Yun Jinshu goes to the hospital every day. Although Han Jiang doesn't show any sign of waking up, he doesn't care much.
He carries a stainless steel lunch box every day, goes to the hospital at nine in the morning, has dinner at five in the evening, and then goes home alone with an empty lunch box, as if this nine-to-five life has become his second job.
The bodyguard guarding the door would ask Han Zhongtian for instructions when he saw him at first, but then he said nothing at all. When he saw Yun Jinshu, he said hello with a smile and turned around to leave, leaving the two of them alone for some time.
On this day, Zhang's mother asked for leave and returned to her hometown, and Yun Jinshu planned to take Kidney Dou to the hospital with her. The guy is now more than two years old. He has grown very fast and has grown a lot in size. He can now speak some simple sentences. Since he learned to walk, he has never let his father hold him. He seems to be tireless in the house every day. Running wildly back and forth.
In early winter, when the weather was getting colder, Yun Jinshu put a goose-yellow scarf on him, put on a tiger skin hat with velvet edges, and took his hand and got into a taxi.
Along the way, the guy was extremely curious. He jumped up and down and kept asking, "Daddy, where are we going?"
"Going to see one of dad's friends." Yun Jinshu raised his hand and rubbed his soft and sparse hair, smiling.
"What kind of friend is it? The kind like Rarity and Douzi?"
Kidney Bean had a chubby face and a silly smile. The dimples on her face made people want to poke them.
Ruirui is a boy who has recently moved into the house next door. He is now over three years old and has a very adult-like personality. However, Kidney Bean seems to play well with him. He always grabs other people's clothes and tells everyone that Ruirui is his. Wife.
Yun Jinshu laughed out loud and pinched his cheek, "Don't say 'she is my wife' next time you see Ruirui. You know, that little kid knows a lot."
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"No! Only when Grandma Zhang likes someone can she call her wife. Douzi likes Ruirui, so he is his wife. Dad, is the person you want to meet also your wife?"
Yun Jinshu was speechless. He raised his hand and stroked his forehead. He deeply felt the failure of his education. Where did Kiddou learn these messy things in his mouth
I couldn't help but raise my hand and pat his butt, with a smile, "Sit down quickly, you are a wife and not a wife, see if I don't spank you until your ass is broken."
Kidney Bean was lying on the back seat of the car, grinning and giggling. Anyway, he knew that Dad was trying to scare people, so he was reluctant to hit them.
"Daddy, the wife you are going to meet, should I call her Mom?"
"Sit tight and don't ask questions. Let's see if you dare to be so honest when we get to the hospital." Yun Jinshu felt deeply frustrated and had no choice but to ask "the hospital" "Three words to scare him.
Sure enough, when Kidney Bean heard that he was going to the hospital, his face immediately fell. Moisture suddenly welled up in his big eyes. He grabbed Yun Jinshu's foot pitifully and said, "Daddy, Douzi will be good and take me to get an injection."
The guy didn't learn anything else, but his tears came as fast as a faucet. It was obvious that Yun Jinshu knew his son's trick and was completely unmoved, "We are going to the hospital to see patients, not to give you injections, but if you don't obey , Sister Nurse will teach you a lesson."
Ever since the fire, Kidou had been filled with a deep fear of hospitals and regarded nurses as monsters. As soon as she heard her father say this, she immediately rolled over and sat on Yun Jinshu's lap, tightly grabbing the corners of her father's clothes. Sticking up, "Don't call Kidney Bean Mommy, and daddy, don't let the nurse sister take me away."
Seeing the interaction between father and son, the driver was so amused that Yun Jinshu also laughed and reached out to pinch the tip of his son's nose.
***
On the way to the intensive care unit while holding Kidney Bean's hand, the guy turned heads 100%. The female nurses and doctors were so cute that they took out a bunch of candies and snacks and stuffed them into his yellow duck backpack. They couldn't wait to see him. Take the child into your arms and rub it hard.
