"..." Jiang Xi almost sneered, but his eyes flashed with horror, "Wang Chuqing, are you crazy? Do you know what you are talking about?"
The hands under his sleeves were already clenched into fists, and there seemed to be rocks cracking in the skull, and the whole person was dizzy and dizzy.
"What does he have to do with me?"
Although Jiang Xi's attitude was stern, Madam Wang's words had caused him to go from shock to fear, from fear to doubt, from doubt to anger. Tell him at this time that Xue Meng is his son? Simply... utterly absurd!
Mrs. Wang endured the blood surging in her throat, gasped, and seemed to feel ashamed, but she still insisted: "Junior brother knows what happened at the beginning. What is the relationship between Meng'er and you, I will never lie to you. "
"… "
Jiang Xi was quiet for a while, then suddenly began to laugh. He rarely laughed so indulgently, his eyes were full of ridicule and fury.
The silver teeth were clenched, and the words were cold.
"My son? Senior sister wants to take care of Gu. It's not impossible to have an intercession with me. Why bother to make up such a ridiculous story! How can Ling Lang's temperament, body shape and temper be half similar to me?"
Mostly because of the strong unease in his heart, he tried his best to deny it, and showed his teeth and claws.
"The stall that you and Xue Zhengyi left behind, you want to use such a trivial means to make me clean up? How could Xue Meng and Xue Ziming be my son!!"
His heart trembled violently, and a voice seemed to say to him coldly in the depths of his consciousness, "Yes, he is your child. Think about his age and how Senior Sister Wang left Gu Yue Ye." , you ask yourself, the sky is above, Jiang Xi, think about it...
What to think!
He bit it back almost like a trapped beast, tearing the reason in his heart to dust.
Why would you want to
After being single for more than 20 years, he suddenly told him that he had a son, and that son was against him everywhere. He was born with a look that he hated very much, and he recognized others as his father for so long.
So absurd.
He, Jiang Xi, is not some kind-hearted and rude person, and he will never be that stupid fool. He would never be fooled, he would never listen to this joke, he would never…
"Xuehuang."
Wan Lai shut up.
As if all the light was extinguished at this moment, Jiang Xiru was in a dark night and looked around at a loss.
It was the first time he was so dazed.
Madam Wang looked at him and said, "Xuehuang."
"...What do you mean." His lips murmured, turning pale.
Madam Wang said softly, "Junior brother, you won't understand."
"… "
He really couldn't understand.
Xue Huang was his divine martial art. Although others could use it, they were unable to exert the powerful power of divine martial art. Only his origin blood clan could convince Xue Huang.
Jiang Xi couldn't say a word for a while.
You don't even need to try, Madam Wang can speak to this point, what else is there to return to? He seemed to be cornered.
He was dumbfounded.
"… this matter… "
After a long time, Jiang Xicai turned pale and spoke hoarsely. After the initial madness, he was almost exhausted: "Xue Zhengyi, he... also know about this?"
Madam Wang said, "He has always known."
"… "
When she said this, her eyes were tender and painful.
- When Xue Zhengyi saw her, she was seventeen years old, and it was the good years when Fuyu first opened.
On that day, he rode a small donkey and passed through Yangzhou with a dog's tail grass in his mouth, and happened to meet Wang Chuqing who came to the port to purchase fabrics. Gu Yueyue was a group of beautiful female disciples, and he didn't like anyone, except for Miss Wang in the crowd.
Xue Zhengyi is a straight person, so he greeted her with a smile.
The other female nuns mocked him for being frivolous, while Wang Chuqing was gentle and a little embarrassed. She blushed and persuaded him a few words, then bowed her head and hurriedly left.
The girl was gentle and good-looking. Xue Zhengyi fell in love with one of them at first sight, so he went to Guyueye every few times to find her. Every year, two years and three years, on the Mid-Autumn Festival and Dragon Boat Festival, they came to her. In the end, Gu Yueye was rumored to have an affair with a gangster, but Wang Chuqing couldn't stand it no matter how good-humored it was, and drove him away in anger.
