"Renly, I need to go back to Manhattan."
Matthew calmly explained his decision, not asking for opinions, but announcing the results. He couldn't continue this nonsense. His patience has reached the limit. Zach said "no" to Renly.
At this time, it was already afternoon.
All morning, they were busy running, returning from New Jersey to New York, and from New York to New Jersey:
First traveled to Brooklyn to buy some paintings by local artists, then scouted the flea market in Queens; lunch was settled on Long Island, and according to the "Lonely Planet" guide, they found an authentic Cuban family restaurant and tasted Locally made beef—
During this period, I also met a few guys who were suspected to be smugglers, and mistakenly thought they were "guests". Although the misunderstanding was quickly clarified and no further accidents were caused, there is a high probability that it should be Italians selling smuggled cigars. Once involved , things may be more troublesome.
Then he went back to a second-hand furniture market in New Jersey again, and after nearly two hours of wandering, he returned to Manhattan.
No, on the way home, Renly changed his mind again and was going to continue north, heading for Boston.
Matthew realized that things had to end here.
Renly turned his head and looked at Matthew carefully. He could sense Matthew's emotions on the verge of eruption. Even in the silence, he could feel the heavy low pressure blowing towards his face, but Renly still didn't ask, just Nodding his head, he said obediently, "Okay. I see."
Matthew breathed a sigh of relief.
"Then you can put me down here, I can hitch a ride all the way to Boston." Renly said calmly, even with a look of anticipation, "I was going to try hitting the road before, this is the most interesting road trip in America. part, hippies do it, and now it’s finally time to try it out.”
Matthew turned his head to look at Renly, but got no response, which made him grit his teeth secretly, and without saying anything, he turned the steering wheel and pulled over to stop.
Renly opened the car door, left the passenger seat neatly, and waved at Matthew, "The work is going well, remember not to work overtime tonight."
With that, Renly closed the door, then turned and started walking.
Matthew ignored Renly, released the handbrake, and walked away.
Anger was bubbling in the blood vessels, and the emotions intertwined with irritability and annoyance were burning fiercely. Suppressed and suppressed, controlled and controlled, but failed in the end; raised his head, glanced in the rearview mirror, and then he could see that Renly really raised his hand to stop the car on the side of the road.
The problem is that the direction is wrong -
He was about to go to the north, but he was facing the south at this time, and the road did not change sides. Even people who couldn't tell the difference between east, west, north and west still wanted to ride along the road? Or is he going to see what it's like to read tomorrow's headlines saying "Renly Hall was thrown into the wilderness"
Damn it!
God damn it!
Damn it!
Matthew slammed on the brakes hard, put in reverse, backed all the way, and came back to Renly's side, stopped, and opened the passenger's window.
"The opposite direction!"
Renly wondered why, "What?"
"You should go to the other side of the road. The opposite direction is to Boston. This is the direction back to Manhattan." Matthew had to explain aloud.
"Oh. Thank you." Renly said briskly with a realization, then looked from side to side, ready to cross the road.
"The Guard is Here"
Patience Patience Patience.
But Matthew couldn't bear it any longer. He opened the door and walked straight down. All the anger erupted like a volcano.
"why?"
Matthew said in a loud voice, which made Renly stop, and he just stared at Renly, "Why are you deliberately provoking me today?"
"According to the itinerary, aren't you flying to Los Angeles today? The music festival will start tomorrow, but what are you doing in New York as the organizer? Isn't this what you have been waiting for? You should arrive at the scene, that is The result of the condensed efforts of countless people."
At the beginning, his voice was still calm, just explaining his irritability, but as he spoke, his emotions completely lost control without warning.
"Why are you directing me to do these pointless stupid things? You know I have a job! I have a morning meeting! I have an important meeting waiting! I still have a lot of work to do! You should support me , Renly, you should support me more than anyone, why? Why are you challenging my bottom line like this today? You shouldn't use me over and over again."
After speaking, Matthew turned around and walked towards the driver's seat, opened the door, and was about to sit in, but after thinking about it, he couldn't help but go back.
"You shouldn't be so headstrong, Sebastian! You should know that I won't be with you forever, I won't! Neither will Rooney! Neither will Edith and Arthur! One day, We'll all leave! We'll all die! In the end, you're all alone!"
