Rong Yi saw that Gu Qingluo finally opened his eyes, his eyes were happy, but before he could speak, he heard Gu Qingluo say, "You go out, I don't want to see you!"
The light in Rong Yi's eyes dimmed in an instant, and he squeezed his hands tightly, turned around and left after a while.
What he didn't know was that after he left, Gu Qingluo's tears also fell.
Gu Qingluo let her tears wet the pillow, sorry, Rong Yi, sorry.
She knew how he felt, and she could understand everything he did, but she couldn't get past her own level.
She was a mother, and she could not have her own life for the sake of her children, but her children died for her. How could she accept this
Wanquan and Ping An have been guarding outside Gu Qingluo’s room. They have been worried. At this time, they finally saw Rong Yi come out. Both of them were happy, but when they saw the expression on Rong Yi’s face, they both fell down. His head didn't dare to look at Rong Yi.
"Good lady!"
Rong Yi's voice was a little hoarse, which made the two of them feel sad. Wanquan responded quickly, and Ping An followed Rong Yi carefully to the study.
When he looked at Rong Yi's swaying body, he was startled. He wanted to go up and help him, but when he saw Rong Yi's "poof", he spit out a mouthful of blood in his mouth.
"Supervisor!"
Ping An was taken aback, and quickly helped Rong Yi into the study, and asked him to invite Mr. Chen over.
Old Chen came over soon, he took the pulse for Rong Yi and frowned, "Supervisor, you have not recovered from the beginning, and you are very angry at this time. If you are not good enough, you are afraid. The root cause will fall!"
Fortunately, Rong Yi is in good health. If he were an average person, his body would have collapsed a long time ago.
Rong Yi waved his hand to indicate that he knew it. He instructed Old Chen, "Go and show Madam!"
He was worried that Gu Qingluo could not accept such a blow.
Old Chen also understood Rong Yi's concern. He sighed and packed up his things and went to see Gu Qingluo.
When only Ping An and Rong Yi were left, Ping An finally couldn't help but knelt on the ground, "Please take care of your body!"
It's not that Ping An thinks too much, but just now he actually felt that his master seemed to want to give up, he seemed to care nothing, Ping An felt very panicked.
"Master, please, take care of your health. If you are all broken, what should the madam do?"
Hearing Ping An's words, Rong Yi finally said, "Go boil medicine!"
Hearing this, Ping An quickly got up and wiped the tears from his face, and went out happily.
As soon as he left safely, Rong Yi slowly raised his hand to cover his chest. He only felt it hurt. The thing he worried the most had indeed happened, and Gu Qingluo finally knew everything.
Thinking of her indifferent words just now, he only felt that his heart was being cut by someone holding a blunt knife, and the pain was terrible.
Cheongna, don't hate me.
Rong Yi slowly closed his eyes, the moonlight entered the room, and there were faint traces on his face.
At this time, in Gu Qingluo's room, Gu Qingluo covered herself in the quilt and no one saw it. Wanquan and Hong Chang had been kneeling there, and she thought she couldn't see it. Old Chen came in and saw this scene.
He sighed and said, "Madam, the superintendent just vomited blood!"
He saw that the quilt was obviously moved, and he continued, "The superintendent's injury was not healed in the first place. If I suffered such a blow this time, I am afraid that it will leave the root of the disease in the future!"
Gu Qingluo still did not speak, and Chen Lao didn't care about her, and said to herself, "The old man was also there for that day, I know you blame the governor, blame him for giving up the child. But in that case, he can only choose one. . Having made this choice, the governor’s heart is also very sad. I have never seen the governor’s appearance before."
It was at that time that he knew how much Rong Yi general Gu Qingluo looked at.
"In order to fear that you can't accept the truth, he chose to hide it from you. For so many days, the superintendent alone has been carrying it. Madam, the old man said something a little cruel, the superintendent’s heart is no less painful than yours. Why should you blame him?"
This time, Gu Qingluo finally made a move. She pulled the quilt away and looked at Old Chen with a bit of loss. After a while, she smiled sadly, "I didn't blame him, I just blame myself!"
She knew that Rong Yi was in pain, she knew that Rong Yi was in pain, but she still couldn't make it through.
She hated herself, hated that she could not protect her children, hated that she could not pass this hurdle, and made Rong Yi uncomfortable, and she hated that she could not bear all this, and that she had to let Rong Yi carry it all alone.
Seeing Gu Qingluo like this, Old Chen didn't know what to say.
He now feels that the way of heaven is unfair, why should these two people go through so many hardships
He also knew that Gu Qingluo would not be able to let go for a while now, and others said that no matter how much it was, she could only slowly untie her knot.
That night, Gu Qingluo and Rong Yi were two people, one in the room and the other in the study. The two sat silently all night.
"Madam, eat something!"
Hong Chang brought the food to Gu Qingluo, and looked at Gu Qingluo with some worry. His wife hadn't eaten or drink all day and night, and her whole person seemed to be haggard in an instant.
Gu Qingluo didn't move, she still maintained the same posture last night, leaning against the head of the bed, her eyes no longer the previous agility.
Hong Chang felt uncomfortable when she saw Gu Qingluo like this.
"Madam, please take care of your body!"
Although she has been with Gu Qingluo for a while, she really likes her master, so now seeing Gu Qingluo feel so uncomfortable, she only feels uncomfortable in her heart.
"Madam, people can't come back to life, you and the adults will have children"!
Hong Chang began to comfort him.
And Gu Qingluo finally spoke, she said in a bit of pain, "It's not the same."
How can it be the same? That was their first child, because of that child, she can only survive now, and that child gives her every day she lives.
She now feels that every extra breath of air is a sin. If she hadn't been for her, her child would have been a few months old.
Thinking of this, Gu Qingluo's heart was so painful that she couldn't breathe.
"Hong Chang, you don’t understand, that’s my child. Not only did I fail to protect him, but instead let him die for me. As soon as I close my eyes, I see him asking me why he is not , Why choose him to die!"
Having said this, Gu Qingluo finally couldn't help crying.
As soon as Rong Yi walked outside Gu Qingluo's door, he heard Gu Qingluo's words, and his raised hand that was about to push the door slowly dropped again.
He stood outside for a long time, and finally turned and left.