Nothing in eternity will change.
Chi Yan gradually got used to this kind of life, and didn't even pay attention to the numbers on the timer for a long time. It's hard to define whether it's a good or bad life, where he can get everything he wants, except for one thing - close at hand, but not asking for it.
Not not to give, but not to.
Chi Yan still maintains the habit of being an ordinary person. According to the timer, he defines day and night for his own area, and even distinguishes the changes of the four seasons of the year.
One day he passed the timer and suddenly found that the number below the unit representing "year" had become five digits.
He has been here, by Ye Yingzhi's side, for tens of thousands of years. If he were in the human world, he would have gone through a hundred reincarnations.
"Ye Yingzhi." He called the name softly, calling him, "Where are you?"
"You should know." The voice returned to him, still calm, "In my domain, I am everywhere."
"I want to see you."
"You are seeing me now."
"It's not like this..." Chi Yan reached out and touched the air in front of him, with a hint of sadness in his tone, "I want to touch you." I want to hug you, kiss you, and... become one with you.
There is no air in Ye Yingzhi's domain, there is nothing there. These humanoids are found only in the region of the late feast.
His black eyes were filled with things that Ye Yingzhi couldn't understand. But he somehow wanted to erase those things, he didn't want to see Chi Yan like this, he wanted him to be happy.
But he didn't know what to do.
Finally he said: "You come out, come outside."
Chi Yan didn't know what he meant, but he still obediently came into the darkness outside.
The moment Fang stepped into the darkness, a light force lifted him up. Chi Yan only felt that she was flying like a fly, and she was being held up, breaking through the layers of darkness, and finally reaching a height that she had never reached before.
Leaning forward and below from here, what appeared in front of him was a majestic and flickering "star river".
The dazzling galaxy is slowly "flowing" forward. If you look closely, you can find that in fact, countless bright planetesimals on the strip area are moving forward in the same direction. Because there are too many planetesimals, a band of light is formed. It even gives the illusion that it is a river of light.
And these "stars" are not really twinkling, they just look like twinkling stars. Once they go out, they never come on again. But while the old stars go out, there are always new ones that light up in the band of light.
Every moment the old stars go out, and every moment a new star lights up. From his perspective, it is like a symphony of incomparably magnificent and majestic light.
Chi Yan had never seen such a magnificent scene before, and was stunned for a while.
Until Ye Yingzhi's voice sounded beside him: "This is the World River. Those that are lit are the world that exists, and the world will dim when it dies."
Every "star child" is a world.
Every moment the old world is destroyed, and every moment a new world is born.
They are here, and they have actually witnessed the birth and destruction of countless worlds.
Chi Yan froze completely. An unparalleled intensity of sadness and hopelessness that had never occurred in ten thousand years suddenly struck him.
Sitting beside him, standing at his angle, he saw everything in his eyes for the first time.
Inexhaustible creatures, billions of worlds, in his eyes, are just like mayflies, dying day by day.
Everything is fleeting, only he is eternal.
At this moment, Chi Yan suddenly felt disheartened and exhausted both physically and mentally.
He has always firmly believed that human beings are the most tenacious and persistent creatures in all existence. The sea can be flat and the mountain can be moved. As long as there is enough time, there is nothing impossible. And what he lacked most was time. As long as he is always by his side, as long as he keeps waiting, one day he will wait, and one day he will turn around. As long as there is a glimmer of hope, whether it is ten years or a hundred years, a thousand years, or a million years, he is willing. Be here with him, wait for him, guard him. Sweet as candy.
But he was wrong.
From the very beginning, what he fell in love with was a being that would never respond, would never love.
an eternal existence.
"Don't you like it?" He heard Ye Yingzhi ask him, in his usual flat tone.
"I like it." Chi Yan replied softly, slowly lowered his head and lowered his eyes.
Although he said he liked it, Ye Yingzhi could also feel that the human being in front of him was even lower - his black eyes looked sad. He was more and more at a loss, not knowing what to do or say, and he was afraid that, like this time, he would end up being self-defeating. So he didn't say anything.
Beside the flickering World River, he heard Chi Yan whisper, "I like you."
"What?" he asked.
"Ye Yingzhi... I love you."
"… what is love?"
"It's just that I want to be with you forever." It's that I want to get you.
The human smiled, lowered his head, and said nothing.
The eternal evil saw something very bright in Chi Yan's eyes, something brighter than the bright world flashed past, and it dimmed in an instant.
