"Wait for me to supply you next time," Gu Chennian said while eating the cake, Shen Shiyan cared a few words about her recent situation, Gu Chennian bit the small fork, leaning on his head with his hands and worried, "Ah Actually, I came today to ask you something."
"What's up?"
"I'm not a sophomore in high school now, so I have to think about what will happen next. I don't want to study in a university in China, but my parents won't let me study abroad, so I don't worry."
Shen Shiyan knows how much Gu Chennian is loved. He nodded: "Understandable."
"But I don't want to study in China, I really want to go abroad," Gu Chennian was a little anxious, raised one hand and clapped the table, "How can they hinder my life because they are worried, I have The right to choose freely! And they don’t accept communication at all. As soon as I say anything, they say, I’m still young, I don’t understand anything, it’s the same thing every time.”
At the age of youth, curious about everything, probably the most taboo thing is to be said to be a child who doesn't understand anything. Shen Shiyan felt that today's children understand a lot more than they did back then. Because they have come into contact with more things and insights, they will have the opportunity to open their eyes and understand things earlier. But because there are so many things to see, it is difficult to distinguish the authenticity of a lot of information, and it will inevitably make a person's judgment biased.
"Why do you want to go out?" Shen Shiyan asked.
This time, Gu Chennian was no longer so impassioned, but was silent for a while before biting his lip and saying, "Actually, at first I just wanted to go abroad to see something different."
This is very true. Many people choose to study abroad for such a simple original intention.
"But then... Actually, I was quite disappointed with the domestic environment. I have a junior, who is one grade higher than me. She has good grades and can be recommended to Tsinghua University. But their school suddenly held an event, and a girl got it. The first place was given to Tsinghua University for the bonus points in the general evaluation." After saying this, she became a little excited again, and said with a puffed cheek and a frown, "Her grades were not enough to be recommended at all. It's an event organized by their school for herself, can this be done with a background? It's so unfair!"
After listening to Gu Chennian's accusation, Meng Xintang suddenly remembered that he forgot which book he had read. The things adults are most afraid to talk about with children are fairness and death. The former is because it is difficult to describe and guarantee, and the latter is because it is inevitable and unpredictable.
"So, do you think the domestic environment is not good, so you want to go out to study?"
Gu Chennian nodded: "All, I think the education abroad is better, and after going out, you can try to stay there, the air is good, and there are fewer people. What do you think, where should I study?"
Shen Shiyan didn't answer, but asked Meng Xintang's opinion.
"What's decisive is your own thoughts, go out if you want." Meng Xintang said this first.
"But you must correctly consider your own opinions. Wanting to change the environment, or wanting to receive a certain education with a purpose, are enough reasons for you, of course, if it is because you are not satisfied with the country. This is you life, you have to think for yourself and then make the right decision. But you are not yet an adult, so you need to convince your parents with your reasons and put forward solutions to the things they worry about one by one. If you always There is no way to convince them, it only shows that you do not have the conditions to go out to study, you can postpone the consideration, many universities have cooperation projects with foreign schools.”
When Gu Chennian left, Shen Shiyan kept staring at Meng Xintang, but did not speak. Meng Xintang took a sip of wine: "What's wrong?"
"I'm suddenly curious, do you never judge a person's choice right or wrong."
In the words of Gu Chennian just now, he actually revealed a lot of dissatisfaction with the country, and it was a very one-sided dissatisfaction. Shen Shiyan thought that Meng Xintang would give some advice when he gave his opinions, but he didn't think that all his words were based on Gu Chennian's own development and did not contain any personal opinions.
Meng Xintang seemed to be thinking carefully, and after a while he answered with a smile: "It doesn't violate the law and morality, it doesn't involve right or wrong, it's just a personal choice for the future. Is there any right or wrong?"
"People have different pursuits and preferences, and there is no standard answer to questions about attitudes towards life, attitudes towards life, etc. Besides, I really think it's good to go abroad to study and live. As for her Dissatisfied, I always feel that every age must have ideas of every age. It is impossible for teenagers to have the same ideas as those in their 30s, let alone use our ideas to assimilate them. Don't be in a hurry to tell a child that he Being immature, he can only experience growth when he discovers a new point of view by himself one day. Besides, how do you know that these dissatisfaction and complaints will not turn into blood or magical creativity one day?"
Shen Shiyan listened and suddenly felt that if Meng Xintang could be a father, he would definitely be a good father. But when his mind changed, he couldn't help but ask with a smile like a student who deliberately finds fault in the class: "But there will be some children who become cynical because they see some dark sides of society. They have the emotion of disliking their own country. It's not a good thing to go out."
"No, everyone can make their own changes based on what they have seen and heard. This is freedom as a 'human'." Meng Xintang pushed his glasses, "and I usually think that people who leave the country may It will be easier to like her than the people who are in it. As long as there is no universal harmony, the country behind a person is the confidence when he walks around. This is the same reason that children with poor family conditions are easily bullied when they were young. Human nature This thing is similar on a large scale.”
