"In three days he was gone. Not long after he left, about a month, the explosion occurred."
He went through the story of the year in his mind, but erased it lightly.
Shen Zhirou moved her lips silently, and finally glanced down and said nothing.
"Is that explosion really… really what that Ferdinand said, we, you… you and mom?"
He glanced at her and touched her head.
Shen Zhirou felt her brother's warm palm, and his indifferent and deep eyes, her heart suddenly calmed down, as if he had used his own power to open up a cloud, and the sorrow and haze were swept away by the sun.
It's all in the past, and if you take it out and face it again, it will be unforgettable, but it should also make people stronger.
"We couldn't have escaped originally, but luckily we were lucky," Shen Zhifan was still able to laugh bitterly, "You know, just in time, I studied the machine of the semi-finished product made by grandfather for three days. A, although it is very old and ugly, it actually works."
Shen Zhirou expressed her surprise: "Really, just that thing? When my grandfather showed it to us, I thought it was a big nest of melons. It's really super ugly."
Shen Zhifan was blocked for a moment by his sister's uprightness and was speechless.
Although that mecha really looks like a pimple-filled nest, it's not good to say it.
"You were in a coma all the time because you were seriously injured at the time, and you didn't know about these things. At that time, we had a hard time with... Parents and the planet, so I didn't explain this clearly."
Shen Zhifan's eyes are very quiet, but not beautiful, his eyes look more like the insensitivity soaked in years than his appearance.
"Well, indeed, Ferdinandia didn't lie to you, it's true."
Shen Zhirou looked at him, her lips moved, but she couldn't speak.
"My mother told me before she died that we have enemies. We are a little more ordinary than I thought, and so are our enemies, so we can only live carefully," he finally pried open the secret buried deep in his heart. No longer alone, I felt relieved, "I thought it was some kind of terrorist organization at first, it was just a grudge against my parents."
"Do you remember, when I first entered the Interstellar Orphanage, that Mr. Gurley contacted me."
"He said that if he knew my parents, he could help me, but just like what my mother said, we can't use our original identities to do some honest work," he sighed, "I didn't think too much at that time, He told me to go to the underground mecha field, and I went."
"Indeed, there is no way out, we need money."
Shen Zhirou stepped forward and hugged Shen Zhifan.
"I'm sorry, I always thought... I really didn't expect you to work so hard."
Shen Zhirou buried her head in Shen Zhifan's chest, he smiled lightly, feeling the temperature on his sister's body.
"Actually, it's okay. Now that I've come through it, I think it's okay, but I think I'm really amazing."
"It's alright, don't cry, I had a thorough treatment later, and most of the sequelae at that time were healed, otherwise I wouldn't be able to see people much more than now. I once had an eight-centimeter scar on my face, which was ugly... OK It's alright, I won't scare you anymore."
"Don't cry, Zhirou, be strong."
He really doesn't seem to care about those things anymore.
"... not crying!"
Shen Zhirou groaned.
Shen Zhifan: "Then you wipe your nose first, don't get on me."
Shen Zhirou: "..."
The warmth and affection that were promised, why are they so indifferent in the blink of an eye.
"Speaking of which, I would also like to thank Ferdinandia. He discovered my talent and gave me the conditions for treatment. Otherwise, I would not have improved so quickly."
Shen Zhirou raised her head: "Isn't Ferdinand a good person, why do you all say—"
"I felt the same way at first," he was silent for a while, and seemed to feel a little sad, "especially when he told me the truth of the explosion, I really felt that the whole world was crumbling, and there was darkness in front of me, only he told me Open a hand."
"He was channeling my hatred, making me extreme and desperate. I still had a diary I couldn't find because I had burned it."
"Because the record of me in that diary was so terrifying," he said indifferently about his past. "When I re-read it, I couldn't help but burn it."
"If Nia hadn't found me, I might have done anything later. I'll kill anyone Ferdinand wants me to kill... No, I've already done it."
At this point, his voice twisted.
"Zhirou, brother, these things are not right, but there is nothing you can do."
Shen Zhirou looked at him in astonishment.
"I used to lose my temper in the Mechland, and I couldn't control it... You can't imagine how much I loved it and feared it."
Shen Zhifan covered his eyes.
