"Is that magazine the first time you saw me?"
Yan Shuo looked at Shen Zhifan who was dazed and shocked, and couldn't help but change the subject.
He didn't trust him enough, no, how should I put it, for Shen Zhifan, Yan Shuo was just a sign now, and he didn't need to reveal it all... He didn't want to force him either.
"um, yes."
Shen Zhifan nodded, his thoughts were pulled out from the first glance many years ago, and his hand unnaturally stroked the beverage bottle in his hand. The sudden news was overwhelming.
"Then," Yan Shuo sighed, "do you remember the real, when we first met?"
Shen Zhifan paused, then looked at Yan Shuo blankly again.
"It was seven years ago," Yan Shuo turned his eyes, leaving only a silhouette of Shen Zhifan's profile. His profile was very three-dimensional, and the tip of his nose, lips and chin could be connected in a straight line, "In N- 192, don't you remember what happened at that time?"
seven years ago
Shen Zhifan's throat moved slightly, and his pupils shrank unconsciously.
Seven years ago, he was sixteen years old, the age he is most familiar with now, and it is about to become the age he is most unfamiliar with now.
He even remembered what he ate last night. The day after tomorrow is about to take the monthly test. The little fat man at the same table will stuff him with snacks every day in order to bribe him to cheat. He also remembers that Shen Zhirou blatantly sold his photos and got him into trouble at school...
But he couldn't remember the explosion of N-192 seven years ago, the death of his parents seven years ago, and the fact that seven years ago... He even met Yan Shuo.
The young and majestic major general of the Interstellar Empire has nothing to do with the N-192 known as the earth planet.
Why is it seven years ago, why is it... What he just doesn't remember, to him, it seems like the so-called future, not the past.
"I, in fact, I..." Shen Zhifan explained somewhat bewilderedly, no matter how hard he tried, the 16-year-old boy was still under the skin, and he was learning that his parents had passed away in this vacant seven-year vacancy. After being interrupted, he didn't want to know about it, but now he realizes how much he wants to know what has happened in the past seven years, "I was injured recently, when I was in the Mecha League... I didn't notice it at first, but suddenly I found out recently. , I forgot a lot of things, you know... I can't talk about such things casually."
He's taking a vaguely eclectic approach, but that's why he's convincing himself recently.
There must be a reason for his amnesia, but he didn't feel anything wrong with his whole body, and subconsciously, he also felt that it should be caused by activities such as mecha leagues, which are easy to damage to the body.
"I really can't remember what happened seven years ago recently. What happened, please... Be sure to tell me."
Originally thought that Shen Zhirou didn't know about the accident seven years ago, but he didn't know about it in a short period of time, but he never expected that there was an insider, and it was still in front of him.
He desperately wanted to know that year and everything that had happened in the past seven years.
Yan Shuo was stunned for a moment, then turned his eyes to see the sparkle in the young man's eyes.
"Sorry," Shen Zhifan covered his eyes with his palms to hide his gaffe, he bent forward, resting his elbows on his knees, "I... I just remembered the death of my parents seven years ago. ,I… "
Yan Shuo was silent for a while, his eyes narrowed slightly.
Shen Zhifan cried silently, almost without a trace of crying, he controlled it very well,
It's just that this kind of silence makes people feel depressed, like the cold current pressing under the broken cliff, passing by silently, only his slightly trembling back is speaking to Yan Shuo calmly.
His heart suddenly softened into a puddle of water, a mess, even if he looked so calm, his handsome and indifferent face seemed to be an eternal stone castle, and the wind and sand did not change, he could never imagine such a person hiding in his heart. Something as soft as the first flower in the spring breeze.
He was deeply aware that this was the sixteen-year-old Shen Zhifan, the young man he had fallen in love with in the roots of his heart. He had already missed the chance to touch his face, so that when he thought about the roots, he fainted. Pain, that kind of dull pain makes people feel like insects are biting at the roots of trees, and the pain is always flowing.
