[Third, sleep. 】
It snowed heavily overnight.
Until dawn, it was only slightly weakened, and it did not really keep the clouds open to see the moonlight.
But the sparse snowflakes could no longer be stopped, and the boys and girls who had been restrained for a long time had long been suppressed - Aunt Xue had not yet got up from the bed, and she could hear the sound of laughter and noise outside like a silver bell.
She looked beside her subconsciously, but saw that Li Wan's quilt was already neatly folded, obviously she had already got up.
fair enough.
Aunt Xue secretly sighed in relief. Last night, she tossed and turned until the middle of the night, but she became more and more uncertain about how to deal with Li Wan's fallacies.
In some difficult mind, she didn't raise her voice to greet her servants, but silently got up and put on her clothes, but the noise still alarmed Su Yun, who was on duty outside.
So he simply groomed under the service of Su Yun, and sat in front of the dressing table again.
Seeing that there was another glass mirror the size of an oval inlaid above the bronze mirror, Aunt Xue couldn't help but bring her eyebrows up and take a closer look at the image in the mirror.
Even when she was close, there were only a few faint lines at the corners of her eyes.
But Aunt Xue couldn't help but read and read, the more she looked, the more bitter she felt, as if the lines as thin as hair were actually scary scars.
At this time, another burst of cheerful laughter came in from outside the window.
The voice was delicate and clear, and it sounded like a youthful breath coming towards her face, but when it fell into Aunt Xue's ears, there was a harsh smell coming out of it.
She stroked the fine lines at the corners of her eyes with her hands, becoming more and more melancholy and inexplicable. Suddenly, Li Wan's words last night seemed to be echoing in her heart.
Will you regret it
Aunt Xue originally thought that she could firmly deny it. After all, what she thought most in her heart was being able to have her grandson and enjoy the family happiness.
But…
Do you really not regret it
Involuntarily, images of Mrs. Wang's daily life flashed through her mind.
When it comes to Yier's grandson, her sister has obviously achieved it, but... is she really satisfied
Even if the most beloved Baoyu is by his side, even if Lan Ge'er follows a famous teacher, it seems that he is a reading seed, but how has this elder sister ever been so happy
In her heart, it was still her brother-in-law Jia Zheng!
Even if she pretended to be indifferent on weekdays, as her closest sister, how could she not know that she would always grit her teeth and think of Concubine Zhao's name when she dreamed back at midnight
Don't tell me, although brother-in-law Jia Zheng can't be called a long-term relationship, he has been in love with his sister for more than ten years. Compared with his only seven years, he has spent less time together and more time apart, and I don't know how strong he is. .
However, even so, my sister is still full of resentment, full of wanting to return to the former shadow day.
And what about yourself
I'm afraid that I can't even remember the appearance of the dead ghost, right
"Even if it's only once, let the man you like, a man with real flesh and blood, fill in the empty space..."
The fallacy and heresy that Li Wan was interrupted by became clearer and clearer in his heart.
As these words continued to echo, it seemed that something that had been sealed for a long time was breaking out of Aunt Xue's heart.
"Truly, flesh and blood..."
She murmured subconsciously, reaching out and grasping the large conscience on her chest.
"I have seen Er Ye, I have seen Uncle Bao."
Suddenly, a series of greetings came from outside the window, Aunt Xue's heart trembled slightly, and she stood up subconsciously, but looking back at Shang Suyun's surprised eyes, she hurriedly sat back again.
She tried her best to suppress, but she couldn't help but blush with embarrassment.
What were you thinking about just now
It's absurd!
Embarrassedly, he picked up the powder box, covering up the strangeness on his face, but he could cover up the same thing on his face. What would he do to smooth out the turbulence in his heart
Seeing it continue like this, I really don't know what to show in front of people, Aunt Xue hurriedly endured her thumping thoughts and waved Suyun back from her side.
But after being alone, although she breathed a sigh of relief, the absurd thoughts that she had just suppressed, but also poured out with her heart beating wildly.
"Even if only once..."
"A real flesh and blood man..."
"No more years..."
"Will you regret it?"
The echoes in my heart seemed like the temptation of the devil, but also like endless torture.
Aunt Xue lightly touched the fine lines at the corner of her eyes again, and a sense of crisis that was not waiting for me gradually mixed in.
Turning the new year, I will be thirty-seven years old.
A woman of this age, no matter how much she takes care of, how much youth can she still have
Maybe after a few blizzards, it will start to describe the haggard.
Originally, although she was quite sympathetic to Li Wan, she did not despise her self-deprecating behavior.
But at this time, when I recalled the movement I heard on the partition wall, and then thought about Li Wan's obsessed and nostalgic expression, quietly, I felt a little jealous.
She was also a widowed woman for many years, and she was careful not to take a step forward, but she not only tasted what it was like to be a woman, but also continued to maintain her reputation and status.
If she doesn't expose it, she may continue like this for a long time, until she is no longer in her life, and then she will go to Yier to get her grandson to enjoy the happiness of a family with a 'full' coursing.
Why
They are all widowed women, why is she the only one who can do this? !
Fear, contempt, jealousy, restlessness...
All kinds of emotions were mixed up, and Aunt Xue's heart seemed to be boiling like a pot.
It wasn't until the man's voice sounded outside the yard that Aunt Xue suddenly woke up.
She hesitated a little, then went straight to the window, quietly pushed open a gap, and leaned in to peep out.
The two men talking in the courtyard were naturally Sun Shaozong and Jia Baoyu.
Because they were far apart, the voices of the two were not loud, so Aunt Xue couldn't hear what they were talking about.
But she wasn't interested in that either.
Aunt Xue's eyes were full of suspicion at first, and fell on her nephew Baoyu. After speculating about whether he was an adulterer, she turned to Sun Shaozong.
The tall and burly figure and slightly vicious eyebrows made Aunt Xue feel like she had returned to the dense forest back then.
Every time I think of it, I feel embarrassed and embarrassed, but at this moment, it seems to have another taste, like a touch of sweetness mixed with sourness.
With the slightest hint of sweetness, the hooked person couldn't help digging down.
If then...
He and Sun Erlang did not leave separately, so what would happen
Thinking about it like this, my mind is the rude look in Sun Shaozong's eyes when I first saw him a few years ago...
Yes, he is about to make something!
Aunt Xue became more and more in a trance, her breath was heavy and her face flushed red. The memory of that day in the forest seemed to have some kind of inconceivable connection with what she heard yesterday.
It's as if the latter is a continuation of the former, and she is no longer a spectator of the partition, but a real flesh and blood...
"What is my aunt looking at?"
Just when the fantasy was inextricable and slipping into the entanglement of love, a voice suddenly sounded from behind Aunt Xue.
Aunt Xue suddenly looked back, but who else could it be if it wasn't Li Wan