He never thought that one day he would regret his decision.
I hate myself for provoking her and teasing her. Even if she still chooses me, I should restrain myself and let her always be the girl who is calm and self-possessed, with a calm mind and a global perspective.
"Oh, I'm sorry..." Although he felt regretful, he also knew that even if time could go back to the beginning, he still knew the ending of today and he would not be able to help but get closer to her step by step and occupy her heart inch by inch.
Shen Xihe shook her head gently. She looked absentmindedly at the Pingzhong leaf bonsai that was beginning to revive in the distance: "Beichen, in your heart I shouldn't be a delicate, cowardly woman who can't bear the separation of life and death. In this life, there are many ways to live, each with its own splendor.
You don't need to feel regret or guilt. From the day I married you, I knew what the future would be like. I don't hope that you will be in trouble. But I never naively imagine that everything in the world can go according to my wishes.
I knew that there might be a day when we would be separated by death, but I still followed my heart and leaned towards you, without deliberately suppressing it or avoiding it. Because I am alive, I don't want to force myself. If I don't want to, you may not be able to move my heart even a little bit, no matter how hard you try.
So, you and I probably have a connection. If we have a connection, no matter how deep or shallow it is, we can't escape it. So why bother yourself with troubles? Regret for the irreversible past, worry about the unpredictable future
Whether you have several decades left to live, or only eight months, or your death is tomorrow, or the next moment, what does it matter? Can't we just be happy for a moment together
I am nothing but joy that you have come into my life, which I never planned.
All the joy, anger, sorrow and happiness are because of you, which is enough to reminisce for the rest of my life."
Shen Xihe is a person who sees through the world. She never thinks that possession should only bring wealth and joy. Whether it is a person, an object, or a road. Since you have chosen to accept and start, you should greet joy with a smile and accept sorrow calmly.
When flowers are in full bloom, we smile and are excited; when thorns are everywhere, we remain calm and face the challenges head-on.
This is Shen Xihe's way of dealing with people.
Xiao Huayong, who was originally depressed and filled with sorrow, suddenly felt that his state of mind was too narrow in front of Shen Xihe after hearing what Shen Xihe said. The lingering sorrow was blown away by her open-minded and calm attitude, and his mind became clear in an instant.
It was she who had to bear the pain of losing her spouse, but she was asked to comfort him instead. Xiao Huayong put his arms around Shen Xihe, threw away those messy emotions that did not help, became calm and gentle, and gently embraced her: "Shall we obey God's will?"
"God's will?" Shen Xihe was puzzled.
"One month. It is not easy for me to make you pregnant. This month we will not be cautious anymore and see if God will allow us to have a child. If not, two months later we will announce to the public that you are three months pregnant." Xiao Huayong took a step back.
Postponing her departure for a month or two would not actually have much of an impact on him. He still hoped to be able to accompany her for the last time when she was in the most difficult time and needed him the most.
Shen Xihe was silent for a long time, so long that Xiao Huayong's heart began to feel uneasy, and she responded softly: "Okay."
She wanted to be willful for once, but not crazy. After all, she was burdened with more than just Xiao Huayong's love for her.