When they arrived at the ward, Kidou wrinkled her nose pitifully with a bitter look on her face, "Papa, the hospital is really scary, and the nurse sister is even scarier. If it weren't for Mom, Douzi wouldn't have come here."
Yun Jinshu stroked his forehead, wondering why his son recognized the word "mommy". He reluctantly pushed open the door of the ward, and Kidou jumped on his short legs and ran in first.
As usual, Han Jiang was still lying heavily on the bed without any sign of waking up. The ward was completely silent, and the only sound he could hear was the beeping sound of the heart recorder.
Kidney Bean was not tall enough to see Han Jiang's face, so he knelt on the chair with his butt stuck out and climbed onto the hospital bed. He held his chin and stared at Han Jiang's face with curiosity on his face, "Daddy, this person looks so familiar."
Yun Jinshu said "hmm", took off his woolen coat and put it aside, "It's rare that you still remember him."
Kidney beans leaned forward, his chubby face almost touching Han Jiang's face, "Is he the uncle who helped beans drive away the fire-breathing dragon monster and suddenly flew up?"
"ha?"
Yun Jinshu didn't understand what his son meant. Kidney Bean became a little anxious and waved his fat hand, "He's the big fire-breathing dragon who burned down the whole house!"
Raising his eyebrows, Yun Jinshu gave a wry smile. At this moment, he finally understood that what happened to Kidney Dou was the fire that almost killed him. He didn't expect that he would remember Han Jiang saving him at such an age.
With a casual "hmm", Yun Jinshu picked up a comb and straightened Han Jiang's hair, feeling a little astringent in his heart. Han Jiang had not only saved him, but also Kidney Bean, but now he could no longer move. To be able to wait for death like this day after day.
Kiddou climbed to Han Jiang's shoulder, touched the slightly raised stubble on his chin with his hand, lowered his head and kissed Han Jiang, "Uncle, it turns out you are Mommy. Doudou likes you so much. From now on, Charizard If you get rougher, Douzi will come to you, okay?"
Yun Jinshu's eyelashes trembled, and he picked up Kidney Dou and put him on the chair. "Good boy, don't press on his chest. The oxygen mask won't work after a while."
"Uncle, is he swollen? Why does he open his eyes to say hello to Douzi?"
"He was asleep and couldn't hear."
"Oh—" Kidney Bean's head was thoughtful, looking like an adult, and then he went up and scratched Han Jiang's ears, "Uncle, you lazy boy, get up quickly, don't sleep anymore."
No matter how much Kidney Bean grabbed him, Han Jiang didn't react at all. Kidney Bean didn't give up and continued to nuzzle him in the crook of his neck with a shy face, "Uncle, please wake up. Dad and I are still waiting for you to play together. Wake up." Well."
The guy's milky voice echoed in the ward. He was still too young to understand that there was a kind of person in this world who might never wake up once he fell asleep.
Yun Jinshu felt uncomfortable in his heart and hugged his son on his knees, "Stop screaming. If he wants to see you, he will wake up naturally. Don't waste any time talking."
After hearing this, Kidney Bean's eyes suddenly turned red again, and in the blink of an eye he started crying, "Uncle used to like Kidney Bean very much, why doesn't he want me now, wuwuwu..."
The guy was crying so sadly that his watery black eyes were streaming down with tears. The tiger skin hat on his head was also crooked and hung pitifully on his head. His fat hands were tightly squeezing Han Jiang's sleeves, and he was tearing up as he cried. Heartbroken.
Yun Jinshu couldn't stand it anymore and hugged him and kept coaxing him. He turned to look at Han Jiang and suddenly felt some desolate and boundless resentment in his heart.
Look, you have exhausted everyone, and you have spent every day with your life to accompany you. Are you feeling particularly happy now
After coaxing the guy for a long time, he finally stopped crying and fell asleep on Yun Jinshu's shoulder. At this time, the door to the ward opened. Yun Jinshu raised his head in surprise and saw Gu Yan, whom he hadn't seen for a long time.
"Brother Gu? Why are you here?"
