No one chatted with anyone along the way, Liang Sizhe drove the car very fast.
When passing through the congested road, Liang Sizhe turned his face and asked Cao Ye if he brought cigarettes. Cao Ye didn't stop him from smoking this time, handed him a cigarette, lit it for him, and then lit one himself and started smoking.
Mingming and Xiaoxiaobai had only met a few times, but now that he heard that it was not in a good condition, Cao Ye felt that his heart was sinking like it was being dropped.
The air pressure in the compartment was very low. Several times Cao Ye couldn't help turning his head to look at Liang Sizhe, and he could see that he was frowning slightly, and his frustration was written between his frowning eyes.
Since the reconnection, Liang Sizhe has always seemed to be at ease, and his emotions are deeply hidden, making it difficult for people to guess his thoughts. Even when he mentioned the memorial day of his parents ten years ago last night, his tone was very calm. expression, but now he rarely looked agitated.
"The light is green," Cao Ye reminded.
Liang Sizhe came back to his senses, made a sound of "um", stepped on the accelerator, and drove the car through the intersection.
Cao Ye saw that he was in a wrong mood: "Would you like me to drive?"
"It's alright, it's almost there." Liang Sizhe said, turning the steering wheel into another lane and overtaking the car in front.
The car stopped at the pet hospital. Liang Sizhe took a baseball cap and a black mask from the back row. He put the baseball cap on his head, pushed the door and got out of the car, wearing a mask while walking.
He walked in a hurry, Cao Ye quickly followed, and went with him to the independent hospital ward.
Xu Yunchu was sitting beside the hospital bed and was using his mobile phone to do his work. When he saw them coming, he got up and told Xiao Xiaobai's situation: "He vomited after eating for several days. I was afraid of delaying your mood to join the group, so I haven't been with you. Said, I brought it here every day for a few days. But today it is really bad. It suddenly became very serious, and I was foaming at the mouth... I'll call the doctor and let him tell you. "
"Yeah." Liang Sizhe responded, half squatted down, and looked at Xiaobai lying in the cage.
The cage door was not closed, and probably the hospital staff also knew that it didn't have the strength to stand up and run around.
Xiao Xiaobai was lying on his side on the mat, in the process of infusion, Liang Sizhe pulled the mask off, stuck it on his chin, raised his hand and touched its head. Xiao Xiaobai half-opened his eyes weakly, raised his head and opened his mouth when he saw his master. He probably wanted to scream, but he didn't seem to have the strength. He just snorted in his throat and lay back again.
When I saw Xiaoxiaobai a few times before, its mental state was not bad, but Cao Ye has only noticed that for a dog, ten years old is a dog's twilight years. And now, Xiao Xiaobai's half-open eyes are dull and cloudy, with signs of aging.
Xu Yunchu brought the doctor over, Cao Ye straightened up, and Liang Sizhe also stood up.
The doctor shook hands with Liang Sizhe and said respectfully, "I have seen your dog many times, but this is the first time I have seen you in person. It may be a little out of place to say this now, but I am really a fan of your movies. I have liked you for many years. ."
"Thank you," Liang Sizhe was a little tired of dealing with all the communication, but still maintained basic courtesy, "Tell me about the dog."
"To be honest, it's not very good." The doctor glanced at Xiao Xiaobai, "I cut half of my stomach that time ago, and now I have to continue cutting it if I have an operation, but it's getting older, and the success rate of the operation... I'll be honest. Let me tell you, even if the surgery is successful, it may not be able to survive the recovery after surgery."
"You are a professional doctor," Liang Sizhe nodded, "I want to hear your advice."
"There are two options now, one is to maintain the status quo, but it can't eat now, so it can only be infused every day. According to this situation, it can survive for two more months, but it is actually quite painful to live every day. I can’t eat and move, and I probably spend most of my time in the hospital…”
"It sounds like you don't really recommend this option, what about the second one?"
"The second kind, it may be cruel to you, but it is the best choice for dogs, euthanasia," he said, carefully observing Liang Sizhe's expression, seeing that Liang Sizhe's expression did not fluctuate, he continued to speak with confidence, "Your dog has a lifespan of more than 10 years now. In fact, it's no different from dying. It's still a long time to continue to live. It's better to let it go without pain."
