From the center of the seat to the aisle in the middle, everyone stood up one after another, or clapped, smiled, or patted their shoulders kindly to express their congratulations, but the short aisle seemed to have no end, and the surging crowd was full of sight. In every corner, the bright light blurs the line of sight, and all the scenes become light spots, dazzling, but lose focus, leaving only a surging heat wave, dense and continuous.
The steps under my feet seem to be stepping on cotton, and my brain becomes blank, just relying on my instinct/ability to walk towards the spotlight ahead. This road is so long, starting from the well-planned childhood in the last life, through the teenage years when there was no laughter, no fun, and no leisure, through the life of a bleak and boring hospital bed that could not move, through the claustrophobic life after death Through the dark passage, through the strict and rigid childhood of this life, through the youthful years of free and unrestrained flying, through the crossroads of disintegration against parents...
He finally got here.
"You can only rely on yourself, no one can help you, dreams and freedom are the most useless things."
"You're not a genius, that's just an illusion. You're just one of thousands of ordinary people who do nothing. Stop daydreaming, it will only make your life more miserable."
"You have 15 minutes to rest, don't play with those little friends, they're not good for your future, if you want, sit down and read a book and relax your brain."
"It's disgraceful, being an actor is not a dream, not even a profession, that's a disgrace to the family."
"...it can't be like this!" "It's useless..." "Reality doesn't allow dreams to exist" "Freedom and dreams are excuses that poor people use to comfort themselves"... "No!" "No!" "Rejection! ""impossible!"…
The cold and cruel words were like sharp knives, stabbing him fiercely, bruised and scarred all over his body.
Two lifetimes, as long as a nightmare that can never be awakened, but as short as a drop in the ocean, one step at a time, he is like Sisyphus in Greek mythology, pushing a heavy boulder, carrying one negative after another. , tirelessly, recklessly persistent, stupid, bloody, repeating, repeating, just looking forward to the day when the boulder can be pushed to the top of the mountain. Along the way, he staggered, and the tip of the knife wept blood.
Not to prove myself, just to prove that life is not only a cruel reality, but also a stupid dream; to prove that life can have other meanings besides "living".
He knew that the Emmy was just the first step, a tiny first step, but he finally took the first step, didn't he? I've waited for two lifetimes, it's really been a long time.
"Congratulations!" Tina Fey stepped forward, gave Renly a polite hug, took a half step back, showed a bright smile, and said sincerely again, "Congratulations!"
Renly took the trophy with both hands and looked at it carefully. The slender woman hugged an atom, and the winged muse soared freely in the flowing lights. The ultimatum from my parents a year ago, "stupid persistence" sounded in my mind, my emotions surged in an instant, and I was caught off guard. The golden trophy blurred my vision, casting a golden halo on the whole world.
Raising his head, in the hazy halo in front of him, the applause gradually fell back, but the dazzling stars were shining brightly. He opened his mouth, but the voice got stuck in his throat, and only a vague syllable was choked out. , The emotions were really too turbulent, and he slammed over it unreasonably. Even Ren Li himself was at a loss. The self-cultivation he had learned over the past 20 years had been losing ground at this moment, and his reason was completely disarmed and surrendered.
It's all too unfamiliar.
He thought he'd be sensible and calm, he thought he'd take it easy as a gentleman, he thought he'd take over with a sense of humour, he thought he'd take the award lightly and confidently, as if everything was expected middle. He thought he didn't care.
But imagination is always just imagination. When things really happen, when they are in it, all expectations are instantly shattered, just like a tornado coming, rampaging unreasonably, all common sense, all laws, all rules no longer work.
He retracted his right hand, the cold metal texture seemed to have been warmed by the heat in his palm, and the powerful heart beat violently against his chest, as if it would burst into flowers at any time, the erratic feeling of being lightly away from the ground makes people feel at a loss.
Taking a deep breath, "...this is really a surprise, and even more of an accident. I think I need time to calm down, or the snot will come out." Renly pretended to be easy to tease, but the thick nasal voice betrayed him at this moment. With suppressed tears, he couldn't help but chuckle, which was too embarrassing, and there was a burst of laughter from the audience.