Gu Yan wore a thin iron-gray coat today, and the tip of his nose was a little red. He walked in and put the flower basket aside and smiled at Yun Jinshu.
"Nothing, I just came to visit Han Jiang and see you by the way."
Yun Jinshu put his son on another empty bed next to him and twitched his lips, "Last time you saved me, I didn't even have time to come and say thank you, but I asked you to come to me again. I'm really ashamed."
"Hey, do we need this?" Gu Yan waved his hand, pulled up a chair and sat down. After asking about Kidney Bean's recent situation, he was silent for a while, "Is your health okay?"
Yun Jinshu was stunned for a moment and then understood what he meant, and smiled, "It wasn't a big problem in the first place. I just injured my arm, but it's healed now. To be honest, I can survive after falling into the sea. I'm really lucky."
After hearing this, Gu Yan did not laugh. The expression on his face was very complicated, and his face was pale and ugly. He took a deep breath and closed his eyes, "I... I'm sorry, Jin Shu, really, I'm sorry for you. If I could have caught you, maybe..."
"Stop making trouble, Brother Gu, you have helped me too much, and I already feel that I will never be able to repay it in my lifetime. If you hadn't brought the police to me this time, maybe I would have been killed by Dong Xu by now. .”
"But I...if I jump down with you..." Gu Yan stopped going down halfway.
Yun Jinshu twitched the corner of his mouth, "What do you want to do when you jump with me? Do you want me to owe you forever? Brother Gu, I have never been so lucky that you didn't act stupid for me again. I can't pay you back, why should you do it again? Make me feel guilty forever?"
Gu Yan raised his head with difficulty, his deep eyes showing pain.
Although they were so close, Yun Jinshu's will had been shaken by him, and he could hold him as long as he stretched out his hand, but because of this difference in thought... he and Yun Jinshu were no longer possible.
After a long time, he suddenly smiled and looked at him, "If it were me who jumped with you instead of Han Jiang, would it be possible for us?"
Yun Jinshu shook his head, "I will always remember that I owe you a life, and maybe I will follow you, but that can only be guilt and nothing else."
"...You are so cruel." Gu Yan tugged at the corner of his mouth with difficulty.
Yun Jinshu raised the corner of his mouth and smiled and said nothing more.
The love that is given out in this world is never love. If you keep dragging your feet and don't give the other person a break, that would be really cruel.
The two of them were silent to each other, and only the sound of Didi's machine could be heard in the ward. Gu Yan understood that he had really lost, and had been eliminated before joining. In the entanglement between Yun Jinshu and Han Jiang, all he could do was to be a Friends, there is no second choice.
After a long time, Gu Yan twitched his lips and changed the topic, "Han Jiang... how is he doing now?"
"What else can I do? Just wait for death. Anyway, it won't be worse than now."
Gu Yan suffocated and patted his shoulder, "Don't be like this. Medical skills are so advanced now, maybe he will wake up soon."
"Oh, it's useless. Even the doctor knows that there is a high chance that he will wake up. Han Zhongtian covers the sky with one hand in S City, who would dare to lie to him."
"Then what are you going to do, keep waiting like this?"
Yun Jinshu paused for a moment, then shook his head, with a slight smile, and put his fingers on Han Jiang's arm unconsciously, "I won't be angry with a living dead. Life has to go on. Now it's a time of patience. process, when my patience is exhausted, I will leave immediately and never come back."
"Then where are you going?"
"I don't know where to go, maybe Vancouver or somewhere else. Anyway, I don't want to stay in S city anymore in this life."
After Yun Jin finished writing these words, he suddenly felt a slight tremor in his knuckles. He felt as if he had been hit hard by a hammer. His eyes suddenly widened and he stood up suddenly.
"He...did he move?"
Yun Jinshu was afraid that this was just a dream, so he stared at Han Jiang's arm without blinking. This time he really saw it right. Han Jiang's fingers moved slightly, and even his eyelashes trembled.
"Han Jiang!"
He screamed out loud, and went up to grab Han Jiang's collar, trying to get him to open his eyes, but someone grabbed him tightly behind him.
