Xie Ruan was eager to determine whether Bo Jin had depression, but he couldn't think of a good solution for a while.
If I ask directly, I definitely won’t say anything. If I don’t say anything, people will think I’m crazy. What if Bo Jin is deliberately hiding something and refuses to admit it
It was not safe to ask indirectly. Given Bo Jin's intelligence, he didn't think he could get any information out of him.
Xie Ruan put the phone on the table and looked up at Bo Jin. She had never hoped so strongly that he could exchange ideas with He Mingjie.
If this bastard wasn't so smart, he wouldn't have been bothered by it for so long.
He was so lost in thought that he stared at Bo Jin for a long time.
The person is a table. Even if Bo Jin was slow-witted, he would have noticed it, not to mention that he was paying special attention to Xie Ruan.
He turned around and was about to make a joke when he accidentally glanced at the content on Xie Ruan's screen and paused.
Xie Ruan racked his brains but couldn't come up with a foolproof solution, which made him anxious and irritable. He unconsciously searched for depression on the search engine, and now the relevant content was displayed on the screen.
The row of psychologists and counseling hotlines above made Bo Jin's eyes hurt.
Why did Xie Ruan search for depression? Was it out of pure curiosity or was there something wrong with him
For the first time in his life, Bo Jin was grateful for his ability to remember.
He carefully recalled Xie Ruan's state during this period and found that there was nothing wrong except for the few days of the month-long vacation. He couldn't say for sure. After all, he was not a psychologist, and he couldn't make a correct assessment based on his superficial understanding.
Many thoughts raced through Bo Jin's mind, but he didn't show them on his face.
He looked around to make sure that the students nearby were not there and no one could hear their conversation. He reached out and pressed Xie Ruan's phone: "Why are you searching for depression?"
As he said this, he kept staring at Xie Ruan's face, afraid of missing a single move of his.
"Ah?" Xie Ruan was stunned for a moment, and couldn't react for a while. How did Bo Jin know that he had searched for depression privately? Looking down along his arm, he found that his phone screen was on.
In order to copy down some nice words and sentences last night, he turned the phone to constant light mode and forgot to turn it back.
Xie Ruan's heart moved. This was exactly the opportunity he had been waiting for!
Xie Ruan asked tentatively: "What do you think about depression?"
"What can I think?" Bo Jin thought Xie Ruan was afraid that he would look at him with a tainted light, so he suppressed his anxiety and said as calmly as possible, "Isn't it just a common disease? It's no big deal. Take medicine and see a doctor in time, and you will be well soon."
At this point, he remembered that the most important thing now was to find a good doctor. Otherwise, if he met an unreliable one, the money would be a small matter, but he would be afraid of delaying the treatment.
Bo Jin immediately decided not to attend the next class. He had to go back to the dormitory to check on the computer.
Only with computers can he know any information he wants to know.
Bo Jin exhaled lightly and turned off his phone: "Don't use Baidu. Don't you know the Baidu cancer start point? It's not a big deal. Leave it to me. I'll find out later and find a good hospital for you. We can treat the disease."
Worried that Xie Ruan might feel stressed, she put her arm around his shoulders and smiled, "Intimate table, fully satisfying any of your needs."
Xie Ruan couldn't care about anything else now. The only thing left in his mind was "I'll learn more about it later." His eyes lit up and he couldn't wait to ask, "You don't understand depression?"
Bo Jin was stunned.
He said this as if he should understand it.
Is it so that the image of me in Xie Ruan's heart is so omnipotent
Bo Jin felt relieved by this subconscious question. He coughed and pretended to be cool without making any expression: "I don't really understand it now, but I will understand it soon."
No one is unaware of the disease they have.
Hearing this, Xie Ruan finally felt relieved.
It's good that it's not depression. This disease is too dangerous, and I can't be with Bo Jin anytime and anywhere. If it breaks out, it will be too late to do anything.
Now it's all right. We no longer have to worry about Bo Jinhui losing control.
