She felt that the whole person was really burning up, and she didn't know how to take the temperature, finish the meal and medicine.
When Ji Chengyang went to the kitchen to wash the dishes, she lay on the pillow he had slept on her side and closed her eyes. She still can truly recall the feeling of the two people's mouth and tongue touching just now. He took medicine for her, which had the ingredients of peaceful sleep. Her heart seemed to be burnt, and she couldn't tell whether it was because of the shyness of hindsight or because of the high fever, and she slowly fell asleep.
That night, her fever subsided.
By the next morning, she finally got Ji Chengyang's permission to take a hot bath. She couldn't stand the smell of her body after her fever had gone from last night, and the smell of heavy sweat was really unpleasant. After washing it thoroughly, she put on the clothes temporarily placed in his closet, which was a light pink sportswear. She wore slippers and walked back to the guest room.
Ji Chengyang was lying on the sofa with his eyes closed and rested. He heard the sound of her walking into the room. He was so tired that he didn't even bother to lift his eyelids. In the least effortless and gentle tone without any circumstance, he told her softly that there was yesterday in the kitchen. For a good breakfast, she can go to the microwave to heat it up before eating: "If you don't have an appetite, you can eat more." He said.
Ji Chengyang had already taken a bath when he was sleepy at three or four in the middle of the night. He was wearing a college-era black long-sleeved T-shirt, with his sleeves rolled up, and his left arm resting on the armrest of the sofa, his head resting on his arm, as if Feeling uncomfortable lying down, I want to turn my body over, change my arm to pillow and continue to squint for a while.
As he breathed, there was already a girl's unique temperature sensation, mixed with his most familiar shower gel scent.
"Is it very tired?" Ji Yi slowly squatted on the side of the sofa and asked him softly.
Ji Chengyang moved his eyelashes, but still felt very tired and did not open his eyes.
Ji Yi pursed his mouth and smiled.
Not everyone can have this experience. At the peak of the deadly infectious disease, the symptoms are the same, and the despair at that moment is extinguished. Then it was like being misdiagnosed and getting the correct diagnosis list... She now feels that everything is beautiful to see, and she even feels that it is the happiest thing in the world to be able to squat here and watch him.
"Yes," he replied jokingly, "tired by your tossing."
"...I don't toss people when I have a fever, am I?" Ji Yi was a little guilty, but she retorted softly, "Apart from taking medicine, it's sleeping..."
Ji Chengyang was really tired, and his muscles were sore and weak.
The mental stress of one day and two nights was more tiring than he was not sleeping for three consecutive days and three nights in the battlefield. At that time, what supported him was the professionalism of keeping up with the current affairs at any time, but this time, what supported him was not so much love, but fear. .
His fear comes from the fear that his life will be changed since then, and what it will be like is still unknown.
The scary unknown.
Fortunately, now, at this time, nothing has changed.
He breathed gently, as if he had fallen asleep, Ji Yi looked at his face as if he couldn't see enough.
"Hurry up and have breakfast." He finally couldn't help but urged her with a smile, until he felt the scent of the nose closer, and the moment he opened his eyes, he felt her lips press against the corners of his mouth.
Ji Yi left soon, feeling that she was about to have a heart attack. Such a premeditated action for a few minutes seemed to exhaust all the vitality she had just recovered.
Ji Chengyang was a little quiet.
Ten centimeters is a very dangerous distance, especially for two people who have just experienced a false alarm and worked hard for each other's health and even life and death. It is really too dangerous.
He even feels that this kind of taste is uncomfortable.
Ji Yi summoned his courage and stared into his eyes.
This is her greatest courage. She thought she could say, Ji Chengyang, I have liked you since I was a child. Also, there are actually several months left before two years, but... It's a pity that she really couldn't say a word. She bit her teeth on her lower lip and looked at him expectantly.
If this time she is really suffering from SARS, both of them should be in the hospital at this time, and perhaps they will become one of the rising death toll.
For some things, maybe you don't need to be so persistent. he thinks.
Ji Chengyang sighed faintly, and dragged her whole body over to truly embrace her.
This time it was not because of being stimulated by her constant tears, and there was no more irritability and powerlessness in my heart that did not want her to cry. For the first time he felt that the body of the girl in his arms was soft and beautiful, which was the same as holding her when he was a child. It feels completely different when I go to the hospital to dress up the wound or hold her out of the sea at night in New Zealand.
From the moment he carried her from the carpet to his body, Ji Chengyang thoroughly realized that he felt for her, it was a man's desire for a woman.
This is a long and tangled line of feelings that has been brewed for many years and spent real time.
He kissed her lips as he wished, using the feeling after the first practice last night, continued to explore, and guided her to kiss himself. Ji Yi felt that the whole person was under his control. She tried, tried to pass the tip of her tongue, but this attempt to get closer to him caused him to completely swallow all his breath.
Different, completely different from last night.
Ji Yi was deeply bewildered by his kiss, and subconsciously followed his consciousness and movements, and approached his body. Although there were a lot of things he didn't understand, he still wanted to give him everything he wanted.
In the quiet room, the two people who have been in love with each other for a long time in their respective worlds seem to have fallen into a whirlpool that one does not want to escape. Ji Chengyang kissed her deeply, feeling her jerky mixed with shyness, and she could also feel her slender legs and soft breasts attached to her.