Xue Zhengyi was also a little rogue at that time and didn't leave.
Miss Wang said, you go, I am very embarrassed.
Xue Zhengyi said, you are not in love, neither do I, I will come to see you, and if you get married one day, I will disappear immediately.
Miss Wang was speechless.
Xue Zhengyi laughed, really, it's guaranteed to disappear faster than lightning.
He paused, and then asked her with some concern: "You... You don't already have a sweetheart, do you?"
Miss Wang's face turned red in an instant, she lowered her head and said softly, "No."
But not a truth.
She naturally has a sweetheart, that person is not only her sweetheart, but also the dream lover of many female cultivators in Gu Yueye—she likes Junior Brother Jiang Xi very much.
But every disciple of Gu Yueye knew that Jiang Xi was a scumbag.
Among his peers, he has the most handsome appearance, the most powerful skills, and the most beautiful voice.
And the most insufferable heart.
This person is withdrawn, snarky, but has strong ability, ruthless wrists, and looks extremely good-looking - this kind of handsome man can easily harvest the hearts of girls, but Jiang Xi only regards her heart as a pig's heart, and he will never cherish anyone. The women dedicate their true feelings to him, he thinks they are crooked, and the men dedicate their true feelings to him, and he scolds them for being perverted.
Jiang Yechen lives in his own world like this, always hurting people without knowing it.
Like many sisters and sisters, Wang Chuqing has always secretly liked Jiang Xi, but she knew that she was not stunning and she was older than Jiang Xi, so she did not dare to express herself boldly. After all, Jiang Xi had never accepted the kindness of any woman. . When others praise him, he can't hear him, when others praise him, he doesn't appreciate it. If others dare to show love to him, he will scold him so much that he doesn't even know his mother and runs away crying. All in all, those who can reveal their thoughts with Jiang Xi are all heroes.
Mrs. Wang didn't think she was a hero, so she thought that this affection would eventually wear off with her years, and finally bring it into the coffin for sealing. However, one day, the head found them both.
The head said: "Guyueye is the school that is best at cultivating longevity and nourishing the soul. Most of the disciples can live to be more than a hundred years old. Moreover, the heads of the past generations have been practicing the method of prolonging life, hoping to find a way to live forever. Soaring can also be free in the world."
Indeed, for the sake of immortality, the head of Gu Yueye made such attempts, which naturally included the double cultivation method left by Jiutian Xuannv.
One of her and Jiang Xi is the purest water element, the other is the purest fire element, and both of them have no personnel, so they are the most suitable for practicing together. At that time, the head found them in order to let the two of them practice together. Wang Chuqing was very happy because she had been in love with Jiang Xi for a long time. But Jiang Xi is not happy or unhappy. He is a person who concentrates on the Tao, and is extremely disgusted with trivial matters of love, thinking that it is troublesome and useless. I really don't know how there are so many crazy men and women in the world, it just makes him unbelievable.
"Talking about love is a disease. Treat the disease early."
- These words came from the mouth of Jiang Xi, the first beautiful man in Gu Yue Ye, and I don't know how many girls Xiu's hearts were broken.
In Jiang Xi's eyes, even if it is Xuannv's room, there should be no emotion, and double cultivation is double cultivation. Since the sect master requested, he didn't talk too much, so he and his senior sister followed the secret book of the volume and practiced in seclusion.
However, the love in the girl's eyes couldn't be hidden. After going back and forth, Jiang Xi gradually understood the sister's feelings for her.
It made him irritable and uneasy.
He practiced with her only because of orders, without selfishness. What's more, what this pair of secret techniques itself requires is to be immobile, and when a man and a woman are united, it is also for the sake of spiritual integration, and there must be no love and affection.
For this reason, Jiang Xi and senior sister have seriously mentioned it many times, asking her to calm down and think about something.
"If you have distracted thoughts, and if you continue to cultivate in this way, I am afraid that you will go into trouble, and your spiritual core will be tyrannical."
