Those always deep eyes were filled with sadness at this moment. For the first time, Lu Shang realized so strongly that the man sitting opposite him was not the boy who could be fooled.
"Aren't you at all?" Li Sui tried his best to hold back his tears, even with begging in his eyes, and choked, "You're good to me, is it just because of the heart match from beginning to end?"
Lu Shang remained silent, Li Sui's successive questions were like countless pieces of glass slag, stabbing straight into his heart, making him breathless, he couldn't answer, and he couldn't say anything.
"I see." Li Sui nodded self-deprecatingly.
Lu Shang seemed very tired, so he looked at him like this, opened his mouth, but in the end said nothing.
"Over the past year, I have been looking for ways to make you healthy. I have thought of many ways, asked many people, and checked many medical books, but the only thing I didn't think of that would make you better, It's actually on me." Li Sui showed a wry smile, "Lu Shang, I'm actually very happy, at least... At least you're not completely helpless."
From the moment he saw Lu Shang entering the door, Li Sui gave up. He accepted his fate. He had a fact in his heart that he did not want to admit: even if he knew that Lu Shang was going to dig his heart, he would dig his heart out without hesitation. Come out to him.
"Don't say it," Lu Shang interrupted him suddenly, his voice suppressed, "I can't do a heart transplant, don't say it."
"Why?" Li Sui looked at him deeply, with sharp searching in his eyes.
This gaze made people have nothing to hide, Lu Shang didn't want to look at him, he looked away, his whole body was hot, his ears were ringing badly, his chest was also dull, and he really didn't have the strength to talk.
"Why?" Li Sui repeated it again, his eyes reluctant, as if he had to see through him.
Lu Shang's back was covered in cold sweat from the pain.
When he strayed, Li Sui grabbed his arm and said unwillingly, "Are you going to run away again?"
Looking at each other, Lu Shang whispered, "I have nothing to say to you, you are not even twenty years old, what do you know?"
Li Sui looked at him, his eyes gradually changed: "Do you really think I don't understand anything?"
Gradually getting closer to Lu Shang, he lowered his eyes and said, "When I had an accident in the training camp, why did you try so hard to find me, even using the military's power? When I was an intern in Dongyan, why did you not hear it on the surface? Don't ask, but secretly clearing obstacles for me? When I kissed you drunk, why didn't you refuse, and why did you react to me?"
Li Sui's eyes were heavy, he slowly took him into his arms, and whispered to his ear: "Lu Shang, do you know how uncomfortable I felt when I saw you lying on the operating table? You know how hard I see you every day. , how much do I want to get rid of all those people who make you work so hard? Do you know how much perseverance it takes me to sleep next to you every day to control the urge to offend you? I can't help but love you, I even think… "
He didn't say any more, but the unfinished words still shocked Lu Shang. He never knew that this child had already treated him to such an extent.
"Don't drive me away, okay?" Li Sui kissed the back of his neck, his voice full of grievances, "I love you, don't deprive me of the right to stay by your side."
Lu Shang shrank his neck subconsciously, and Li Sui hugged him very hard, as if he was afraid of escaping. His wrists hurt when he was dragged, and he couldn't help struggling: "Let go of your hand first..."
"I won't let go." Li Sui forcefully pulled back the face he was avoiding, kissed him down his chin, put his hand into Lu Shang's coat, and unbuttoned his shirt one by one, "I know you want to be alone. Talk to me and set aside Aunt Yuan Shulu and the others."
Lu Shang only felt that his scalp was numb. He was probably sluggish and his mind was dizzy. He didn't understand what Li Sui was talking about for a while.
"What do you want to do?" Lu Shang frowned, "You... um."
Li Sui bit his lip and blocked everything he was about to say. This was definitely not a gentle kiss. When they let go, there was a little blood on their lips. Li Sui deliberately breathed hot air in his ear: "Lu Shang, I can't help it, I want to take you as my own."
"You..." Lu Shang's body trembled uncontrollably, and his breathing became chaotic.
Li Sui sucked on his neck as if he was going crazy, and immediately a red mark appeared on his fair skin. The pain was very intense, and Lu Shang groaned. The mark-like trace made Li Sui excited all of a sudden, and he picked him up and put him on the sofa.