"Jinshu! Look clearly, he's not awake!"
Gu Yan's voice was like a basin of cold water poured on his head. Yun Jinshu paused subconsciously, and fell back on the chair in a daze. He looked carefully at Han Jiang on the bed. He was motionless, still as if he was dead. Where could he be? Any sign of awakening.
Gu Yan looked at him worriedly, as if he was frightened by his reaction, and pressed his hands tightly on his shoulders, "Are you hallucinating? Han Jiang didn't wake up at all, and he didn't even move! You're like this How long has it been?"
Yun Jinshu finally came back to his senses. He had indeed had such hallucinations more than once. Maybe it was because he stayed in front of the hospital bed for too long. He always felt that Han Jiang was moving, but every time he was a huge surprise. Then came an even heavier loss.
The bodyguards and nurses have long been accustomed to his reaction. After all, many family members of vegetative patients always have these strange reactions. In the end, they even stopped paying attention to anything the family members said.
But obviously, this was the first time that Gu Yan saw Yun Jinshu lose his temper, and he had a very bad feeling in his heart. He was afraid that something might happen to Yun Jinshu if he continued like this, so he had to keep patting him on the shoulder to calm him down. So nervous.
Yun Jinshu took a deep breath and rubbed his sore forehead. Instead of answering Gu Yan's question, he raised his head and asked him, "Do you have any cigarettes? Give me one."
Gu Yan took out a cigarette and handed it to him. Yun Jinshu was very upset. He walked out of the ward with the cigarette, leaned on the handrail in the garden, looked at the artificial lake in the distance and inhaled deeply. The effect of nicotine made him It was relieved a lot, but the heavier feeling of fatigue still lingered.
This mixture of joy and sorrow again and again made his patience wear out. He didn't know how long he could continue to wait. The long wait with no end in sight made him really unable to hold on.
Gu Yan followed him from behind and patted him on the shoulder. He suddenly felt that even if there was no love, he couldn't watch his friend torture himself like this. After thinking for a long time, he tentatively said, "Jinshu, please be patient and I won't be able to decide." This time it’s real.”
Yun Jinshu took a puff of cigarette, blew out a white smoke ring, and twitched the corner of his mouth, "I really don't want to, in fact, my patience is almost exhausted."
Gu Yan was suffocated, and then wanted to speak out his true words, "Then let's go. Living here is so tiring, why don't you leave with kidney beans, just like you just did, go to Vancouver or other places, anyway Are you happier than you are now?"
"..." Yun Jinshu was silent. It was really difficult for him to choose between leaving or staying.
"Jinshu, I know a place that is very suitable for vacation. It is also far away from here. As long as you head there, you can leave immediately, I promise."
Gu Yan is very serious. He no longer desires love at this moment, he just wants Yun Jinshu to live a good life. Even if the person standing in front of him is a friend, he will support him to leave without hesitation.
Yun Jinshu put out the cigarette butt, and after a long time he nodded gently, "Yes, you are right, I really should go."
***
Han Jiang felt that he seemed to be awake, but no one discovered the secret.
When Yun Jinshu came to see him in the ward on the first day, he was already conscious, but at that time, a lot of memories were suddenly stuffed into his head, which he couldn't adapt to, so he couldn't sit up.
He could hear everything Yun Jinshu said in front of the hospital bed. Those chaotic and entangled past life memories were finally sorted out in Yun Jinshu's few words.
It turned out that he had been so inferior to a beast from the beginning to the end. He had been playing with Yun Jinshu as a shield for five years. He even believed Han Zhongtian's words because of his stupidity and personally sent his lover to a dead end.
Once he thought of these complicated and painful memories, Han Jiang no longer had the courage to face Yun Jinshu. He was afraid of seeing his face that hated him to the core. He was even more afraid of going around in circles for two lifetimes, and the two of them could only miss each other so hard. .
Several times he tried to struggle to open his eyes, but his body felt as heavy as lead. No matter how hard he tried, he could not bring himself to respond to Yun Jinshu.
