Li Rong was silent, and after a while, she whispered, "I know."
Saying that, she said slowly, "I know my situation very well."
Li Ming loves Concubine Rou's son, and is afraid of Li Chuan, who is at odds with his own political views. He has long thought of abolishing the prince. She is caught in the middle. It is not easy to abolish the prince, but it is extremely simple to deal with a princess.
The Su family is now a prominent family in the court, and Su Rongqing is not something she can imagine. What's more, she was just teasing Pei Wenxuan, and Xiao didn't even think about it.
She was rarely quiet, and Pei Wenxuan couldn't help but glance at her. Seeing her gloomy expression, he knew that she was thinking about her own affairs. He hesitated for a moment, thinking about whether or not he should speak, but after thinking about it, he didn't say a word in the end.
Things have come this far, Li Rong is a smart person, and she will think about her own way.
The two of them ate the fish quietly, then went to sleep each, and tacitly did not mention anything about the marriage.
Pei Wenxuan leaned on the small hill, closed his eyes and squinted for a while, and felt a little difficult to fall asleep, so he opened his eyes again and looked at Li Rong's back in the distance.
The night wind made him seldom sober, and only then did he have time to sort out what happened that day.
He never thought that Li Rong had also been reborn.
Originally, he still thought that this life would be like the previous life, marrying Li Rong, forget about Qin Zhenzhen, and live a good life with Li Rong, but now that he thinks about it, this kind of thinking might not work.
The fifty-year-old Li Rong was completely different from the twenty-year-old. She was cunning and aggressive, like a thorn full of thorns, whoever caught and smoked.
The most important thing is that the fifty-year-old Li Rong has Su Rongqing in her heart.
That person had been with her for twenty-five years, and even killed her. Maybe the betrayal would make Li Rong hate him.
He didn't want his wife to think of another person, like a twenty-year-old Li Rong.
But how can it be tolerated? Li Rong has no choice, does he have another choice
Pei Wenxuan couldn't help but smile bitterly. As soon as he looked up, he saw Li Rong's back facing him. She looked extremely thin, curled up and hugged her with her back to him. When the cold wind blew, she shivered slightly, and when Pei Wenxuan saw it, he hesitated for a while. After a long time, he stood up, went to the side, picked up the jacket he took off, covered it with Li Rong, and then He went back to the fire and closed his eyes.
Li Rong felt that she was covered with a piece of clothing. She closed her eyes and did not speak. After pulling the clothes over her body for a moment, she thought that Pei Wenxuan's clothes were basically here.
After hesitating for a moment, she finally spoke up and called him, "Pei Wenxuan."
"Shut up and go to sleep."
Pei Wenxuan spoke decisively.
Li Rong: "..."
After a while, Li Rong still felt a little troubled in her conscience, and said directly: "Come here and sleep together."
This time, Pei Wenxuan was silent.
Seeing that he was ignoring him, Li Rong felt that she was doing her best, so she simply pulled her clothes and closed her eyes.
After a while, she heard someone rustling behind her, and then Pei Wenxuan squeezed over. Li Rong divided half of the clothes for him. She was small and turned on her side, so half of the clothes was enough. Pei Wenxuan was there. Behind her, she put the remaining half on herself.
Pei Wenxuan turned his back to her, and was separated by a palm distance from her, and the cold wind blew in, but Pei Wenxuan didn't move.
Pei Wenxuan stiffened.
After all, although he is in his fifties, he has a pitiful lack of experience in the matter of men and women.
He and Li Rong were husband and wife, and after Li Rong separated from him, in such a long time, he did not have another person.
In this matter, he still has some principles in his heart, and Li Rong is responsible. Of course, after thinking about it, maybe the moment Li Rong lifted the hijab, the young man still felt a little bit moved, but he didn't change his mind. Come around. Apart from Li Rong, he always thought that others must have some feelings. But after so 30 years of life, perhaps too focused on the government, I haven't met a really heart-warming person.
There were also people who gave him beautiful women one after another, and even Li Chuan apologized when he saw that he had no children, and hinted to him that even if he married the eldest princess, he could consider taking a concubine. It's not that he didn't think about it, but every time those Yingying Yanyan stood in front of him, he always felt that something was missing.
After so many years, the young and charming Li Rong leaned on his back, and he couldn't help but get nervous again like he met a woman at the beginning of the year.
Li Rong noticed his nervousness, and couldn't help but feel a little funny, but also a little pitiful.
She couldn't bear Pei Wenxuan's embarrassment, so she opened the topic and said, "Is there anything you regret in your last life?"
"What do you ask this for?"
"Just ask casually," Li Rong smiled, "We both have a chance encounter, we can start over from the past, we shouldn't think about it, what we regretted in the past, let's see if we can change it in this life. ?"
Pei Wenxuan was silent. Seeing that Pei Wenxuan didn't speak, Li Rong changed the subject and said, "By the way, do you want to find Qin Zhenzhen?"
"do not know."
Pei Wenxuan knew that Li Rong was looking for a topic, but he didn't resist, and said calmly, "Let's talk about it later."
Now he doesn't know what the future holds.
Originally, he thought of marrying Li Rong as before and living a new life, but now Li Rong is reborn, disrupting his plan.
