The next morning, before Shen Shu left home, Ye Sui had already gone to work.
Shen Shu received a call. A woman's voice sounded on the phone, her tone was a little guilty: "Shen Shu, it's me."
Shen Shu took a breath, even though this person hadn't contacted him for a long time, but after many years, he still recognized this person's voice.
This person is his mother who has been away for many years.
Shen Shu restrained his voice, and there was a trace of coldness between his brows: "What's the matter?"
Ye Sui came home to get things. She found the phone she had dropped and was about to leave. She glanced casually and saw that the door of Shen Shu's room was open.
She wanted to say goodbye to Shen Shudao, walked to Shen Shu's room, the door was slightly open, and Shen Shu's indifferent voice came from inside: "Since you have already left, why do you come back?"
Ye Sui looked over, and Shen Shu said again: "From the day you left, you are no longer my mother."
After saying this, Shen Shu hung up the phone.
It was the first time Ye Sui saw Shen Shu look so indifferent. Holding the mobile phone, his jaw was tense and his body was stiff, as if he was not used to talking to his mother.
It was mentioned in the book that Shen Shu's mother had a bad relationship with him. She left home when Shen Shu was a teenager and never came back.
Ye Sui looked at Shen Shu for a while, and knew that this was Shen Shu's privacy, and now Shen Shu also needed to be quiet. She left quietly.
After Shen Shu hung up the phone, he sat there without noticing Ye Sui's existence.
His mother left home when he was very young. The lack of maternal love all year round, coupled with bad childhood memories, although time has passed, still exists in his life for a long time, like a shadow.
Those unpleasant memories all turned into shadows, quietly engraved in his bones, painfully and clearly remembered.
Shen Shu sat there silently, as if shrouded in a shadow.
Ye Sui returned home after work. After Ye Sui washed up, she sat on the sofa and watched TV. She suddenly felt that the house was deserted, and she looked around, only to realize that Shen Shu was not at home.
Although Shen Shu doesn't talk much, the relationship between Ye Sui and Shen Shu is much better than before. In the evening they would sit on the sofa and chat for a while.
Shen Shu is not at home now, so it is strangely deserted.
Ye Sui looked at the time, it was half past eight in the evening, half an hour late for Shen Shu to go home every day.
One day before, Shen Shu also came home very late, and he sleepwalked that night. In addition, Ye Sui heard the conversation between Shen Shu and his mother at noon, Ye Sui was a little worried.
Ye Sui watched TV absent-mindedly, she turned her head from time to time and glanced at the clock on the wall. Time passed by, and Shen Shu didn't come home.
After a while, there was a sound of opening the door. Ye Sui looked, it was Shen Shu who came back, Ye Sui felt relieved. Shen Shu lowered his head to change his shoes, unable to see clearly.
Shen Shu walked in, ready to go back to the room. Ye Sui tentatively asked: "Shen Shu, what time do you go to bed tonight?"
Shen Shu didn't look at Ye Sui, and said in a low voice, "I'll be sleeping right away."
Ye Sui was worried, and warned: "If you can't fall asleep, you can drink a cup of hot milk before going to bed."
Shen Shu paused, he hummed, then turned and went back to the room. Ye Sui frowned looking at Shen Shu's silent back, hoping that Shen Shu could sleep well tonight.
It was late at night, and the moon was also hiding behind the clouds, the surroundings fell into silence, and Ye Sui also fell asleep. I don't know when, suddenly there was a sound outside.
bang bang bang—
Ye Sui thought in a daze, why is there someone knocking on the door in the middle of the night? But in the next second, Ye Sui woke up suddenly, and she realized instantly that it was Shen Shu who was sleepwalking again.
Ye Sui didn't even wear shoes, she got out of bed directly, stepped on the ground with bare feet, opened the door and went out.
The living room was very dark with no lights on. Ye Sui pressed the switch, and with a "click", the light turned on. The darkness dissipated, but Ye Sui's heart was always there.
The closer Ye Sui got to Shen Shu's room, the clearer the knock on the door became, reminding her of Shen Shu's uneasy mood.
Ye Sui looked at Shen Shu's room.
Obviously Shen Shu only needs to pull the doorknob, and he can walk out in the next second. But Shen Shu didn't do that, he just raised his hand and knocked on the door repeatedly and mechanically, again and again.
The dull knocking sound rang in the quiet night, and Shen Shu's helpless and fragile voice sounded from the closed door: "Open the door, don't lock me in."
Shen Shu knocked on the door over and over again, and spoke numbly over and over again. The world outside the door was only a few steps away from him, but he couldn't get out.
He was locked in that door, and he was also trapped in the shadow of his heart.
Ye Sui walked over quickly, she took a deep breath, and opened the door cautiously. The crack in the door was widened bit by bit, Ye Sui looked over.
Shen Shu stood in the darkness, his outline blurred. The light in the living room poured down and illuminated the corner in front of the door.
But Shen Shu seemed to be standing behind the light, his eyes were numb and silent, as if his whole body was surrounded by darkness, and the light seemed to be unable to shine in.
Shen Shu is like a phantom in the dark, empty of popularity. Obviously Ye Sui was standing in front of Shen Shu, but he didn't notice it, his eyes were loose.
Ye Sui suddenly felt that her eyes were prickly, she sniffed, took a step forward, stepped into Shen Shu's room, and walked into the darkness.
Shen Shu stopped knocking on the door, but still murmured: "Open the door, don't lock me in."
Through that door, Ye Sui already felt Shen Shu's despair. When she really heard these words, her heart suddenly tugged.