But how can Miss Wang control her feelings? Finally, after the end of the practice, she was in a state of confusion due to her mental instability, and her consciousness was also unclear. Jiang Xi took a lot of effort to suppress her Yanyang Spirit Core. He was furious for this, and asked her why she didn't listen to her advice.
"If it continues like this, stop cultivating, it will kill you."
She was also very sad at that time. She didn't know where the courage came from, but she went out to ask him with tears in her eyes: "Ye Shen, are you practicing only for the order of the head?"
Jiang Xi's face was extremely ugly, and he asked: "Otherwise, what else could it be for?"
Although he has long known that Jiang Xibing is like a cold spring, his heart is like a stone. But when she really heard him say these words, she still couldn't bear it, and tears streamed down her cheeks. She felt embarrassed, raised her hand and wiped it indiscriminately, but the endless tears made her even more embarrassed. She hurriedly stood up and choked: "I'm sorry."
Then he turned and left, never looking back.
After that, Jiang Xi didn't look for her again for several days, and when she saw her on the road, she stopped talking to her.
Some young and beautiful Xiu in Gu Yueye saw the clue, and they all gathered to laugh at her behind their backs: "At the beginning, I rushed up and thought that I would be able to climb up to Senior Brother Jiang, how could it be possible."
"Shuangxiu is double cultivation, but she is self-indulgent. If her cultivation goes so far as to go crazy, she will even implicate our Senior Brother Ye Shen for nothing. It's really hurtful."
"Forget it, what kind of double cultivation. Senior brother and her do these things for the public. She does these things with her senior brother for selfishness. We all know what she is thinking, oh, I think she just wants nothing. Take advantage of senior brother."
"Senior Sister Wang is older than us and has thicker skin than us."
These words were passed on, and passed on to the ears of Xue Zhengyi, who came to find Miss Wang for the Mid-Autumn Festival as usual.
Xue Shaoxia is straightforward but not stupid, and he understands the ins and outs of things after going back and forth. Immediately, he angrily packed up those rapping little girls' films, and then ran to find Miss Wang. I could see her, but I didn't know what to say, so I just stared at her blankly: "You..."
Wang Chuqing raised her eyes, they were red, and she had just cried.
Xue Zhengyi hurriedly said: "Don't cry, don't stop the gossip of those people, you, you... I think you are pretty good, I... I... "
Wang Chuqing stood beside the willow tree and turned her eyes to the sparkling lake: "I didn't tell you the truth before, but I have someone I like."
"… Um."
"Then why don't you leave?"
Xue Zhengyi scratched his head: "But that person doesn't like you... He doesn't like you, I... I can always talk to you, but he can't control it."
"… "
Seeing her silence, Xue Zhengyi hesitated: "Can he manage it?"
Miss Wang lowered her head and said softly, "He won't care."
What is Jiang Xi to her? From the beginning to the end, it was just an order from the teacher, and it was her own wishful thinking.
Everyone in the party said that Jiang Xi was a scum, but Wang Chuqing felt that it would be too mean if a man was sentenced to be scum just because he was unwilling to accept other people's love.
Jiang Xi has never deceived anyone's feelings, and never gave anyone hope. They are like moths to a fire, knowing that he is ruthless, but chasing him wishful thinking.
At this point, she actually felt embarrassed and wanted to let go.
However, the difference between Yin and Yang is probably because the disciple in charge of the medicated meal was confused and made a mistake in preparing the medicine one day, or maybe it was some other reason—Miss Wang found out that she was pregnant.
She just felt flustered and helpless. She didn't know how the seniors and sisters would talk about her and laugh at her after the news spread, and she didn't know what Jiang Xi's attitude would be. She couldn't help but fidgeted anxiously, and finally decided to go to the head.
But when she came outside the head house, before knocking on the door, she heard a cold and indifferent voice, it was Jiang Xi who was speaking.
"Senior sister is undecided, her spiritual core is getting more and more tyrannical, and now she can't control her spiritual flow with a little magic. If it goes on like this, it may hurt her. I beg the sect master to take back the double cultivation order, I can't talk to her anymore. practice together."