"You should learn to take care of yourself, understand? You should... You should learn to organize your life, you can't always put your hope in someone else! We can't accommodate you forever, understand? Even Rooney, even me , we have no obligation to accommodate you forever. We also have our own lives, we also have our own difficulties, we also have our own setbacks and pains, and we will all leave in the end.”
"What if... what if Paul and Heather did leave? What if I disappeared tomorrow? What about you? What should you do?"
"You can't... Sebastian, you can't... You can't put all your trust in us, you're going to get hurt, we're going to get hurt, and you've got to rely on yourself. You can't just rush into me so unreasonably. office, then ruin my meetings, ruin my day."
"I… we're not going to stand still forever."
Matthew, out of control.
He was completely out of control like this, yelling like a child, without logic or thinking, repeating words that he didn't understand over and over again, the slightly trembling voice revealed his pain and struggle. , red eyes full of despair bitterness.
"But I'll always stand where I am." Renly was not embarrassed, not only not angry or embarrassed, but also showed a shallow smile.
Matthew looked at Renly and shook his head slightly, "No, you won't, neither will I, no one will. You shouldn't make a promise you can't keep, Sebastian, you're more than that. Smart, you know it never exists, you can't believe the promise yourself."
Shallow tears blurred his vision, but Matthew took a deep breath and all the tears disappeared completely, refusing to surrender to the weakness, "Heather won't come back, she'll never come back, understand? You didn't either. way to change the facts, so you shouldn't make that promise."
Renly nodded slightly, "I know."
Matthew stood where he was and looked at Renly quietly, all the irritability and anger slowly subsided, replaced by sadness and helplessness, the fragility in his eyes was trembling slightly, and he silently sent out to Renly The signal, finally, whispered, "Sebastian, I need help."
"I know." Renly said softly again, "So, I'm here." Renly met Matthew's line of sight and called out softly, "Charles, I've always been here, never left, just Just like you."
Matthew could feel the warmth in Ren Li's eyes. He slowly closed his eyes, covering up his embarrassment and embarrassment, but all the disguises were falling apart, and he couldn't hold on any longer. Power jerked him out of the dark self-pity.
Then he was forced to start looking at his wounds.
Haight Wesley, passed away.
The Dunlop housekeeper, Haight Wesley, died of a heart attack three days ago in his sleep.
Alexander brought it up this morning when Renly called Alexander Hamilton at Newark Airport to thank him - Henry Dunlop and Alexander brought it up and he called Matthew to ask if Matthew would like to return London attends Haight's funeral, but Matthew refuses.
"Because there is still work at hand, please express my condolences to the Wesley family on my behalf." These are Matthew's original words, but Henry is obviously not satisfied with Matthew's perfunctory.
Originally, Renly needed to go to Los Angeles today, and then drive to Indio, because the Herald Village Music Festival was about to officially open tomorrow; but after learning the news, Renly canceled his ticket, turned around and returned to New York, the first time Went to Matthew's law firm.
Because Renly knew something wasn't right—
Matthew didn't talk to him about Haight, or even talk to him; Matthew didn't return to London, burying himself in the heavy lifting.
Ma Jiu is escaping reality.
Renly had experienced it himself, and he knew exactly what kind of emotion it was.
So, Renly took the initiative to pull Matthew to keep running, trying to get Matthew out of the paralysis of work, trying to keep Matthew busy and forgetting those sorrows temporarily, and most importantly, trying to get Matthew to open up. willing to face oneself. He knew that Matthew needed his company.
Matthew just stood there, his whole brain was like a mess, countless thoughts were intertwined, and he couldn't think because of the deep exhaustion.
Slowly reopening his eyes, Matthew saw Renly standing not far away again, looking around the road carefully, which reassured him a little, but he was not ready for the time being, and he didn't want to discuss The elephant in the room didn't know what to discuss.
"What's next? Are you really going to Boston?" Matthew asked, his voice a little hoarse, and he felt tired from the bottom of his heart.
"Maybe we don't have to go to Boston, I think it's good nearby, there's a hiking trail there, and we can go exploring." Renly really took off.
Matthew was stunned and looked down at his leather shoes, not knowing how to respond.