When he relaxed, he realized something seemed to be wrong.
Wait, what do you mean find a hospital for you? Did Bo Jin think he was suffering from depression
Xie Ruan: “…”
This is what it means to be suspicious of others. Do people always doubt others
He quickly explained: "I'm not depressed, don't make blind guesses."
Bo Jin narrowed his eyes: "Really?" His inquiring gaze fell on Xie Ruan's face, "Then why are you searching for depression for no reason?"
And when I said I would take him for treatment just now, he didn't deny it immediately.
Xie Ruan had read a lot of depression-related content recently, so it was okay to just make up a few words. He leaned back against the wall and said casually, "Hey, I'm a fan of him. His agent posted on Weibo that he has been depressed recently, so I wanted to know more."
He was talking about a young and popular actor this year who has many fans and haters, and the two sides are fighting fiercely, with the actor often making the headlines.
fan
What kind of fans? Wife fans
Bo Jin Hehe, is it because he is not tall enough or this face cannot be hit? Before he knew it, he let a wild man dance to his doorstep.
He even cares about whether other people are depressed or not. What a heartless guy! Why doesn't he care about himself so much
Bo Jin felt jealous, took out his phone to search for information about this young hunk, and sneered.
That's it? He's not as tall as me, and his nose isn't as straight as mine, so what's there to like? The only thing he's better than me is that he just got a master's degree this year.
Bo Jin smiled, and suddenly wanted to check his paper for plagiarism...
Xie Ruan had no idea what was going on in Bo Jin's mind. He was only happy for a moment before he fell into confusion again.
If it wasn't depression, why would he commit suicide
Xie Ruan looked at Bo Jin and saw that he was playing on the computer and not paying attention to him, so he opened his usual notebook and started writing and analyzing at the same time.
Could it be that something major has happened in life
impossible.
It was written in the book that no matter what exam he took, Bo Jin never fell behind in first place. As for his family, that was ridiculous, as Bo Jin was the only one in the family.
Could that have something to do with his past
Xie Ruan has always been puzzled by the fact that Bo Jin was not adopted. Such a smart child should have been very popular.
Sunshine Orphanage and Boss Wang’s Tea Restaurant.
Xie Ruan bit the tip of his pen, circled the entry, and decided to start from this place. Sunshine Orphanage was not far from their school, but he didn't know if he could go in at will, so he decided to start from Boss Wang.
When I went to dinner that day, I saw that Bo Jin was very friendly towards Boss Wang, and Sun Haoxiang also said that they had known each other for many years.
Finally sorting out the clues, Xie Ruan put down the pen and realized that he had filled a whole page without realizing it. It was about depression and preventing suicide, which looked quite scary.
Xie Ruan clicked his tongue, didn't care, closed the notebook and put it on the corner of the table.
Sega High School will have half a day off on Sunday afternoons.
That day, Xie Ruan rejected Song Xinghe's proposal to go to the city center for a meal. He walked out of the school gate and headed straight for the tea restaurant.
He didn't know that Bo Jin was following him.
Bo Jin was very sensitive when he first suffered from depression. He was afraid that Xie Ruan would not tell him the truth, so he paid special attention to him that day. Therefore, he knew it the moment he rejected Song Xinghe.
This is very unusual. Xie Ruan has no other close friends except Song Xinghe. Except for the one-month holiday, they basically move around together.
Xie Ruan suddenly left Song Xinghe. What was he trying to do
Bo Jinlai couldn't put his mind at ease no matter how he thought about it, worried that he would do something stupid, so he decided to go with him to have a look. It doesn't matter if he is perverted, as long as he is sure that Xie Ruan is not sick, he will stop this behavior immediately.
Even though he had prepared himself mentally for a long time, Xie Ruan's legs still went weak when he looked at the tall overpass in front of him.
Ever since he discovered that he was afraid of heights, he had been very careful and would never stand on high places unless necessary.
