Zhou Zekai naturally couldn't understand, the most beautiful poems in the world were nothing but grotesque illusions to his ears, his world was divided, and faults were formed in his memory, allowing him to experience what should have been over and over again. Belongs to that 'Zhou Zekai' life.
He thought of many things, the joy of his wife expecting the birth of the child when she was pregnant, the joy of fishing by the lake with his grandfather when he was young, the warm meals of his mother, and the look in his son's eyes when he was acting like a baby, all of them became fragments of memory. The memory kept spinning, tearing apart Zhou Zekai's soul.
That woman appeared in his mind, and the articles written by that woman appeared, which bred deep love like that, as if they were real, but he couldn't see the woman's face clearly at all.
If you really love someone, why can't you see her face clearly at this moment
Even though the memory is so messed up and even affected his behavior, Zhou Zekai is still working hard to recover. His most powerful soul gradually combines these memory fragments continuously, just like the life of this body, When a person gets old, his memory will decline and he will forget some things. This is an instinctive reaction of the body. Because the body's functions have aged, his mind will naturally no longer be clear. Zhou Zekai did not expect that he would be at this time. Coming to this world, however, no matter what, he is fearless, and he will definitely fulfill the wishes of the wisher.
Every wish-maker's wish has value and necessity. Even if the wish-maker did something wrong, Zhou Zekai has no power to judge. He can only fulfill this person's thoughts and fulfill his wish.
"Mr. Zhou, let me read Tagore's "Family" to you today. This sentence is my favorite."
Looking at Zhou Zekai who was still looking out by the window, Ah Fang felt a little sentimental. She didn't know why she chose such a poem, but she hoped, even one day, that this once high-spirited man could wake up , to be able to retrieve his memory and everything, face the short life soberly, even if he needs to make a choice, let him make the decision himself, instead of being sentenced to the final punishment by others.
"I walked alone on the road across the field, and the setting sun hid its last gold like a miser. The day sank deeper into darkness, and the lonely field, already reaped, lay silent There… "
Ah Fang sometimes wonders whether Mr. Zhou is the last gold in the sunset, or a lonely field after being harvested, but every time she sees this man who has gradually lost memory and consciousness, she will feel a little painful, because everyone Will have to live this life.
From birth to old age, birth gradually gathers memories and creates new memories, and death is to return these once beautiful or painful memories to the brain, so that we can go to death more fearlessly.
Zhou Zekai actually likes the poem "Family", but what he likes is not this line, but the line 'I stopped for a while on the road I was walking alone under the starlight, and I saw the dark earth unfolding in front of me', so His words seemed to be telling Zhou Zekai's fate, the traveler who walks alone under the moonlight, the bustling or quiet world, or the time, has nothing to do with him after all.
While Ah Fang was continuing to read aloud, Mingmei opened the door and walked in from the outside.
"Ah Fang, Ma'am will be here later, I have already called, and she is expected to be here in half an hour, should we give Mr. Zhou some medicine?"
Alzheimer's patients will inevitably get excited when they see familiar people. The hospital will choose to feed Zhou Zekai with medicine every time before meeting familiar people. His body functions are deteriorating, and the memories and Intelligence is also deteriorating, but it doesn't mean that he is obliged to respond when he sees acquaintances.
It should even be said that the more he sees someone he cares about, the more he reacts, like a wronged child who always cries in front of someone he trusts.
"Take the medicine." After a short thought, Ah Fang decided to let Zhou Zekai take the medicine. This kind of medicine is a medicine that the doctor has indicated can be used for a short time, and it has the function of suppressing the patient's emotional agitation.
Mingmei quickly brought over the medicine, and under the coaxing of the two, Zhou Zekai took the medicine and stuffed a candy in his mouth. A child's smile.
"Actually... even if Mr. Zhou is like this, isn't it very good?"
Ah Fang suddenly sighed, even if she lost her memory and lost her ability to act, so what? At least, Mr. Zhou is still alive. Thinking of her mother's grief after her father passed away, A Fang really can't understand the behavior of a wife who wants to euthanize her husband.
Perhaps for a person who has lost his memory and lost his IQ and behavioral abilities, living may feel painful to him, but he still has the right to choose to live. If he wants to face death, then these medical staff will not say What, it's just that now his rights are deprived, because of Alzheimer's disease, because he can't say what he wants, he is deprived, and the right to choose his life is firmly held by the woman who is his wife. hand.