"I used to read "Mechanical Eagle" over and over again, and the fantasies, expectations, and love of my boyhood were all turned into torture. My pain in the underground mecha field, and the pain I used to kill people, over and over eating away at me."
"He asked me to help him eliminate dissidents quietly," his voice was a little obscure, "I killed several ministers, and with the light armor he gave me, I could easily pass through the layers of guards and pierce them heart."
"I don't know them, and they don't know me."
"And I'm clean, I'm the best 'knife' he has and he appreciates me."
"Do you know," Shen Zhifan suddenly said, "I was full of hatred at that time, and felt that as long as I followed him, I could create a perfect and clean new world."
"But the souls who died under my hands haunted me day and night. They asked me, even if there is such a new world, are you worthy, are you worthy of living in that new world?"
"Not only those ministers, but also those undead in the underground mecha field."
He cupped his eyes with his hands, fell silent, and laughed again.
"They're right-"
"Why don't you deserve it!" Shen Zhirou suddenly shouted, with a bit of a cry, "What's not worthy, everything is worthy... We haven't done anything wrong, we have already lived very carefully!"
Shen Zhifan gave her a complicated look and put her head on his shoulder.
"Well, let's move on to Ferdinandia. We are what they call 'Silver', the soft, who stand on top of this world and see us as food."
Shen Zhirou sobbed and said, "Is it you and your mother?"
Shen Zhifan frowned: "It's not just me and my mother, but you too."
Shen Zhirou seemed to be shocked and cried even more.
"I wonder why I look so ugly, don't they all say that I look beautiful?! This is the only racial advantage, am I mutated?! Why am I! I look so much better It's hard, it's not easy for me to look so ugly!"
He was frightened by his sister's resentment, and patted her head again, dumbfounded.
"Then didn't you realize that our mother is also not good-looking?"
"Yes," Shen Zhirou raised her head, "Why, oh yes, Jiajia once saw her mother's photo and said she was very beautiful, and said you looked like her, what kind of fresh and refined aesthetic is this?"
"...Yi Jia, when I met her, she called herself Niya." Shen Zhifan licked his lips, talking too much and getting thirsty, "I met her in the underground mecha field, and she was almost sold. , has been hiding there as a waiter, waiting for her family to find her."
"She is a distant cousin of Olivia. I don't remember how far away. Their families are always messed up, anyway, it's quite far away," Shen Zhifan continued, "Actually, it can be seen, although in that kind of place, but her temperament and appearance are clearly that of a pampered eldest lady."
Speaking of Yi Jia, Shen Zhirou's expression was a bit complicated.
"As for their family, they have an ability called 'empathy'. They can see through the essence with the help of some things, but it's also very tiring. Mom, we don't look beautiful, but I believe we must have been beautiful. We must have used some method. She left her hometown, trying to escape the fate of her family."
Shen Zhirou looked at him pitifully.
Shen Zhifan couldn't bear it: "The reason why you are not beautiful... I don't know, maybe it's really a mutation."
Shen Zhirou almost didn't catch her breath, she was very unconvinced.
"I helped her escape from the underground mecha field, so she was always grateful to me, because of Olivia, she easily knew Ferdinand." Shen Zhifan lowered her head, "she found out that I was with Ferdinand. Ferdinand came very close and told me that Ferdinand was scary."
"How terrifying, he is a person who likes to kill by nature, has no feelings, and is not the same as normal people."
"She has been trying very hard to help me. I was in such a bad state at the time that I was in the process of self-destruction and destroying the world, so she has been secretly studying Ferdinandia."
"It was because of Olivia's relationship that she easily approached Ferdinandia. In addition, Olivia and Ferdinandia were very different, and she also discovered a secret of Ferdinandia by the way."
At this time, Shen Zhifan stopped, and he still didn't forget to sell it.
Shen Zhirou was so angry at him: "What secret?"
"I always thought he was the savior at the time, but I didn't expect him to be the great demon king," Shen Zhifan laughed at himself, "I underestimated the charm of 'Xivir', it turns out that these people really can't refuse the so-called immortality."