"Oh, Xi'er, why don't you talk to her again, maybe you can..."
"No need to say any more. I've told her many times, but she's not suitable for this." Jiang Xi said, "Chuqing's mind is too easily shaken, it's useless."
The head asked: "... Then what are you going to do next?"
Jiang Xi said: "If there is no one who can purify the mind, then it will not be cultivated."
The Sect Master sighed: "...I see, you can go. Purifying and breaking the mind is the most difficult stage in the path of double cultivation, and I don't know if Gu Yueyue will have a person who can't care less than you in the past few decades. "
Jiang Xi didn't leave immediately. He stood there for a while and asked, "Is this difficult?"
"Extremely difficult." The sect master glanced at him, "You and Wang Chuqing have been together for so long, have you never wavered in the slightest?"
Jiang Xi asked, almost puzzled, "...why would I... be shaken?"
The head stared at Jiang Xi for a while. From the young man's eyes, he didn't see an inch of hypocrisy, which surprised him. He considered it for a moment and asked, "Jiang Xi, Wang Chuqing is in your eyes, is it true? what?"
"Elder Sister."
"What about the time for double cultivation?"
"...the object of double cultivation."
"Nothing else?"
"Nothing else."
"… "
Seeing the complicated look on the Sect Master's face, Jiang Xi frowned: "Is there something else?"
"No." After a long while, the old head of Huafa sighed, "After so many years, the disciple Shuangxiu has not been able to pass the love test. You are the first. ... But unfortunately, I don't know who can accomplish this great thing with you. already."
On that day, no matter whether Jiang Xi or the head of the family, none of them knew that their conversation had fallen into Miss Wang's ears. If it is said, the previous girl Wang still harbors a little fantasy and a little hope. Then this dialogue made her feel cold all over her body and lost her face.
So embarrassing. I really don't know how to gain a foothold in the sect, and I don't know how to show people's face. In the past, her spine was about to be punctured by the seniors and sisters. If it was known that she accidentally had a child with Junior Brother Jiang...
Just thinking about it, she felt shivering, and she dared not stay in the sect again. Xingye escaped from Linling Islet.
"...Didn't you run away with Xue Zhengyi?"
Madam Wang said, "No."
Jiang Xi closed her eyes suddenly, not knowing what to say.
He is indeed a thin lover who only has his own way. In his life, apart from Madam Wang, he had never been in contact with any female sex, and he also felt that he had no feelings for this senior sister back then. But later he heard that Mrs. Wang and Xue Zhengyi eloped off the island, he still frowned somewhat.
He felt that the relationship in the world is indeed not as long as flowers and plants, and that women in the world are really unreliable, even this senior sister who is full of affection for herself, not to say that when she leaves with others, she leaves with others.
Since then, he has become more and more disgusted with love affairs, even a little bit cold.
Twenty years later, until today, he finally heard the truth of this past incident from the mouth of the elder sister. It's just that the "Ms. Wang" at that time has become the "Mrs. Wang" of today, and the best years in their lives are over.
After a long time, Jiang Xicai said very bluntly: "Then you... why do you want to leave Gu Yue Ye?"
"I can't live under the same roof with you, Junior Brother." Twenty years later, Madam Wang could finally look at him so calmly, "Everyone has dignity, and I have no face to stand on my teacher's door. "
"… "
"I want to strangle Meng'er in my stomach, but I can't bear it." Mrs. Wang said lightly, "So I traveled a lot by myself. Later, I gave birth to your child and me in Baidi City. Zheng Yong When he found me and stayed by my side, Meng'er was already one year old. He always knew his identity."
As she spoke, she began to cough up blood again.
Back then, he went crazy and cultivated to the level of spiritual core tyranny. He has been suppressing it for years, never using spells. Now, the phoenix is on fire, the flames are soaring into the sky, and her life has come to an end.
