When the fist was swung down, there was a commotion in the audience. No one thought that in front of so many cameras, Liang Sizhe really dared to do it.
Zheng Yin, who was standing on the side, hurried over to stop him, but the little man had already been punched twice.
Xu Yunchu rushed over from the backstage, and several staff blocked the area: "Don't shoot, don't shoot! Please put down the camera first! Stop shooting!"
Liang Sizhe was quickly stopped by Zheng Yin, and it seemed that he hadn't lost his mind, but just wanted to hit the man with two punches, and he quickly stopped after the punch.
He took the laptop that had been turned off on the desktop, snapped it in the middle with force, and threw the keyboard heavily on the wall.
"I'm going to call the police!" The little reporter covered the beaten shoulder with one hand and took out his mobile phone with the other hand, "I'll call the police now, do you know that hitting someone is illegal?"
Liang Sizhe walked towards the backstage and threw a sentence: "I'll be waiting in the backstage."
Within a few minutes, this explosive headline was published on the entire Internet - "Liang Sizhe was black-faced throughout the press conference, and he ended up beating a reporter to cause public anger".
The police quickly arrived at the press conference. After learning about the situation, they took Liang Sizhe and the little reporter to the police station to take notes.
Liang Sizhe's attack was not too heavy, only a bruise was left on the reporter's body, which did not constitute a minor injury, and did not need to be detained, only a private reconciliation was required.
The reporter made a big request for economic compensation, and Liang Sizhe agreed without saying anything, but the reporter also asked him to cooperate with the video website's request and record an apology video, but this condition was not negotiated, and Liang Sizhe refused to record.
The headlines in the next few days were all about Liang Sizhe, and the public's attention quickly shifted from the incident of "Cao Xiuyuan molesting Zhang Minghan" to the incident of "Liang Sizhe beats someone".
"Liang Sizhe beat reporters and was taken away by the police", "Liang Sizhe refused to apologize for beating people", "'Star Broadcast' reporter may sue Liang Sizhe in court"... All kinds of news about the incident of "Liang Sizhe beats people" spread overwhelmingly on the Internet Come on.
A related video of Liang Sizhe's birthday party the night before also leaked. On the video, passers-by called Liang Sizhe's name, but he passed through the crowd with a blank expression, and no one paid any attention, so the accusation about Liang Sizhe playing a big name quickly spread. Come.
Almost everyone, whether or not they were interested in entertainment gossip in the past, is paying attention to this matter. More and more media have begun to sing Liang Sizhe badly. The actor, compared with Liang Sizhe, who swung his fist at the reporter, said that he "opens high and walks low" and "plays a good hand in a mess."
At that time, Liang Sizhe had just turned twenty-three years old. He seemed to be walking on an extremely thin wire rope with the moon above his head, and he was shrouded in a bright mist. Everyone looked up at him, and the thinner the rope and the more swaying, the more attentive and wholehearted they looked. They were waiting for him to fall headfirst from a height and put on a good show of plummeting from the clouds.
But now Liang Sizhe has really fallen.
The beating incident caused a lot of uproar, and Liang Sizhe's audience relationship fell sharply. "Star Broadcasting" took advantage of the aftermath of the beating of its reporters and planned a vote, saying that if Liang Sizhe's new film was released, would you choose to buy a ticket to watch the movie? 74% voted "No".
The capital market is turbulent, and the wind direction is changing faster than in all fields. Liang Sizhe is riddled with negative news, and the film contract is immediately reduced. Any film that wants to make money is waiting to see the audience's true attitude towards Liang Sizhe. No one dares to use it at this moment. He is the protagonist.
It was only later that Liang Sizhe realized that subconsciously, he took "The River of Wangchuan" as his retreat. He trusted Cao Xiuyuan very much, and believed that even if Cao Xiuyuan had no accident, at this point, he would not be concerned about the opinions of the capital market. Cao Xiuyuan has only one criterion for using an actor, that is, whether this person is suitable for the role in the film.