Come to think of it, the last time he crossed the overpass, he was brought by Bo Jin.
Bo Jin, Bo Jin.
Thinking of how good this person had been to him, Xie Ruan did not delay any longer and stepped onto the stairs with determination.
Not far behind, Bo Jin watched him walk onto the overpass, watched him move forward, and watched him stop to take a deep breath. Several times he couldn't help but want to go forward and pull him down, but he restrained himself again and again.
He had to find out Xie Ruan's destination. There were some things that he could stop once, but not the third time. Only by digging out the root cause could he find a solution.
This is the truth, but looking at Xie Ruan's back as he walked forward with difficulty, Bo Jin still vented his anger unreasonably. What's the point of building an overpass in the suburbs? Is it because the flat road can't accommodate them or what
All papers should be checked for plagiarism.
It was ten minutes later when Xie Ruan finally crossed the overpass. He sat on a bench at the bus stop for a while, and when he was ready, he stood up and walked towards the tea restaurant.
Even though Bo Jin had a rich imagination, he never expected that he would come here.
Going to eat? He knew Xie Ruan liked the soy sauce chicken and barbecued pork here.
But it was not lunch time, and Xie Ruan had already eaten lunch. If he wanted to buy a heart, he could go with Song Xinghe, and there was no need to go alone.
That…
Most of the neighbors here knew him. Bo Jin was afraid of being recognized, so he didn't dare to get too close and just stopped opposite.
He took a cigarette, but because it was a public place he didn't light it, he just held it in his mouth.
Bo Jin, who was always full of confidence, was a little uncertain for the first time. So what was Xie Ruan doing here
The only connection between him and this store is himself...
Thinking of that possibility, Bo Jin closed his eyes and his heart beat faster involuntarily.
Boss Wang only worked until the afternoon, and was about to go home. When he heard someone coming in, he turned around without a look of emotion and was about to chase the customer away, but he was stunned when he saw Xie Ruan's face.
"Are you Xiaobo's student?"
Bo Jin rarely brought students to his place unless they were very close. In addition, Xie Ruan was so good-looking that it was hard to forget him. Even a serious boss like Wang remembered him immediately.
The old man didn't have many adjectives to describe the child, he just felt that the child was very handsome. At first glance, he looked like a star, and he was worthy of being Xiaobo's friend.
"Yes," Xie Ruan gave Boss Wang a thumbs up and flattered him, "You still remember me after all this time, that's awesome."
Boss Wang has never had a child, so he has no resistance to good-looking and sweet-talking juniors. He was praised by Xie Ruan and his serious face was gone. He smiled for the first time and said, "What's the big deal?"
After a pause, he added, "Lord, you are good-looking."
Boss Wang likes children, and Xie Ruan is trying to be nice, so for a moment, the atmosphere is very harmonious, and it feels like they met too late.
After chatting for a while, Boss Wang suddenly remembered the purpose of Xie Ruan's coming here. He stopped talking with a sense of unfulfilled desire and asked, "Are you here to eat now?"
Xie Ruan couldn't say no, I came to ask you about Bo Jin, then Boss Wang would be alert immediately. He said, "Well, I've been thinking about your cooking skills since we ate last time, so I came here as soon as I got off work."
He had been with Bo Jin for a long time, and his face had become thicker, so he had no pressure in telling this little lie.
A chef likes to be praised for his cooking skills.
Boss Wang was happy, and felt closer to Xie Ruan. But soon, he said with regret: "You are late, and everything in the store is sold out."
After thinking for a while, he said, "Let me make you some egg fried rice."
Xie Ruan had already eaten lunch, so it didn't matter whether he ate or not. He had to find a reason to stay in the store, so he nodded: "Thank you."
"What's the big deal?" Boss Wang replied nonchalantly, took down the apron hanging on the wall, and said as he tied it on, "Don't underestimate egg fried rice. Bo Jin was attracted to my house by the smell."
