After hearing what Zhang Nuan said, I kept nodding my head, and then thanked her endlessly, saying, "I won't say anything more, Sister Nuan, you are my relative!" However, Zhang Nuan was there, pressing the phone in her hand, and asked me casually, "Do you like her?"
Zhang Nuan's seemingly careless question left me speechless. I pretended to be confused and asked, "Who is she?" But Zhang Nuan turned her head and stared at me with her big eyes and said, "Bai Lu."
I lowered my head, knowing that there was no need to hide it from Zhang Nuan, but I really didn't want to think about it. In the end, I just said softly, I don't know.
Fortunately, Zhang Nuan did not continue to question me. She just told me calmly that the text message had been sent and she replied saying that it was okay and it was done, and I don’t have to worry about it.
I nodded after listening to her, but I didn't feel relieved in my heart, because I realized at this moment that I had never gotten over the hurdle of Bai Lu, and that I had been deceiving myself about being friends with her. She might be able to be friends with me, but I could not be her friend because I was such a selfish scum.
What I didn't expect was that Zhang Nuan put a piece of candy on my table at this time, and then gently said to me that some children can only eat one piece of candy, but he held several pieces of candy in his hand, and he refused to throw away any of them, but one day he will grow up and choose the candy that belongs to him.
I just opened the candy Zhang Nuan gave me, but when I heard her words, I was stunned, because I didn't expect Zhang Nuan to say such philosophical words. I blinked and looked at her in disbelief. I pouted and put the candy she gave me into my mouth, but I didn't know that the candy was very bitter. I said to Zhang Nuan, "Why is it so bitter?" Zhang Nuan said disdainfully, "You ate too much."
I didn't know how to answer her. I just slowly savored the bitter candy in my mouth. Yes, I ate too much. I really wanted to grow up.
The classes in the morning were very boring. Fortunately, the English class representative at the table in front of me brought the books she said she would lend me. I was so happy. Zhang Nuan also joined in the fun and said she wanted to read, so I gave her a few books. We both stopped talking and just lay on the table reading. I didn’t think it was a big deal at the time, but later I realized, damn, it turned out that the English class representative didn’t want Zhang Nuan and I to talk in class and affect her listening, so she brought novels for us to read. She is indeed a top student, and she is so thoughtful.
However, when I was reading the book, I was still worried about Lin Yi, so I kept texting Lin Yifa. I sent many messages, and although I never asked her what she thought, she didn't reply to any of them. This made me a little worried, so I asked Zhang Nuan. Zhang Nuan was much more optimistic than me and said that if she didn't reply to your text message, it doesn't mean she wants to break up with you. It's better to believe her and give her more time.
I nodded, thinking that this was the only way, but I still had a bad feeling in my heart.
I spent the whole morning in a daze and read two novels. Just before lunch break, Lin Yi finally replied to my text message with only a few short words, saying that she would come upstairs to see me after school at noon.
Zhang Nuante asked me curiously what was going on, so I showed her the text message. After reading it, she just curled her lips and said, "It's hard to say, Xiaoshanzi." It seems that she still hasn't thought it through completely.
I asked Zhang Nuan nervously, what does it mean that you haven't thought it through completely? Zhang Nuan shook his head and said, "Who knows? You can only know if you go and see it yourself."
I sighed and waited quietly for the get out of class to end. Finally, the bell rang. I took a deep breath, but I was still very nervous. I stood up from my seat. Zhang Nuan beside me clenched her fists and said "Come on" to me. I wanted to smile at her, but found that I was so nervous at the moment that I couldn't smile at all.
I could only give her a smile that was uglier than crying and left the classroom. When I went upstairs, I thought about it and sent a text message to Lin Yi. It only had three simple words: I miss you.
I went up against the flow of people going for lunch, so it was very difficult. I waited until almost everyone upstairs had left before I could go up. When I arrived at Lin Yi's floor, I saw Lin Yi standing in the corridor outside their class.
I walked towards her without hesitation. When I got to her side, she looked at me quietly as usual. I was the first to speak and asked her, "Have you been waiting for me for a long time?" She said lightly, "Not bad."
Her attitude was the same as usual, which made me feel a lot more at ease, because I always feel that no change is better than change.
The two of them fell silent again for a moment. Finally, I couldn't hold back my anger and asked her softly, "What do you think?"
I lowered my head and didn't dare to look at her, because I was afraid that she would say the answer that would scare me. But what I didn't expect was that something furry suddenly wrapped around my neck. Then she whispered to me, "Try this and see if it fits."
I looked up in surprise and saw that I had a scarf around my neck. I touched the blue scarf on my neck in disbelief and asked her in surprise, "Did you knit it?"
Lin Yi smiled gently and said to me, Well, I originally wanted to weave some patterns for you, but I’m too stupid to learn how, so in the end I can only weave this for you.
As she spoke, she reached out her hand and gently touched the scarf on my neck. Although this is a very common thing between lovers, she is my Lin Yi, she still loves me, I know, I just know! !
