This was the first letter in Chen Xuan's life. As the writer, she looked even more nervous than Wei Nian, the receiver. Her letter was very short, and Wei Nian read it quickly, but he didn't say a word after reading it. Chen Xuan couldn't help but ask, "Brother Nian, how did I write it?"
Seeing Chen Xuan was anxious, Wei Nian pretended to smooth out the letter, folded it carefully, and put it back into the big red envelope that Chen Xuan had pasted herself, and then said, "It's OK."
"Is that good or bad? Is there something wrong with it? Brother Nian, you have to tell me. Only after you tell me can I change it in the future." Chen Xuan is particularly curious about academic matters.
"Everything else is fine, except one thing. You can't sign it as your friend. You should write your wife." Wei Nian's eyes were burning with aggressiveness.
"We are not real husband and wife." Chen Xuan was obviously as slow as an elephant. She sat under the lamp, and the shadow of the lamp reflected Wei Nian's compelling eyes. Chen Xuan's face was inexplicably hot. "I have to keep a distance from Brother Nian, so as not to make my future sister-in-law jealous." Since she started reading the newspaper, Chen Xuan knew a lot of things, and even knew what jealous meant.
"Axuan, tell Brother Anian the truth. What do you think of Brother Anian?" Wei Nian coaxed slowly and kindly.
"Of course, Brother Anian is a kind person, a real kind person." Chen Xuan said seriously, "If it weren't for Brother Anian helping me, teaching me, and guiding me, how could I be where I am today?"
"What is Anian's character like?"
"He's a very good person." Chen Xuan said without any hesitation.
Wei Nian said seriously, "There is something that Brother Nian wants to talk to you about."
Seeing Wei Nian's serious expression, Chen Xuan couldn't help but straighten her waist, straighten her body, and stare at Wei Nian without blinking, also in a very serious manner, "Brother Nian, you say."
Wei Nian knew that although Chen Xuan's temperament was more lively than before, she was still conservative in her bones. She had learned some new knowledge, but deep down, she was never one of those new ladies. New women were bold, frank, and direct. They valued liberalism in love and no longer advocated the conservatism and loyalty of old women. Chen Xuan was very traditional in this regard. Otherwise, when Wei Nian pretended to be drunk that day, Chen Xuan must have thought that he was handsome, otherwise she would not have been able to quietly chant Buddha's name. Even though she knew he was handsome, and Chen Xuan also agreed with Wei Nian's character and thought that Wei Nian was a good person, there was always a hurdle between them. That was what Wei Nian said to Chen Xuan when they were newly married, that there could be no marriage without feelings. As long as there was this hurdle, Chen Xuan would never consider Wei Nian. Wei Nian originally wanted to subtly make Chen Xuan open up to him, but for Chen Xuan, she always thought that Wei Nian would marry someone else. According to Chen Xuan's moral values, she would never fall in love with Wei Nian.
Wei Nian was really worried that if he kept calling Chen Xuan "Brother Anian", she would really become Brother Anian.
Moreover, as Chen Xuan began to go out and learn to socialize, her personal charm gradually emerged. Wei Nian was not like Wei Jin, who looked down on Chen Xuan because she was born in the countryside. Wei Nian didn't think that being born in the countryside was a big deal. His father grew up in the countryside when he was a child and started from scratch. Wei Nian was not happy with the marriage before because it was an old-fashioned marriage. Wei Nian was influenced by new ideas.
Now, I have to dig out the mines and obstacles that I had laid. Otherwise, if those greedy men take advantage of the opportunity, Wei Nian will regret it to death. So, Wei Nian said it today. Wei Nian said seriously, "When we got married, we talked about marriage. A Xuan, do you remember
Chen Xuan not only remembered, she could not forget it for a moment. Her heart skipped a beat and she asked, "Brother Anian, do you have a girl you like? Do you want to divorce me? Hey, if you knew that Brother Anian wanted to divorce me, you wouldn't have to ask my eldest sister-in-law's uncle to come and look after the house. I could just live there. You wouldn't have to pay me wages. We can just share the profits from the strawberries we grow." Her mind was working pretty quickly.
"Pooh, pooh, pooh, pooh!" Wei Nian said, "It's New Year's Day, and you're talking about divorce. Isn't that unlucky? This is not about divorce. I never planned to divorce you."