Xie Ruan was stunned. The last time he came here, he asked Bo Jin how he found this restaurant. Bo Jin said he smelled the food. Xie Ruan thought he was talking nonsense, but he didn't expect it to be true.
Boss Wang opened the refrigerator and took out the leftover rice from yesterday. He originally wanted to give half of it away, but then he thought that boys of this age have big appetites, and he was afraid that Xie Ruan would not have enough to eat, so he simply fried it all.
Fried rice with egg is simple and takes only a few minutes to make. Xie Ruan sat and played on the computer for a while, and then Boss Wang came over with a large bowl: "Come on, come on, try it and see if it tastes good."
Xie Ruan: “!!!”
Is Boss Wang feeding pigs with this bowl
Xie Ruan rubbed his face and said honestly: "It's too much, I can't finish it."
The elders all thought that the stomachs of the younger generation were bottomless pits that could hold anything. When they heard this, they glared at him and said, "Why can't you finish it? Eat! You look so thin, it's because you don't eat enough."
Xie Ruan tried to struggle: "I really can't finish it..."
Boss Wang was unmoved: "You eat first. I tell you, everyone who has eaten my egg fried rice will lick the plate."
Xie Ruan lowered his head with difficulty, unable to resist his kindness, and scooped a spoonful of food into his mouth.
After taking a bite, my eyes suddenly lit up.
I don’t know what Boss Wang put in the fried rice, but it’s fragrant and not greasy, and it’s so delicious.
Seeing Xie Ruan's watch, Boss Wang knew how he felt and smiled smugly: "Well, I didn't lie to you. Xiao Bo is obsessed with this, so he pesters me to be his apprentice every day, hahahaha."
Xie Ruan wanted him to talk more, and didn't care about eating. He asked quickly: "Be your apprentice? How old was he at that time?"
Boss Wang said, "Five years old."
He compared his height and said with a smile, "He is only this tall, but he is still staying here and won't leave. He insisted that no one else can inherit my art except him. He asked me to think carefully before making a decision, so as not to miss out on this good seedling."
This narcissistic and arrogant look is exactly the same as it is now.
Xie Ruan couldn't help but laugh: "What happened next?"
"What happened next?" Boss Wang took a sip of water. "I definitely couldn't take him in. What does such a kid know? Who knew he would come here every day? He was so small, he didn't go anywhere, he just sat there..."
Boss Wang pointed to a spot and said, "He was sitting there staring at me like a supervisor. You know what, this kid has been quite imposing since he was young. Sometimes I get nervous just because of him."
Xie Ruan swallowed the egg fried rice in his mouth, used a spoon to move the rice grains on the edge of the bowl, and pretended to be casual: "Can he come here often? Doesn't the hospital care?"
Boss Wang was stunned: "You know?"
Xie Ruan said "hmm", and somehow, he suddenly felt happy. The corners of his lips curled up, but then he immediately lowered them: "He told me."
Boss Wang sighed, "The orphanage is right behind us. At that time, the management was not strict, so it was common for the children inside to come and play. Now it's not possible. It's hard to get in even once."
Is it difficult to get in? Xie Ruan silently wrote this down.
"He..." Xie Ruan hesitated for a moment, but still asked, "Has he always lived in an orphanage?"
This matter is not a secret, and all the neighbors know about it. Xie Ruan was brought here by Bo Jin himself, so Boss Wang did not hide it from him and nodded, "Yes."
Mentioning this Boss Wang makes me angry. I wish I could go back ten years and beat up Little Bo Jin: "My family and I wanted to adopt him, but he refused. He is so young, I don't know where he got such a big idea from."
Boss Wang has been brooding over this matter. It was not because of Bo Jin's stubborn temper that they were already a family. He could not help but say a few more words: "At first I thought he was too generous and looked down on our family for being poor. Later, several waves of people came with good conditions, but he still refused."
Xie Ruan was stunned. She had never expected that this was the reason why Bo Jin had not been adopted. "Why?"
