Drake started rummaging around the house, and eventually they did find a keyboard in the storage room, tucked away in a dusty black leather case that looked like it hadn't been touched in years , but when you open the holster, you can see that the keyboard inside is carefully wrapped with foam paper.
None of them knew the story behind this keyboard, but Renly couldn't help but wonder if there was a dream that was once sealed in this leather case, or a firm belief at the end of the bumps and bumps. still abandoned...
Sitting in front of the keyboard, looking at the bright black and white keys, his face could even be reflected, mixed thoughts surging gently in his mind.
Humans are really strange animals, aren't they? We have all believed in something firmly, and then overturned it with our own hands and re-established the belief, but then we found that this belief is still wrong, so we overthrew it again and rebuilt it again. Gradually, we became It has become a look that I don't know, or a look I once hated.
We can't help comforting ourselves that this is growth.
But the innocence of childhood and the persistence of youth are no longer to be found. Once, we firmly believed in dreams, freedom, and the future; once, we believed that our hands could change the world; once, we thought we were the center of the world; once, we were pure and real, as if no trace of impurities could be tolerated... In the end, all this Everything was annihilated in the occasion of the years, and then grew into a mediocre member of the turbulent crowd in the society, all the edges and corners disappeared, and thousands of people were one side.
Is this growth or death
His hands fell on the keyboard, and the ethereal and clear keyboard sound poured down like moonlight. The light musical symbols slowly spread in the lazy atmosphere of the afternoon. Suddenly, he looked out the window, only to find that the sky did not know when it was once again. Dark clouds covered it, and the whole world was plunged into a twilight gray.
"In the night you declared the end of everything, but you were just lost in the darkness."
The mellow and vicissitudes of voice curls up in the melody like smoke, hiding the fragility and confusion in it, just like the crystal teardrops hanging on the eyelashes, blurring the vision, but it never falls, the dazed loss makes the eyes lose. He focused and looked around with all his strength, the whole world fell into a dense light spot, colorful and colorful, colorful and colorful, but he couldn't find his goal, and the empty feeling in his heart began to slowly fall.
"Preset all your emotions and hope that brings solace; I don't want to keep climbing barriers, I don't want to keep breaking barriers. I don't know if I still believe (Believe), I don't know if I Still believe, I don't know if I still believe, everything you said to me."
Felicity only felt a tightness in her chest, as if a heavy punch had slammed into her. She was caught off guard, and tears of despair filled her eyes, so hot that she almost burned her cheeks. She opened her mouth wide, but couldn't let it out. With a little sound, he just froze in place, as if he could see his world falling apart with his own eyes.
They are themselves, they have built barriers between each other with their own hands, they have pushed each other out of their lives with their own hands, they have re-wrapped themselves with their own hands, gave up communication, gave up dialogue, and gave up trust at the same time, so , The hot and scorching heart began to gradually cool down.
She doesn't know if she still believes that they can continue to the end; he doesn't know if she still believes that their efforts are the right decision; she doesn't know if she still believes that their love can conquer everything; he doesn't know if she still believes , they still love each other deeply.
She didn't know, and neither did he. Beliefs and beliefs have collapsed, but they still don't know it.
This fact gripped her neck so hard that she could barely breathe. Tears were swirling in his eyes, but they couldn't fall. More terrifying than despair is their numbness. So, they can't go back after all, can they
"I have a strange feeling that the language of your words is not sincere, I'm tired of misunderstanding each other, is there any other explanation for this? I don't know if I still believe, I don't know if I still believe, I don't know if I still believe I still believe in everything you said to me."
Felicity covered her mouth, lest she make a bitter voice. What are they doing
She was accusing him of stealing, but what was she doing herself? She's accusing him of yelling, but didn't she start this war? She was complaining about his unwillingness to come and live in London, but wasn't he trying his best? She was complaining that the two were drifting apart, but wasn't the first mistake her own
She didn't want this, she really didn't want that, those words weren't true, those accusations, those anger, those complaints, those exhaustion, were not true. She just... She just... She just doesn't know if she should keep believing.