The jacket and belt fell to the ground. Li Sui tore off Lu Shang's shirt, pinched his hand, easily suppressed the resistance, and kissed down his neck, collarbone, chest, navel... As if he finally had no scruples, he indulged in that piece of skin that Xiao had thought about for a whole year, leaving a series of traces that belonged to him only.
The lights on the ceiling were extremely dazzling, Lu Shang's lips opened and closed weakly twice, a double image gradually appeared in front of his eyes, the suffocation of hypoxia was smudged like thick ink, and his consciousness began to disintegrate.
Li Sui licked and bit all the way, his scorching breath hit his fair skin, his palms went down in dissatisfaction, stroked it gently, reached the secret place behind him, hesitated for a moment, his eyes darkened, his index finger brute force went in.
The instant tingling sensation was like an arrow, hitting the depths of the brain, Lu Shang's breathing stagnated suddenly, and the remaining consciousness seemed to have suddenly abandoned him and floated into the sky.
"Lu Shang..." Li Sui murmured softly in his ear as if he had gotten what he wanted, and his voice was full of forbearance, "You are so hot inside."
The person who was violated did not respond. Li Sui paused, realizing that the constant push and refusal under his background had disappeared at some point, and hurriedly raised his head to look at him: "Lu Shang?"
Lu Shang lay quietly, his pale face slanted to one side weakly, his breathing was not steady, and his body was shaking slightly. Li Sui's head buzzed, does it hurt so much? Thinking about it, he immediately pulled out his hands and hugged Lu Shang's head at a loss.
"I'm sorry, did I hurt you?"
Lu Shang's skin was very hot. Before Li Sui was too eager, he didn't feel it. Now, when he touched the back of his hand carefully, he realized that not only was Lu Shang's body temperature too high, but his shoulders were shrinking involuntarily, as if his chest was throbbing. .
He lowered his head and glanced at the disheveled man under him, his expression changed, he suddenly woke up, the blood on his face disappeared, and his voice trembled: "Lu Shang, are you... fever?"
The strength that suppressed his body disappeared. Lu Shang's brows were tightened, his expression was extremely painful, and he unconsciously curled up into a ball. This action appeared on him, who had always been calm, and there was a hint of fear.
"Don't be afraid, don't be afraid," Li Sui panicked, and hurriedly took him into his arms, "I... I'm sorry, I'm sorry... "
However, the person in his arms just pursed his thin lips and didn't open his eyes, his complexion was so poor that it didn't look like a living person could have.
After shouting a few times, there was no response. Li Sui almost cried. He hurriedly helped him get dressed and took him to the garage: "Let's go to the hospital, I'm sorry, I didn't really want to hurt you, I just wanted to force you. Tell the truth, I'm sorry... I didn't know you were sick..."
When he galloped all the way to take Lu Shang to the hospital, Liang Zirui happened to be on duty because of the theft case, and saw Li Sui carrying someone in with red eyes, and he kept muttering something.
After personally pushing the person to the emergency room for the preliminary examination, he felt relieved, and he couldn't help feeling a little strange. It's not surprising that Lu Shang's body has been weak recently, and it is not surprising that he has a high fever. This child is overreacting.
When the nurse came to install the equipment, he opened his clothes and found a shocking hickey on Lu Shang's neck and chest. He was shocked, and his legs almost fell to the ground.
Without saying a word, he rushed out and gave Li Sui a fist. He choked with anger for a long time before scolding: "You didn't know he had a heart attack?"
Li Sui didn't hide, he took the punch firmly, then stood up and bowed his head to apologize, his eyes filled with remorse.
Seeing his appearance, Liang Zirui was even more angry, pointed at him and said, "You kid is very promising, you... You dare to use force against him."
The knuckles of the fist were pinched, and Li Sui didn't answer. He bit his lips and lowered his head. The sadness on his face made Liang Zirui angry and shocked.
At this stage, Li Sui has no choice. Either he should not be so smart and simply believe Lu Shang's nonsense and go abroad obediently, or he will not be tempted at the beginning. Now that he can't love or be loved, of course he will feel unbearable pain.
After the injection, Lu Shang's condition stabilized a little, and the fever finally subsided in the morning, but Liang Zirui immediately discovered that something seemed to be wrong with his heart, so he discussed with Uncle Yuan on the phone and decided to temporarily take a small Operation.