"Hehe, maybe it's okay?" Mingmei sneered at this matter. Her father cheated on her mistress back then, and died in a car accident after divorcing her mother. Therefore, she despises these cheating men and thinks that they have ended up in such a fate. , it was their own fault.
"Fang, in fact, people have selfishness after all. If my father is paralyzed in bed one day and loses his mind, maybe I will choose to euthanize him, because it will drag me down, but my mother will definitely not be like this, even if she is already After being separated for a long time, she will definitely choose to take care of him every step of the way. Even if he loses his memory, so what? What if he loses his intelligence? At least he is still alive, isn't he? My mother has thought countless times that if there is no Divorce, whether my father will be separated from her like that, but that can only be an idea, the mistress is a mistress after all, if Ms. Wang is allowed to choose Mr. Zhou's life in the future, she will definitely not be so cruel. "
Reason and emotion are struggling, after all, she is the person who has served for three years. Although Mingmei hates Zhou Zekai, she occasionally talked to Zhou Zekai when he was sober. She knows that this man is a funny and elegant man, but he committed an unforgivable mistake.
One wrong step, one wrong step, finally ended up in such a fate.
Zhou Zekai tried his best to understand what they said, but found that after their words reached his ears, they became another kind of voice, which made his brain a little restless, and then he could only give up and continue. listen.
The two went out after a while, probably after an unknown amount of time, the door of the ward was opened again, and a well-dressed old lady with jet-black hair came in. She was Zhou Zekai's current wife, Chen Xinmin. The sky fell and the earth fell, and the love hurt many people, but now time passed, the two of them were already very old.
It seems that in order to meet Zhou Zekai, Chen Xinmin dressed up very carefully, and she even put on the most exquisite makeup. Although the years have left marks on her face, she is still not so old because of her wealthy life, and she even looks Very kind.
Staring blankly at Chen Xinmin in front of him, Zhou Zekai immediately recognized the person in front of him. He wanted to do something uncontrollably, but he couldn't do anything. He could only look at the old lady in front of him. Take your own hand in your hand.
"Akai, I'm Xinmin, I'm your wife, can you recognize me?"
Chen Xinmin's face was full of anticipation, and her eyes were full of pain and nostalgia. She took Zhou Zekai's hand, and with the other hand, she gently combed her husband's white hair, hoping that the other party could hear what she wanted. s answer.
"Heart, heart..."
After working hard, he finally uttered such a word. Zhou Zekai really wanted to say something, but his aging body didn't allow him to do too many movements. He suddenly squeezed Chen Xinmin's hand with force. Even so, Chen Xinmin Xin Min did not let go of his hand, but looked at Zhou Zekai even more excitedly.
"You recognize me! You know that I am your wife, Ah Kai. You don't know how much I miss you these days. Without you by my side, I can't sleep all night and all night. When I dream back at midnight, I will wake up from my dream. I am afraid that you don’t know me anymore and don’t love me anymore, Ah Kai... tell me you love me, okay? You love me, right?”
The woman's questioning made Ah Fang, who was standing aside, nervously look at Mr. Zhou, and sure enough, he heard Mr. Zhou's answer.
"Ah... alas... ah..."
How can an old man who is constantly struggling between sobriety and chaos tell his love to the one he loves? Ah Fang didn't understand Chen Xinmin's thoughts, but just watched such a scene, but felt extremely distressed.
Sure enough, upon hearing this, Chen Xinmin's eyes turned red, but she tried her best to separate Zhou Zekai's hand with the other hand, shaking her head and said.
"I knew, you don't care about me anymore, you don't love me that much at all, at this time, when I need you so much, you can't even say I love you... Do you know how painful it is for me ?How sad I feel when I think of you? You start to forget me, right? Forget the beautiful days we were together, forget everything we used to be, forget how much I love you... Ah Kai, I am so painful, I don’t I have the heart to let you who have lost your soul continue to suffer in the hospital, but everyone does not allow me to do this. I have already lost your soul. The rest of you here is just a shell without a soul. I know how painful you are , How frightening it is to be in this hospital full of death, but those people don’t agree with me doing this, Akai, if you love me, you will definitely support my choice, right?”
Chen Xinmin's reaction was a bit too intense, making Zhou Zekai, who was a bit demented, not know how to react at all, but Ah Fang, who was on the side, felt tense, unexpectedly, this time had come.
Could it be that Mr. Zhou is really going to be euthanized
A person who cannot choose to die on his own is judged unilaterally to end his life in this way. Is this love
If love means that your lover forgets you after getting sick, and wants to euthanize him because he can no longer express his love to you, then who in this world would dare to possess such love