is more abstract: =v=.
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Although Yan Zhen seemed to have remained calm and composed throughout the entire process, in fact, facing such a crazy scene, the mental shock he received was greater than expected.
-Especially the two parties involved are too familiar with him. He can be considered to have watched this whole human tragedy from the nearest distance. The plot is too twists and turns, and the ending is also sighing. It is really hard not to disturb his already chaos. mood.
He sits in the back seat.
Leaning against the window, against his forehead, counting the passing neon lights on the street in an attempt to divert his attention.
and nothing worked.
The clips of Qiao Yizhi and Jiang Ling were still stubbornly surging past him with black emotions wrapped in them:
It started out as a drunken joke. I don't know who is jealous of Qiao Yizhi's quick change of girlfriends, and coaxes him to say that no matter how handsome and slick he is, he will never be able to deal with Jiang Ling.
—Jiang Ling got a scholarship, a college bully, and he was considered an outlier in a school where local tyrants were everywhere. Good-natured, always with a smile. He seems to have a good relationship with everyone, but in fact he is very distant from everyone. As the same popular girl as Yan Zhen and Qiao Yizhi, she has never talked to a girlfriend in the second half of high school, and was given a nickname: "Smiling Flower on a High Cliff".
Qiao Yizhi was young and vigorous at that time. Everything in the world is always within reach. Where can one stand such agitation.
It doesn't matter if it's suitable or not.
Immediately, Jiang Ling was sure to catch up.
This chase is two years. From home to abroad. It really caught him off.
Yan Zhen's jaw almost dropped when he heard it for the first time. After thinking about it, it's not surprising: when Qiao Yizhi chased people, it was for a smile that he could hold the whole world in front of him. He is rich, interesting, educated, good-looking, smart, and has more tender feelings than a hundred Yan Zhen combined. It's hard for anyone not to be impressed.
But that's not the case when it comes to love.
But within three months, Yan Zhen heard him complain about trouble one after another. Later, at a party, Jiang Ling heard that he had slipped his tongue, and ended the relationship very knowingly.
Most of the friends praised Qiao Yizhi, saying that he could afford it and let it go, and he was worthy of Young Master Qiao, and congratulated him on his return to freedom. However, Yan Zhen felt that it was not very good, so he went to see Jiang Ling once in private - Jiang Ling wanted to act indifferent, but couldn't do it. After all, no matter how he behaved properly, his eyes could not be hidden - those eyes were once twinkling with stars, but at that time they were all extinguished, bleak, like two black holes.
Even Yan Zhen, who is not so easily impressed, was horrified. When I went back that night, I solemnly rejected the school girl who was chasing after him at the time. Never dare to take this kind of stubble again. When looking for someone, try to limit the relationship purely to sexual desire, companionship, and money, and carefully avoid the possibility of "generating love" - he has money, resources, status, and wiggle room, and he can afford it. Willful on a whim; but not all are like him. A moment's difference in his thoughts may be unforgettable for others for a lifetime. It's too heavy. He can't pay back, the world is so big, and there are so many people who are advancing and retreating decently, why bother.
He thinks he is smart.
Eliminate the possibility of tragedy from the source.
He will never hold back regrets like Qiao Yizhi, who was so drunk that he cried and said, "It's all Jiang Ling's fault. I've been with someone like him, so what's the point of seeing other people?"; no need Hearing about his ex-boyfriend's suicide experience from other people's mouths and heartbroken because of it; there is no need to be shy, make up countless new lies to chase an old friend who has no impression of him at all, and then run wild when the truth is exposed Stop him from committing suicide a second time...
He could watch from the sidelines.
Be a sober outsider.
It's a pity that God didn't want it.
No one is an outsider when it comes to these kinds of issues.
All his self-righteousness, in the end, is at best a change in the form of tragedy.
- But before we started, who would have thought that Yan Zhen would be the first to be tempted
Yan Zhen sighed, frowned, opened the car door and went upstairs.
