Lying on the bed, Cao Ye felt that his chest was bulging, filled with a lot of emotions. He recalled the first 20 years of his life. Although he didn't get much fatherly love from Cao Xiuyuan, Li You's love for him was even more than the part he lacked.
"By the way, Cao Ye," Liang Sizhe said, "I have a guess about your mother's suicide note."
"What?" Cao Ye asked.
"Your mother said in that suicide note that she separated from your father a long time ago, that there was no deception in their marriage, and that your father and Zhang Minghan were in a normal relationship and had no indecent behavior... I was thinking, according to your mother's friend's advice It is said that she was very disappointed with your father before she left. In fact, there is no reason to make any excuse for Teacher Cao, so it is very possible for her to do so..."
"It's the suicide note left for me." Cao Ye continued.
"Well, she's afraid that if your dad keeps getting caught up in this kind of malicious public opinion being attacked, it will hurt you too."
Cao Ye was silent for a while, then stretched out his hand and groped to hold Liang Sizhe: "Liang Sizhe, when you have time, you can accompany me to see my mother"
"Okay." Liang Sizhe's palm turned over, his fingers were inserted between Cao Ye's fingers, and his fingers were intertwined.
Cao Ye thought he was going to tell Li You that he now has Liang Sizhe, so she should not worry so much.
He wanted Li You to be so open-minded, and he would definitely be happy for him when he learned that he had such a good boyfriend.
After a while, Cao Ye leaned closer to Liang Sizhe: "Brother Sizhe, can I ask you a question?"
"you say."
"I want to know, what are your parents like?"
Hearing this, Liang Sizhe fell silent and didn't speak for a long time.
Cao Ye realized that Liang Sizhe might not want to talk about this, and he quickly said, "It's okay if you don't want to."
"It's not that I don't want to say it," Liang Sizhe said. "I was thinking about what to say. You just asked me why I was unhappy. This is probably the source."
Cao Ye turned to look at Liang Sizhe and asked in a low voice, "Why?"
Liang Sizhe sighed in the darkness, covering his eyes with the back of his hand: "Because every time I think of them, they are constantly arguing, arguing, arguing... My mother is actually a very gentle person, she teaches the violin Teacher, even if a child is stupid and can't learn after being taught many times, she won't get angry. My dad... is an interior designer, very handsome and elegant. They met in college. To outsiders, it seems that they are right. Incredible. But I don't know why, they treat everyone very well, just look at each other as if they were enemies, and they can quarrel over any small thing."
Liang Sizhe's voice was low and his speech was slow, while recalling what happened more than ten years ago, he told Cao Ye: "I remember that they were not like this when I was a child, and then they became more and more noisy, and I have been waiting for them to announce their divorce. , but they just don't mention it. Every time I hear them quarreling, I want to yell at them, stop arguing, you should separate quickly! But I can't say anything, I don't know what will happen after their divorce, Will one of them fade out of my life and start a new family that has nothing to do with me?"
"I was waiting for them to bring it up to me, and then I could force myself to accept it, but they kept arguing, not mentioning divorce. The last time they quarreled was on the way to the airport, when I asked I went to Sydney to participate in a very important violin competition. The atmosphere was good at first, but on the way they quarreled again because of the route. As soon as the word 'divorce' was uttered, our car collided with an oncoming car. They both died on the spot, and I only hurt my finger because my mother came over to help me block the impact. "
Many years have passed, and now Liang Sizhe talks about the drastic life changes he experienced when he was young. He only thinks that these ten years have been like a dream, and the car accident was the beginning of his falling into this dream.
Cao Ye did not expect that before the car accident, Liang Sizhe grew up in such a family environment. When he was a child, he could not see Cao Xiuyuan all the year round. Only when he returned from a long vacation could the three of them get together for a meal. They were all in harmony, probably at that time Li You deliberately created the illusion that their marriage was harmonious.
Cao Ye couldn't think of how Liang Sizhe spent his youth when he was young. Facing the endless quarrels of his parents for several years, he should be very depressed. The past that Liang Sizhe talked about was so heavy that Cao Ye didn't know how to comfort him. Cao Ye suddenly thought of Liang Sizhe's "Liang Sheng Zhu Meng", which seemed to be somewhat similar to his parents' marriage trajectory.
Just when he thought of this, Liang Sizhe happened to ask, "Did you think of anything?"
"Liang Sheng Zhu Meng?" Cao Ye hesitated.
"Well, when I saw the first version of the script, the first thing that came to my mind was my parents. At first, I didn't even realize that my parents' marriage would have such a big impact on me. Later, I realized that I was very early on. You were tempted but kept silent, in large part because I was afraid that once it started, it would lead to this inevitable end."
"Three years ago, when I filmed "Liang Sheng Zhu Meng", I just tried to use my parents' past to tell myself that even if I got it, it might not be so good. I want to try it with you, even if I let you go."
"So Cao Ye, I will also worry about gains and losses. I'm afraid that we will become like my parents. One day, we will keep arguing and get bored."
Cao Ye knew early on that "Liang Sheng Zhu Meng" was probably filmed by Liang Sizhe because of him, but what he didn't expect was that Liang Sizhe actually used such a tragic way to cross himself, to open up the bloody past, and to face it with the least desire. convince himself of his past.
He didn't know how to comfort Liang Sizhe for a while. The root of the problem was too deep, and it was far from his comforting words.