"He is more extreme than those people. He rescued some of our clansmen. Like us, he erased the list for us and used the name of the savior." Shen Zhifan's eyes suddenly became sharp and indifferent, "In fact, he is the Experimenting with 'Silver'."
"... Doing experiments?" Shen Zhirou's heart twitched, "We, our flesh and blood, are really so useful, so why do we still have birth, old age, sickness and death?"
"I don't know," Shen Zhifan smiled bitterly, "I haven't eaten it before, and I don't feel anything, but they are so relentless in pursuit, maybe it's really useful."
"Doing an experiment, um, Ferdinandia is the eldest prince, you know, he doesn't need to be so troublesome, he can inherit the 'property' of his father and those people, but he doesn't want to... Because his father is very perverted, yes, Bang Lin III, our 'Your Majesty'."
Shen Zhifan's expression was disgusting.
"He is a weak, bloated, stupid man, but he has the supreme power, and he... ruined Ferdinandia."
"… what?"
"He," Shen Zhifan said, he couldn't bear it, he sighed, "When Ferdinand was young... I don't know what effect this experience had on Ferdinand, but he lives now. Such a twist, such a desire to usurp the throne, and such a destructive personality must have something to do with this matter."
Shen Zhirou looked blank: "What?"
Shen Zhifan sighed: "Forget it, you don't need to understand, it's disgusting anyway."
Shen Zhirou continued with a blank expression: "Oh."
"We didn't become a test subject, firstly because I was still useful, and secondly because... He likes me quite a bit."
Shen Zhifan's expression was a little weird.
"Ferdinandia has countless lovers, and doesn't mind spoiling one more."
Shen Zhirou understood this time, and slapped her thigh in anger, "Does this bastard want to eat your tofu?!"
Shen Zhifan: "...Can you pat yourself on the leg?"
In the end, he looked at Shen Zhirou's nervous look and thought it was funny: "But I'm very useful, so he doesn't force him, at most, he chases after me."
Shen Zhirou remembered the girlish heart she once had, and it was broken.
"It's a shame I used to—"
"But it's okay, he is... tsk, how can I say it, it's really, very complicated."
"His lover looks more or less like a person." Shen Zhifan thought for a while, "Including me, I have seen that person, so I found that I and his eyes are slightly similar."
"...Who?" Shen Zhirou was a little confused.
"His brother, Yulia."
"...Wait," Shen Zhirou suddenly calmed down, "You just said that Bang Lin III was his father, he, his younger brother... oh my god."
Thousands of words came to Shen Zhirou's mouth, only a dirty word could express her inner feelings.
"What's even weirder is that," Shen Zhifan thought for a while, "Yulia seems to be his lover too. If it's looking for a substitute, there's no need. The main lord is already here... So there is something wrong with him. "
Shen Zhirou couldn't help but complain: "Are all the royal family so messy?"
"...I don't know either," Shen Zhifan frowned, "Forget it, I don't want to talk about him, the main thing is that although I work for Ferdinand, we are still the 'Xivir' in his eyes, he doesn't You'll let us go, you know?"
"So you have to run away, Rou Rou, let's go. My actions here... are very dangerous."
Shen Zhirou opened her eyes wide: "What action?"
Shen Zhifan was silent for a moment: "I can't let Ferdinand take the throne, even if I still want a new world, but that's human nature, who can refuse immortality for someone sitting in that position, immortality is a bit exaggerated. , but I heard it does have a certain effect.”
Shen Zhirou suddenly covered her mouth: "...do you want to kill Ferdinand?"
Shen Zhifan looked at her silently, his eyes flickering indistinctly, and for a while he felt that there were fragments of stars and seas inside.
He leaned down and hugged her, kissing her forehead.
"I may die, but for you, for the people."
He suddenly smiled.
"I don't have any regrets anymore, I created a dream for myself. In this short period of time, I have had a romantic relationship with the person I like the most regardless of anything, and I have a final appointment tonight, um... very complete. "
"Look, although I woke up from a dream, I have no regrets."
Shen Zhirou was shocked by her brother's fearless tone, and she could only look at him stupidly for a while.
Although it's always been silly.
"Run away, Zhirou."
"You can only escape. Without Ferdinand, there is the next successor, those people raised by this empire... As long as there are those people, you can only escape."
"We were born unfortunate."