Ling Miao was like a puddle of mud, lying softly on the table. He turned a blind eye to the curious, concerned or greedy eyes around him. The only thing that changed his expression was probably that a man just called "Su XX".
Not Su Yuyang.
At that time, only these five words passed through Ling Miao's mind.
"Why do you care so much about Su Yuyang, and why do you like him so much?"
Ji Linxi's words repeatedly circled in Ling Miao's mind, over and over again, like the chirping of cicadas in summer's ears.
Are you concerned about Su Yuyang? Where do I care about him
Ling Miao laughed at himself.
But... thinking of Su Yuyang's paper-pale face and his breathing that could stop at any time, Ling Miao's fists clenched involuntarily. He had a strong feeling of holding something tightly in his hands.
All along, Ling Miao's love for Su Yuyang was just like a fan's love for a great god. This love was mixed with admiration.
Ling Miao thought so, but Ji Linxi's words made him have to think again. As soon as he started thinking again, his mind started to get confused. As if he was looking for a small pebble in the dough, without the help of tools, Ling Miao searched for it over and over again, and was lost over and over again.
"Dead?" came the man's playful voice. Ling Miao numbly raised his head and looked at the speaker, only glanced at it and then lowered his head in disappointment. The man sat next to Ling Miao, turned over Ling Miao's head and looked at himself. He smiled and said, "Hey, Su Yuyang can't always lie here with me, right? So, please take him home."
A man is a man of character.
Just as Ling Miao was about to refute, he saw Ji Linxi walking over with Su Yuyang on his back.
Su Yuyang's hands were hanging on Ji Linxi's chest, like two noodles. His face looked much better than before, but Ling Miao still felt chilled when he looked at it. Ji Linxi carried Su Yuyang on his back. After a while in front of Ling Miao, he carried Su Yuyang out. Ling Miao stood up and wanted to catch up, but stopped after seeing Feng Ji's smiling eyes.
Feng Ji turned his head and asked, "What do you want to say?"
Ling Miao was stunned for a moment, then shook his head.
"This is Yuyang's old problem. The cause of the illness is unknown. According to previous experience, just sleep for a while. If you don't wake up after a week, just call me." Speaking of "a week", Feng Ji's face Shang's smile disappeared completely, and his eyes were filled with despair.
"You should have seen a doctor." When Ling Miao spoke, his breathing was a little disordered, and his tone was anxious, and anyone could hear his nervousness.
Feng Ji took a deep breath, patted Ling Miao on the shoulder and said, "It doesn't help much. Take good care of Yu Yang, this is what you need to pay attention to."
Taking the paper from Feng Ji, Ling Miao looked at the dense notes on the paper. He was a little surprised and asked, "You used to take care of him?"
"I am his roommate and once his boyfriend. If I don't take care of him, who will? Oh, by the way, there is also Xiaoli." Feng Ji seemed to be afraid that Ling Miao would misunderstand something, so he quickly added Yanli to the list. In fact, he also No lies.
"Yuyang's disease is a disease that is committed when it is committed." Feng Ji lit a cigarette and said melancholy, "A doctor once mentioned a possibility: Su Yuyang did this as a kind of self-protection. He wanted to I wanted to escape something, but I couldn’t escape it, so I used this method to avoid it.”
"Escape from what?" Ling Miao's eyes flashed, as if he saw a way to revive Su Yuyang.
Feng Ji flicked the ashes from his cigarette, and the bitterness on his face became even stronger.
"Escape from making choices, escape from thinking. How do I know what he is trying to escape from? After all..." Feng Ji paused mid-sentence.
Ling Miao asked: "Feng Ji, what is it, tell me quickly!"
Ling Miao's nervousness, Ling Miao's uneasiness, Ling Miao's concern for Su Yuyang, Ling Miao's various behaviors made Feng Ji see an opportunity.
We can't find a breakthrough from Su Yuyang, maybe we can find it from Ling Miao...
Thinking of this, Feng Ji was confused again: "If we tell Ling Miao our thoughts in a positive tone, will Ling Miao be induced by us so that he makes a decision other than following his heart?"
"Feng Ji?" Ling Miao shouted eagerly.
Feng Ji's body trembled, and he laughed dryly: "Ah? What's wrong?"
"You haven't finished what you just said. What's behind 'after all'?" Ling Miao lost his previous eagerness. He covered up all the panic with calmness, and his bright eyes showed strength - no matter what Feng Ji said, he could accept it.
Feng Ji took a drag on his cigarette and watched the white smoke rising up, shrouding Ling Miao behind a layer of gauze. Everything was so blurry, except for a pair of eyes that were particularly bright.
Feng Ji asked sadly: "Ling Miao, why do you care so much about Su Yuyang?"
"Fans versus masters." Ling Miao answered without even thinking.
Feng Ji nodded: "Indeed. So, you go take care of your master."
Ji Linxi put Su Yuyang in the car, but Ling Miao didn't follow. He stood at the door and looked around. When he saw Feng Ji and Ling Miao talking about something, he returned to the car.
As soon as Ji Linxi closed the car door, Ling Miao came over.
"You drive." Ling Miao sat in the back seat of the car and helped Su Yuyang up, adjusting Su Yuyang's posture to make him sleep more comfortably.
Ji Linxi looked at what happened in the back seat and could only smile bitterly.