Cao Xiuyuan is so arrogant and arrogant, and perhaps it is because of this that he can become a talented director who is not controlled by anyone.
On the way to the airport, in the carriage, Zheng Yin turned his head and asked Liang Sizhe if he regretted holding the press conference that day.
Liang Sizhe smiled, turned his face to the window and said, "There's nothing to regret."
He thought that if Cao Ye performed "Thirteen Days" and accepted Cao Xiuyuan's guidance and advice, Cao Ye would have realized that Cao Xiuyuan, who was not his father, was a complete genius, and it is difficult for you to use a worldly vision to be a genius. judge what he did.
But fate makes people, but pushes them to different life paths.
Before getting on the plane, Liang Sizhe called Cao Ye again. He called a few days ago, and the voice kept reminding that the other party was on the call. Liang Sizhe guessed that Cao Ye had blocked his number, but this time he dialed and the voice prompted the other party. 's number was shut down, and Cao Ye probably abandoned this number.
Well, Liang Sizhe thought, it was Cao Ye who gave him the opportunity at first when he started acting, but now he has offended the media and the public because of Cao Ye, and almost killed his acting career halfway—this is probably also the reason. Can it be considered... two clear
A hopeless relationship should be cut off rationally, instead of letting oneself fall into hopeless emotions. Liang Sizhe understood this truth better than anyone else. Could it be that he wants to be like his parents, facing a relationship that has ended in a dead end, but still holding on to luck and waiting for it to warm up again
Let the past pass away, Liang Sizhe thought, there will always be new people who will experience new things, and no one has to.
Arriving in a secluded town in the north, there was no grand opening ceremony in the past. After all the staff were in place, the crew quickly turned on. Cao Xiuyuan sat behind the camera and shouted "action", and the crew immediately threw themselves into the intense shooting. in status.
The plot of "Wang Chuan" is not complicated. Two small town youths, Lu Hechuan and Guo Zhen, who have lived in the countryside since childhood, had a sexual relationship out of curiosity. No one said they loved anyone, but they had nowhere to vent their excessive desire. Let them keep the relationship secret. The two graduated from high school and worked with their elders in the village for two years. One day, Lu Hechuan brought a broken truck and said that he would take Guo Zhen out to earn money, so the two began to team up for long-distance deliveries. They smoked, quarreled, and had sex on the long journey, until one day Guo Zhen's father was seriously ill, and the great god in the village suggested that Guo Zhen get married and choose an auspicious day to "Chongxi" for his father, and his condition would improve... So the whole story revolves around "Chongxi" This incident brought a ridiculous marriage to the fore.
Liang Sizhe plays Lu Hechuan in the film and plays with the rookie actor He Xinze who plays Guo Zhen. He Xinze is about 1.75 meters, with a thin body, and his appearance is not very outstanding in the entertainment circle, but he fits the role very well, and his acting skills are also good.
The filming went well at the beginning. As a newcomer, Guo Zhen did not have the problem of excessive force on the newcomer. Although some emotions were not captured very well, it was natural. Coupled with Cao Xiuyuan, the filming progressed smoothly. .
But three months later, Cao Xiuyuan became dissatisfied when he filmed the scene of the two running a long distance. Originally, one shot could be shot three or five times, but now he often can't pass it three or five times.
"CUT, the emotions are not enough," Cao Xiuyuan said behind the camera, "This scene is really going to be played, but your emotions get that part, you love him, and you love him too," he pointed to Liang Sizhe and He Xin Ze, "You love each other, but no one shows your sincerity, but are you in love with each other now? Don't just use your skills to act, it's too fake, the feelings are not in place, don't try to fool the past with skills, don't shoot first , to brew your emotions."