He has witnessed the demise of countless worlds, but he has never regretted them or felt pity. But he looked at Chi Yan's darkened eyes, but he couldn't help but want them to light up again - looking at him as brightly, intently, and expectantly as before.
But Chi Yan never looked happy after that. His eyes always seemed to be covered with a layer of light fog, making Ye Yingzhi unable to see what he was thinking. He doesn't understand human emotions. He didn't even understand why he wanted to understand human emotions.
All he could say was, "Of course you can stay with me forever. Like now."
Chi Yan smiled and shook his head.
*****
One day Chi Yan suddenly asked him again to take him to the World River.
Reflecting the shimmering light in the World River, Chi Yan turned his head and said softly, "Ye Yingzhi, can you send me back to the world's reincarnation?"
He can't see the master of this domain, but he can feel the other side by his side.
Perhaps some of human's ideas have really approached the true meaning of the world. In Buddhism, it is said that people have three reincarnations, the present, the past, and the future. Everything that is experienced in the present is the present life, everything in the past is the past life, and the reincarnation that has not yet been experienced in the future is the future life.
Chi Yan knew a similar situation. Endless creatures have a divine soul, and the divine soul is immortal, and they have been reincarnating in these billions of worlds, until one day the divine soul is wiped out and completely disappears.
He was originally just the most common creature in this billions of worlds. He was born as a human, and he lived for only a hundred years and reincarnated for no more than ten lifetimes. The soul can exist in the world river for a thousand years at most, and eventually disappear like all living beings. The body is like a mayfly, dying in the morning and evening.
How lucky he was to enter this absolute eternity and meet Ye Yingzhi.
A question once asked, if Jack had known the final outcome in Titanic, would he have chosen to win the ticket and board the giant ship.
Chi Yan did not know. He only knew that he never regretted falling in love with Ye Yingzhi, and even now he couldn't help but love Ye Yingzhi.
It's just this love, so hopeless.
Forever and forever, in eternity, waiting for the lover you want most but never get.
He was originally a human being in that reincarnation, so let him return to wherever he came from.
"Yes." Ye Yingzhi answered without any hesitation. After a moment of hesitation, he said, "...Why are you leaving?"
"It's too lonely here." Chi Yan's mouth raised a shallow arc, "Ye Yingzhi, I'm too lonely." It's too lonely to wait for you like this.
"Can you take me away?" he asked again.
"Okay." Ye Yingzhi replied without hesitation. Chi Yan said he was lonely, but he didn't know what loneliness was at all. He watched human beings sink a little bit in his own field, but there was nothing he could do. All he can do is fulfill every human desire.
Hearing the calm and decisive answer, Chi Yan's eyes darkened, and then a wry smile appeared. What else does he wish for? Do you expect Ye Yingzhi to keep herself
He smiled and raised his head: "Ye Yingzhi, before I leave, can I hug you again?"
"why?"
"… Because I love you."
Chi Yan saw a translucent human-shaped silhouette appearing in front of him, the same as what he saw back then. He smiled again, walked up and put his arms around the other's neck, burying himself deeply in the other's arms.
Last time.
I love you.
Even if my soul dies one day, I will love you to the end of eternity.
I love you forever.
Chi Yan let go of Ye Yingzhi and took a step back in the direction of the World River.
The human figure in front of him raised his hand towards him: "I will attach my breath to your soul to protect you. But every time you experience a reincarnation, my breath and your soul will be consumed, and in the end your soul will change. Get very weak until it disappears... Until then, remember to come back."
"it is good."
The human figure lay on its back and slowly fell towards the World River. Chi Yan could feel that the bright and dazzling light spots behind him were getting closer and closer to him, while the endless darkness was getting further and further away from him. He slowly fell to the radiant galaxy, and he couldn't help reaching out to the darkness - even in the end, he was still expecting, expecting that the existence in eternity would reach out and take him Pull back.
Seeing Chi Yan falling towards the World River, Ye Yingzhi couldn't help but stretched out his invisible hand to him - when he didn't even understand why he stretched out his hand. But just before he was about to touch a human, he retracted his hand. He only whispered in the direction where Chi Yan disappeared:
"You can enjoy the warmth of family, you can pursue career success, you can appreciate the value of friendship... You can get everything you deserve. But you can never fall in love with anyone, your heart can only be opened for me. "
Because you said you love me.
You said that love is to be with me forever.
What he says officially becomes the rule in reincarnation.
What a domineering, selfish and unreasonable rule; a rule for one person only. When he didn't even understand what love was.
He doesn't know how to love, but he already knows how to possess.
However, the fact is often because of love, will want to have.