Shen Shiyan looked at the person opposite and said these words calmly, and once again affirmed his previous understanding that Meng Xintang was tolerant. In other words, even if other people's ideas are different from his own, he can understand them, and he will not arrogantly attribute his own ideas to the right side, nor will he attempt to change others with his own ideas. This is peace. He didn't know whether this kind of peace was innate or nurtured, but it was always precious.
Later, they experienced more things together in the long years. When they reached the age of frost dyed temples, Shen Shiyan's understanding of his lover became clearer and deeper. As long as it is not a wicked thing, he will respect all his attitudes and ways of life, and will not comment or make rash remarks, but he will not be affected in the slightest. He seems to live a peaceful and undisciplined life, but in fact he is independent and determined.
"Meng Xintang," Shen Shiyan suddenly called out and smiled, "You really don't look like a weapon maker at all."
Meng Xintang smiled: "What should a weapon maker look like?"
Shen Shiyan pondered for a while and said a few words.
"Blood, patriotic, aggressive. That's what I thought before."
"I am very patriotic, but patriotism is not blind." Meng Xintang raised a hand with a smile, "Blood... there is still some. As for combat, believe me, anyone who engages in weapons does not want to see war. , because they know the consequences of war better than anyone else."
In all wars, there will be victories, embezzlement, and the growth of one side. The outcome of the war is unknown, but the consequences will always be the same—the ruins are broken, and the souls of the four sides are mourning.
"Then why do you want to develop weapons?" This is the question Shen Shiyan has always wanted to ask. He couldn't understand how such a peaceful person would embark on such a special scientific research path without hesitation.
Meng Xintang lowered his eyes and turned the wine glass in his hand.
"In 1999, the Chinese embassy in Yugoslavia was bombed, do you remember?"
Shen Shiyan recalled for a while and nodded. The U.S. said it was an accidental bombing.
"After that incident, I didn't see my parents for a long time. It was a critical event for weapons development because it was a humiliation and a wake-up call. I am an absolute anti-war But later I gradually realized that in the world of ambition and desire, there is restraint and there is peace.”
The conversation came to an end here, but Shen Shiyan was still thinking about it. I don't know if it was because the red wine that I just drank was a little too high, and the words in Shen Shiyan's mind became less and less. Gradually, the words Meng Xintang just said disappeared. Three words, earned.
Meng Xintang has already cleaned up the dining table, and the dishes to be washed have also been cleaned. He returned to the front hall, leaned down, and shook Shen Shiyan, who was lying on the table. Shen Shiyan opened his left eye first, and then his right eye slowly followed.
"Did you drink too much again?" Meng Xintang asked with a smile.
"How come." Shen Shiyan denied.
"Then get up and go to sleep."
Shen Shiyan got up, but didn't go to the bedroom. He said "it's still early" and walked to the door.
The red lantern was hanging on the eaves of the door, and Shen Shiyan raised his hand and touched it: "The lanterns made by Lao Gu are so beautiful."
Going forward, the two of them stood side by side in the yard. Today's moonlight is really bright, standing like this, can see everything in the courtyard clearly, the Begonia flowers are sprinkled with real moonlight, Shen Shiyan squinted, and suddenly said: "I'll give it to you Play a tune."
"Okay." Meng Xintang replied immediately.
Shen Shiyan went back to the house and took out the piano. He just took out his fingernails from the piano bag, but was picked up by Meng Xintang.
"I come."
Shen Shiyan was stunned for a moment and reached out to him.
"How do you wear this?"
"The left edge of the thumb is against the seam of the fingernail, and the other fingers can be worn straight." He pushed back Meng Xintang's fingernail on his little finger, "Don't leave too much, that's fine."
According to what he said, Meng Xintang quickly wrapped one and asked him carefully, "Can the tape be tight?"
Shen Shiyan put his finger on the palm of the other hand and tried: "It can be tighter."
Meng Xintang nodded and understood.
Meng Xintang was very serious and meticulous when doing all this. Shen Shiyan kept staring at his slightly lowered face, Meng Xintang didn't look up, but asked with a smile as he wrapped his index finger around him, "Why do you keep looking at me?"
The two of them stood at the door of the house, and the red light from the lantern shrouded Meng Xintang's body, adding tenderness and lingering for no reason. The tape on the nail is reused, and the adhesive force of the small corner on the edge is weak and it is warped. Meng Xintang put a few fingers on Shen Shiyan's index finger, pinched it gently, and smoothed it.
Shen Shiyan's heart moved slightly, he closed his hands, and just held Meng Xintang's fingers.
Meng Xintang was stunned, and then looked up at him.
"I think you are beautiful."
Shen Shiyan smiled intoxicatingly, and his words were as sweet as the bean paste mooncakes tonight. Meng Xintang returned his hand and held him back.
Shen Shiyan was playing "Moon's High" today. When the song ended, the wind suddenly picked up, blowing the fragrance of flowers in the courtyard into the sky.