If he doesn't marry Li Rong, then life is another way of living, Qin Zhenzhen...
He didn't know what to think for a while.
Qin Zhenzhen died too early, too long, and he didn't even have time to sort out his inner feelings, and this person left gracefully. He never got this person, so this person became a moonlight, always shining in the sky, making people look far away.
After looking at the bright moon for a long time, it became difficult for him to pursue it. When he told him that he could try to reach out and retrieve the moon, he felt a little incredible.
Knowing that he was uncertain, Li Rong sighed and said, "But I advise you to take care of it early, the palace is not suitable for her, and don't let her enter the palace."
"I know."
Pei Wenxuan understood that Li Rong said these words sincerely, and after a moment of pause, he said slowly, "You rarely say such kind words."
"You're funny," Li Rong leaned on Pei Wenxuan's back and smiled bitterly, "I say good things, but you don't like to hear them."
"No." Pei Wenxuan said calmly, "I'm just not used to it."
"I didn't want to say these words," Li Rong said slowly, "However, I am a person who has clear grievances and grievances. Although you came to save me, although it was a disservice, I still accepted my heart."
"Pei Wenxuan," Li Rong said slowly, "regardless of whether we get married or not, I hope that in this life, we will not be enemies."
"Um."
Pei Wenxuan spoke in a low voice.
Li Rong felt that Pei Wenxuan's body relaxed, knowing that this conversation had resolved his embarrassment, she waited for a while longer.
This was the moment when the two of them were at their kindest and closest, she thought, and it was the most appropriate time to talk about marriage.
However, Pei Wenxuan didn't speak for a long time, and Li Rong knew that Pei Wenxuan should be hesitant about this matter now, and she was not embarrassed, so she began to think about how to deal with it tomorrow.
The two people in the dark each had their own thoughts, Li Rong was thinking of the future, but Pei Wenxuan was thinking of the past.
Li Rong's words were still in her ears, and she asked him what he regretted.
This was a question he dared not answer.
Because most of his life, he has been regretting it. If he said that he regretted the most in his life, the first one was to let Qin Zhenzhen enter the palace, and the second one was to quarrel between Qin Zhenzhen and Li Rong.
The first time he regretted it was not long after their fight. At that time, they slept in separate beds, separated by a screen every night. He looked at Li Rong, who seemed to be close at hand, but also far away, and it was uncomfortable to see.
He wanted to say something nice to her, but he couldn't hold his face, and he didn't know what to say. On the one hand, she felt that Li Rong was right. She had Qin Zhenzhen in her heart and should not provoke her. On the other hand, she felt a little uncomfortable, and she didn't know why.
That day, news suddenly came from the palace that Li Rong had angered the Sage and was punished to kneel at the gate of the palace.
He was still at home at the time, and when he got the news, he rushed over. He remembered that it was raining heavily that day, and the rain was so heavy that he couldn't see the road. Beside him, he held an umbrella to shield her from the wind and rain.
The two of them, kneeling and standing under that umbrella, seemed to be an independent world.
At that moment, he suddenly understood how Li Rong felt. He suddenly realized that a couple, whether they love or not, have feelings or not, will not allow anyone to invade their lives.
It's just the feeling that he didn't dare to think about, so he covered up the discomfort, concealed it, and pretended that nothing existed.
After thinking about it when he was old, he vaguely understood that at that time, he should still care about Li Rong a little bit. It's just that Qin Zhenzhen is a hurdle in his heart. It is too difficult for him to accept that he likes someone, but he is empathetic and loves another person.
And the most important thing is that he is too cowardly in the matter of love. What he needs is a stable relationship, or let him give up. Just like Qin Zhenzhen, he knows that this person will not like him, then His wishful thinking had to be down-to-earth. Either you have to clearly reassure him and let him know that he likes this person and he likes him.
What he was most afraid of was Li Rong. Occasionally, he felt that she might have put him at ease, but for a moment he felt that he was nothing in her eyes.
This made him not dare to like it, and Li Rong was also decisive. Knowing that he cared about Qin Zhenzhen, he immediately got out of the bed, divided the room, and divided the house.
No room for him.
Not only did she stay far away from him, but she also seemed to hate him. She couldn't stand any gestures of kindness from him. If he tried to do it, they would quarrel and go back and forth.
So he can only go all the way on the road he insists on.
He could only keep telling himself that Qin Zhen was really important, and since he had already agreed with Li Rong, he should stick to it.
Just like a gambler, if you gamble too much, you can only keep gambling and you can't go back.
Until the Su family was destroyed and Su Rongqing was in prison, he heard that Li Rong went to beg Li Chuan, and even contradicted him in court, and was blamed by Li Chuan.
He rushed into the palace in a hurry, saw Li Rong lying on the ground covered in blood, and when he saw him coming, he even grabbed him with his hands stained with Dan Kou's nails, and said to him in a hoarse voice: " Pei Wenxuan, I want to protect Su Rongqing."
He couldn't tell what he felt at that time, but for a moment, he felt like a piece of his heart had been gouged out, and such severe pain finally made him sober, and he realized it very clearly.
He finally regretted it.