Before Hua Siluan could finish asking, Hua Qingchen shook his head and said anxiously, "No, he doesn't know."
Hua Siluan frowned suspiciously again: "How could he not know? You are not with him..."
Hua Qingchen's face flushed, and he told Hua Siluan what had happened that day: "It was actually an accident. At that time, no one thought that the flowers in the pit would have an aphrodisiac effect. After that, I left without waiting for him to wake up. I thought he knew my identity, but he didn’t know it. He kept pestering me to ask questions. Maybe everyone was confused and the light was dark, so he didn’t see clearly."
Hua Siluan understood what happened, but still couldn't understand: "He is Emperor Xi Miao, and the goodness of Long Yang, it is impossible for him to experience no distinction between men and women."
Even if he has only been with men, he should know the difference between men and women
Hua Qingchen actually didn't quite figure it out, why the person didn't figure it out, "He seemed to say that he didn't have that kind of experience before."
Hua Silu frowned: "Then does he like men or women?"
Hua Qingchen thought of what Gong Yuhuang had said to her, and pursed her lips: "Maybe he likes men, he thinks I am a man."
Hua Siluan looked at Hua Qingchen's eyes and looked at her worriedly: "Did you like him?"
Hua Qingchen immediately shook his head when he heard the words: "Of course not, how could I like him? It's impossible!"
Seeing Hua Qingchen so determined, Hua Siluan sighed lightly, and reached out to touch her little face: "Chen'er, it's not that my sister doesn't let you like him. In fact, whether he likes men or women, as long as he really likes them. Neither you nor my sister object. But he is the emperor, and my sister doesn't want you to go the same way as my sister. My sister has done enough on this road, and my sister also hopes that you don't go."
It was enough for her to walk the difficult road once, and she didn't want them to repeat her mistakes.
"Eldest sister..." Hua Qingchen looked at Hua Siluan distressedly. She didn't know what she had gone through. That person must have done something like this for the older sister.
Hua Siluan stepped forward and took Hua Qingchen into her arms, and touched her head as she did when she was a child: "Chen'er, don't you blame your sister for making you a man from a young age
, Carrying everything you shouldn't be carrying? "
Hua Qingchen immediately shook his head: "No, I will never blame my sister."
She was raised by her elder sister since she was a child, and her elder sister is like her mother, no matter what, she will not blame her.
With tears in Hua Siluan's eyes, she stroked her long hair: "Father loves his mother and has no concubine, but the mother has few children. When I was six years old, my mother gave birth to a second sister. It’s a girl, so neither my mother nor your second sister likes my grandfather and grandmother. Although my father doesn’t blame my mother, my mother feels uncomfortable. They all have males in the second and third rooms of the house. The long room doesn't. The second aunt and the third aunt often get together to make fun of mother-in-law, and even I can often hear gossips.
Finally, my mother became pregnant again. When I was eight years old, my mother gave birth to you because it was a dystocia. After she gave birth to you, the midwife said that she would never have any more children. At that time, my grandfather and grandmother, as well as my second and third aunts, were all waiting outside. I was also anxious at the time and came up with that idea.
When my mother woke up, everything was too late. Everyone thought you were a boy, and even my father thought you were a boy. My mother looked at his father's happy face, but didn't explain. Until his father died in battle, the mother didn't tell the truth to her father. At that time, the mother was seriously ill, and the one thing she said the most was to go down and make amends for her father. It's me who should apologize, not my mother! "
Hearing her guilty words, Hua Qingchen immediately said distressed: "This is not to blame you, you are also a mother, for your father, for the long room."
In fact, she really admired the eldest sister. When she was young, she could have thought so far, still have such courage to call the shots and do such things, and she has been taking care of her personally, without letting anyone notice. Even when she was a child, she really regarded her as a boy, even she herself sometimes forgets that she is a woman.
Hua Siluan rubbed Hua Qingchen's head affectionately: "I am too selfish. I have not considered your feelings. You have to bear so much when you are so young, and you have never even lived a day as your true identity."
"No." Hua Qingchen immediately shook his head: "It's not you
Privately, you are also for your mother. If I could choose at that time, I would choose that way. I never blamed you. You must not think about it. "
The eldest sister is very thoughtful, she is really afraid that she will think randomly.
A touch of movement flashed in Hua Siluan's eyes, and she looked at her with a smile: "It's fine now, Lao'er is now a queen. No one in the Hua family can bully our long room anymore. After I go back this time, I will let Laoer restores your identity and allows you to live like a normal person."
"I..." Hua Qingchen shook her eyes and looked at Hua Siluan nervously: "Eldest sister, I haven't told the second sister about these things yet, the second sister still doesn't know anything, can you not tell the second sister first? ?"
Hua Siluan didn't understand: "She used to have a simple mind, and it was right not to tell her. Now I see her mind is much clearer than before, why not tell her?"
Hua Qingchen said in distress: "She was good this year, and I have never had the opportunity to tell her that she has never doubted my identity, so I can't even talk about it, and I'm used to it now. Special things, I don’t want to reveal my identity."
Hua Siluan frowned in disapproval: "But if you have been living as a man, how can you get married in the future?"
Hua Qingchen smiled bitterly: "I never expected to get married before. Now that something like that has happened, how can I think about getting married anymore, I don't want to get married, it's nice to be alone."
After listening to Hua Qingchen's words, Hua Siluan felt uncomfortable instantly.
In the end, she delayed the child. She was so anxious to return to Nan Yan. In fact, the big reason was that she wanted to come back and prove to her, because she was afraid that she would be delayed by her age. But now it seems that she still harmed her.
Seeing Hua Siluan’s expression, Hua Qingchen knew what she was thinking, and quickly took her hand and beat: "Big sister, you don’t need to be like this. I’m really good like this. When you return to Nanyan in the future, we will Moving to the National Palace, it’s just the two of us."
Hua Siluan looked at her distressedly. She can be alone, but she can't.
According to this girl's temperament, I'm afraid she won't be able to marry anyone else except that person. Is she going to let her marry the Emperor Xi Miao and let her go back on her own path
(End of this chapter)