After Ji Linxi and the others left, Feng Ji sent a text message to Yan Li, briefly explaining what happened at W&S, and finally expressed his conclusion: Although we think Ling Miao's love for Su Yuyang is between lovers, Ling Miao's love for Su Yuyang is between lovers. He was right. What he did to Su Yuyang was indeed done by fans to their idols, so he should withdraw it.
Feng Ji planned to completely ignore the matter between Ling Miao and Su Yuyang.
Love is something that you have to discover by yourself. The help of outsiders seems to have accelerated the development of the relationship between the two, but there is no guarantee that it will collapse quickly if the foundation is not strong.
Yan Li seemed to be resting, and he received a reply not long after Feng Ji's text message was sent.
Yan Li's reply was only one word: OK.
After settling a matter, Feng Ji felt a lot more relaxed, but he still felt a tightness in his chest.
A white BMW was driving smoothly in the traffic.
I have to say that Ji Linxi's driving skills are much better than Ling Miao.
It only takes ten minutes to walk from W&S to Su Yuyang's house, but Ji Linxi drove for ten minutes.
Along the way, Ling Miao looked out the window, but his hand unconsciously touched Su Yuyang's cheek.
The car parked downstairs at Su Yuyang's house. Ling Miao still looked out the window and had no intention of getting out of the car. Ji Linxi turned around and shouted: "Ling Miao, we're here."
Ling Miao didn't respond.
Ji Linxi got out of the car, opened the back seat door and shouted at Ling: "Ling Miao, we're here, get out of the car!"
Ling Miao's stunned expression changed slightly. He looked at the person in front of him and asked, "Lin Xi, why are you here?"
"We've arrived."
"So fast?" Ling Miao pretended to be surprised and opened his mouth in an exaggerated manner.
Ling Miao was like a critically ill patient, his life could be harvested by death at any time.
After living with Ling Miao for five years, Ji Linxi still knew something about him. Ling Miao is thick-skinned, easily panicked when things happen, and he is like a powder keg, but you can feel the vitality from him at any time. In the past five years, Ji Linxi had seen Ling Miao like this for the first time: He was like a dead tree in the desert, with dry branches tangled together, and a fire could turn him into ashes.
Ji Linxi didn't know how to make Ling Miao recover. The only thing he could do now was to help Ling Miao carry Su Yuyang upstairs.
The sky was shrouded in gray unconsciously, gray-black clouds obscured the clear sky, and the rain fell without warning.
Ji Linxi stood outside the car, and the rain quickly soaked his whole body. Ling Miao didn't seem to notice Ji Linxi's embarrassment. He hugged Su Yuyang in his arms and whispered in his mouth: "Su Yuyang is very afraid of the cold. If there is a slight breeze, he will put on a coat. The weather this year is really weird. , it’s already June and it’s still so cool, which is simply abnormal.”
Ji Linxi let the rain hit him, not because he didn't want to find an umbrella to cover himself, but because Ling Miao's words made him unable to move at all.
A dull thunder exploded in Ji Linxi's heart. Ji Linxi looked at Ling Miao in shock and asked: "You..."
Ling Miao hugged Su Yuyang and said lovingly: "Lin Xi, I think I understand."
"Understand what?" Ji Linxi asked expectantly.
Ling Miao smiled and said nothing.
"No matter what you understand, I believe your decision is correct." Ji Linxi patted Ling Miao on the shoulder encouragingly.
Ji Linxi opened the trunk, took out an umbrella from the corner and handed it to Ling Miao: "Go up first, I'll park the car."
Looking at the umbrella in Ji Linxi's hand, Ling Miao pushed it back: "I'm going to park the car, you go back first. I wanted to treat you to a meal, but I didn't expect you to get caught in the rain."
Ji Linxi said nonchalantly: "It's not like I haven't been showered before. It's just... can you get Su Yuyang up there yourself?"
"Stop looking down on me!" Ling Miao shouted softly, with a smile on his lips, "Lin Xi, what if..." Tangled, afraid, worried, many emotions blended together, Ling Miao suddenly looked at Ji Linxi with a complicated expression .
Ling Miao's expression and hesitation in speaking, coupled with Ling Miao's previous statement that he "understood", Ji Linxi had almost guessed what Ling Miao wanted to say.
Patting Ling Miao on the shoulder, Ji Linxi said comfortingly: "I said, I believe your decision is correct, and since I believe it, I will definitely support it."
After saying that, Ji Linxi pressed the car key into Ling Miao's hand, opened the umbrella and slowly walked towards the rental house.
"Thank you, Lin Xi." Ling Miao watched Ji Linxi's back walking further and further away, becoming blurry and blurry, and the gratitude in his heart became more profound.
If there was no Ji Linxi, if there was no moral discipline, Ling Miao thought, there might be some things that he would never understand in his life, and there might be some people that he would have missed and it would become a regret in his life.
"Su Yuyang, I understand now. I understand why I care so much about your attitude towards me and why I care about you so much. Su Yuyang, wake up soon. When you wake up, I will be the first to tell you. So, don't run away from me, okay? Okay, wake up quickly!" Ling Miao whispered in Su Yuyang's ear.
A kiss fell on Su Yuyang's lips.
The raindrops outside the window slapped happily on the car window glass, as if wanting to get a glimpse of the sweetness inside the car.