The diary was very thick, and Shen Zhifan felt a little frightened when he opened it. Even though it was just a diary, it seemed like he was opening an unspeakable history.
Not so exaggerated, he slowly reassured himself.
The first page is about 28 years ago, which is five years ago. The handwriting is very confusing. Obviously, he was very unstable when he wrote it.
"Today is the first day I came here. The challenge platform here is designed to be very high. The first time I walked in and watched, I saw a mecha being thrown straight down and folded in half."
"From this perspective, combined with the books I read a few years ago, I infer that the person in it probably won't survive, but no one cares whether he survives or not."
"I heard them shouting, those spectators... they should be spectators, their emotions were ignited to the highest level, they took money and smashed them into the stage. The sky was raining with banknotes. It was so beautiful... But no one paid attention. When they got to the loser who was snapped in half, their eyes were all on the stage."
"Mr. Gurley said that it is the strongest mecha in this underground mecha field. It is the three consecutive championships. One month's income can buy the entire interstellar orphanage."
"Actually, income is second to me, I just want to survive, my sister got a burn on her back, I don't know who did it, there's a big red spot there, I hope it won't leave a scar, but maybe Sex is very small, she thought I didn't know, and she didn't plan to tell me, I knew she was trying to be sensible, but she didn't know that this made me feel powerless, and I couldn't let her stay in that kind of place forever."
"As Mr. Gurley said, the people in the shadows are looking for me, I'm struggling, and I can't have any honorable career... Sounds pathetic, doesn't it?"
"When I was passing by, the boy sold me a diary. He said I should need this. His clothes were ragged and he looked pitiful. I no longer have the qualifications and habits to show mercy to others, but I still buy it. Come down, if I die tomorrow, at least my sister can get a pension, if not, then this diary may still have my handwriting tomorrow."
This was the first entry recorded in this diary, and it was also the first day that Shen Zhifan stepped into the underground mecha field. Before that, he might not have been doing well, otherwise he wouldn't have come to this point.
Seeing the past that I have really experienced but forgot, seems to be reading other people's stories, but unfortunately it is more profound and inextricable than reading other people's stories. Others will only sigh lightly and aloofly.
It turned out that I really came to the end of the road.
Shen Zhifan suddenly felt an indescribable tiredness, and suddenly remembered the sharp pain he had caused when he touched those buttons before, did he develop it at that time
It must be the end of the road.
Shen Zhirou's life was also very bad, but she refused to tell him, and it was over after a few understatements. Shen Zhirou, that arrogant and arrogant little girl, was also slowly polished to a dead stone by this kind of life.
However, there are still some words Shen Zhifan didn't understand, such as "Those people in the dark are searching for my traces", who is searching for his traces
Why can't he pursue an upright career
Shen Zhifan slowly turned to the second page.
"I survived, the weather was great today, I stared at the sun for a long time. My eardrums are still pounding, it seems like dozens of bombers are falling next to me, I can barely hear anything, and I couldn't sleep at all, and the doctor on the ground told me to leave without any major incident, but now it seems to be bleeding inside."
"But I'm not dissatisfied, I feel lucky, at least I survived."
"It's a pity that the death of the man on the opposite side was a bit miserable. His neck was twisted and broken together with the mecha. He looked younger than me. When he died, his ribs were interspersed, and his whole body was twisted and soaked in blood. I felt sick for a while, vomited for a long time, and now the whole person is collapsed."
"I was scared and suddenly fearless."
"Think of Shen Zhifan for the best. If you die tomorrow, your sister will get more pensions."
This was the second day, and a battle flashed through Shen Zhifan's mind vaguely, a battle that sounded a little pitiful.
Two young boys, perhaps only seventeen or eighteen years old, fought to the death here for tomorrow, and then paid a huge price. Life is worthless here. They sneered again and again, their deaths had no dignity, and were hastily buried bloodstains by rotten old banknotes.
Shen Zhifan's throat moved slightly, and he even felt the pain around his eardrum, and he turned to the next page.
"I'm still alive today, but my ears still hurt and I can't hear anything."
"The bad news is that the doctor said I have to go and have a look. If I don't, I may be deaf. The good news is that I have won two games in a row and have a week off."
"But I can't go back to see Shen Zhirou... I may not be able to see her for a long time, at least until I'm not too good to be a person, she will probably cry when she sees me like this, I don't want to let it go. she cried."
"Niya was very good to me, she carefully bandaged me, I was wrapped like a mummy in an ancient history book, and I thought it was quite funny when I looked in the mirror, which made me laugh at Niya, but She still shed two tears for me... She's a good girl, but unfortunately I can't accept her wishes."
"That's it for today, I hope I'm still alive in a week's time."
Wrapped in a mummy... The corner of Shen Zhifan's mouth raised a somewhat helpless smile, and it was interesting to say that the young man was having fun while he was dying.
The third diary is not a week later, and the date is only three days apart.
"I bought a very interesting thing today, it's really nostalgic, look, "Mechanical Eagle", oh my god, I can find these from the warehouse of the diary kid, he said he admires me, let it be I pick one."
"Cough, of course I chose that person's book. Others are no longer attractive to me. Seriously, I'm a little angry when I think about it, only to realize that I have read "Mechanical Eagle" before. So many things are just nonsense. No wonder they can only be sold in such small and crappy places to deceive children like us... When I settle down in the future, I also want to publish a mecha magazine, which will definitely sell more than "Mechanical" Good Eagle."
"In addition, I also have the first fan, well, Ai Bo who sells diaries and old magazines has been vying for my first fan position with Niya, haha, they say I will be popular, because I am not only good And handsome, although I am still in the bottom position, but I believe in me very much... Hey, they are all very cute people, which makes my mummy life a lot more interesting."
"The day of the game is approaching again, I'm a little scared, but a day is a day, isn't it?"