Liang Sizhe lowered his eyes and turned his head to look at Xiao Xiaobai. It looked listless and had been on for more than a week, so painful that it could barely blink, as if it was exhausted.
"Well," Liang Sizhe raised his hand and pulled on the mask. The second half of the sentence was said through the mask, and his voice sounded dull, "I'll think about it again."
After the doctor left, Liang Sizhe squatted down again, looked at Xiao Xiaobai, touched its head, and shook its paws.
When Xiaoxiaobai had an operation a year ago, he was still filming abroad and couldn't come back. It was Xu Yunchu who came to accompany him to perform the operation. Since then, he has been mentally prepared, knowing that Xiao Xiaobai may leave at any time this year. But when this moment comes, there is still a lingering sense of powerlessness and exhaustion.
Life is really helpless. Ten years ago, my parents who accompanied him died suddenly, and ten years later, even the only dog who accompanied him also left.
Suddenly, ten years ago, I received a call from Qin Yizhuang to inform him that Xiao Xiaobai was born. Same as before.
He still remembered that under the dim street lights of Yin Si, he carefully picked up Xiao Bai, who was like a meat ball, and laughed out loud. Cao Ye said he named it "Xiao Xiao Bai", but he didn't expect it Looks so much like Caesar.
Counting further back, he went home every day when he was filming "Red Boy and Red Girl" in Beijing. The night scenes were often filmed very late, and Xiao Xiaobai followed him hungry. I don't know if the stomach problem disappeared at that moment root.
After each play is finished, taking Xiao Xiaobai back from Xu Yunchu is like a ritual of separation in life. When he's not filming, he doesn't go out often, and without Xiao Xiaobai to accompany him, I don't know how boring life should be.
Unexpectedly, these ten years have slipped away so quietly, and the days of being with each other have come to an end in the blink of an eye.
Cao Ye squatted with Liang Sizhe, looked at Xiao Xiaobai, and then turned to look at Liang Sizhe.
Compared with the restlessness at the time of driving, Liang Sizhe seems to have put away his emotions now, as if he has accepted the end of the dust, but Cao Ye always feels that there is a kind of depressed and deep sadness in him.
"I'll take it back," Cao Ye said softly, "I'm in Beijing, I can take good care of it, maybe the situation will improve."
"Will it be?" Liang Sizhe asked.
"Yes." Cao Ye comforted him. In fact, he didn't know what to do.
"Si Zhe, your flight takes off at eight o'clock in the evening," Xu Yunchu reminded from behind, "Go to the airport for something to eat early."
"Well," Liang Sizhe looked at the watch on his wrist: "It's time to go." The crew was about to start the production. He had to arrive early, get emotional, and be fully prepared. It was impossible for one to accompany him for ten Years of dog stumbling on a leash. The media and the audience all say that he is willful in his actions, but he has never been willful about filming, and the time and efforts of hundreds of people in the crew cannot be delayed. He has never known this.
"I'll take you there," Cao Ye said, "I'll be back to pick up Xiao Xiaobai later." He also knew that once the start time was set, if Liang Sizhe temporarily changed his plan, he didn't know what kind of scolding he would provoke.
"I'm watching here," Xu Yunchu said, "Si Zhe, go there with peace of mind."
"Yeah." Liang Sizhe responded, looked down at Xiao Xiaobai for a while, then touched his head, said "Thank you" in a low voice, and then got up and walked out of the ward.
Cao Ye followed him out, out of the pet hospital, Liang Sizhe walked to the co-pilot side, opened the door and sat down.
"What would you like to eat?" Cao Ye asked as he sat in and started the car.
"Eat whatever you want." Liang Sizhe said.
The pet hospital is not far from Lomon. Cao Ye called the chef of the club in advance and asked him to prepare some dishes.
After arriving in Lomon, several dishes were served quickly, but Liang Sizhe didn't eat much, he only drank a bowl of porridge, and the other dishes only moved his chopsticks symbolically.
More than half of the food on the table was left, but neither of them had any appetite, so they left for the airport after a while.
It was already dark when we got to the airport. Liang Sizhe took a black hooded jacket from the back seat and put it on. He pulled up the hood and wore a black mask. He leaned on the back seat and kept looking sideways. looking out the window.
He covered his face tightly and didn't speak. Cao Ye turned to look at him while driving, but he couldn't see the expression on his face.