Chen Xuan had always intended to divorce Wei Nian and let him be free to be with his lover. When she mistakenly thought that they were going to divorce, she felt empty inside, probably because she was dependent on a stable environment. Now that she saw Wei Nian said he didn't want to divorce, she felt a little weird. It was not entirely true, but it was a very contradictory mentality that made Chen Xuan unwilling to delve into the issue, so she simply asked Wei Nian directly, "What is it? Tell me quickly!"
"I mean, A Xuan, are you willing to be my real husband and wife?" From time to time, there were crackling sounds of firecrackers from the neighbor's house. Wei Nian looked at Chen Xuan with his eyes fixed on her, with expectation and explanation, "I said before that we are not suitable because I felt that we had never gotten along before and we would not know each other if we suddenly became husband and wife. So, we should get to know each other first. Now, we have known each other for more than a year, and I think you are very good. Didn't you also say that I am very good too? We have similar personalities. I think we should be husband and wife."
Wei Nian spoke very sincerely, and his eyes were full of tenderness when he looked at Chen Xuan. He really liked Chen Xuan, and they got along very well. In Wei Nian's opinion, he and Chen Xuan had a marriage destined by their elders, and their personalities were so suitable, so they were meant to be husband and wife. Moreover, Wei Nian believed that Chen Xuan also had feelings for him.
Chen Xuan's feelings were much more complicated and bitter than Wei Nian's. At first, Chen Xuan couldn't believe it. She couldn't even believe what she heard. In her previous life, she had waited for more than ten years, and waited for more than ten years until her death, but she didn't get what she was waiting for. Now she heard Wei Nian say it so abruptly. For a moment, Chen Xuan didn't know whether to be happy or sad. She couldn't even describe the emotions in her heart at that moment. It drowned her directly like a raging sea. For a moment, she couldn't tell this life from her previous life. She only felt that the pain in her heart seemed to condense into a huge stone weighing thousands of pounds, pressing on her heart, as if to crush her into dust.
"Ah Xuan, what's wrong with you?" Wei Nian saw a look of crying and laughing on Chen Xuan's face, and then her whole body trembled violently, and then tears rolled out of her eyes, and he couldn't help but reach out to wipe Chen Xuan's tears. Chen Xuan came back to her senses from the complicated emotions, she turned her head, avoided Wei Nian's hand, buried her face in her palms, and choked with sobs.
This was the kind of crying that only a person who was truly sad could make. Wei Nian couldn't bear to hear it. He thought about how he had treated Chen Xuan in the beginning, which was not very good. While advising Chen Xuan, Wei Nian also reflected on himself, "It was all my fault before. I hurt your heart, Xuan."
"Don't talk to me." Chen Xuan turned her back to Wei Nian and cried so hard that she almost fainted.
The water for washing the face that day was brought by Wei Nian, and it was just the right temperature. Wei Nian wet a towel, held the back of Chen Xuan's head with one hand, and wiped her face. Seeing that her eyes were swollen from crying, he couldn't help but say, "Don't cry, what if you tear your eyes?"
Chen Xuan pushed Wei Nian away and couldn't help sobbing again, "Don't let me see you first." As soon as she saw Wei Nian, her heart ached, her eyes became hot, and she was about to cry unconsciously.
Wei Nian thought that Chen Xuan had probably hurt him too badly and that she would not be able to recover for a while. Wei Nian had a solution and asked Chen Xuan, "You haven't learned foreign language yet, have you?"
Chen Xuan thought about it, it was true. She had thought that she would first pay Wei Nian back the eight dollars and fifty cents, then give him the New Year gift she had prepared, and then she would learn foreign languages. As soon as Wei Nian said this, she felt a little regretful. Listening to the sound of firecrackers gradually dying out outside, it was almost late at night. "Today is too late. It's been a whole day. I have to get up at six o'clock. Forget it, don't learn today, go to bed first."
"Go to sleep. I need to study for a while." Chen Xuan sobbed and went to get the foreign language textbook. Chen Xuan understood more than ever that if she wanted to be respected by others, she had to keep learning, make progress, and have a character that people respected. Chen Xuan went outside to get a basin of cold water and washed her face vigorously. After washing, her eyes were swollen and her nose was red. The cold water stimulated her skin and the chill went straight to her brain. Chen Xuan felt that she had never been so clear-headed in her two lives. She did not respond to Wei Nian's proposal, nor did she discuss any issue about whether to be married to Wei Nian. When the intense pain and suffering in her heart subsided slightly, Chen Xuan's mood was clearer than ever before.
She just opened a new foreign book, concentrated and started studying.
The author has something to say: ps: The first update is here, the second update will be at 4 pm~~~~~~~~~~~~~~