The buzzing sound echoed in my ears, the plane took off slowly and left JFK Airport, and the steel forest under my feet was criss-crossed; the blue Hudson River flowed quietly, like sedimentation. Like a glacier for hundreds of millions of years, Manhattan Island is surrounded by circles, isolated and isolated from the whole world.
The bitterness and desolation of winter spread slowly under the blue-gray buildings and the gray-blue sky. The imprint of this city is always so vivid and profound. When I live here, I always want to leave; when I leave, I start to miss it again.
Today, Renly left New York and headed to Seattle for the filming of "My Cancer Me".
It was originally scheduled to attend the Gotham Independent Film Awards this weekend, but the plan couldn't keep up with the changes, and the unexpected situation caused Renly to miss the ceremony after all.
For this, Renly personally called the main committee to express apology and regret.
The main committee of the Gotham Independent Film Festival is quite surprised. They are not the Golden Globe Awards or the Oscars, and their influence is very limited. There are not a few guests who are absent every year. The best thing is that the agent sends an email to express I'm sorry, more cases are silently absent. Renly's solemn and thoughtful gesture showed enough respect.
Not only that, but it was all the more sympathetic when the main committee learned that Renly had to be absent for another indie production.
In the end, Paul replaced Renly at the awards ceremony on Saturday night and took the stage to receive the Breakthrough Actor of the Year Award -
The results of the awards were announced as early as a week before the awards ceremony. Renly defeated Jennifer Lawrence by an absolute advantage with his wonderful performance in "Buried Alive", and won the recognition of the independent film industry again.
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Absent from the Gotham Awards is indeed quite embarrassing for Renly; but sitting on the plane, his mind has already entered the state of performance, or, in other words, the state of memory.
"Anti-Cancer Me" and "Transcendence" are two completely different works, not in terms of movie style, subject matter, genre, etc., but in the way of acting, especially Renly's.
So far, Renly has appeared in four works, each with its own strengths and challenges, but one thing is certain: he has been exploring the fusion of expressionism and method.
How to find an accurate balance between out of control and control, between explosion and convergence, between devotion and objectivity, between madness and rationality, not only to interpret the role, not only to dedicate performance, but also to serve the role Injecting a clear and full tension, let the characters and the story play a complementary role, or integrate a unique and profound personality into the character, leaving his personal imprint.
This is not an easy task.
Now Renly goes back to look at his previous four works, especially the three that have already come out, all of which are flawed to varying degrees. If he did it again, it would be more mature and the details would be different.
"The Pacific War" is too restrained, more delicate, and less explosive, and the character lacks a power that bursts out in an instant with a clenched fist.
"Buried Alive" is too free. After some emotional details are deliberately enlarged, it increases the drama, but it also appears slightly distorted, and the traces of carving become obvious.
"Love Crazy" is too devoted, and his own personal characteristics are gradually blurred. At some moments, the shadow of Derek Doremus can be seen, and the recognition is slightly lacking.
Of course, Renly also knew that on the road of acting, he was just getting started. , Honestly and sincerely polishing the skills, this is the only way.
Therefore, Renly also realized that he was a little too hasty. Running has not learned to adjust breathing, has already begun to think about flying. In just one year of becoming an actor, he has achieved a lot of achievements, but he can also see the urgency accumulated in two lifetimes, eager to prove himself, eager to realize his dream, eager to upgrade his strength, but this is putting the cart before the horse. , ignoring the solidity of the basic skills.
This is also one of the important reasons why Renly did not hesitate to take over the script of "Transcendence".
"Separation" can be regarded as Renly's graduation examination, which really allows Renly to strip away all the chores and return to the stage of formal school study.
Starting from the basics, learn how to analyze the expression of each emotion, as well as the beginnings and turns of emotions, in-depth gradual changes, rich layers, and explosion and convergence; return to the basic skills of lines, expressions, eyes, and body, and truly integrate the ten aspects of expressionism. Eight kinds of martial arts are taken out and polished.
It is foreseeable that this will be a formidable challenge. For any actor to put his performance under a magnifying glass for review, this is an extremely terrifying thing, and no mistakes are allowed.
