All those words were about to burst out from my chest like a volcano, but I couldn't say a word because she had already stood on tiptoe and kissed me.
None of us cared that this was the school corridor, or that we might be seen by anyone who passed by here, because we all knew that this was our last.
The reluctant, crazy, guilty, no-retreat kiss finally ended, and she said to me calmly, goodbye.
It was as if none of this had ever happened, I had never been with her, she had never liked me, and everything was over.
I stared at her blankly and asked her blankly, "Can you tell me who told you?" She shook her head in disappointment and said lightly, "Is there any point? Go away and wipe your tears."
As she spoke, she gently wiped my tears with her hand, then sniffed hard, turned around resolutely, waved goodbye to me, and left.
I stood alone in the corridor, listening to the noises of playfulness on the playground coming from the window beside me. I didn't remember how I went downstairs. I only remembered that when I returned to the classroom, Zhang Nuan ran towards me and asked me how I was. I said nothing, just shook my head and went back to my seat like a zombie, then plopped down on the table. No matter what Zhang Nuan said or how she pinched me, I didn't get up, because my mind was full of what Lin Yi said to me, "I can't bear to leave you."
I seemed to hear the class bell ringing, and also seemed to hear the sound of Zhang Nuan gently placing the candy in her pocket on my desk, but those sounds seemed to be getting farther and farther away from me, because my mind was full of those fragments of my time with Lin Yi, some were very long, some were very short, and some were just scenes of me texting her alone at night. Now I know that the most painful thing is to find out how much she liked you only when you break up. It's ironic, isn't it? I think it's even more ridiculous, but I can't laugh at all now, because I have already lost her.
I have thought about what would happen if Lin Yi and I broke up countless times before, because I did have the urge to give up many times. After all, I never saw the so-called hope in Lin Yi. But I don’t understand why after all we have been through, when Lin Yi began to express her feelings for me in her own way, when all the hardships were over and the sweetness came, we broke up. What is the reason for this! !
I was desperately searching for the answer to that question in my heart. When people are in pain, they tend to ignore their own mistakes and blame it all on others. I was no exception. At that time, I firmly believed that the reason why Lin Yi and I broke up was all because of the person who told Lin Yi all this. I suddenly raised my head from the table and scared Zhang Nuan who was eating candy next to me, because my eyes were as red as a rabbit. She asked me cautiously, "Are you okay?"
I just asked her coldly, "Did you tell anyone about our trip to the park yesterday?" Zhang Nuan seemed to be frightened by my appearance, and she swallowed the candy in her mouth at once, then shook her head and said to me, "No, I went home directly after you sent me to the car yesterday. When I got home, Su Zhe asked me what I had been doing, but I didn't tell him."
I looked at her with red eyes and nodded, breathing heavily through my nose. I didn't doubt Zhang Nuan in my heart, because compared to the other person, she really didn't have such a strong motive, but the other person was different. It can be said that at that time I was convinced in my heart that what the other person said was the same.
I didn't say anything during that class. I just sat there waiting for the get out of class to end. Zhang Nuan had never seen my expression before and asked me what was wrong. I ignored her. Finally, the class was over. I walked straight out of the classroom and went upstairs to the liberal arts class. However, when I passed by Lin Yi's class, I didn't even look at them, because my target at the moment was not her, but someone else.
I arrived at the door of Bai Lu's class and saw several girls from her class chatting in the corridor. I told one of them to help me call Bai Lu. She smiled at me, then went into the room and shouted, "Someone is looking for Snow White!"
Then I heard Bai Lu ask in the room, "Who's looking for me?" The girl who helped me call the person turned back and looked at me deliberately and said, "This time it's not the little prince from noon, it's a dwarf."
After saying that, she couldn't help but look back at me, covering her mouth and laughing. I smiled back at her and wasn't angry at her malicious joke at all, because now I just wanted an answer.
When Bai Lu came out and saw that it was me, she said "hate" to the girl who called her for me just now, and then walked towards me with a red face, her eyes flashing with indescribable excitement. It was obvious that my arrival was an unexpected surprise for her. When she came to me, she whispered to me, "Why are you here?"
The corners of my mouth twitched, and I smiled unnaturally, then I said to her, "Well, I have something to ask you." Bai Lu looked at me with a puzzled look and said, "Well, go ahead and ask."
Originally, I wanted to call her aside to ask her, but then I thought, I could only get one sentence from her, so I didn’t move. I just stood there and asked her, “You know my girlfriend Lin Yi, right?”