Later, Shen Zhifan was invulnerable, let alone crying beside him like this. He was already a touch of indifferent moonlight, cold and transparent, soaked in the ruthlessness and cruelty of the years. Words are extraordinarily precious.
It was his fault, Yan Shuo couldn't help thinking, his palm lightly covered Shen Zhifan's back, he wanted to appease him.
The roots of the tree had been rotten under the hard soil layer, and they could not be touched. But now someone has uprooted the tree, removed the deeply buried and messy roots, and turned into a young sapling. Come once.
It couldn't be better, there's nothing wrong with it, great, really.
"sorry."
He said softly, his fingers a little nostalgic for the feeling of touching the other's back.
Shen Zhifan's back was a little slender, and the joints he felt were wrapped under the thin flesh, hard and soft.
"No, it has nothing to do with you," Shen Zhifan's emotions had stabilized when he let go of his palms, but the corners of his eyes were still red, with a touch of blush, "Please tell me."
No, Yan Shuo looked at him, this was not what he wanted to apologize for.
What he wanted to apologize was that he couldn't find him earlier, and he wouldn't have missed that out of reach teenager.
"At that time, there was a mistake in the execution of the mission," Yan Shuo turned his eyes, his palms slowly clenched, he did not dare to look at the corner of the other's eyes, lest he couldn't help kissing the other's eyebrows, "At that time, I was almost in a desperate situation. Fortunately, there was a space jump layer at that time, I gambled for my life, but fortunately I won, and the place where I landed happened to be N-192."
Shen Zhifan's heart suddenly tightened.
"Do you… remember that date?"
Yan Shuo was silent for a while, and Shen Zhifan felt that he was a little too strong. After all, this happened seven years ago, so it may be difficult to remember.
"Remember, September 16, 26 years."
Shen Zhifan opened his lips slightly, and lowered his head in frustration.
It turned out to be like this... This must not be a coincidence, Shen Zhifan lowered his head.
All he could think of yesterday was September 15th.
Why did he forget, why did his memory come to an abrupt end on this day, what kind of power made that point in time exactly the day before the incident.
This bizarre discovery made Shen Zhifan feel a little anxious and panicked, and he began to realize that the lost memory did not seem to be an accident, but rather an elaborate plan.
But who can manipulate memory so precisely, except himself.
The more Shen Zhifan thought about it, the whiter his lips became, he felt incredible, and he felt clueless.
"...What's the matter?" Yan Shuo was a little aware, but he was Shen Zhifan after all, so he didn't know what he was thinking.
"It's okay, I... I wonder if you were still there when the N-192 bombing happened? It should have been that year."
Yan Shuo was silent for a long time before he said softly, "Sorry, I was no longer there at that time."
Shen Zhifan was a little disappointed, but he was also secretly relieved. How should I put it, he was a little scared just now... He was afraid that the explosion of N-192 was related to Yan Shuo.
"I'm sorry for the explosion of N-192," Yan Shuo seemed to know what he was thinking, "but it had nothing to do with me, I had been away for about a month at that time and learned about the news, not only N-192, but the entire N galaxy It was all affected, and thousands of planets were destroyed. This was an extremely important event. At that time, high-level officials had influence, but the handling was very vague, and it seemed to involve some unknown areas."
"I... I'm not questioning you." Shen Zhifan, who was afraid of being misunderstood by Yan Shuo, tried his best to explain.
"No, it's fine." Yan Shuo looked into his eyes and thought to himself.
You don't know that I'd rather that explosion be related to me, at least when I can be by your side.
"Let's talk about the first time I saw you," Shen Zhifan changed the topic, thinking of this, he felt a little more relaxed, "I must be happy to sign with you, just with me... see before as you are."
Yan Shuo smiled: "Actually not, because I was seriously injured at that time, you might not recognize me at all."
Shen Zhifan was a little flattered: "Did I rescue you?"
"Yeah." Yan Shuo lowered his eyes and looked at him quietly, "Is it a bit old-fashioned?"
"No... no!"
Shen Zhifan turned his face away silently, repenting in his heart.
This scene happened in his... kind of dream when he was young.