"Pug has been doing it for a long time, and this heart has changed. It used to be so hot and joyful. Gradually, it has become fearful. I used to look forward to getting along with him for a longer time, but later. You are in front of him. , didn’t even dare to lift your head. Then you suddenly realized that you were never husband and wife, he was always the superior master, and you were just a timid servant from the beginning to the end.” Xiao An smiled bitterly, “No Wrong, it is a servant. A servant who is honored to serve the master close by. A servant who is always worried about being thrown into the cold palace."
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Pang Yi listened to Xiao An's half-awake and half-drunk words, but remained silent. He looked at the drenched veil. One of my own hearts also became moist. He looked at the unusually quiet woman in front of him. Imagining the journey from the capital to Ninggu Pagoda, that delicate girl who always annoyed him but left him helpless. There is sourness and sadness in my heart.
If only time could turn back. When he was still in Jilin, he would let Xiao An go and let her escape secretly. From then on, there will be no girl he cares about in this world, and it is impossible for Ning Guta to have a woman who lives like a year and feels dejected.
However, where is the way back in life? There is no medicine for regret in this world.
So, today, they are all living so cautiously and tormenting.
"Later, my servant was really thrown into limbo, ha ha," Xiao An's soft laughter came from under the veil, a little hoarse and relieved, "You may not believe it, At that time, I actually felt relieved, because I didn't want to be his servant anymore, and I didn't bother to find out if he had a heart. I... I was really afraid of him, because I lost my original girlish heart , I became a different person. I used to be so desperate to jump into the flames, and then I was so cautious and not revealing my sincerity. I was scared, really scared... "
"Stop it," Pang Yi said softly, while pouring another cup of tea and stuffing it into Xiao An's hand, he said, "You are drunk, drink this cup of tea, go to sleep, wake up After that, nothing happened."
"How is it possible? No matter how many times you get drunk, you still have to live the same life when you wake up?" Xiao An murmured, removing the wet veil from her face, looking at Pang with bright red eyes. Yi, staring straight at him, took a long time to speak again, "Pang Yi, send me away quickly, Ninggu Tower is too cold, I don't want to stay any longer."
Pang Yi was so hurt by those eyes, he lowered his eyes and nodded slightly: "Okay, I will send you to southern Xinjiang in one month at the latest."
"I'm sorry to trouble you," Xiao An nodded, with a grateful face, "Pang Yi, I only thank two people in this life, one is my father and the other is you."
"Although my father wants my life now, he really loved me back then, and it was because of him that I was able to marry my sweetheart as I wished. If I hadn't married him back then..." Having said that, Xiao An She hooked her lips mockingly, "I'm afraid I won't be reconciled in this life, and I'm doomed to live a bad life. Fortunately, I married him as I wished. Although the ending was not satisfactory, it was the end of my life." It's something on my mind, so I am especially grateful to my father, and you are the other one."
Pang Yi lowered his head and held his lips bitterly: "What can I be grateful for?"
"Of course, you saved me," Xiao An said hurriedly, "Whether it's in Shengjing, Jilin, or Ninggu Pagoda, you saved me every time."
"Jilin?" Pang Yi looked at Xiao An with a smile, "Didn't you pretend to be sick that time?"
"I'm really pretending to be sick, but it's true that you saved me. In such a heavy snow day, you braved the wind and snow to buy medicine for me. I appreciate your kindness," Xiao An said word by word. Speaking seriously, she paused for a while, and looked up at Pang Yi, "Pang Yi, when you were in Jilin, you made dumplings for me once, do you remember?"
"Remember," Pang Yi nodded, remembering the scene at that time, he couldn't help but hooked his lips and smiled, "It was the first day of the new year, you were clamoring for dumplings with three delicacies stuffing, but you can get them anywhere Got all the three fresh stuffing? Then I made you dumplings with bean curd and vermicelli stuffing. There were thirty dumplings on a plate, and you ate them all."