She couldn't imagine what Shen Shu had experienced? Was he ever trapped in some closed place
Ye Sui suddenly remembered that when Shen Shu received his mother's call, he had an indifferent expression at that time, and after hanging up the phone, he became even more silent.
But tonight Shen Shu sleepwalked again and became that helpless person. Ye Sui couldn't help thinking, is Shen Shu's strangeness related to his mother
Ye Sui looked at Shen Shu, she took a step forward and looked into Shen Shu's eyes. The room was very dark, but Ye Sui didn't turn on the light, she was afraid that the light would disturb Shen Shu now.
Ye Sui didn't know what to do, she could only try to restore Shen Shu to a normal state. Ye Sui called softly: "Shen Shu, I am Ye Sui."
In the silent darkness, Ye Sui's voice sounded softly.
Shen Shu stood there stiffly, he didn't respond. He seemed to hear a familiar voice, but it was very far away and soon dispersed.
Seeing that Shen Shu didn't respond, Ye Sui called out again, with a softer tone: "Shen Shu, I'm Ye Sui."
Shen Shu's hand moved slightly, he seemed to be a little awake, but still immersed in his emotions.
Ye Sui was very patient, she called over and over again tirelessly. In the silent cold night, her voice clearly reached Shen Shu's ear.
A seemingly ordinary sentence, but like a cluster of bright lights, shining into his dark world bit by bit.
"Shen Shu, I'm Ye Sui."
"Shen Shu, I'm Ye Sui."
"..."
Ye Sui didn't know if this would be effective, she only knew that Shen Shu couldn't be allowed to continue like this. At such a moment, Ye Sui brings Shen Shu back to the real world in such a gentle way.
Perhaps in Shen Shu's memory, Ye Sui is different from other people. Shen Shu vaguely sensed Ye Sui's worry.
She is calling him back.
Shen Shu's expression finally fluctuated, and a tiny light flashed in his eyes. He opened his mouth and said the familiar name in his memory: "Ye Sui?"
Ye Sui's heart relaxes, it can be seen that Shen Shu's state is still not quite right, but at least he can listen to her words.
Ye Sui continued to say patiently: "I am Ye Sui, look at me."
Shen Shu instinctively obeyed the voice, he slowly turned his head and looked towards the source of the voice, he saw Ye Sui's face, his eyes slowly focused.
Ye Sui looked at Shen Shu, and said in a soft and gentle voice, "Come with me, okay?" She glanced, Shen Shu didn't wear shoes, it was already autumn, and Shen Shu would get sick if he continued to stand there.
Shen Shu did not refuse.
Ye Sui tried to reach out her hand, and her palm gently covered Shen Shu's hand, only feeling that Shen Shu's body temperature was colder than the autumn night.
Ye Sui tightened her hand slightly, and she led Shen Shu forward. Shen Shu followed Ye Sui's footsteps, walking slowly step by step.
When she got to the bed, Ye Sui looked at Shen Shu and pointed to the bed: "Lie down and sleep." When Shen Shu fell asleep, she could leave with peace of mind.
Shen Shu didn't move, he just looked at Ye Sui without any emotion in his eyes. Ye Sui sighed, she forgot that Shen Shu was not fully awake yet.
That's all she could do.
Ye Sui still held Shen Shu's hand, she bent down and sat on the inside of the bed. Ye Sui stretched out her other hand, patted the bed, and said, "Lie down and sleep."
Shen Shu imitated Ye Sui's movements and lay down slowly, beside Ye Sui. Ye Sui thought for a while, she turned sideways, facing Shen Shu.
Shen Shu also turned his head to the side, looking at Ye Sui, and the two stared at each other in the dark.
Ye Sui didn't look away, she stared into Shen Shu's eyes, and said warmly: "It's getting late, go to sleep."
Her voice is so nice, it seems to calm all Shen Shu's anxiety. Shen Shu closed his eyes and fell asleep. But he still held Ye Sui's hand and did not let go.
Ye Sui also had to lie on the bed.
On a silent night, in the same bed, the two were lying together. The light became dimmer, and the breathing of the two became long and slow.
That night, Shen Shu had a dream.
In the dream, he was trapped in a place, the door was closed tightly, and he couldn't get out no matter what. Just when he was desperate, someone suddenly called his name softly.
The door still didn't open, but she didn't give up, she chanted it over and over again, and continued to work hard to bring him out of the darkness.
Finally, Shen Shu opened the door, and there was a person standing behind the door, it was Ye Sui's familiar face, behind her was the bright and warm sunshine, Ye Sui looked at him and smiled.
Shen Shu woke up from the dream, he opened his eyes. The sky is already bright, and the sun shines through the windows and spreads on the floor.
Shen Shu lowered his head and glanced at his hand. He wrapped Ye Sui's hand, and the fingertips were delicate. He remembered some fragments of last night.
Ye Sui called his name, held his hand, and slept on his bed all night...the two just fell asleep together holding hands.
Shen Shu stared at Ye Sui, his dark eyes were like ink. Now Ye Sui is still asleep, from his perspective, you can see Ye Sui's thick eyelashes curling up slightly.
At this moment, Ye Sui, who has always slept dishonestly, turned over and just rolled into Shen Shu's arms. The distance between the two suddenly narrowed.
The two of them face to face, nose to nose, Ye Sui's hair brushes against Shen Shu's face restlessly.
Ye Sui's face is close at hand.
Shen Shu's body stiffened, his breathing stagnated, and his heart beat suddenly a little faster.