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Xue Tanqi: "...Mean Wei won't let me tell you, but I don't think it's a problem to hide it from you. You are older than Ming Wei, so enlighten him more. This child is sometimes thoughtful and stubborn, and he may not listen to what others say. Go in. But he won't get grades if he doesn't study biology or go to the lab. Besides, I can see that MEAN WELL really likes scientific research, and I don't know what he's struggling with. It's a pity to go straight to work after graduation. You persuade him. "
The smile on Min Yu's face had long since disappeared, and he solemnly said, "I will talk to him well."
Professor Xue sighed and continued: "There are still photos and Zhao Sheng. Ming Wei said he solved it by himself and didn't want anyone to intervene. After thinking about it, I still don't feel relieved. Although Ming Wei is not unreliable, it is This matter is still relatively sensitive, you pay attention and help him. Young people nowadays, with high self-esteem and high spirits, are always easy to get into the horns... "
"I see." Min Yu sincerely thanked: "Thank you, Ming Wei has caused you a lot of trouble. I will take Ming Wei to visit you in a while."
Professor Xue smiled and said, "You are welcome at any time."
Min Yu hesitated for a moment, then said embarrassedly, "Can you send me those two photos?"
Xue Tanqi smiled: "Yes, as you want, I'm about to delete it."
Min Yu put down her phone, opened her e-mail and looked at the two photos for a long time, then picked up the intercom phone and dialed: "Xiao Ren, come here."
Shao Mingwei said in front of Professor Xue and Liu Yang that if they were uncomfortable with his sexuality, he would avoid him. He acted calm and didn't care that much, but when he heard their same surprise and denial, Shao Mingwei suddenly relaxed. After that, Professor Xue and Liu Yang were both people he cared about, and the affirmation of those close to him relieved some of his psychological pressure to some extent.
However, as Xue Tanqi and Min Yu said, Shao Mingwei is indeed a person with a heavy heart. He is used to taking care of others and likes to take responsibility. Although the photo issue is barely over, he inevitably takes it to heart. He feels that he Being complacent and being too indulgent in public, it almost affected Min Yu, which made him unable to blame himself.
In addition, Shao Mingwei received the interview news from the company that submitted his self-recommendation resume. He had already made up his mind to give up the research, but in just one day, Professor Xue had persuaded him twice, and he was shaken again. This is his own business, how can others think more than him? How he didn't know not to continue reading was like a death sentence for future development, but Shao Mingwei has a youthful spirit after all, and there is no harmless comparison between men. He doesn't want to be useless when his lover is already so successful. The scholar, or a debt-ridden scholar, he knew it was naive and radical, but he couldn't control himself.
I have to say that Professor Xue knows Shao Mingwei very well. He not only sees through Shao Mingwei's complex thoughts under the open-minded and gentle surface, but also pierces his high self-esteem that few people see. Usually, he is a helpful and warm-hearted senior. , is a scholar who has always been at ease, a considerate boyfriend, and a senior who is loyal, but he consciously or unintentionally avoided the part where he needed help, and was unwilling to bow his head. He never told anyone about Baoyan's confusion. He was hesitant and anxious, and he didn't tell Min Yu. If there were other things, he might not be so resistant to talk about it, but he closed it tightly. He didn't utter a word.
Perhaps the events that happened in one day were too sudden and one after another, or perhaps the anxiety and depression for a period of time reached a critical point and started to fight back. At night, Shao Mingwei rarely dreamed of his deceased parents, and he did not know. What is the specific situation? I just feel that I am in a hurry. If I don't move fast, I won't be able to catch up. But in the dream, the more he wants to run forward, the slower he walks. He can't help reaching out and grabbing it. But it was empty.
Then he suddenly opened his eyes, Shao Mingwei was stunned for a while, feeling a little clammy and cold on his face, he reached out and touched it, and it felt sticky - he had a nosebleed.
Shao Mingwei sat up from the bed, looked aside to see that Min Yu was still asleep, lifted the thin quilt and got up gently, took the blood-stained pillow towel and went to the large bathroom outside to rinse.
Min Yu woke up as soon as Shao Mingwei left.
"What's wrong? Nosebleed?" Min Yu appeared at the door of the bathroom wearing pajamas. There was still some residual sleepiness in her eyes, and her hair was not as neatly combed as it was during the day. It was fluffy and soft enough to make you want to touch it.
Shao Mingwei was bending down and pouring water on his nose and mouth. Seeing him wake up, he comforted him: "Why did you get up? It's just a nosebleed, maybe it's because you've been a little angry recently, go back to sleep, I'll go back to sleep when I'm done. ."
Min Yu nodded, turned and walked out of the bathroom.
