Xiao Cheng is a year younger than Guan Ling. Not long after the relationship between the two was confirmed, Guan Ling entered a publishing house and started an internship, doing translation work. Meals are enough.
Xiao Cheng studied computer, and his coursework was heavy. Guan Ling was afraid of his hard work and never let him work elsewhere. After graduation, he paid off his student loan and saved money for Xiao Cheng to study.
The two lived in the house left by Xiao Cheng's parents. Guan Ling went out to work early and returned late every day, while Xiao Cheng was responsible for taking care of his three meals a day. No matter how late Guan Ling worked overtime, he could always have a bite when he got home. Xiao Cheng didn't know how to cook a hot meal at first, but he still pestered Guan Ling for a long time before Guan Ling taught him. As a result, after he learned it, he almost never let Guan Ling enter the kitchen again.
Now recalling the days of those few years, the hard work has been forgotten, and there is almost only sweetness left.
Xiao Cheng proposed to Guan Ling on the day of his graduation ceremony. The place of proposal was the restaurant where the two met at the beginning. Guan Ling did not let Xiao Cheng work. Xiao Cheng thought of many ways to prepare for this surprise. I won a prize in a programming competition and finally got enough money to buy a ring.
Although the two are very frugal on weekdays, Xiao Cheng didn't want to be too shabby for this engagement ring. He chose two identical platinum rings in a big-name jewelry store. Upon being discovered by Guan Ling, he carefully hid the ring, and it was not until the day of graduation that he finally summoned up the courage to propose to the other party.
At that time, the same-sex marriage law had been passed, but it would be officially implemented in January of the following year. Guan Ling originally planned to propose to Xiao Cheng after the marriage law was implemented, but he did not expect to be preempted. Xiao Cheng knelt in front of him with the ring. , his excitement cannot be described in words.
On the day the same-sex marriage law was officially implemented, the two waited outside the Civil Affairs Bureau before dawn. They were the first same-sex couples in this city to get a marriage license, and they may also be ranked in the top ten in the country.
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When he woke up from his sleep, Guan Ling raised his hand. The simple ring was still firmly worn on the ring finger of his left hand. He knew that Xiao Cheng's was the same, but how did the two of them get to this point
On the 20th day of the journey, after Guan Ling experienced various emotions such as exhaustion, loneliness, and longing, he finally began to reflect on the seven-year marriage between the two.
He was very sure that Xiao Cheng had no one else outside, and neither did he, that is to say, all the problems were caused by the two of them.
Yes, for the two of them, the failure of a marriage is often multi-faceted. In any case, Guan Ling will not think that this is Xiao Cheng's fault alone.
In recent years, Xiao Cheng has been very busy at work. He often comes home late at night, and sometimes even sleeps directly in the company's lounge. Guan Ling himself, although not popular, spends most of the year in order to make money to support Xiao Cheng's career. They're all running around the studio.
In the past, when Xiao Cheng was not busy, it was almost always Xiao Cheng who accommodated him and accompany him on the set. After Xiao Cheng became busy, the chance for the two to contact naturally became less and less.
Guan Ling's growth experience has made him very independent all the time, and Xiao Cheng is younger than him, he always thinks about taking care of each other, so he will not complain to Xiao Cheng when he is tired, and he will not tell Xiao specifically when he is sick. Cheng didn't even notify Xiao Cheng to accompany the bed when he was hospitalized.
But now he asks himself if he really doesn't care? In fact, what he cares about is that no matter how strong a person is, he still hopes that occasionally someone can make him fully rely on. He didn't say anything to Xiao Cheng. It's not that he really doesn't want Xiao Cheng to accompany him, but that he has always cultivated it. His character and habits made him not allow himself to be weak. In his heart, he hoped that Xiao Cheng would find out his strangeness and give him the greatest love and care as he had done in the past few years. For Xiao Cheng, it is naturally impossible.
The less time the two can get along with, the less and less common topics, the less and less common topics, the less and less they say every day, which seems to form a vicious circle, and finally the two can only gradually away.
Zhao Qinqin is a non-marriageist. She often tells Guan Ling that a person is also very good. Love and marriage are not necessities of life. As long as you have money, nothing can be accomplished by being single.
If he hadn't met Xiao Cheng, Guan Ling thought he should have the same idea as Zhao Qinqin, but he met Xiao Cheng.
There is a saying that goes well - "From frugality to luxury is easy, from luxury to frugality is difficult."
He remembered Xiao Cheng's meticulous care when he was ill, the warmth of being embraced in his arms in winter, the warm water handed to his mouth with only a slight movement when he woke up at midnight, and the many details of love.