The "anti-cancer me" is the other extreme. It can be said to be a new and unfamiliar field, but it is a familiar field that is accustomed to: method acting.
The reason why it is unfamiliar is that Renly has never really studied the system of method acting, let alone signed up for method training courses in the United States or Russia, and studied it systematically. In method acting, Renly doesn't know how to study the characters, analyze the script, and expand the background. He can only rely on his own understanding and guesswork to complete it.
But what Renly can be sure of is that the most important thing about methodical acting is to put yourself in the shoes, put yourself in the character's shoes, and re-examine the world—or at least the world constructed in the script.
That's why it's familiar.
In the story of "I'm Fighting Cancer," Renly is going to play himself, at least as he was, or a part of who he was. It doesn't take any effort for Renly to resonate with the characters and empathize with them.
This means that in the process of performance, the boundary between reality and fantasy does not actually exist.
But the problem is, this is not Chu Jiashu's story, this is not Will-Riesel's story, this is Adam's story, even if the script is based on life, it is still a movie's story, the details and The plot is bound to deviate from life. Therefore, the boundary between reality and fantasy must exist.
How to devote himself to it, how to tell a story in the midst of madness, how to avoid turning Adam into a Chu Jiashu... Needless to say, this was an unimaginably daunting challenge for Renly.
Renly wanted to hone his basic skills, and now, he had the best chance.
One work is the pinnacle of expressionism, and the other is the pinnacle of method school. Before trying to combine these two performance methods, Renly won the opportunity to finely polish each of them. Think about it, experience it. When both skills are mature, perhaps Renly will have a very different experience, a glimpse into the higher realms of the acting world.
Looking out the window, the gradually becoming smaller New York City is like a toy city, like the artificially created virtual society in "Truman's World". This made Renly gradually detached from reality and entered a wonderfully illusory state, the unreal sense of drama surging in his mind.
When he opened his eyes, the first thing that woke up his brain was not vision, but hearing. There were all kinds of noisy sounds in his ears, including angry cursing, irritable nagging, and sad voices. Sobbing, all the sounds were mixed together, making people unable to distinguish them clearly, they just felt that they were in a place that was not like a vegetable market but was like a vegetable market.
Then, he heard the doctor's explanation, the explanation of the car accident, the explanation of the operation, the explanation of the current situation... A lot of babble, in fact, he didn't hear it, it was as if he was sitting in a big bubble Inside, some sights can be seen, but they are all haloed; some sounds can be heard, but they seem to have inaudible echoes.
Out of the corner of his eyes, he saw Ding Yanan's figure standing at the end of the bed.
The hair, which was usually neatly combed, became messy. There were some messy strands of hair on both sides of the cheeks, and the bun was loose, but there was no time to fix it; the right hand covered the mouth, covering most of the expression, covering up his own hair. True emotions; the thin shoulders stood up stubbornly and strongly, but the heavy despair was so overwhelming that the shoulders could hardly be supported.
There are also those eyes, bloodshot eyes, the tears that have just been wiped are still wet, and the sadness and pain in the depths are overwhelming, and you can even see the whole world disintegrating.
Then, he heard the doctor's words, "High paralysis."
He's not a medical student, but he still understands the term, he knows what it means, but he doesn't feel any real sense, instead he's still thinking about other trivial things.
The first thought that popped into my head at that time was, "What about the interview? I missed that interview today, do you want to call and apologize? Otherwise, it would be too rude."
After a long time, he suddenly felt a burst of urination and wanted to get up to go to the toilet, but before his body could move, he started urinating. The sudden shame hit him hard, he tried to struggle, tried to control, but found it was all in vain, and then he was stunned.
He was so stupidly stunned, it seemed that even the operation of his brain had stopped, he just stayed in place, all the sounds, all the colors, all the dynamics disappeared, the world escaped into chaos, only The feeling of shame that swept from the soles of the feet to the forehead was suffocating.
He moved his fingers, but he didn't feel it; he moved his calf, but he still didn't feel it. He began to struggle, struggling desperately, as if his body was bound by five flowers, struggling with all his strength, trying to break free, but his body did not respond at all. That kind of panic began to spread in the limbs.