ground and cursed the guy next to me. Damn, the papers they usually give out are so fucking difficult that people like me who don't study hard usually don't even have a chance to work hard. I felt annoyed all of a sudden. Fortunately, my mother called me to eat at this time. After dinner, I didn't touch the book again. I watched TV for a while and went to bed.
On Monday morning, I was woken up by my mother very reluctantly, and then I casually ate a few bites of the breakfast she prepared for me. When my mother gave me 100 yuan for this week's meal, I hesitated for a moment, because I remembered that I still owed Zhang Tong 500 yuan. But after thinking about it, I still couldn't ask my mother, because I didn't want to make her worry about me because of such a trivial matter.
I went out in the cold morning wind and waited for a long time before a car came. What surprised me was that I met our class monitor Annie on the bus. Although I had met her several times before, ever since I saw the thong she wore in class last time, I felt a little unusual when I saw her.
So this time I didn't hide behind her and peek at her from time to time like I usually did. Instead, I walked up to her and said hello. What I didn't expect was that she felt a little embarrassed when she saw me. She just nodded at me and didn't say anything. Then she quickly stood by the car window as if she didn't dare to even look at me.