The plot of that scene was when Guo Zhen was running a long-distance delivery, and Guo Zhen suddenly said that he would not run long-distance in the future, and that he was going home to get married. Lu Hechuan didn't respond, and even joked that you have been fucked by a man for a long time, can you be hard on your daughter-in-law in the future? Guo Zhen seemed to have been slightly humiliated, and remained silent. Lu Hechuan suddenly stepped on the accelerator to the bottom and drove for more than ten miles on the highway, until he was about to collide with the car in front of him, and he stopped the car with one foot. He pulled over to the side of the road and lit a cigarette to smoke.
This scene was shot a dozen times, but Cao Xiuyuan never failed. Everyone present could see that the problem lies with Liang Sizhe. Guo Zhen is a newcomer, and in this kind of rival play, Liang Sizhe can only lead him into the play.
But Liang Sizhe doesn't seem to be able to get into the show himself. Liang Sizhe also knows that he has a big problem. The films he has made before are either the secret love of a teenager, or a drama with a very obscure emotional line, or a comedy-style romance, which has never been in the play. experienced such a strong feeling.
Even in his life, he has never experienced such a relationship. Several of his relationships have been careless, and he can't say how much he loves them. Because of the failure of his parents' marriage, he is jealous and pessimistic about his relationship, and it seems that he has lost his investment for a while. emotional capacity.
This scene took three days to shoot, and on the third day, Cao Xiuyuan finally got angry. After working together for four years, this was the first time he lost his temper at Liang Sizhe.
"Ask yourself, do you believe that you love Guo Zhen?" Cao Xiuyuan dropped the script, "Why should the audience believe something that you don't believe in yourself? How many times have you said it, the feelings are not enough, the skills can only be It makes you look very fake! Haven't you ever been in love? Are you talking about nothing? Then you go to talk now, I don't care who you are looking for, I will give you a holiday for you to talk, and then come back and continue shooting when you know what love is. Half a year and a year will do, don't continue to waste the crew's time here! How will you act in the future if this scene doesn't pass?!"
After saying this, Cao Xiuyuan really gave the entire crew three days off.
That was the most painful period for Liang Sizhe. He stayed in the hotel every day to read the script, trying to immerse himself in the character and into Lu Hechuan's emotions. But he couldn't find the status.
He went to Zheng Yin, Zheng Yin let him sit on the sofa opposite, looked at him and sighed, shaking his head in disbelief, and said softly, "How can you not know what it's like to love someone?"
That tone, as if saying something very absurd. It seems normal that others don't know, but he, Liang Sizhe, should know how to love someone by nature.
Liang Sizhe didn't know where his problem was, and this film made him extremely painful. He thought that maybe he was not suitable for this film. Teacher Cao just saw the wrong person at the time. Even a genius will occasionally make mistakes.
He was born to be strong, and he has never admitted defeat since playing the violin, but the pain caused by filming this scene made him almost want to give up the role.
He even wondered if Teacher Cao could find out as soon as possible that he could not play Lu Hechuan at all, and then decisively replaced him with someone else.
In this way, he can be worthy of everyone, worthy of Cao Xiuyuan, and worthy of Cao Ye.
As soon as this idea came out, he thought of Cao Ye again. He had avoided thinking about Cao Ye for three months, but at this time Cao Ye appeared again in his mind uncontrollably.
He suddenly realized that even if "Wang Chuan" was his last option, when he walked down this path, he couldn't help but look back at the boy who told him to "don't cooperate with Cao Xiuyuan". He still doesn't know if the choice was the right one at the time.
Liang Sizhe lost sleep that night.
Cao Ye had a face-to-face with him in his mind, and Liang Sizhe couldn't seal him up again.
He couldn't help thinking of the time in Yinsi Street, the tall and slender boy leading his dog majestically, how he played the violin, and how he sang "Little Star";
The appearance of the wet dream for the first time, the appearance of sleeping on the stomach, the appearance of being touched on the head and about to explode;
They were walking on the stairs, he hooked his neck, turned his face and said, "You play my movie or my dad's movie";
When filming "Thirteen Days", he suddenly came to the crew and looked lost;
The way he was joking with his friends backstage at the premiere;
And the last time he saw Cao Ye, the boy's face was pale and on the verge of collapse.