"I don't know," Boss Wang was also confused. "Anyway, he just wouldn't agree no matter how hard we tried to persuade him. When we asked him why, he said he wanted to stay in the orphanage."
Xie Ruan was eating while asking for more.
It is definitely not normal to not want to be adopted.
Now Bo Jin may feel that being alone is good and does not want to be bound by constraints. But how could Bo Jin not yearn for a family when he was a child
Is there any special reason
Thank you Ruan Ruo for your help.
"Hey, Xiao Xie, Xiao Xie!" Boss Wang called him once, and seeing that he didn't respond, he pushed him and said, "What are you thinking about? Eat quickly. The food gets cold quickly in cold weather."
Xie Ruan came back to his senses and quickly said, "Hey!"
After eating a big bowl of egg fried rice, Xie Ruan was so full that he could hardly walk. He almost stood up. He leaned against the wall to slow down and asked Boss Wang, "I'm done. How much is it?"
"What money?" Boss Wang, who never valued these material possessions, glared at the words, "Can't I afford a bowl of fried rice with a broken egg?"
"No..." Xie Ruan was most afraid of this situation, and really didn't know how to deal with it. He wanted to secretly take out his phone to scan the QR code, but was discovered by Boss Wang.
The old man pushed him out the door and said, "Alright, leave as soon as you're done eating. I'm closing the door."
Xie Ruan had no choice but to argue with the old man. He glanced at a fruit shop nearby, bought a box of strawberries, threw it into Boss Wang's shop, and ran away holding his stomach amid his laughter and scolding.
"That's true." Boss Wang looked at the box of strawberries, feeling both angry and amused. "In the end, I'm the one who got the better deal."
There's no way. The person has passed away and he can't catch up with him with his old arms and legs. Next time, let Xiaobo take the things over.
Speaking of Cao Cao, Cao Cao is here.
Boss Wang picked up the box of strawberries, felt for the key, and was about to close the store and go home, when he looked up and saw Bo Jin pushing the door and walking in.
"Hey, why are you here?" He looked outside and asked Bo Jin, "You just left school. Did you run into him? He's the handsome guy named Xie Ruan."
"No," Bo Jinshen said naturally, pretending to be very serious, "He came?"
In fact, he stood outside for as long as Xie Ruan stayed in the store.
I kept thinking about the purpose of his coming here. The more I thought about it, the more I felt that I was right.
Xie Ruan should have done it for him.
Bo Jin had never felt that time passed so slowly, not even when he had been sleepless all night. As soon as Xie Ruan left, he couldn't wait to come over to confirm.
Bo Jin calmed down and asked Boss Wang, "What is he doing here?"
Boss Wang was speechless, thinking that he had become stupid from studying so much, and asked back: "What do you think? What can you do here? Eat."
"No," Bo Jin laughed and changed his words, "What I meant was, what did he talk to you about?"
"Nothing." Boss Wang had a good impression of Xie Ruan and said with a smile, "I just asked about your childhood." After that, he looked at Bo Jin with ill intentions, "I told him that you insisted on being my apprentice back then, and he laughed so hard hahahahaha."
Bo Jin regarded this as a dark history, and when he was a little older, he forbade anyone to mention it again. Whenever Boss Wang wanted to piss him off, he would resort to this trick.
But this time Bo Jin didn't care.
Asked him about his childhood.
Bo Jin closed his eyes, his heart filled with emotions.
During the precious holiday, Xie Ruan did not go out to dine with friends, watch movies or play games, nor did he go to play basketball. He endured his fear of heights and moved step by step across the overpass to this remote alley, just to get to know him better...
Bo Jin took a deep breath and suddenly turned and left.
Give him some fucking time to see his heart clearly. He chases him, chase him now.
If he lacks a sense of security, give him a sense of security. If he doesn't want to take the initiative, then let him do it.
Xie Ruan didn't have to do anything, just stand there and wait for him.