When I went to the room, I threw away the torn shirt, and fell on the bed without changing my pajamas.
It's already midnight.
Throughout the day, his emotions were intense and he encountered countless unplanned situations. Even though Yan Zhen was a hard-hitting nerve, he was now at the edge of his limit. He couldn't move his mind, he just relied on instinct to bring Su Jinxin over and wrap it in his arms tightly, with the tip of his nose arched on the back of Su Jinxin's neck, sniffing the faint and pleasant smell of Su Jinxin's body - Jiang The appearance of Ling pounced over and grabbed his arm kept flashing back in front of his eyes. He was thin and haggard, with sunken eye sockets and crazy eyes... Where is the shadow of the "handsome and sweet decathlon college bully" in middle school.
Qiao Yizhi, who was also trapped in it, was still holding on to a suave shell. When he looked closer, his eyes were full of mottled scars drawn by regret and despair.
A bad relationship can torture people to such a degree.
Yan Zhen was actually afraid.
He knew that he was essentially no different from Qiao Yizhi - he had a wealthy family background, and he always had what he wanted at his fingertips. If it wasn't for such a tragic case around him, he might not have realized that people are so fragile and their feelings are so unbearable. In that case, maybe Su Jinxin...
Yan Zhen didn't dare to think about it, but unconsciously tightened his embrace.
The man in his arms suddenly sneezed a little.
Only then did Yan Zhen remember that Qiao Yizhi's house lighted Jiang Ling's soothing incense. Quickly stood up. Even if the upper and lower eyelids were about to stick together, I still went to the bathroom to take a shower.
He turned the water temperature very low.
To some extent, he cooled his excessive mind, and made an impulsive but decisive decision: since he has already taken action to grab someone, it is better to simply explain directly, even if he is rejected, it does not matter. Some of him have the tolerance to deal with rejection, and many of them are ways of chasing people, but he is almost running out of patience.
The decision seemed like a bolt of lightning.
The messy thorns in my heart were chopped clean.
Yan Zhen came out of the bathroom, the smog in his heart was swept away, and he even hummed a little tune.
Climbing into the quilt, hugging Su Jinxin tightly and hugging him tightly, the whole person was filled with a sense of ease of cutting through the mess, and soon fell into a black and sweet dreamland.
Didn't notice at all, Su Jinxin slowly opened his eyes in his arms, looked at him for a long time, but finally did not dare to move forward, only raised his hand and gently touched him around his waist. Fresh scratches on that bare arm.
Yan Zhen woke up early the next day.
Su Jinxin was earlier.
After looking around in the bathroom, I didn't see anyone, and when I walked into the living room across the glass sliding door, I found that Su Jinxin was cooking breakfast in the kitchen.
Wearing a pure white apron.
The waist was strangled very thinly.
The movements are fluent, with a skilled elegance and calm, pure and homelike appearance, which is very exciting.
Yan Zhen pulled Carmen up from behind: "So early? Don't sleep for a while? Just leave it alone and let the nanny come."
Su Jinxin turned around and closed her eyes, waiting for him to kiss her. After kissing, she said, "Didn't you say that the nanny here doesn't cook well?"
There is only one nanny in Yanzhen's apartment, and the cleaning is very diligent, but what she does is really worrying. Yan Zhen is not a person who has a lot of appetite. He usually goes over to deal with it and doesn't complain much. He only mentioned it coquettishly in front of Su Jinxin once or twice, but he didn't expect it to be taken seriously.
It's very warm.
He thought, sure enough, he would sink step by step in the vortex named "Su Jinxin", which is also helpless. There are too many details like this. scattered in the corners of life. Quietly, like a little rain of apricot blossoms mixed with the warm air of the willows in March, when I found that my heart was soaked, it was too late to hold an umbrella. Also sweet. He secretly smiled helplessly and sighed. He habitually put the tip of his nose in Su Jinxin's neck, took a sip of the faint good smell, and made up his mind:
"Be careful, I have something to tell you."