Liang Sizhe suddenly realized that even if he deliberately ignored his attention to Cao Ye, he could still remember every appearance of Cao Ye he had seen over the years.
They were like old movies that had lost the "pause" button, looping in his head all the time.
It turned out that he didn't "kind of like" Cao Ye, he lied to himself, he was actually very eager, hopeless, watching from a distance, and secretly loving his teenager.
Since when? Probably from the time of Yin Si, he couldn't help but fall in love with his boy. At first he could not accept that he liked the same sex, and later he was afraid that his likes would be discovered by the other party.
So he kept hiding, he admitted that he liked Cao Ye, but he kept deceiving himself that he didn't like Cao Ye that much.
- It's okay without him, it's no big deal, life has to go on, who can't leave who
In this way, he even deceived himself.
Only by avoiding this emotion can he protect himself, let himself not fall into it so much, live a normal life, and fall in love normally.
But now Cao Xiuyuan let him sink into Lu Hechuan's emotions and let him show his true love, he couldn't hide.
He had to cut himself open and take out the emotions he had loved completely, because at that moment Lu Hechuan loved Guo Zhen so desperately and hopelessly.
The crew restarted the next day, and when the scene was filmed again, Liang Sizhe only took one shot and it was over.
When filming the bed scene in the afternoon, the crew cleared the scene. In the cramped small hotel room, two naked men were entangled together. Lu Hechuan pressed on Guo Zhen, their bodies swayed, Lu Hechuan's voice was very low, he lay beside Guo Zhen's ear, and asked him when he was doing errands, what kind of girl the other party was, what plans he had in the future, and whether he would be used on the wedding day Go be his best man.
They talked like whispers, and Lu Hechuan suddenly started to exert his strength, as if to finish the things that were too late.
After the end, he didn't speak any more, just hugged Guo Zhen tightly and said, "Then will we meet again in the future?"
"Don't see me," Guo Zhen said.
Lu Hechuan gave a "hmm".
After that scene was filmed, Cao Xiuyuan shouted "cut", but Liang Sizhe still didn't let go.
He Xinze was hurt by his hoop, and it took a while before he called out "Brother Si Zhe".
Liang Sizhe looked up at him, as if he had just woken up from a dream, and suddenly remembered the appearance of the young man calling him "Brother Sizhe" with bright eyes. Only then did he realize that this was in the play and that the person he was holding was not Cao Ye.
He had a dream that night, a charming, wet dream, he was entangled with Cao Ye's body, just like Lu Hechuan and Guo Zhen.
After waking up, he stared at the ceiling for a while, it turned out that he had a desire for Cao Ye, he thought. He never liked a man, never had a desire for a man, and when he liked Cao Ye, he only thought he was cute, and he never thought about it in other directions.
But now he suddenly discovered that he longed for Cao Ye, not only mentally, but also physically.
In the night, he put his hand down. He had liked Cao Ye for so many years, but this was the first time he thought about Cao Ye to relieve his desire.
It's really ironic, life may be an absurd drama. After the end, Liang Sizhe thought a little out of focus. He lost Cao Ye because of "Wang Chuan", and because of "Wang Chuan", he realized that he actually loved him, but if he followed him at that time. Cao Ye is gone, he doesn't play "Wang Chuan", he doesn't need to immerse himself in Lu Hechuan's emotions, will he be able to deceive himself in his life and convince himself that he doesn't really like Cao Ye that much
The later filming of "Wang Chuan", Liang Sizhe has been very painful. This kind of pain is not caused by Cao Xiuyuan. In fact, after he found the state, he shot every shot very smoothly, and there were no more cases where dozens of shots were not good.
But being immersed in this hopeless emotion for a long time has brought him too much consumption. He couldn't do self-protection to avoid getting caught in his emotions. The superposition of his own emotions and Lu Hechuan's emotions made him extremely depressed every day.
