The bell for evening self-study hasn't rung yet, and the classroom is already noisy and bustling.
Tomorrow is the final exam, and after the exam, it will be the winter vacation that everyone has been looking forward to for a long time. Even those who have the most self-control on weekdays will be distracted at this moment and have no time to study. They put down their pens and gathered in groups of three or four to talk.
If it were in the past, the student union members would have brought the discipline book to deduct points.
But now the corridor is empty, there is no one in sight, and the whole teaching building is in the carnival of the long vacation.
None of this has anything to do with Bo Jin.
He stood there, looking down at the notebook in his hand.
The handwriting was sloppy and there was no logic between them. It seemed that he wrote whatever he thought of. People who didn't know the situation would not pay attention to it at a glance. However, the two circled entries, Sunshine Orphanage and Boss Wang's Tea Restaurant, made Bo Jin clearly realize that they were referring to him.
Bo Jin stared at the words "stop suicide" and his temples began to throb.
He knew that when they first met, Xie Ruan misunderstood that he wanted to jump off the stage, and often used this as a joke to tease him. But... Bo Jin closed his eyes, and suddenly an absurd guess came to his mind. Did Xie Ruan always think that he wanted to "commit suicide"
Otherwise, how is this about preventing suicide and depression
Bo Jin recalled that when Xie Ruan talked about depression, he sounded as if he knew a lot about this disease. At the time, he just thought Xie Ruan admired him and thought he knew everything.
However, looking at the big cross on the notebook, Bo Jin suddenly became uncertain.
Why did Xie Ruan search for depression? Was he, as he said, a fan of a star with depression, or did he think he had depression
Once the seeds of doubt are planted, they will quickly take root and sprout, grow endlessly and spread to every corner.
Bo Jin's jaw muscles tensed, and his hand holding the notebook unconsciously exerted force, almost tearing the paper.
Then why did he secretly protect him, join his fan group, and go to Uncle Wang's store to inquire about him
What is it for
Is it really because you like him
Bo Jin instinctively thought that he should not continue to explore, as the answer might be unacceptable to him. But even though he closed the book, the contents still appeared clearly in his eyes.
I can't forget it and I can't forget it.
Bo Jin took a deep breath to calm himself down. He knew that his face must be very ugly, so he did not go directly to Sun Haoxiang, but took out his mobile phone to send him a message.
Bo: You know the owner of my fan group, right
Bo: Ask her to send me a portion of the speech made by the person who was tagged in the group at 6:30 or 6:40 pm on November 9.
Bo Jin never read the school forum, so he knew about this group until Sun Haoxiang told him. At that time, Sun Haoxiang came to complain to him, saying that it was not easy for a girl to add him on her own initiative, and that she came for him.
Sun Haoxiang was discussing holiday arrangements with He Mingjie and was stunned when he received the message.
He looked up at Bo Jin, not understanding why he suddenly did this.
Sun Haoxiang, who repeatedly rejected the school beauty: Who is that person? Why do you keep a record of his chats
Sun Haoxiang, who rejected the school beauty many times: It’s not that you don’t care.
Sun Haoxiang, who rejected the school beauty many times: What’s wrong with me? Is he starting to feel like an idol
Bo Jin had no intention of arguing with him, so he suppressed his anxiety and replied:
Bo: Stop talking nonsense.
Sun Haoxiang probably also realized that he was in a bad mood, so he stopped being naughty, replied with an emoticon saying "OK", and turned around to look for someone.
Bo Jin sat for a while, then stood up and opened the window.
The cold evening breeze brought cold air and the night was dark and heavy. There was not a single star in the sky, and only the dim lights of the shops near the woods could be seen.
No, Bo Jin thought calmly.
Xie Ruan likes him.
Xie Ruan would blush at him and would not resist the ambiguous actions between them. Even if he sometimes made some slightly excessive jokes, he would at most kick him with red ears, but he never got angry.
He would not be like this to others, such as Sun Haoxiang, He Mingjie and Pan Yu.
Thinking of this, Bo Jin felt a little better.
It should just be a misunderstanding, he was just being suspicious.
"Why did you open the window? Close it, it's so cold." A familiar voice came to his ears. Bo Jin turned around and saw Xie Ruanzha walking towards him with two freshly washed hands, wrinkling his nose in dissatisfaction.
He is so good-looking that he looks good even with this expression.
Bo Jin didn't move, just looked at him quietly.
Xie Ruan felt a little uncomfortable being stared at by him, and always felt that Bo Jin's eyes were strange: "What's wrong?"
"It's okay." Bo Jin closed the window as he was told and moved sideways to make room for him.
"You..." Xie Ruan wanted to say something, but Bo Jin interrupted him.
Bo Jin asked him: "Are you going to see that person's concert during the winter vacation?"
That person is the male star that Xie Ruan said she likes.
"Ah?" Xie Ruan was confused and asked subconsciously, "Who? What concert?"
Bo Jinli's heart sank, and he calmed down: "Don't you like him? Don't you know that he will hold a concert in our city next month?"
Once he told a lie, he had to cover it up with countless lies. At that time, Xie Ruan just randomly found a star who fit the situation. He didn't pay attention to his information and schedule at all, so how could he know whether there would be a concert or not.
But he couldn't say that. He laughed dryly and said stubbornly, "Of course I know. I just didn't react for a moment."
As if a heavy hammer had struck him from the air, there was suddenly a hollow space in Bo Jin's chest. A cold wind rushed in, freezing him to the spot.