Cao Ye had never seen him like this, and when he stopped at the traffic light intersection, he couldn't help calling him, "Liang Sizhe."
After a while, Liang Sizhe responded, "Huh?"
"Don't worry too much, I will take good care of Xiao Xiaobai."
"Um."
The red light changed to green, and there was a vehicle passing by on the other side of the lane. The light flashed over Liang Sizhe's side face, but the light quickly disappeared from his face again.
The rest of the way is silent. Cao Ye didn't know how to comfort him. Xiao Xiaobai's departure seemed to be a foregone conclusion. No one knew whether it would be unbearable or cruel to let him live for a few more days.
When they arrived at the airport, Song Qingyan had already contacted the airport staff in advance, opened a VIP channel, and waited for Liang Sizhe at the entrance of the channel together with the airport ground staff.
When he walked to the security checkpoint, Liang Sizhe stopped in his footsteps and turned to look at Cao Ye: "Go back, pay attention to safety on the road." His voice sounded a little hoarse, showing a tiredness that could not be ignored.
He was wearing a hood and a mask, the hood was a bit wide and cast half the shadow on his face. The two stood face to face, Cao Ye looked at him, only then did he see Liang Sizhe's expression clearly, the straight nose bridge held up the mask very high, and then looked up at the slightly concave eyes, the eye circles were slightly red at this moment.
My heart seemed to be pulled suddenly, and it hurt a little. Before his brain made a decision, his body had already reacted instinctively. Cao Ye took a step forward, raised his arms to hug him, and patted his shoulder twice: "It's okay Liang Sizhe, Xiao Xiaobai will be fine."
Liang Sizhe gave a "um", raised a hand to wrap his shoulders, lowered his head, and put his forehead on his shoulder: "Slow down on the way back."
"I know."
Several ground staff were waiting to watch them, and a staff member not far away took out their mobile phones and seemed to want to take pictures.
This hug seemed out of place. Liang Sizhe noticed this, and quickly let go of Cao Ye and took a step back: "I have passed the security check."
"Well." Cao Ye said.
When he turned around, Liang Sizhe glanced at him, and that glance was hidden in the shadow of the hood. I don't know if it was an illusion. Cao Ye felt that the eyes looked very deep, as if they were hiding an indescribable emotion.
He stood there and watched Liang Sizhe go through the security check. All he could think about was Liang Sizhe's slightly red eyes just now, and the look he looked at himself when he turned around.
Liang Sizhe passed the security check, took his coat and waved him twice, and Cao Ye also waved at him.
The VIP channel seemed very empty. Cao Ye looked at Liang Sizhe's back, and there were airport staff and Song Qingyan next to him, but Liang Sizhe seemed to be alone.
In the past, when he got on the plane, he slept, but this time Liang Sizhe couldn't sleep.
The warmth in his arms didn't seem to have completely faded away. The moment Cao Ye leaned over, he had to exert a lot of restraint so that the hug back didn't look too hard. At that moment, he really wanted to hug Cao Ye, hold the temperature in his hand, and prevent him from escaping.
His little boy was really kind to him. Back then, he was willing to bow his head to the two people he didn't want to face for him, and now he is willing to turn his back on a girlfriend because of his prodigal son. Now he can still hold back the discomfort in his heart when he is vulnerable. , leaned over to give him a hug, but he refused to face his own feelings, insisting on being an ordinary friend with him ten years ago.
If you go further, will even the last bit of temperature in your life be taken away by God because of your own greed
Cao Ye said to accompany him to get another actor, but even if he gets ten more actor, what is the meaning to him
He became famous at a young age and stepped from the lowest point of his life to the peak. It seems that he is the luckiest one in the world, but that is why he has many friends in the circle who can chat and drink, but there is only one confidant who can really make friends. nothing.
In the future, without Xiao Xiaobai, how should I spend time and pass the time between filming? Every year around the time of the parents' memorial day, I have an unresolved sense of loneliness. It seems that several love affairs I experienced happened during this time, but this year, I can't talk about it, because Cao Ye is not happy that he is in love... Liang Sizhe closed his eyes and sighed. Tone, I really want to be forced to become a saint.
To become famous, to be alone, maybe this is your destiny.
People cannot escape their destiny. The gear of this fate has been turning violently since he was 17 years old, and everything in the past, including Cao Ye, seems to be pushing him to this return path that looks like a flower and is destined to be lonely.