Chen Xuan always thought that although the little girl looked like an old lady, she had a brain like An Nian. This could be seen from the little girl's intelligence in school. She was much smarter than her peers in kindergarten. Chen Xuan didn't know much about the learning progress of American children, but when the little girl was promoted to the first grade, a teacher suggested during the entrance examination that the little girl could go directly to the second grade, because the little girl could do addition and subtraction within 100 in mathematics, and she also knew many words, could understand some simple extracurricular readings, and even knew some simple multiplication. However, the little girl had a good friend named Susan. The little girl wanted to go to school with her good friend and study in the same school and class. Therefore, although Chen Xuan hoped that her daughter could go directly to the second grade, the little girl always had her own ideas. She didn't want to skip a grade, so she had to let her do it.
Chen Xuan believes that the reason why her daughter is so smart is definitely because she looks like Brother Nian.
However, Wei Nian had to say that his daughter's talent in the liberal arts, especially her ability to write poetry, was definitely inherited from his wife.
Because of complicated reasons (ice cream and poetry), Wei Nian was jealous of his daughter, so he asked Chen Xuan to write him a love poem. Chen Xuan was not good at writing poetry, especially her daughter who could write two poems for a piece of ice cream. In comparison, Chen Xuan could not write a single poem.
In the end, Chen Xuan wrote a simple letter to Brother Anian.
The letter reads:
Brother Anian:
I really can't write poetry, so I'll just write you a letter.
I am about to pick up my pen, but I don't know what to write. I have a lot to say to Brother Anian, but I don't know where to start. So let's start from the beginning.
A long time ago, when I was still young, I would sometimes hear people from the village talking about my marriage with Anian. They were full of envy, saying that I would marry in Beijing in the future, and that as long as I married Anian, I would have a lifetime of blessings. At that time, I would occasionally be shy and secretly fantasize in my heart when I was free, wondering what kind of man I would marry in the future would be, and what kind of appearance he would have. I still can't forget the way you looked when I saw you, Anian, on the wedding day. It was not like seeing a human being, but as if I saw the god in my life, so handsome and glorious. At that time, I felt that you, Anian, were brighter than the electric light on the roof of our house. My heart has never beat so fast in my life. In my heart, I couldn't believe that I would marry such an excellent man like you, Anian. I was very panicked. I also remember how I looked at that time. I felt ashamed when I looked in the mirror. After you left that night, I looked in the mirror for a long time, and finally had to admit that we were not a good match.
This is the first thing I want to thank Anian for. Thank you for not following the crowd and marrying me. If we had been forced to marry, I think, even if I lived another lifetime, I would still not be who I am now.
Brother Anian, you were so arrogant back then. You didn't even look at me straight in the eye. I knew that you must have thought that I was not pretty at that time. However, knowing that I had no intention of hitting on you, you promised to divorce you when you were ready in the future, and became so kind again. You also bought me a coat made of fine cotton. It was the first time in my life that I wore such expensive and good clothes. I wondered at that time, what kind of woman would be worthy of you, Brother Anian? I really didn't expect that you, Brother Anian, would actually fall in love with me? At first, I didn't dare to believe it. It wasn't that I didn't like you, but at that time I still felt that I was not worthy of you.
When did I fall in love with Brother Anian
I always thought that I fell in love with Anian the first time I saw him. But now thinking about it carefully, this judgment is not accurate. At that time, I didn't know anything about Anian, so how could I like him? Although Anian was handsome, at that time, my feelings for Anian were probably more of a lifelong reliance than a good impression. This is how old-fashioned women are, relying on their families at home and relying on their husbands after marriage. At that time, Anian was my lifelong support. You are handsome, rich, confident, and energetic, and you have all the advantages that I lack. However, such yearning is like a poor person yearning for a treasure that does not belong to him. This is more of an infinite desire for richness that is born out of one's own poverty.
When Ah Yin wrote my name on my palm, the joy in my heart was actually greater than when I first met Brother Anian. I was so happy that I didn't want to wash my hands the next morning. Along the way, I met so many people who were willing to help me, including Ah Yin, the Xu sisters, Mrs. Xu, Mr. Xu, Mr. Wen, Professor Chu, Mr. Rong, and you, Brother Anian. When I asked you about words I couldn't remember, you were willing to teach me. Even when I wanted to learn foreign languages from you, you agreed. You were so thoughtful that you would go to Mr. Wen's salon first, knowing that it was a serious place, and then take Ah Yin and me there. You would also take me to eat Western food and drink coffee, and give me such good pens, notebooks, and vanishing cream. I felt sorry for the money at that time, and you are not very frugal now. However, I was still very happy to receive these gifts, although I returned the money to you later. Of course, after we became real husband and wife, I deducted the money from your private room.
I don't know when I fell in love with you, Brother Anian. At that time, you always wanted to tell me how much you liked me at night, but I didn't let you say it, and you were still unhappy. In fact, I felt that I was still not worthy of you at that time. I wanted to learn faster so that I could match you, Brother Anian.
I actually envy people like our little girl, who are born with a lot of self-confidence. I can't do that. I am born with low self-esteem, I am not good-looking, and I am not very smart. When I first met you, I was ugly and boring. My self-confidence has been accumulated bit by bit through learning since I learned my own name. I want to be an excellent person, want to be praised by others, and want you and your children to introduce me to others in the future, and be very proud to say to others, this is my wife and mother.
I think only by becoming such a person can I be a good match for Brother Anian.
I want to be as outstanding as Anian. I want to walk side by side with Anian when I go out, instead of being like an old-fashioned woman, like a dodder clinging to a pine tree. When I can walk side by side with Anian, I understand the meaning of what Anian said to me: You can't be husband and wife without love.
This sentence really shows the greatest respect to both husband and wife.
I think that even if there are many women who claim to be modern, they will not get as much happiness in marriage as a half-new and half-old woman like me. In our marriage, I have a loving husband, lovely children, and a large family of relatives. Every morning when I wake up and see your sleeping face, my heart is filled with gratitude and joy. Every night when I rest, as long as you are by my side, I feel safe and secure.
The most important thing is that I gained self-respect and self-confidence. It is these two incomparable qualities that allowed me to be pursued by an excellent man like you, Brother Anian, and to accept your pursuit with peace of mind.
I think this is also the reason why Brother Nian likes me.
An incompatible marriage can become the happiest marriage through hard work. A few years ago, Ah Yin asked me what kind of man I wanted to be a husband. I said: You must find a man who knows how to respect you, respects your efforts, your knowledge, and your career, and who works as hard as you do and is willing to devote himself to the marriage. This is the best marriage. I think that many years later, when our little girl grows up and reaches the age of marriage, I will tell her the same thing.
—Your wife, Chen Xuan.
The author has something to say: ps: I felt a little uncomfortable during the day, so I wrote this at night. Good night everyone~~~~~~~~~~~~~