He can be very independent and strong when he is out alone, but having experienced this, he longs for another person to support him when he returns home.
On the thirtieth day of leaving home, Guan Ling finally figured out everything and felt a sense of clarity.
Yes, the worst result is just to return to a person, just like this journey, a person rides a car, eats alone, sleeps alone, faces all kinds of situations alone, why does he hide? Do not go back, and keep yourself going through the worst in order to escape from a situation that may not be so bad.
When Guan Ling chose to travel alone, it was not because he wanted to have a cold war with Xiao Cheng, nor because he ran away in a fit of anger. He just wanted to think seriously about whether this marriage was still necessary in an undisturbed place.
Now that he has the answer, he doesn't want to stay any longer. He wants to see Xiao Cheng, and he wants to, no matter if it's a quarrel or anything else, he just wants to see the man who has made him love for so many years, and listen again He called out "Little Apple".
Fortunately, it was not the peak season for tourism, so Guan Ling bought the latest flight to return home and entered the house before twelve o'clock.
After twelve o'clock, it was Xiao Cheng's twenty-eighth birthday.
The room was dark, and Guan Ling's first reaction was that there was no one at home, but this idea was soon broken by the strong smell of tobacco and alcohol. He pressed the switch on the wall, and the scene in the living room came into view.
The ashtray filled with cigarette butts, the messy takeaway lunch boxes, the empty wine bottles that were almost piled up on the table, and... the drunk unconscious man on the sofa.
Xiao Cheng was thin and haggard, and his messy hair fell on his forehead because he had not been trimmed in time, making his entire face even paler.
At that moment, Guan Ling felt that he was about to be overwhelmed by regrets and self-blame. He even stood there for a while, before finally remembering to step forward and trim Xiao Cheng's broken hair.
Xiao Cheng was obviously drunk. Even Guan Ling took off his slippers for him and put his legs on the sofa. He closed it, and after watching him for a moment, turned around and went to the kitchen.
The author has something to say:
Let me tell you, in fact, after being in love for a long time, or getting married for a long time, many habits and ways of thinking will really change... I myself belong to that kind of two people for a long time, and I don't remember much if I have been How one should live.
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I often persuade the people around me, including the babies in the group, not to just look for someone just because they are old, but I also think that no matter who they are, they should experience the feeling of being in love (not just looking for that one). Kind of, it is true that the three views have always been, at least the love of mutual affection) Even if the final result is not necessarily good, don't be afraid to try.
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The topic of fear of marriage was discussed in the group before, and many people said it was single. I don't know if you can read this. Anyway, I will talk more. If you see it one day, it can be regarded as a kind of positive energy.
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Someone asked me how I felt after getting married. Let me take today as an example. Because of the Ching Ming Festival, I happened to bring Cai Cai (my husband) back to my hometown today, and when we were having dinner, my dad took it for us alone. A bottle of Wanglaoji, the canned kind. Caicai took it over and opened it, but I didn't move. Then, when he opened it, we changed the bottle tacitly. My mother saw it, and my mother disliked me very much. , said that I was so grown up that I wanted him to drink a drink, but I felt normal...
We belong to the type of complementary personalities. I am a lazy person who likes to use their brains but not hands. Caicai is the kind of action group who would rather do things than use their brains. Because I think too much thinking is troublesome, all the errands in our family are done by him. Come, as small as washing a fruit and taking a courier, or as big as carrying luggage and moving. Then I have to buy things when I run out of things, as well as travel tips, family planning, and all kinds of trivial matters.
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I don't know if you can understand this, even if it's a small thing, it's not impossible, and it's not too much effort. If you are alone, you will naturally do it yourself, but when you are two, you simply like someone to help you. The feeling of doing this, and sometimes a man really needs to be taught, and also needs to run in. When I met Cai Cai, he was still a young master who sent dirty clothes home to his mother every month when he went to college. , so don't say that there are not so many good men, everyone is not born knowing how to take care of the other half, expressing each other's needs clearly, if you are still willing to go on, let's learn together.
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I have been together with Cai Cai for more than eight years, and it is reasonable to say that the love period has long since passed, but in fact, this kind of ordinary life with mutual understanding is also very beautiful. Of course, we also quarrel and want to divorce when we are angry. , I don’t know how good it is to live alone, but when I calm down, I will know that no, at least in a happy marriage, the benefits of two people being together are far greater than being alone, so there is really no need for some bad things. For example, fear of marriage or something, no matter how high the divorce rate is, far more people get happiness from marriage than people get pain.
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Well, that's all I talked about today~ Good night~