"Don't you feel... lonely?"
"What is loneliness?" the voice asked him back.
"It's just a person, very lonely, very lonely."
"No," the voice said, "I don't know what this feeling is, and I don't feel it either."
…
Now he finally realized this feeling, but after that person left.
There will no longer be another voice calling him, and no other figure will exist in his domain - the sky, land and sea created by that person are still standing there, so out of tune with the surrounding darkness, But the master who created them is gone.
Humanity fell into reincarnation, but left eternity alone to loneliness—loneliness never experienced.
Before realizing love, he first realized what loneliness and loneliness is.
He tried to leave his realm, leave eternity, and wander among countless worlds.
He tried to understand the life that person once had, tried to integrate into it, and let this endless life resolve the boundless loneliness.
His consciousness travels through all living beings, watching the various forms of life, watching the neon flashing, watching the tea, rice, oil and salt... All beings can't detect his existence, so he stands silently on the side, as a bystander, from a world see another world.
But if it wasn't for that person, the empty space would not be filled no matter what.
It's wrong anyway.
After returning to eternity again, he suddenly realized that he was shuttled in so many worlds, walking in a hurry, unwilling to stop, being a passer-by, in fact, just hoping to see that familiar figure at the next corner.
He never went to him with a clear purpose, but subconsciously wanted to encounter him in reincarnation in this billions of worlds. He wants to see him.
He started to miss him.
I will answer you, I will hug you, I will kiss you, I will not leave you alone again, will you come back
He began to think, if after so many reincarnations, he has forgotten to come back and the way back; if his soul is too weak to return; or even he is too tired of being here, and would rather his soul disappear forever Disappearing in these thousands of worlds, I don't want to come back, come back to him again.
Only after traveling in the river of the world did he realize that for a human like him, before the lovers parted, one party had to say to the other party, "Come back early, I'll wait for you".
And he didn't say "I'll wait for you" with Ah Yan at that time, so will his Ah Yan come back
Totally bored, spirit gone, never coming back, never seeing each other... He will leave him forever, they will never see each other.
He couldn't hear his call anymore.
He can't see him anymore.
He can't find him anymore.
Until the final soul disappears, even himself is powerless.
A huge panic and panic suddenly appeared in his heart, and once the never-seeing thought appeared, it would haunt him all the time, like a hand grabbing his throat, making him unable to breathe.
In an instant, a hundred thoughts are born, and a hundred senses are born. Love is born, love is born, and fear is born.
Obsessed.
Suddenly, Mingwu's feelings were so heavy that he could hardly bear it, and he gradually condensed his body - he looked at his hands curiously, and thought silently in his heart, did he just want him to hug him with these hands? Was he just praying for such a hug
He thought he was going to find him, before he could find him again.
Even if there are billions and billions of worlds in the world river, it is not difficult to find out which world Ah Yan will appear in and pursue it first. The rule of reincarnation is that no creature can have memories that are not in this reincarnation. This rule has always worked well, and Ye Yingzhi has no intention of destroying or changing him—even if it means that he will lose his memory after he actually enters reincarnation.
It doesn't matter.
He is his, he can always find him.
*****
Chi Yan gradually opened his eyes from the darkness. The most profound memory in his memory was still the bright sea of light, and the existence in the darkness that was getting farther and farther away.
He looked forward to it, and watched for tens of thousands of years of existence.
Then all kinds of reincarnations came one after another: he was a frail young man who was haunted by sneaks, and the other party was the evil spirit who stole his ashes and entangled them; he was an ordinary person who was innocent and provoked evil spirits. His good roommate came to please him; he was an exchange student who was alone and helpless, and the other party was a blood prince who could not take his blood away from him; finally, the two of them could accompany him when they were young. The source of the world's yin and yang upside down...
Chi Yan finally understood the meaning of the phrase "does it hurt?" whenever he was half asleep—what he asked was whether the knife he stabbed at him in the previous life hurt or not.