Shao Mingwei packed two paper sticks to block his nose, soaked the pillow towel in the water basin and went back to the bedroom, and found that there was no one in it. He went out to look around and found Min Yu in the kitchen where only a small light was turned on.
Min Yu couldn't help laughing at the sight of his nose stuffed with paper balls.
Shao Mingwei also smiled: "What are you doing?"
Min Yu gently pressed the towel wrapped with an ice pack on Shao Mingwei's forehead, and said softly, "Come on, move forward a little bit to stop the bleeding faster."
Min Yu pressed him, and Shao Mingwei put his arms around his waist and asked in a low voice, "What time is it?"
Min Yu blinked and whispered, "I just saw it, it's almost three o'clock."
Shao Mingwei didn't speak, he lowered his head and approached Min Yu, kissing him awkwardly.
The two leaned sideways against the low cabinet in the kitchen and kissed quietly and lingeringly. The microwave behind Min Yu squeaked softly, and he stroked the back of Shao Mingwei's neck a few times to make him let go of himself. Zhi laughed again: "You come and hold the ice pack."
Shao Mingwei took the cold towel from Min Yu's hand, watched him take out the milk from the microwave, poured it into two glasses, and handed him one of the glasses.
Shao Mingwei no longer felt any nosebleeds, so he put down the ice pack, and stood in the kitchen with Min Yu, looking out through the window at the quiet night when a car passed by occasionally, whispered insignificant private words, and finished drinking hot water while chatting. milk.
After drinking, Shao Mingwei washed the two cups and put them back, packed the towel and ice pack, pulled the paper balls out of his nose and threw them into the trash can, and said to Min Yu who was waiting, "Let's go back."
Min Yu took a step ahead of him, took him by the hand and pulled him to the sofa and sat down, looking at Shao Mingwei with calm and submissive eyes: "Can we talk?"
Shao Mingwei froze: "What are you talking about?"
Min Yu didn't say anything, but leaned on Shao Mingwei's shoulder with her face turned sideways, her voice a little low: "I think you are hiding something from me."
"I..." Shao Mingwei's voice was obscure.
Min Yu raised her hand to smooth the folds of the pajamas on Shao Mingwei's shoulders, and asked again softly, "Are you hiding something from me again?"
Shao Mingwei took his hand: "Do you know anything?"
Min Yu didn't hide it, rubbed the tip of his nose against his neck, and smelled the reassuring scent of the fresh shower gel on his body: "You, Professor Xue, told me that you don't want to go to graduate school."
"Well." Shao Mingwei grabbed his hand and rubbed it unconsciously.
Min Yu sat up slowly: "Why? Is it because of the 300,000 yuan?"
Shao Mingwei pursed his lips: "Yes... No."
"Why is that?" Min Yu's tone was so gentle, with only pure curiosity, as if any reason he said was acceptable and understandable, and there would be no condescending inconceivable without surprise. Min Yu was never aggressive in front of him. He was considerate, considerate, and reasonable. At this time, when he heard Shao Mingwei say that 300,000 yuan was part of the reason, he looked at him tenderly: "We are a family, you know I don't care about that. of."
Shao Mingwei was shrouded in his gentle eyes, Min Yu's black and white eyes looked at him tolerantly, treating him as a pet child, and as if he was an equal lover who was treated solemnly, as if he had everything he wanted. Yes, Shao Mingwei suddenly let go of the self-esteem and defensiveness that had been rusted for a long time, and whispered with a calm attitude of indifference or "let's just say": "I'm in a hurry, I want to catch up with you. You Being so good and I have nothing, I'm… unworthy of you. I want you to feel like I'm likable and dependable."
Min Yu asked, "Then do you think you are not worthy of my liking and cannot be relied upon?"
"No..." Shao Mingwei subconsciously retorted but got stuck. After a while, he said: "Yes, I think I may not be as good as you think, I am too young, I am afraid that I will not be able to catch up with you, I... very uneasy, I am afraid that you will not like it. I."
Min Yu's eyes were bright and a little hot, he paused, calmed his heartbeat because of Shao Mingwei's frank and straightforward love words, shook his head, and laughed at himself: "But how much I depend on you, you can feel it's not In fact, I also have anxiety, often, I am afraid that you think I am too much older than you, I am afraid that you think I am old, and at my age, I like to act like a spoiled child to my little boyfriend, and I like to be taken care of, I am always afraid You think I'm twisted."
Shao Mingwei was a little surprised and said decisively: "Absolutely not, how can you say that you are old when you are only in your thirties? Even if you are really old one day, you will be the best in my heart. I will always love you and be willing to forever. It's yours to rely on and take care of you."