He seems to be back when he was filming "Thirteen Days". He is in the movie every day and can't make it.
In the second half of "Wang Chuan", he completely entered the role of Lu Hechuan, and his emotions drove him to act as a character, so that he didn't even know what he was playing. Get out of the role and judge how well you are doing.
Therefore, more than half a year after the completion of "Wang Chuan", when he heard that he was nominated for the best actor in Cannes, Liang Sizhe almost couldn't believe it. He didn't know what he was doing the whole time, but this film gave him the highest honor. Life is such a mess.
After the completion of "Wang Chuan", Liang Sizhe tried to find Cao Ye and contact his friends, but they all said they didn't know where Cao Ye was or what he was doing.
Liang Sizhe tried to take other films, but he found that he couldn't get into other roles at all. The stamina of "Wang Chuan" is too great, that hopeless emotion is always pulling him, like the water plants at the bottom of the water, tightly clinging to him, trying to take him to the bottom of the water. Several times in his dreams, Liang Sizhe dreamed of Cao Ye, and dreamed that he stepped back and said those few birthday wishes. After waking up, he had a feeling of drowning with difficulty breathing.
He can't get out of his emotions, and he can't take on new roles and enter new emotions.
When drinking with a friend in the circle, he happened to see a script. The script was immature. It was a story written by an amateur screenwriter, and the story was not interesting. It was about a pair of actors who appeared in "Liang Shanbo and Zhu Yingtai" The story of Yue Opera actors breaking apart and breaking up.
No one thought that Liang Sizhe would be interested in this story, but he did quickly decide that he wanted to be the director and make this film. This decision made him very decisive. He bought the copyright of the script. After obtaining the consent of the original screenwriter, he changed the script and changed the name to "Liang Sheng Zhu Meng".
After the news was exposed by the media in China, many people said that Liang Sizhe's eyes were higher than the top, and the actor was not good, but he wanted to transform into a director.
But Liang Sizhe ignored these comments. He invested his own money, found people he knew well in the circle, and formed the main team of the crew, but he didn't use well-known actors.
The brokerage company did not agree with him to be a director at this time, and it just so happened that the five-year contract period was up. With such freedom, he also doesn't like being bound by a brokerage company.
"Liang Sheng Zhu Meng" is still in the preparatory stage, while Liang Sizhe is busy with the crew, he attends the director class of Chinese Opera. The media frequently photographed him wearing a mask and appearing on the campus of the Chinese Opera, and he looked down and took notes in class, so more and more people began to believe that Liang Sizhe was really going to be a director.
The film is still in the preparatory period, and Liang Sizhe received the news of the award at the Cannes Film Festival. He flew to Cannes without any careful preparations. He didn't think he could win the award. After all, he didn't even know what the film turned out to be.
Sitting under the stage, he felt like he was dreaming for a moment when he heard the presenter pronounce his name lamely in French.
He didn't even prepare the award speech, and hugged Cao Xiuyuan, Zheng Yin, and Xu Yunchu in turn, and then walked to the award podium to receive the trophy. Standing in front of the standing microphone, the lights were dazzling, and he couldn't see anyone under the stage through the fog. But it doesn't matter, Liang Sizhe thought, the person he wanted to see the most was not there anyway.
He raised the trophy and only said an award speech: "Thank you to my mentor, Director Cao Xiuyuan." After speaking, he bowed to the audience, and then he straightened up and walked off the stage.
The people who stood on the podium were all talking at a high speed, for fear that there would be a long list of thanks, but Liang Sizhe felt that he had nothing to thank. .
Standing on this podium, the only thing he would like to thank is Cao Xiuyuan, who was named by him to act in this film. But he forgot that this time he helped Cao Xiuyuan turn over, so Cao Xiuyuan should thank him.
On the way back to the hotel, Zheng Yin turned from the co-pilot and asked him, "You know the news of Li You's death, right?"
"When did it happen?" Liang Sizhe couldn't hide his shock in his eyes. He paid little attention to news from the entertainment industry in the past two years, especially to avoid news related to Cao Ye.