I came together forever, he couldn't live with him, but he died with him time and time again.
Chi Yan opened his eyes and looked at his lover, a lover who was so familiar, who had been entangled with each other, and called him softly: "… Ye Yingzhi."
They were still standing in the cave, Ye Yingzhi was standing in front of him, and behind him was a black passage - Chi Yan could already vaguely guess where it would lead.
The beginning of everything, the end of everything.
"I'm here." Ye Yingzhi put his arms around him calmly, looked down at him, and slowly told his lover what happened after that, "In the last life, because of the last spell you used, I came to this world with you. I was not able to enter reincarnation like you, but was directly attracted to the evil pole of this world, and fell into a deep sleep here. The evil spirit here is very positive and strong, and I slowly remembered everything in my sleep until I sensed you. My breath showed signs of waking up, but at that time I couldn't wake up completely, and it wasn't until a few years ago that I really woke up, and then I immediately left here and went out to find you."
In fact, when he met Chi Yan in Samsara for the first time, Chi Yan's spirit was already very weak. If it wasn't for the breath he had attached to it, Chi Yan would probably have been unable to hold it. Even so, at that time, Ah Yan's weak soul, which was contaminated with the most mellow evil spirit, was still coveted and watched by various monsters and monsters. Although several lifetimes have passed, when he thinks about it again, he is still terrified.
Almost, just a little bit. If he wakes up later, he will lose his feast forever.
"Reincarnation is not allowed to have memories other than this world. This is the rule of reincarnation. But here I can open the passage to the realm of eternal me, so that you can restore your memory. So I must bring you back here again. Xie took his lover into his arms, "I'm sorry, A Yan, I'm sorry. I always scare you. But now we should go home, will you come home with me?"
He took a step back, lowered his head and stared at the human in front of him earnestly, holding the other's hand but never letting go.
"You promised me, next time, accompany me to eternity."
Chi Yan closed her eyes, as if the blood-stained hands and the gentle, tangled face of a vampire appeared again in front of her eyes - "Next time, will you stay with me until eternity?"
"Okay." He heard himself muttering, wrapping his arms around the other's neck and pressing his lips.
He waited for him for ten thousand years, and he chased him for five generations. During this period of all kinds of entanglement, who can tell
He only knew that it was enough that he loved him, he only knew that if the other party was him, then he would also be willing to be with him in the endless eternity.
He only knew that for Ye Yingzhi, he would never be willing to let go.
"Don't leave me alone." He heard Ye Yingzhi sigh softly, "Don't leave me alone."
"You know, I am eternity, and I exist in eternity. If I love anything, it's eternal love."
"Chi Yan, it was you who broke into my domain, and you are responsible."
The black passage leading to eternity has opened behind Ye Yingzhi.
"I'm in charge." Chi Yan raised his head, his eyes were slightly curved, and he looked at him and smiled.
He once died on the ancient altar, but was accidentally involved in it. At that time, he was terrified and didn't know where to go. Later, he fell in love with the owner of that place and stayed with him for thousands of years. After going around in circles, in the end, he still has to return to his lover.
No matter how long or lonely the eternity is, they are no longer alone.
Together, they slowly stepped into it, into pure eternity, into the realm that belonged to Ye Yingzhi.
"It's not the same." Chi Yan looked at the scene in front of him in amazement, the sun, the blue sky, the distant mountains... and the familiar house in front of him - this looks like the house where he and Ye Yingzhi died in the first life. . If he remembered correctly, there was another room on the second floor of this house, which was Ye Yingzhi's mourning hall.
He was sure that all this was not arranged by himself. But Ye Yingzhi's realm used to be a boundless darkness, and it wasn't like that at all.
Just in doubt, he heard Ye Yingzhi standing beside him and said in a plain and natural tone: "This is the image of my heart, what kind of heart it is, it will naturally be what it will be here. Ruthless and natural Wuxin, so it was always dark before. Ah Yan, only you, came in when it was empty."
You broke in when I didn't even have the heart.