He could clearly feel every muscle in his body, blood flowing under his skin, and nerves filling every corner of his body, but he completely lost control. Except for his eyeballs, no matter how he struggled, No matter how hard he exerted his strength, no matter how he resisted, he remained motionless.
It was as if the brain and the body were completely disconnected.
He felt as if he was a package, tightly bound and airtight. He couldn't even do the simple movement of twisting his neck, and was thrown into the lake directly.
The ice-cold lake water began to drill down along the pores, the temperature of the body began to drop little by little, the air remaining in the lungs began to disappear little by little, and the light around the sight began to dim little by little. The calm lake water, without any waves or undercurrents, could clearly feel the traces of the water flowing gently over his fingertips, but he couldn't move at all.
The lungs began to burn, and the brain began to crash because of the lack of oxygen. Suddenly, he realized that he was paralyzed from a high position.
He can still feel the presence of his body and limbs, but he can't control them to make any movements; he can still feel the call of his body's instincts, but he can't control the movement of any muscles; he can still feel the existence of the world, but only Can watch. This is not a joke.
No anger, no fear, no panic, no sadness, no pain... and no despair.
He just lay there quietly, just stunned. Time and space seemed to have lost their meaning, he knew what it meant, and he didn't know what it meant. The chaos and confusion at that moment made him lose the ability to react.
Renly originally thought that the memory had become blurred, and it was already a matter of a previous life.
After ten years in the hospital bed, he has long been used to that state, as if his soul is bound in a fist-sized Rubik's cube. No matter how hard he struggles, his world is only so big. Enjoy freedom. The only way to do this is through movies, to give wings to ideas and to soar freely. This has become the norm of life.
But reawakening the memory, the details in the back of my mind resurfaced, vivid and vivid, it seems that it has never been forgotten, and it has never been really used. That kind of dazed emptiness, that kind of overwhelmed stunned, that kind of stupefied daze, is still so real.
Ren Li widened his eyes and looked straight ahead. There was only a large piece of white in his line of sight. It seemed to spread from every corner, slowly surging over, eating away every inch of the surrounding space, and even devouring his body. Fingers, feet, wrists, ankles... The incomparably slow process had an unstoppable momentum. He tried to struggle, but to no avail.
Hands, feet, body, head, all parts lost consciousness, not even the fingertips.
The moment of panic was swallowed up by confusion, and Renly didn't even have time to think: what the hell was going on, wasn't he on a plane to Seattle? Has he not been born again? Didn't he realize his dream? Hasn't he got rid of the troubles of memories? Wait, is this the "Buried Alive" shooting scene, or is this "I'm fighting cancer"
All these question marks just flashed by, and a sound came from the ear, from far to near, there was only a rustling wind in the last second, and the next second it exploded like a thunder on the eardrum. "Sir, are you all right?"
Turning his head sharply, his head regained his freedom. Renly blinked subconsciously, adjusted his sitting position, and then saw the flight attendant standing by the aisle, with a polite smile on her face, However, it was slightly stiff, and there was a trace of undisguised worry in his eyes.
Renly twitched the corners of his mouth, his facial muscles stiffened. "It's fine. I'm fine."
I just lost my mind just now, awakening the memory of the previous life, and instantly fell into the rut of memory again. The sense of substitution is really too real and too turbulent. It doesn't need to be like the last "buried alive", and it is almost effortless to experience that emotion again.
He thought he had forgotten all about it. sincerely.
The flight attendant looked at Ren Li's face carefully. Although there was a faint sweat on his forehead, his eyes had calmed down, and the aura around him seemed to have calmed down. Maybe, just had a nightmare. Since Renly said it was all right, she didn't ask any further questions.
"Sorry to interrupt your rest, Renly, I personally enjoyed your performance in 'The War in the Pacific'. I wonder if you can sign my autograph for me." The flight attendant said cautiously, in fact, it was against airline policy , but as long as the consent of the guests is obtained, the purser will turn a blind eye.
Renly twitched the corners of his mouth again, this time successfully sketching a small smile, "Of course, it's my pleasure."