"When "Wang Chuan" was filmed," Zheng Yin said, "Director Cao took three days off, just to attend Li You's funeral. I didn't tell you that I was afraid of disturbing your emotions."
Liang Sizhe didn't answer, and didn't recover from the shock: "When did Mr. Li You get sick?"
"I only found out later when I asked Director Cao. When she returned to China, she was already very ill. She passed away three months later. She did a good job in keeping secrets, and the media did not report this much."
"Oh." Liang Sizhe responded in a daze, so Cao Ye's situation when he came to find him was even more difficult than he knew. He was helpless, clambering on himself like a driftwood, but he didn't catch the hand he stretched out for help.
"Yesterday on Li You's memorial day, Cao Ye announced her suicide note, you can take a look." Zheng Yin handed over the phone, and Liang Sizhe took it and read it again.
Li You clarified for Cao Xiuyuan in the suicide note, saying that she and Cao Xiuyuan separated very early, and there was no fraudulent marriage in their marriage. Director Cao was in a normal relationship with Zhang Minghan at that time, and there was no obscene behavior.
This suicide note was announced by Cao Ye. Liang Sizhe looked at the words "Cao Xiuyuan's only son" on the title. Cao Ye hated Cao Xiuyuan, but according to Li You's last request, she published her suicide note and washed it for Cao Xiuyuan on the eve of Cannes. exonerated.
That soft-hearted young man should have come out, right? Even if he didn't make the piece of driftwood that pulled him ashore, he floated ashore by himself.
Back at the hotel, Liang Sizhe put the trophy on the table. He sat beside the bed and looked at the golden Palme d'Or trophy glittering under the lamp.
He used to think that the trophy was out of his reach, but now that he actually got it, he didn't seem so happy.
It's like climbing to the top of this mountain road, looking at the white sea of clouds in front of you, and suddenly realize that the person who used to set off at the foot of the mountain has long since been separated from you, and looking around, you can't find any trace of him. .
The sea of clouds is very beautiful and inaccessible. He admires the beauty that most people in this world cannot appreciate, but suddenly there is a sense of emptiness and loneliness that cannot be vented. Do you want to spend the rest of your life like this? It's a long, hard journey.
Liang Sizhe turned off the light, lay on the bed, and closed his eyes.
Just sleep and be all right, he told himself.
Then he fell into a dream. He dreamed of the elevator surveillance picture again. Cao Ye stood in front of him. He could only see his lips open and close, but he couldn't hear what he was saying.
The elevator door closed slowly. He anxiously wanted to hear what Cao Ye said. He wanted to step into the elevator like Cao Ye, but he couldn't lift his legs like he was pinned to the spot.
At the last moment when the elevator was closed, he heard what Cao Ye said, not saying "don't go to the film of Cao Xiuyuan".
The young man looked at him helplessly and cried out to him for help:
- "Liang Sizhe, stand on my side."
-"I need you."
- "You walk with me for a while."
- "Will you stand on my side?"
Liang Sizhe felt like he was in a nightmare, he wanted to wake up but couldn't.
The soreness in his chest made him so uncomfortable that he couldn't stretch his body, so he could only curl up as much as possible.
It took him a while to wake up. After waking up, he stared at the air for a moment. When his breathing calmed down, he got out of bed, walked to the suitcase, bent over and took out a hard drive.
Since he got the hard drive, he has never seen the contents inside. But wherever he went, he always took it with him.
Now he suddenly wanted to see Cao Ye. He hadn't seen him for two years. This was the only video material he had about Cao Ye.
He connected the hard drive to the hotel's computer, and the surveillance screen popped up, and suddenly he remembered Cao Ye's voice: "Do you know what it's like when two men have sex? They remind me of those two Dog, it's disgusting."
He clenched the mouse tightly and stared at the boy on the screen. The boy stepped back step by step, getting further and further away from him until he quit his world.