"Then open my eyes and tell myself I'm kidding myself, we can't go any further, if I have to guess what's going on in your head."
Felicity opened her mouth and tried to say something, but found that all the words were stuck in her throat, her mind was blank, and she couldn't say a word. She wanted to tell him that she still loved him deeply. , she still dreams of a life that belongs to them, she still thinks that they can overcome all difficulties, she still believes that their happiness is each other, she still believes firmly, she still believes...
However, the words were stuck in her throat like this, stunned in place, unable to make a sound at all, she could only shake her head vigorously, and shook her head vigorously in denial.
"Say something, say something, even if it's 'I love you'; unless you want to turn away from this annoying noise."
In that passionate and galloping melody, that sad and painful cry completely defeated all of Felicity's lines of defense. She hugged her head with both hands and cried silently. "I love you, I love you, I love you..." She really liked to love him, but she pushed him further and further with her own hands. After the pain reached its extreme, she could hardly breathe.
She was like skydiving in the night sky, falling slowly, falling continuously, gravity pulled her down wildly, and the free fall sprint made her whole body sound the alarm, but she was indifferent, just let it go Continuing to fall, the possibility of being shattered, fragile and hopeless, actually brought a trace of joy/sense.
Then, she landed like this.
"I don't know if I still believe, I don't know if I still believe, I don't even know if I want to believe, everything you said to me."
"I don't even know if I want to believe it." That sadness to the extreme questioned her and pulled her into the bottom of the ocean. The huge impact of the free fall made her quickly surrounded by icy sea water. Bit by bit, the biting darkness devoured her flesh and blood, and even her soul began to feel the grief of the broken heart.
How on earth did they get to this point? Wouldn't things have been different if the time went back? Is it pointless to keep on going? Why are they quarreling and why are they insisting
She opened her eyes again, and in a trance, she became Anna, looking at Jacob's lonely back, unable to know what to do; she became Felicity again, looking at Renly's focused profile, sad From her heart; she became Anna, at a loss listening to the melody under Renly's fingertips; she became Felicity again, listening to Jacob's sighs and tears.
"Then open my eyes and tell myself I'm kidding myself, we can't go any further, if I have to guess what's going on in your head."
The golden musical symbols are jumping wantonly in the air, sad but gentle, painful but helpless, desperate but dazed, the faint emotion firmly grasps everyone's heart, in the mellow and slightly hoarse voice. Fermented, dense, lingering, the questioning voice is more like asking oneself, the bitter and lost taste slowly faints on the tip of the tongue, but the exciting and cheerful melody seems to be the marching march of the carnival, reflecting the ubiquitous The loneliness and loneliness, dragging his ankles and starting to fall, kept falling.
Before the brain realized it, the tears broke through the defense line of the eye socket and slid down embarrassingly.
They got it, everyone got it. This is the story of Jacob and Anna, and it is the story of every two people who truly love each other but are separated from each other. Even if you love each other, you may not be able to reach the end.
No one can be an exception, as if surrounded by the melody, carefully savoring every emotion in the song, like a bard who has experienced vicissitudes of life, seeing through the world, through the world, through life, but with a hint of indifference in the sigh, No yelling, no crying, no ups and downs, just humming the helplessness and sadness in the heart, but easily penetrated the defense line and defeated everyone's softness.
Drake has completely collapsed, standing on the spot, shoulders slumped, like a lost child, crying helplessly, no matter how he can't stop. He knew that they had missed it, and after all, he had missed the woman he had loved all his life and would continue to love.
The melody stopped, everyone turned their cheeks away, and wiped their tears in embarrassment. Before the tears could be wiped away, the eyes were blurred again.
Note: Believe in Belief (Believe—Mumford & Sons)
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