Mrs. Wang slowly stopped coughing, her breathing was a little disordered, and she said, "Junior brother, the so-called Zheng Yong kidnapped me back to the top of my life and got married is what he said to the outside world. He has always been afraid of me being embarrassed... Menger is embarrassed."
Her eyes wandered for a long time and fell on Xue Zhengyi's corpse.
But it only took a moment to be stinged.
She thought of her wedding that year, and Xue Zhengyi said to her with a smile: "Okay, from now on, don't think about the past. In the lonely moon night, that bad guy made you ashamed. I won't."
"You are with me, and I will make you beautiful in this life."
"As long as I'm here, I won't let you suffer any more grievances."
Madam Wang turned her face away, she was trembling slightly.
A gentleman makes a promise, but a horse is hard to chase.
Xue Zhengyi did it. When he was there, she never had to show her face and never be embarrassed. The tears she shed, the humiliation she suffered, and the blood she shed were all after he left.
"For so many years, he doesn't care that I'm weak and can't be pregnant again. He doesn't care that Menger is not his own flesh and blood, he regards him as his own. Xue Meng... Xue Meng grew up so big, and he has not suffered anything... "
She closed her eyes, her face white to transparent.
"Now we can't protect him anymore."
Jiang Xi stood numbly.
"Junior Brother, you can count these 20 years as my revenge for you... If you want to resent it or hate it, if you want to hate it... Count it on me alone."
Madam Wang's voice became more and more faint.
"Please help him... Don't let others harm him... "
In the end, she murmured softly: "Ye Shen... I beg you..."
The phoenix fire covered the sky and the sun, Jiang Xi stood in this sea of fire, the heaven and the earth were the same blazing scarlet color. He looked at the woman on the high seat. She closed her eyes and lowered her eyes, as if asleep. He felt that she probably still had something to say, not to mention that she had just promised Xue Meng that the mother and son would see each other in the Shuangtian Temple - so he waited patiently.
He waited for her to stand up and told himself that it was all fake, a joke, a farce.
He waited calmly for a long time, until his face became more and more gloomy, his heartbeat became more and more dull, and his blood became more and more cold.
She never spoke again.
Mrs. Wang and Xue Zhengyi returned to silence together.
She used to be a high-level female cultivator of a famous family, gentle and virtuous. Later, people said that she was kidnapped by Xue Zhengyong and became a wife, and some people said that she was a relative after eloping with Xue Zhengyong. There are many different things, no one knows. the truth. Over the years, many people at the top of life and death felt that Mrs. Wang might not like her husband very much, just because she was timid, she did not dare to complain.
However, no matter what others say or think, the moment she learned that Xue Zhengyi died, she already had her intentions. She didn't know whether it was a sacrifice for love or something else. This woman's mind may not even understand herself so well in the end. In her whole life, is she grateful or loving to her husband? Has the love for Jiang Xi long since been wiped out? She can't really see through.
For many things in this world, there is no clear answer.
In the end, all she could vaguely think of was a poem she read by the window many years ago—
"But I will keep my eyes open all night, and repay my life for not showing my eyebrows."
At that time, she and Xue Zhengyi were newly married, and she also remembered the years spent in the lonely moon night when she was a girl. She looked out the window, the fog in Shu was always so thick, scattered and closed, as if no one swept away the white clouds all over the ground.
I don't know about heaven and earth.
When someone came over, she was in a trance, vaguely thinking it was Jiang Xi. But when a cold coat is draped over the shoulders. The dream woke up.
Because she knew that Jiang Xi would never know whether she was hot or cold.
Madam Wang turned her head around, the candles in the west window were on, and it was raining at night in Bashan.
The young and handsome husband is looking at him with a smile and scratching his head: "It's cold, be careful not to freeze."
The Danxin Hall is covered with a thick Du Ruo pattern carpet, which is Madam Wang's favorite floral pattern. Jiang Xi walked out of the room full of Du Ruohua, his expression was still indifferent, even more than usual.
"Squeak", pushing open the door.
He was about to leave here, but at the moment when he opened the door, he saw Xue Meng, whose face was white and motionless.