Bullshit concert, that person has never had a concert in their city.
It turns out that Xie Ruan read the depression content not because of star chasing, but for him. After confirming that he was not ill, he would cross out the entry in the notebook and continue to explore the cause.
This is the truth of his visit to the tea restaurant on Sunday afternoon.
There was no romance, nor was there any love involved. He just happened to meet a student who was upset, and out of kindness, he couldn't just leave her alone.
The phone vibrated and Bo Jin lowered his eyes. It was a message from Sun Haoxiang.
Bo Jin unlocks the screen.
Sun Haoxiang, who rejected the school beauty many times: Damn, no wonder you shared his chat records with me, that guy is really weird, hahaha.
Sun Haoxiang, who rejected the school beauty many times: I joined so many groups but never said a word, and just kept sending emoticons.
Sun Haoxiang, who repeatedly rejected the school beauty: Awesome, awesome, Brother Bo, do you know him? Can you give me his business card? To be honest, I miss his emoticons.
Rejected school beauty Sun Haoxiang many times: [picture][picture][picture]
Bo Jin ignored Sun Haoxiang and clicked on the pictures.
Each of the silly emoticons was vivid, as if mocking his self-conceit.
Bo Jin typed out a few words with difficulty—
Bo: Is he still in the group
I rejected the school beauty Sun Haoxiang many times: He is no longer here. I withdrew as soon as I got his information. Hey, the girl just told me that she can’t receive new emoticons when he is not here.
Everything became clear, and Bo Jin put down his phone.
Xie Ruan joined his fan group because, just as he said, he wanted to see information about him. He was so stingy that he didn't even bother to post punctuation marks.
If you like it, this wouldn't happen.
No wonder Xie Ruan's attitude towards him softened a lot. He thought it was his provocation that worked and made him finally decide to take a step forward.
It turned out that it wasn't the case. Xie Ruan just suddenly found out that he was born in an orphanage and felt pity for him.
A suffocating feeling rose from his chest, and Bo Jin suddenly couldn't stay there even for a second. He held his cell phone, strode out of the classroom and onto the stage.
He didn't stop even when Xie Ruan called him from behind.
Bo Jin sat on the ground and lit a cigarette.
His Adam's apple rolled, his eyes drooped, his whole body was hidden in the shadows, and it was impossible to tell his emotions.
The cell phone rang several times, but he acted as if he didn't hear it. He smoked half a cigarette in one breath, and his turbulent emotions calmed down a little. He picked up the phone and took a look.
It’s Xie Ruan calling.
Bo Jin tightened his grip, and a glimmer of hope emerged little by little, uncontrollably.
Xie Ruan's blushing towards him was not fake, and her intimacy with him was not fake either.
With Xie Ruan's personality, he would rather break the rules and run out of the door if he didn't want to, than lie on the ground and let him do push-ups on him.
Bo Jin's jumping speed increased, and he felt a little dizzy.
Although Xie Ruan might have approached him due to misunderstanding at first, what if he fell in love with him later
Bo Jin took a deep breath and slowly pressed the answer button.
As soon as the phone was answered, Xie Ruan's anxious voice came from the other end: "Where are you going at this late hour?"
He was worried about him, and this realization made Bo Jin feel much better.
Bo Jin held the cigarette in one hand and said in silence for a moment, "Let's go to the Internet cafe to play games."
Playing games? That's fine.
Xie Ruan breathed a sigh of relief and immediately took back the steps he had taken. When he went out just now, his face was so ugly that he thought he went to Taiwan.
Just as I was thinking about it, I heard Bo Jin add, "With Feng Qiao."
Bo Jin spoke very slowly, uttering each word slowly, as if he was deliberately trying to make him hear clearly.
Who is Feng Qiao? A friend of Bo Jin? Why doesn't he have any impression of him
It wasn't that Xie Ruan had a bad memory. When Feng Qiao came to chat with Bo Jin on WeChat, he was in a daze, his mind was on the multiple-choice question he had corrected incorrectly. He didn't even hear Feng Qiao introduce himself.
Anyway, it’s fine as long as they’re not going to Taiwan, Xie Ruan didn’t think much about it and didn’t care: “Oh, then you guys have fun.”
It was like a bucket of cold water poured over his head, instantly extinguishing Bo Jinli's faint hope. If Xie Ruan really had feelings for him, how could she not be jealous when she heard that he was hanging out alone with someone who liked him
But he was like a dying man who had finally found a life-saving straw. Even though he knew that this little help was not enough to keep him alive, he still held on to it tightly and refused to let go.
"Xie Ruan," Bo Jin took a puff of cigarette, his tone was muted, "Don't you want to say something?"
What? Xie Ruan didn't understand. Then he thought that tomorrow was the final exam. Could it be that Bo Jin wanted to hear his flattery? Tsk, men are vain, even Bo is not immune to it.
He cleared his throat and said, "Awesome, being powerful means being confident."
The last glimmer of hope was extinguished. Bo Jin suddenly laughed and hung up the phone.
So that's all cleared up.
Xie Ruan didn't like him and never had.
He is just a very kind person. He can't bear to see students go astray, so he wants to lend a helping hand within his ability.
He blushed because he was thin-skinned, and tolerating his actions was out of tolerance for a dying man.
He was just imagining too much and mistook compassion for love, which made things out of control.
The night wind was chilly, there was no light on the stage, and it was dark. Bo Jin leaned against the wall with his head raised, a scarlet flame ignited between his fingers, and his eyes also turned slightly red.