The other party showed a big smile, lowered his voice and said, "Thank you so much." Then he took out the napkin and carbon pen that had been prepared earlier, his eyes flashed with excitement, and he could hardly contain himself. "Congratulations on winning the award at Sundance. My friends and I are very much looking forward to that work."
Renly had regained his composure at this time, and his thoughts had calmed down again. He quickly signed his name on the napkin and asked at the same time, "Who is this for?"
"Betty. Betty is fine." The other party's voice was trembling slightly.
After signing the autograph, Renly handed back the napkin and carbon pen, and said with a smile, "Miss Betty, thank you for your support. I hope you won't be disappointed after watching 'Crazy Love'."
The gentleman's decent words were also a little ridiculed, and the flight attendant burst into laughter, but in order not to disturb other passengers, she had to keep her mouth shut, which caused her shoulders to tremble slightly. She nodded vigorously at Renly, "Don't worry, I won't be disappointed."
Immediately afterwards, she took a half step back, smiling and reminding kindly, "The plane is ready to land, and we will arrive at the destination in fifteen minutes at most. I hope you have a good trip this time." A gleam of light flashed in his eyes.
Renly didn't answer, just closed his chin with a smile, he could feel the admiration and admiration in the eyes of the flight attendant, and he believed that as long as he spoke, tonight's date would be settled. However, Renly wasn't in the mood right now, so he politely ignored the other's suggestion.
The flight attendant was slightly disappointed, but she nodded and turned to leave.
Renly turned his head, and there were still layers of white clouds outside the window. Occasionally, through the gaps, you could see the city scene below. The towering clouds of New York were missing, and the gray and gloomy New York was missing. Absolute green makes people relaxed and happy. Renly's thoughts settled down slowly, no longer turbulent, no longer exciting, no longer boiling, just gently falling.
People always imagine that when they get big news, terminal illness, death, madness, emotional ups and downs, dramatic ups and downs. But this is not the case. After the message is delivered to the brain, the first response is a lack of realism.
Just like everyone else.
There are always countless "others" in life. When disaster and bad luck befall others, it always feels like it happened to others. A child is orphaned because his parents were in a car accident, a student He chose to end his own life because of school violence, and an office worker died suddenly at his desk because he stayed up late to work overtime... Those are the stories of other people, which are heart-wrenching, but never feel the pain.
However, when bad luck befalls me, I become "other people" in the eyes of other people, and the sense of distortion is like a free fall, falling instantly and at a loss. No emotional breakdowns, no dramatic outbursts, just confusion, and dazed—
What's going on here
When Renly first learned that he was paralyzed in a high position, he was stunned. There was no absurdity, no fear, just stunned, until the sense of reality slowly penetrated into the skin, cold and sharp, before the mind started to work again - or, it was Chu Jiashu who experienced it all, like this more accurate.
At first, he had no idea what high paralysis meant.
It's not that he doesn't understand the term, or that he doesn't know his situation - he knows he can't move, he knows he has to rely on others to survive, he knows his life comes to an abrupt end at this moment; and That is to say, he can't really feel how much such a drastic change has affected his life.
Those changes, in the process of life, seep out bit by bit. A look, a conversation, a staggered line of sight, these indescribable little details change life beyond recognition.
Then, at a certain moment, the sense of reality finally completed the acceptance, and the pain and despair suddenly exploded, and even I couldn't bear it.
Was it the same when Will Rissel first learned that he was diagnosed with the disease? Adam in the script, isn't that the case? If it was Renly instead of Chu Jiashu, would it be different when faced with the same situation
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Ren Li stared at the scenery outside the window. The green color gradually increased. The emerald green shrouded in the mist and rain stretched along the beautiful river. Emerald green, drop blue, indigo, and smoke gray, like an ink painting, in the clear water. The bottom of the spring water is densely opened.
The undulating city horizon reveals a graceful and soft temperament. The serene, far-reaching, delicate and elegant landscape is like a girl in a water town in the south of the Yangtze River, wearing a cheongsam, holding a paper umbrella, and walking through the drizzle. I haven't seen the face yet, but time has stopped at the edge of the umbrella.
Seattle, here we go.