"Sissi..." He slipped his hand into her clothes and kept touching her back.
Ji Yi's body just tried to cater to him.
"Sisi..." he called her.
She was in a daze, and she didn't know if she should.
The fetters of the underwear behind her were opened by him, and she trembled, feeling his warm palms sliding to the front of her back along the skin of her back. With the slight friction of the zipper, he pulled the zipper of her sportswear from the inside. In his sight, he could see that her underwear had been softly loosened, half covering her bulging chest, and he could even see the looming inside. View.
Ji Chengyang put his forehead against her soft chest and let out a sigh of relief.
There was a heavy impact in his chest.
The most primitive impulse that emerges in the body is the most primitive impulse. This desire for infinite intimacy and possession is always unspeakable and unsustainable for him who grew up taking care of and accompanying Ji Yi since childhood. But Ji Yi didn't know, she didn't even realize the changes in Ji Chengyang's body. Her body was a little bit unlike her own, and she was sweating finely.
The sweat on her body made him sink into deeper desires.
Going on, it's really suffering.
Ji Chengyang gathered her clothes, and then went to hold her face with both hands, as if he wanted to suck all the oxygen and consciousness in her body, and kissed her deeply: "Sixi... I love you."
This is the first time Ji Yi has heard the voice of her feelings being responded to. This voice is more courageous and firmer than her, without self-questioning, and no worries about the future. She was dizzy, the sky turned around, and she lay down on his chest weakly, letting him hug him tightly.
Ji Chengyang sat up quickly, he glanced at her slightly, then got up and went to the kitchen to make lunch for her. Ji Yi still sat ignorantly for a while, and went to find his own slippers, wanting to follow him to the kitchen. Until she bent down, she finally realized that the zippers of her sportswear had been unzipped, and she even put her underwear on her arm casually...
In the kitchen, there was the sound of porcelain bowls hitting the stainless steel pool.
Ji Yi hurriedly stretched out his hands behind his back in the sound of the rushing water, fastened his underwear, and pulled up his coat.
She dared not follow him to the kitchen. She stared at the bed where she had slept for two days. After a while, she hurried to remove the sheets and quilt. They were all traces of her sleep, and she was soaked in sweat because of fever... Holding the pile of dark blue cloth, she walked into the bathroom and stuffed it into the washing machine, but couldn't find the washing powder.
I had to move three steps to the door of the kitchen, and asked in a low voice, "Where is the washing powder."
Ji Chengyang was washing the pots and pans that had been piled up for two days, as well as chopsticks, spoons, and finally even the unused ones, and all the chopsticks in the cabinet were taken out. He held the dishcloth and watched with foam in his hands. She was stunned: "On the balcony," she stopped shortly, changed her words and said, "It should have been used up."
He wiped his short hair twice randomly because of the sweat that just broke out, and it looked a little messy. The sink is filled with hot water to wash the dishes, steaming up, making his silhouette more beautiful.
He looked at her, as if he was still thinking about what to spare.
"I'll buy it," Ji Yi immediately lowered his eyes, lowered his gaze to a certain height, and said, looking at his legs, "I will be back soon."
After Ji Yi finished speaking, he left without stopping.
When Ji Chengyang heard the sound of the door being hit, his expression was so strange. He finally remembered that there seemed to be unopened laundry detergent somewhere on the balcony at home. If he was given one more minute, he should remember to tell her. It's a pity that Ji Yi started to be shy again and couldn't wait for him to think of it.
Ji Chengyang pursed his mouth, really laughing at himself. At this time, he was more like a young boy who was immersed in his first love. His eyes were following Ji Yi all the time, even if she wasn't by his side, it didn't affect his mind in the least. It was her repeatedly.
He never thought he would be so.
I can only say that I overestimated myself in the past.
The age gap is a huge temptation.
Ji Chengyang, can your feelings for Ji Yi originate from this temptation
In the days when there was only darkness before his eyes, Ji Chengyang used the calmest and most sensible attitude to examine this issue. For the proposition of love, men are often criticized for being cold-blooded, thinking in the lower body, unable to resist temptation, or not focusing on feelings. It can be said that when society changed from matriline to patrilineal society, the long development over the past few thousand years has indeed made men value things other than emotion more than women.
All these exist objectively, but it cannot be said that a man does not have a woman who wants to selflessly love.
When Ji Chengyang was in college, he discussed this issue objectively with his roommate. He once assumed a situation, if your lover can't see the light, are you willing to share your eyes with her so that she can see the sunshine again.
It was just a boring assumption, and many years later, when he returned to his home country, he found the emotional answer in absolute darkness. When he couldn't see things, he heard Ji Yi cry beside him, choking. What he thought was that if he was really blind or even lost his life, then at least his little girl would be able to suffer less from the hardships of life.
After this thought passed, Ji Chengyang finally came to a sudden, he had already answered the question he asked many years ago.
He is negotiating a condition with God, with his eyes, Ji Yi can grow up quietly in the sun.
Although the proposition he put forward was a bit harsh and extreme, the real point of his hypothesis is:
When you start to become selfish from selfishness, you have already begun a true and unforgettable love.
Regardless of whether he can figure out how this love started, but since the day when she was embarrassed on all sides, when she got into his arms for a brief period of comfort, he was already sure that his feelings for Ji Yi were love. .