"I promise, I won't quarrel with you, I'll let you all." Cao Ye said this, but he felt that the promise was too pale. In order to prove that what he said was serious, he held Liang Sizhe's hand and let it go. On his head, "Don't you like to touch my head? Feel free to touch it, and I won't resist in the future."
Liang Sizhe was amused by him and touched his head twice: "Really?"
"Really," Cao Yeowu got up and looked at Liang Sizhe, "I won't get bored with you either. Have you forgotten? The first time I saw you at Lanyan, I thought you were beautiful."
"Oh... Remember, you still want me to give you meat."
"Hey, don't distort history... Anyway, I still look good at you now. Liang Sizhe, when you didn't act in my film, I wanted to break up with you, but when I saw you, I couldn't hold back you. Reconciled. So, it's only possible that you hate me, it's impossible that we both hate it."
Liang Sizhe smiled: "I couldn't quit you after filming "Liang Sheng Zhu Meng", how could I hate you?"
"So brother Sizhe, don't be so pessimistic, the story of your parents belongs to them, and you are with me now. We will be together for a long time, we won't quarrel, we won't get bored with each other, and we will work together on movies. , chatting about things in the middle of the night, doing it every day, until I get old and can’t do it anymore, this is our story.”
Liang Sizhe thought that Cao Ye, like when he was young, was optimistic by nature and could always let him get out of his unpleasant past easily.
Maybe Cao Ye is right, everyone has their own story, and there is no need to use other people's endings to make predictions for themselves.
He thought for a while and then said, "Cheng Duan said that you don't like hidden relationships, but as long as we are together, there may be a camera aimed at us at any time, just like Berlin this time."
Cao Ye said: "I didn't like to hide from the paparazzi before, but with you, I think it's exciting to have an underground romance."
They chatted for a while, and the sky began to turn pale. Cao Ye thought that Liang Sizhe had probably not had a good rest when he came back from Berlin. He restrained his desire to continue chatting and said, "Go to sleep, let's watch it together when we wake up. my mother."
Liang Sizhe made a sound of "um".
"Good night Liang Sizhe," Cao Ye hugged Liang Sizhe and kissed him, "I love you very much."
In the past, Cao Ye always fell asleep quickly, but this time, he didn't know whether the jet lag was not reversed, or because his emotions had not completely calmed down, he could not fall asleep.
He thought of the documentary Liang Sizhe made for him, which completely solved the knot in his heart over the years, but when Liang Sizhe mentioned his own thoughts, he didn't know what he could do for Liang Sizhe.
Liang Sizhe made up for his birthday once, and he wanted to make it up for Liang Sizhe, but how should he make up for this birthday? He had a documentary about Yin Si ten years ago, but after all, it was a record of the past, and he always felt that it was not enough.
Cao Ye closed his eyes and planned in his mind to make up for Liang Sizhe's birthday.
When I woke up the next day, the online discussion of the video and recording continued.
Before going out, Cao Ye called the flower shop to reserve a bouquet, Liang Sizhe waited for him leaning on the door frame, and took time to browse Weibo for a while.
He doesn't use Weibo very often, but since the videos and recordings were exposed, the frequency of his use of Weibo has skyrocketed.
Although Cao Ye said that he was not afraid of being exposed, Liang Sizhe was still not completely at ease. He had been attacked by public opinion several times since the movie, and he knew how terrible some unprovoked malice was. He was worried that those malice would be transferred to Cao Ye.
The car drove to the parking lot of the cemetery, and the two got out of the car and walked to Li You's tomb.
Cao Ye leaned down and wiped the photo of Li You on the tombstone: "Mom, let me introduce you, this is my boyfriend Liang Sizhe."
"Hello, Auntie." Liang Sizhe squatted down and put the bouquet under Li You's photo.
"He is very powerful, he is the youngest actor in Cannes and the Best Actor in the Academy Awards in China, and he was also nominated for the Best Actor at the Berlin Film Festival a few days ago. Are you curious about how we changed from friends to lovers, um... this It's a long story, I'll tell you later, but don't laugh at me after you hear it, because I seem to be a little dull in that story..."
Liang Sizhe laughed beside him.
"Don't laugh." Cao Ye turned his face to look at him.
"Although it's a little dull," Liang Sizhe said with a smile, "but he's still very brave."
"We have just collaborated on two films, one is the remake of "Darkest Choice", and the other is "Try Another Word" that I told you last time, and we will collaborate on many more films in the future. It's great together."
Like every time he came before, Cao Ye told Li You about what happened in the past few months. Liang Sizhe accompanied him and occasionally added a sentence or two. Most of the time, he listened to what Cao Ye said.
In the end, Liang Sizhe set aside time for Cao Ye to spend alone with Li You, took a few steps towards the parking lot, and stood a few meters away waiting for Cao Ye.
"Mom, I didn't lose hope in love," Cao Ye thought for a while and said to Li You, "I think I seem to love Liang Sizhe very much, and it will last a long time."
The wind was a little strong, and when Cao Ye turned around, the ends of Liang Sizhe's hair and the corners of his windbreaker were rusted and shaken. This reminded Cao Ye of the evening on Yinsi Street, the first time he and Liang Sizhe met. He quickened his pace, walked towards Liang Sizhe, and then walked to the parking lot with him.
And just that afternoon, the news about Liang Sizhe accompanying his friends to visit Li You quickly flashed across the screen.