Watching him appear in his hospital bed every day, occasionally speaking, but more often than not being silent all day long, but the atmosphere of getting along like this was so wonderful that he was afraid that once he woke up, such a sweet dream would be shattered. .
He wanted to reach out and hold Yun Jinshu's face, give him a belated kiss, and say sorry.
But his body is already at its limit. Apart from being able to think with his head, he doesn't even have the strength to move, so spending time with each other quietly like this has become the most luxurious thing. He wants to wake up quickly, but is also afraid that he will face loss when he wakes up. The other person’s fear.
So he could only drag it on slowly, enduring his body's slow recovery day after day.
When he is strong enough and his body is strong enough to support two lifetimes of memories, it may be the time when he can really open his eyes and give Yun Jinshu a stable and strong embrace.
This day was as peaceful as usual. Before Yun Jinshu came to the hospital, Han Jiang suddenly felt that he was no longer bound by his body and could sit up freely and even move around.
He was so happy that he went to the tomb where Yun Jinshu was buried in his previous life based on his vague memories. The weather was cold that day, and there was no heavy rain like that day.
He walked all the way up the hillside following his memory, stepping on the withered yellow lawn to the place where the tombstone should be standing. He slowly squatted down and touched the barren ground with his fingers, feeling very uncomfortable in his heart.
In his previous life, the person he loved was buried here. This person loved with all his strength, even to death without any cowardice. However, he had let this person down for two lifetimes, and he didn't know when he would be able to repay him.
Fortunately, Yun Jinshu returned to him again, and this time he could finally love him completely with a heart that had been empty for a long time, without craving for any impurities, and devote the rest of his life to repaying him wholeheartedly.
After sitting on the grass for a long time, when the cold became unbearable, Han Jiang wandered towards the hospital. He was counting the time in his mind, guessing that Yun Jinshu had probably arrived.
Thinking of the smell of the rice porridge he cooked by himself, Han Jiang couldn't help lowering his head and laughing, and even wanted to raise his hands to cover his eyes. He didn't want to share the expression at this moment with anyone.
Yun Jinshu put the last piece of luggage in the taxi, turned around and smiled at Gu Yan, "Brother Gu, please go back. It's very cold. I will contact you when we get there."
Gu Yan felt so empty in his heart. He didn't expect that Yun Jinshu would act so quickly when he wanted to leave, without even giving him a moment to react.
I couldn't help but stepped forward to tie his scarf and wanted to give him a hug. In the end, I raised my arms and just patted his shoulder. "Now that you have decided to leave, live a good life and remember to make the kidney beans fatter." Otherwise, I, my godfather, will never let you go."
His tone was very relaxed, and Yun Jinshu smiled and nodded, "Definitely."
"Brother Gu, thank you for taking care of you for so many years. I don't know when we will see each other again, so... take care of yourself." He raised the corners of his mouth casually, opened his arms and gave Gu Yan a hug.
Gu Yan felt very sour in his heart, but he had to admit that Yun Jinshu like this was what he wanted to see, "Bless you, Jinshu, and you must live a happy life."
Yun Jinshu laughed, got into the taxi and waved to Gu Yan. Kidney's bulging face also waved stupidly, "Godfather, Douzi will miss you."
The car gradually started moving, and it was getting farther and farther in Gu Yan's sight. He couldn't help but run a few steps, waving his hands vigorously, his eyes a little sore.
Goodbye, my Jinshu.
Sitting in the car, Yun Jinshu looked at Yunxia on the horizon and exhaled softly, pulled out his SIM card and threw it out through the car window.
This city is suffocating. Although it carries too much love and hate, it is finally time to say goodbye.
Han Jiang, from today on I will never wait for you again.
The taxi drove onto the highway, leaving behind a puff of dust and smoke. At the hospital at the other end of the city, the nurse who was changing the dressings screamed and ran out of the ward, "Doctor! Doctor! Mr. Han is awake!"
The author has something to say: Guys, isn’t this fantasy? Strictly speaking, is rebirth also fantasy? Beat the ground ORZ
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