The nurse and the assistant doctor were nervously preparing the equipment. After Liang Zirui checked the anesthetics, he glanced at Li Sui in the corner: "Are you going to stay here?"
Li Sui looked at Lu Shang, who was sleeping on the operating table: "Is it okay?"
"Yes, yes," Liang Zirui put on gloves on his hands and paused, "but I advise you not to look at it."
Seeing Li Sui staring at him, he explained, "A person without professional training can't bear the impact of the image at the operation site. I don't want to see you vomit here."
Li Sui trembled invisibly: "Am I affecting you?"
"You don't influence me," Liang Zirui was busy in his hands, "you influence my assistant."
Li Sui's eyes moved to the side, and the female doctor wearing a mask turned her head shyly, got up and walked to Lu Shang's side, and shook his hand: "I'll wait for you to come out."
There was no warmth in that hand, and there was no response. Li Sui clenched slightly, only to feel pain in his heart.
It was a small operation, and it didn't last long. People came out before noon. Compared to the last time he was at a loss when taking care of people, this time Li Sui was already skilled, wearing antibacterial clothing to guard him in the ICU. After he opened his eyes weakly once, he called the doctor to extubate the tube.
Lu Shang's physique was too weak, and he was still not very awake after being transferred to the general ward. In the middle, Li Sui fed him a little water with a straw, closed his eyes and went back to sleep. The whole process was dazed.
In the evening, Liang Zirui came to check once, and when he saw Li Sui still sitting beside the hospital bed, his heart softened: "Go eat something, he should be waking up soon."
Li Sui's eyes fell on Lu Shang's face for a long time. Hearing this, he just reached out and gently put his wrist into the quilt.
Lu Shang woke up two hours later with only Liang Zirui beside him.
"Don't look for him, he's not here." Liang Zirui said when he saw his eyes searching around.
Lu Shang reached out and took off the oxygen mask, then slowly opened his eyes to look at Liang Zirui. The latter's eyes were weird, and there was anger in his tone: "Didn't I tell you back then that you should be careful not to breed tigers?"
"Do you like him?" asked again, with a positive tone.
Lu Shang turned his head.
"Don't argue, I know best how sick you are, but I don't believe that you are so weak that you can't handle a little kid. You can lie to that child, but it's okay to lie to me. If you don't have any feelings for him, How could you allow you to do such a thing to him?"
Lu Shang strangely did not deny it.
"Do you know that you are playing with your life?" Liang Zirui had a distressed expression.
Lu Shang lowered his eyes and was ready to meet his anger. Unexpectedly, Liang Zirui suddenly sighed, and his tone was even gratifying: "Lu Shang, I really didn't expect you to have such a day."
"Before I always blamed you for being inhuman and living too blandly, but I put myself in my shoes and thought, if I were you, I'm afraid I wouldn't be as good as you, with endless examinations, endless surgeries, and closed doors every day. Look, I don't even know if I can wake up the next day, everything is a gray and hopeless day, just think about it and fuck it."
Lu Shang stared at him with a surprised look in his eyes.
"It's good, really, I have experienced all the emotions and six desires, so I didn't come to this world in vain to suffer this crime."
Lu Shang couldn't help but say, "You don't object?"
"What do you oppose? I'm your friend, but I'm also a doctor. It's my duty to save people." Liang Zirui said, "Actually, I'm also quite contradictory. I've been looking for a way to save you without hurting him. The method, I admit, I lied about something, I told you to wait, not waiting for immunosuppressants, but looking for this possibility. I don't want to take away your hope of survival, but I don't really want to hurt his life."
It was rare for the two of them to share their hearts with each other calmly. Lu Shang was silent for a while, then looked out of the window: "... I really ran for his heart at first, and I didn't want to make myself feel too guilty, so I selfishly hoped that he would I can do it willingly, but when this day comes, I can’t bear it anymore.”
Liang Zirui was helpless: "You said that you didn't win the hearts of others, but you also put your own hearts in. Boss Lu, this business is not worth it."
Lu Shang moved his stiff legs: "What about others?"
Liang Zirui scratched his head and said embarrassedly: "Then what, I was too impulsive and gave him a fist just now. I guess I'm feeling sad right now. It's me who is wrong. You can apologize to me later."