Bai Lu looked at me with her eyes with long eyelashes. The excitement in her eyes just now disappeared without a trace, and was replaced by an unspeakable loss and depression, but she still nodded slightly.
I sniffed and told her that we broke up at noon today. Bai Lu suddenly raised her head and looked at me with wide eyes in surprise. I smiled cynically and told her that I was fine, but there was something I couldn't figure out.
Bai Lu didn't say anything but just looked at me with a puzzled look. I went on to say that someone told Lin Yi that Zhang Nuan and I went to the park together yesterday. Originally, there was nothing wrong with it. You know, there was nothing going on between Zhang Nuan and me. But I was afraid that Lin Yi would misunderstand, so I lied to her and didn't tell her the truth. Who knew that someone had already told her about it, so she thought I was guilty. Even if there was nothing going on between Zhang Nuan and me, she thought that we had lost the trust between us. You know, that's how girls think. I asked Lin Yi at that time who told her about it, but she didn't tell me. Now I really want to know who that person is, do you know
As I spoke, I raised my eyes and looked at Bailu coldly. My tone was calm, but underneath there was a hint of aggression. However, Bailu did not answer me immediately. Instead, she looked at me in disbelief with her beautiful eyes, as if she still could not believe that I would ask her such a question in a veiled way. I did not feel the slightest bit guilty because of the look in her eyes. Instead, I looked at her coldly, into her eyes, as if I wanted to see from her eyes whether that person was her.
But I didn't see any guilt or fear in her eyes, only confusion and sadness, which seemed to be caused by too many grievances, because the sadness seemed so strong, it could not be dissolved or resolved.
But the sad look in her eyes at this moment only made me more upset, because I just wanted to know if that person was her, that's all.
So I just repeated my previous question and asked her in a lukewarm manner, do you know who that person is
She gave up. She no longer looked at me in that way. Instead, she lowered her head and said in a voice that was not loud but extremely firm, "I don't know. It's not me."
I snorted with disdain, but my eyes were fixed on her as she lowered her head, because I didn't believe it, I didn't believe it, it could be anyone else but her, I didn't want her to do anything, I didn't even need her to apologize to me, I just wanted her to say one word!! As long as she admitted it was her, is it that difficult? ! !
An anger that came from nowhere slowly emerged from the bottom of my heart and slowly eroded my body. My face became uglier and uglier. I clenched my fists tightly and asked her in a deep voice, "You like me, don't you?"
She didn't say anything but just raised her head suddenly and looked at me with her slightly red eyes. It had always been a tacit secret between the two of us, but now I said it out loud like this, which scared her, because it was her only secret, the only secret that tormented her and kept her awake every night, a secret that made her feel sweet and sad.
I didn't care about her reaction and continued, "Now that Lin Yi and I have broken up, you should be happy, right?"
Bai Lu frowned and looked at me in disbelief, the grievance in her eyes seemed to make her eyes overflow with tears soon, but she didn't, she just shook her head vigorously. At this moment, I seemed unable to feel her feelings at all, because I just wanted to get the answer I wanted, so I continued to talk. There were only three people who knew about what happened yesterday, one was myself, and the other was my desk mate. She was a newcomer and didn't know almost anyone here, except you and me.
But the last one of these three people is not only on the same level as Lin Yi, but she might be the happiest person if Lin Yi and I break up. I don't need her to apologize or do anything now. I just need her to admit to me that she did it. I just need her to say one word.
Bai Lu could no longer hold back the tears in her eyes, and they flowed silently from her eyes, dripping down her cheeks to the ground. The originally full and round tears fell to the ground, shattered into several small tears, and then disappeared without a trace.
But I still stood there indifferently, looking at her expressionlessly, because I wanted to hear her say it to me in person.
She didn't say anything, but just looked at me with her tear-filled eyes, as if telling me with her eyes that she didn't, that person was not her.
But standing in front of her, I didn't believe her at all, didn't believe her tears, and even less did I believe the words in her eyes. I just stood there looking at her coldly, waiting for her answer.
But what I didn't expect was that I didn't get the answer I wanted, but she suddenly burst into hysterical crying. It wasn't me!!
The whole corridor suddenly became quiet and everyone looked over in surprise, except me, because I was standing in front of her and was immediately angered by her sudden action. I stared at the crying girl in front of me with wide eyes, and under the gaze of everyone in the corridor, I clenched my fists. Those people looked at me in surprise. Just when they thought I was going to hurt her in front of me, I punched the wall next to me. I didn't feel any pain because anger had filled my whole body, and then I yelled at her loudly, "You cursed the person next door!"