"Al, sorry, I'm the one standing here." Renly looked at Al Pacino in the first row in front of him, nodded, and Al was amused by this sentence, shook his head, and raised his hand. He gave Renly a middle finger, and the guests nearby burst into laughter when they saw this scene, "Huh, I'm not quite sure what to say at this time, because my mind is completely blank, I even don't even know the name of the episode. I can’t even remember, God, I still have a lot of people to thank. I finally know why everyone has to write acceptance speeches in advance.”
There was a hint of sarcasm in the self-joking, and many guests whistled to express their agreement. The atmosphere at the scene was much warmer than expected, "Well... I'm not a genius." This was the only thing in Renly's mind at this time The voice came from George's cruel conclusion, he thought he didn't care, but deep down, it was like a nightmare, and it never disappeared, until today, "But I've been working hard." Renly's slightly trembling voice Gradually stabilized, the strong self-confidence returned to the chest, and the right hand could not help clenching tightly. The metal texture and heavy weight of the trophy slowly pulled down the erratic figure and stood on the ground again. .
The down-to-earth realism makes people feel stable.
"So, thank you Tom Hanks and Steven Spielberg for giving me the opportunity to do this show, thank you Rami, James and other actors for guiding me, and of course, thank you the Emmys for giving me this opportunity. I'm sure." With three simple words of thanks, but with an extraordinary weight, Renly finally understood why people's acceptance speeches were always so long, and they were always thanking a lot of names they didn't even know, because Behind the glamorous actors, there are a lot of behind-the-scenes heroes who have never been taken seriously.
The surging emotions made people feel a lot of emotion, "I still remember that when I was shooting the first scene, I was looking straight at the camera because of the focus error, which led to a mistake. It was a shameful mistake at the rookie level." Renly Luoluo's generous self-destruction made the guests at the scene stunned, and the "Pacific War" crew was already laughing, and everyone whistled and coaxed, which made Renly laugh outright.
Thinker
"You can imagine how hard the crew has to work to ensure the quality. So, here, there are really many people who must be thanked, but I decided to go back and express them one by one, because our crew is really too large, I'm not sure when I'll finish reading... I can already feel the director's sigh of relief." Renly's ridicule successfully made the audience applaud again - inadvertently, Renly complained that he won an award The lengthy question of the testimonials, this wit and humor, is really admirable, "So... thank you, thank you for letting Sisyphus know that dreams can still be realized after all."
After speaking, Renly took a half step back, nodded politely, and then turned around, looking for the exit to leave doubtfully. The emcee and Tina, who had been waiting behind, saw Renly look so dazed. , they both laughed, and the emcee came out first, guiding Renly and Tina off the stage.
Backstage, all the noise, all the buzz, all the lights seemed to dim, and people smiled politely and congratulated Renly, but that was about it. Tina patted Renly on the shoulder again and said with a smile, "Good job, enjoy tonight." Then she turned and left.
The joy of winning the award, the excitement of proving myself, the madness of realizing the first step of my dream... At this moment, I finally slowly fell back.
It's nothing more than the best actor trophy in the miniseries and TV movie departments, the Emmys are just the beginning, the "Pacific War" is just the beginning, no one will care but himself, because life goes on, work Continue, and continue to explore. On the road of acting, countless awards are still waiting ahead; more importantly, the road to study acting has nothing to do with awards, it is a contest between yourself and yourself, any slack will only stop in the exploration of art not forward.
Looking down at the trophy in his hand again, the joy remains the same, but Seng Pai has begun to return to calm. The excitement that was so overwhelming that he couldn't help himself gradually turned into a driving force for continuous efforts, and became a spur for continuous exploration. The experience of two lifetimes made him clearly understand that this award has strengthened his confidence and courage more and more. . No one can stop him, not even George and Elizabeth.
On the stage, the awards ceremony continues, and the major awards are finding their belongings one by one. However, the shocking follow-up has only just begun to ferment.
Every year, newcomers are born, and this year is no exception. However, this year's unpopularity is particularly eye-catching. It is not Bryan Cranston, who achieved three consecutive championships, or Jim Parsons, who won the first TV show. , not even the "Modern Family" that turned out, but the little-known Renly Hall who beat the popular Al Pacino.
wait, who is that? Everyone had the same doubt on their faces, "What did I miss?"