The gloom that had been suppressing my heart for days suddenly turned into clear skies like the weather outside the window. I happily said to her, why are you knitting so early? It’s still a long time before winter!
Lin Yi did not respond to me. Instead, she put down the hand that was touching her scarf, slowly closed her eyes, opened them again, looked at me and said, "What did you do yesterday?"
My heart skipped a beat when I heard her ask me this question. Although her eyes were still as calm as usual, I was so nervous that cold sweat ran down my back, because I didn't know why she suddenly asked this. Did she know that I went to the park with Zhang Nuan yesterday
But I can’t do that. Only Zhang Nuan, Bai Lu and I should know about this. Zhang Nuan is very smart about this kind of thing and she shouldn’t tell anyone else. Besides, she doesn’t know anyone here, so who would she tell? I specifically told Bai Lu yesterday not to tell anyone else. Lin Yi shouldn’t know about this!
I looked into Lin Yi's eyes. There was no expression in her eyes. I couldn't see anything. I was a little scared because I didn't know how to answer her. Because she saw the watches drawn on Zhang Nuan's and my hands that day, she was a little unhappy. If she knew that I went out to play with Zhang Nuan when I had an argument with her, I didn't dare to think about it anymore, but I thought, what if she knew
If I lie to her, wouldn't I seem guilty? There's nothing wrong with it, but if I lie to her I can't wash myself clean even if I jump into the Yellow River. How about telling her the truth and saying that she hasn't been to the park since Zhang Nuan's mother passed away, so I accompanied her
Just when I was thinking about saying this, I suddenly thought, but if Lin Yi asked me why I was with Zhang Nuan on Sunday, how would I explain it? In the end, I decided to lie, because I felt that I had not done anything to let her down, and it was just a white lie.
I sniffed and said to her, I stayed at home on Sunday, watched TV, played with my phone, but didn't read any books, what's wrong
Lin Yi lowered her eyes, as if everything in her body was suddenly drained away. She stood there and said to me quietly, “Originally, I wanted to wait until winter to give you this scarf, because I also wanted to knit you two more gloves, but now it seems that I have no chance to knit gloves for you.”
Lin Yi raised her eyes and looked at me, but my whole body seemed to have fallen into an abyss all of a sudden. At the same time, Lin Yi's tears also fell into the abyss with me. They flowed down her cheeks drop by drop, quietly and without sound, just like her. But it was like a huge thunder before a rainstorm that instantly awakened my heart. My brain suddenly became empty, and there was only one question in my head: how did she know? ? ! !
I stood there panicking and wiping her tears with my hands, but the tears couldn't stop flowing down. I was so anxious that I was about to cry. While wiping her tears, I anxiously asked her, what's wrong, don't cry... But Lin Yi looked at me with her tear-red eyes and said, why did you lie to me
I was speechless for a moment, but there was no turning back now. Even if it was a dead end, I would go all the way. I grabbed her hand, looked into her eyes and said, "What are you talking about? I didn't lie to you."
But Lin Yi pushed my hand away with all her strength, her eyes were red from crying. She said to me word by word, "You are still lying to me at this time, you are so cold and indifferent, I have misjudged you!"
I blinked and looked at her, knowing that she might already know everything, but I was ready to make a final dying struggle. I swallowed and asked her calmly, "Where did I lie to you?"
Lin Yi's clear eyes had turned red from crying. She stared at me coldly and said, "You and your new desk mate went to the park together yesterday, right? Each of you had a small flower in your hair. Can you tell me specifically what color they were?"
I looked at her with wide eyes. I couldn't believe that she knew so much. I stood there speechless like a stone statue. At this moment, I knew very well in my heart that everything was over, over.
But Lin Yi in front of me did not stop, just like a person who has lost all hope, she continued to look at me and said coldly, "I am far away from you, and you are far away from me. No matter how far away you are from me, no matter where you are, I will believe you, because I know you have me in your heart, but now you have deceived me, in front of me, looking into my eyes, so I don't know now, I really don't know if the person in your heart is still me."
Her words were like an ice hammer that pierced my heart. I opened my eyes wide and looked at her. Tears welled up in my eyes. I felt like something was pressing heavily on my chest. But there was a voice that seemed to rush out of my body. I heard my own hoarse voice choking and saying, "In my heart...
But before I could continue, Lin Yi's fingers gently blocked my mouth, then she gently shook her head at me, and said to me quietly, I really didn't expect you to persist, I always thought that your liking for me was just a joke between boys, I always thought that one day you would give up, but now I finally waited for this day, and I found that it is so hard to let go, and even makes me reluctant to break up with you. Do you know why
I couldn't speak anymore and could only shake my head, because the sobs made me unable to make a sound. She slowly closed her eyes, and when she opened them again, her tears couldn't be stopped anymore. She whispered to me with her lips wet with tears, "Because I can't bear to leave you."