"Me too." Min Yu raised his hand and stroked Shao Mingwei's young and handsome face, and looked at him, "I sometimes feel regretful, if I was born more than ten years later, we would meet at a very young age and then be together, then How good it should be. But I am very fortunate that at least we have met each other, and I have not missed your youth, and I can give you some pointers as someone who came here more than ten years ago, so that you can avoid some detours. "
Shao Mingwei hugged him, buried his head on his thin shoulders, and said in a muffled voice, "I also want to meet the young you, but you tell me the same thing, we have a lot of time and opportunities to reminisce together. Don't feel sorry, Although I didn't have time to participate in your past, I will be by your side every minute and every second of your life in the future, and I will not leave any regrets."
Min Yu felt his sadness and eagerness to appease herself, she showed a soft smile, was hugged by him and patted his back and said, "Okay, we agreed. You see, we will all be uneasy, but That doesn't stop us from falling in love, doesn't it? We even think so much because we love each other. But we all know these things won't shake the fact that we're together, so how can we make the right decisions because of these changes?"
Min Yu gently pushed him away, with a smile in his eyes: "For example, about your insurance research."
Shao Mingwei was silent.
Min Yu didn't persuade him directly, but instead asked, "If you didn't go to graduate school, how did you plan?"
Shao Mingwei: "... XX company has a talent recruitment plan. I submitted my resume and sent me an interview notice. I think there is a high chance of success."
Min Yu: "Compared with graduate school, which one do you think has more development potential and room for improvement?"
Shao Mingwei's silence represented the answer.
Min Yu smiled helplessly, but with indulgent love: "Actually, my dream was to be a pianist, and I wanted to study music at the Conservatory of Music, but my father didn't agree with me and had to change to Q University. Later he fell ill. Now, I joined the company as soon as I graduated. Don't look at me now managing Huaining. When I first joined the company, the old man asked me to start as a junior employee, and no one knew me. The old man was ill at that time, and he I was worried, and I was worried too. I was afraid that I would not be able to take his class, so I stayed in various departments of the company in turn for two years. At that time, I rarely wanted to play the piano." Min Yu asked him, "Do you know why? "
Shao Mingwei: "Why?"
"Because the workplace is the place that can kill young people's ideals and enthusiasm the most, especially if you are just entering the grassroots level of the workplace, you will be hit on the head by the cruel reality, you will be surprised at the low work efficiency here, and you will disdain each other and blame each other. Colleagues, they will hate incompetent bosses who like to steal credit and swear, they will worry about hypocritical interpersonal relationships, and they will resist the waste of life in the bar and entertainment. Maybe in some large companies, this situation is rare, but in small and medium-sized companies, it is almost impossible. In the first two years of entering Huaining, although there was no such extreme situation, it was indeed very hard and tiring. At that time, I only had one idea to grow up as soon as possible and help my father to support the whole family and group. There's not a single bit of extra energy to think about other things."
Shao Mingwei said, "I'm not afraid of hardship."
Min Yu looked at him: "I know you're not afraid, but we don't have to do that, right? We don't need to grow up in this way, obviously there are better choices, right? And you are very talented and enthusiastic, I don't Hopefully it's worn away by work and dispensable like my old musical dreams."
Shao Mingwei nodded hesitantly, and Min Yu's eyes lit up - this proved that Shao Mingwei was thinking about his words seriously.
Min Yu took his hand and said softly and coquettishly, "If we say that our positions are reversed, what would you expect me to do? If you were me, would you regret and feel sad because I made a stubborn decision? He opened his eyes and looked at Shao Mingwei intently: "Do you want me to be sad?"
Shao Mingwei said in a low voice, "I... don't want to."
Min Yu smiled: "Look, as long as you jump out and assume it doesn't happen to you, any bystander will make the right decision." Min Yu's tone was sly, "I'm glad you are so entangled for me, but I hope you can make good plans for yourself. You are thinking of me for your own sake. After all, we still have to live together for a few years, ten years, decades, and a lifetime... I don't want you to react to it one day, regret it. , and then blame me."
Shao Mingwei: "No way..."
Min Yu put her fingers on his lips to block what he wanted to deny, then cupped his cheeks with both hands and kissed him: "Then I don't want to either. And you said you wanted to catch up with me... Why do you want to be in love? What about chasing and comparing? I'll be where you are, we have to be together for so long, do we really have to keep competing? How tiring."
Shao Mingwei was holding his face by him and looked at him quietly and lovingly.
Min Yu blushed a little at his stare, and leaned down in embarrassment/ leaned into his arms: "I just express my thoughts, I don't force you to act according to them, in the end, it is up to you to make your own decisions, no matter what. I'll support anything. But you have to promise me, don't go overboard and think about it, okay?"
"Yeah." Shao Mingwei hugged Min Yu tightly and replied.